A Berserker Mob, I’m Going to Participate in the Main Story - CH 31

25 MAR 2022NOOBCHAN TRANSLATION BERSERKER MOB

“Master Al. My apologies. I have tried to harm you.”

Vera kneels and apologizes. She inwardly gives up on the idea that there is nothing she can do to make up for her apology.

I never thought I would make such a blunder,… but I also feel a sense of frustration and desperation that I’ve felt refreshed somewhere along the way.

(Mister Vera. Nothing happened between me and you. We did not go to the rubble of the abandoned church. Isn’t that fine? You’re not even a real squire. …… (I’m afraid of your backers in the first place. The shadow of Monster Claire and the power royal family…)…)

Al being Al, is a bummer. Same thing with Cyrus. Because his own unintentional words and actions have provoked her to do something. He was the one who did it.

“…… Al-sama. That’s not the way it works. I will resign from my position as the shadow of the royal family after this incident. …… No, that’s an excuse. I am …… tired of it all. ……”

Vera faced herself while she was unconscious. With Vera crying, still in her infantile form.

Normally she kept a lid on it, but that lid broke. No, it was on the verge of breaking in the first place.

This case was a big trigger, but Vera recalls that something similar had happened earlier in the evening. She just didn’t realize it herself.

“Well, it’s your life, Vera. I can’t speak for you if that’s what you decide. …… But is it that easy to quit being the shadow of a royal family?”

“I don’t know. Maybe I will be erased as it is. but it doesn’t matter anymore. I have nothing. I realized that I had nothing. I had no reason to live in a particular way. I have desperately clung to life, but there was no point!”

Vera smiles self-mockingly. It was the first time Al had ever seen her smile, and it was an unpleasant one at that.

“Phew. I wonder. I’m sure it wasn’t an easy decision for Vera, but giving up on life …… kind of pisses me off. I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve been talking to Cyrus for a while now.”

“… Cyrus. He’s the leader of those children, isn’t he? Heh. I envy them ……　You said that earlier, didn’t you, Master Al? You can run away. It’s a fight to stay alive, so it’s only natural to run away to survive…”

Cyrus is now headed back to the back street to gather the other kids in the group. Now it is just Al and Vera. A quiet confrontation.

Vera could hear him and Al talking. She could hear them. It wasn’t long after she had been put to bed that she was awakened. She was too stunned to move, though.

She wouldn’t have heard it if she hadn’t been awakened, and she would not have been so tormented by helplessness.

In retrospect, I had escaped, but I had not lived. I just drifted along and responded to my surroundings. Worse than the insects in the Great Forest. I realized that I had lamented my own powerlessness, hated those around me, and used that as an excuse to do nothing. No, I didn’t even want to do anything.

“eh? Is that the story we just talked about?”

“…… Yes. I heard you. I am an orphan like Cyrus, I spent some time in the back streets, though not in a royal city. but …… Master Al did not appear before me. It was the shadow of the royal family that took my hand. I thought I had escaped the cold reality, but what awaited me was a bitter and painful spacious prison. There is no future there. Ha ha. I want to escape already. From this prison of reality”