A Book Dedicated to Our Youth - Chapter 58

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I can’t bear it: “Shen Yuanzhe is my friend, you are my boyfriend, one is friendship, the other is love, there is no conflict between the two. If I let you choose me and Zhen Gongzi, would you be happy?”

“You can be friends with anyone, just don’t **** Shen Yuanzhe. He knows you have a boyfriend and tells you to go out to the movies. What kind of thoughts does he play? Don’t think I don’t know! Playing with Yinzi It ’s too early! If you still care about me, change your seat immediately, do n’t sit down with Shen Yuanzhe, go home with him, or talk to him! ”

I could n’t say anything. Zhang Jun said, “I wo n’t contact you this weekend. We all think about it. If you continue to sit at the same table with Shen Yuanzhe on Monday, I understand.” He finished, bang Hung up the phone.

On Monday, I continued to be with Shen Yuanzhe.

The chemistry quiz is coming soon. This exam is very important for Shen Yuanzhe. I must let him regain his confidence in himself. Without confidence, he may be eliminated completely in the third year of everyone’s hard work.

Zhang Jun no longer ignored me, even though he passed by in the corridor, he didn’t look at me.

Several times, I wanted to go to him and explain to him that he really misunderstood Shen Yuanzhe, but I always saw him and Guan He together, plus a ghostly Huang Wei, I was so tired. I don’t want to say anything, since I have a happy life with him or not, I don’t have to cling to him.

On Thursday, the chemistry test paper was sent out. Shen Yuanzhe did a very good test. He thanked me. I said, “Friends, do n’t be so polite. If you have any questions about your homework, you can always ask me.”

On Friday, I moved back to my original position and continued to combine our triangular relationship with Lin Shang and Yang Jun. To return to me, Yang Jun took my stool during class and let me fall to the ground again, expressing a warm welcome. Lin still gave me the slightest politeness to explain why I learned better in chemistry.

I am very glad that I have opponents like them, and I am proud that I have friends like them. Because of them, the original brutal competition becomes interesting and warm.

In the afternoon, after class was over, I was walking alone with my schoolbag alone.

Usually at this time, Zhang Jun ca n’t wait to plan what to do at night, and I ’m used to spending time with him. I used to miss him so much, but now that I have a lot of time, I suddenly realize that I don’t want to stay at all.

I didn’t want to go home, walked to the river and sat down, watching the river silently in a daze.

I don’t know what Zhang Jun is doing now, no matter what he does, he will never be lonely.

Suddenly, a stone hit me, and water splashed on my face.

I wiped my face while looking sideways. Zhang Jun smiled and stood at Qiaotou: “What are you going to do at night? I’ve already bought a movie ticket, let’s go to the movie!”

I stared at him, how could he be so casual as if nothing had happened? I have been suffering internally and externally this week. Has he forgiven one or two?

I turned my head as if I couldn’t see him at all.

He started throwing stones one after another, the splashes kept splashing, and my hair and body were wet, but I was arrogant that nothing had happened, and looked at the distance motionless.

While throwing stones, he said with a hippie smile: “Are you going or not? If you don’t go, I’ll keep throwing them away. The stones here are endless.”

I still sit like a stone carving, and firmly ignore him.

Suddenly, there was no more stone flying, and the splash of water shrouded in front of him disappeared, and without his voice, the world suddenly became too quiet, and only the water blew.

I began to panic, but still refused to look back.

As time goes on, I have not only panicked, but fear, is he still there? Is he angry again? Did he leave again?

Finally, I turned back uncontrollably.

The summer sunset dyed the bridge early, and the evening wind blew sparkling, and his coat fluttered and stood against the fence. Everything is picturesque, but there is a sly smile on his face, proud of his tricks: “You still look back!”

I was so angry that I stood up and left. He hurriedly turned down the railing to chase me: “Qiqi, I was wrong. I apologize to you.”

“I was wrong that day. I shouldn’t have beaten people.”

“I guarantee that I will not interfere with your freedom to make friends in the future, and I will also guarantee that you will not beat others up.”

I don’t speak, just walk briskly. He wanted to help me with the schoolbag, I just wouldn’t let him take it.

“Qi Qi, do you really want to break up with Shen Yuanzhe?”

My footsteps slowed down, he saw the machine, and immediately went to pick up my schoolbag, I no longer refused, let him take it.

He rested his mind and laughed, saying, “In the evening, I am waiting for you at Qiaotou. What time can you finish dinner? Or, you and your mother lie, don’t eat at home, let’s go to the night market. ”

I can’t say anything. I’m not like him. It’s easy to put it away. After a cold war and a moment of reconciliation, my nerves can’t be adjusted.

“Qiqi, don’t be angry, I have said everything is my fault, just say something!”

“I have to have dinner at home, but I will eat less and meet my parents and come out.”

He smiled and snapped his fingers: “My Qiqi is smart!”

During the chat, the two were reconciled and sweet again.

I thought it was just a small dispute as before. After the reconciliation, everything passed away, but I didn’t understand. He had been saying “it’s my fault” from beginning to end. He gave up his self-esteem temporarily because he liked it, because he was afraid of losing it. But the self-esteem of a boy is like a spring. Maybe he will be pressed by the pressure of the outside world.

2

Mock exam

What is destiny? There are two famous English sayings that are very thorough:

Menheaptogetherthemistakesoftheirlives,

andcreateamonstertheycalldestiny.

——People gather the mistakes in life and create a demon called destiny.

Itisamistaketotrytolooktoofarahead.

Thechainofdestinycanonlybegraspedonelinkatatime.

-It is wrong to worry too much about the future, on the chain of fate,

The only thing we can catch is now.

Because the third grade is divided into fast and slow classes, the standard is the final exam, so the final exam of the second grade is very important.

The previous test papers were all 100 points. From now on, everything is based on the college entrance examination, and the test paper has changed from 100 points to 150 points.

In order to allow us to adapt to change and prepare for the final exam, the school held a mock exam.

I still ranked first in the results of the simulated exam, and the physics and chemistry courses are almost full marks. Zhang Jun is more than thirty grades, Guan He only tested more than fifty grades.

Ever since my grades are getting better and better, Zhang Jun has never studied on my premises, but I know he works hard. Even if I am sick, I still read English. I occasionally go to his house to play. I often find a thick stack of draft paper filled with exercises. I fully understand the pain of hard work but no results.

Zhang Jun’s mood was very low. I thought of how to make him happy, but he was still depressed, and he was listless every day, as if he had completely lost his confidence.

On the weekend, he came to me to sing, and I suggested that we take a walk by the river.

When I walked by the river, I started to tell him my experience of learning English. I only spoke for a little while. He suddenly got angry impatiently and said to me, “You have nothing else but to study. ? Do you think everyone is the same as you, except study or study? ”

I was stupefied, and I was wronged and angry for a while. I wholeheartedly wanted to help him, and even shared my most painful experience with him, but he resented me.

I suppressed my grievances, turned around and left: “You are in a bad mood, I will go first.”

He seized me, and the long-term accumulated grievances and dissatisfaction made him emotionally out of control: “Since we are together, you always say that you get angry when you are angry. If I had to admit my mistake first, you would continue to be together. Sometimes I do n’t understand. Since you do n’t like me at all, why do you want to be with me? ”

“Where do I dislike you?”

“Other girls want their boyfriends to accompany them, they will get angry if they do n’t send them home, but you do n’t want me to accompany you. I ’m home with you every day, but you are not happy; other girls are very happy. Spend more time with my boyfriend, but every time I invite you to go out to play, you always push three and four, and you do n’t want to go; you never care about me being with other girls, no matter how I play with them, you do n’t react It seems that I have nothing to do with you at all. You only have to study in your heart. You do n’t care what I have done. My position in your heart may not be as important as half of your study. ”

I opened his hand hard and said coldly: “You think other girls are good, then you go to other girls.”

He said behind me: “You can rest assured that this time, I will never disturb you or hinder you. You will concentrate on being your provincial champion.”

I straightened my back and walked in strides until my figure disappeared into his sight.

I am very sad and do not understand why I treat him so sincerely, but he does not accept it at all. I am very wronged, blaming his lack of sympathy.

It was not until many years later that I realized that at that time, I was not wrong, nor was he wrong. We are only wrong because we are too young to understand each other’s love.

At the time, I only knew that I liked him and hoped he was good, so I couldn’t wait to help him, but I used the wrong method.

At that time, Zhang Jun was a very proud and good-looking boy. He wants to take care of me, not be taken care of by me. He has been quietly working hard to be good enough, with a lot of pressure and tension. What he needs to know is my feelings for him, not how good I am in learning. However, his age at that time allowed him to only see my mouth talking about learning, but not to see my heart just hoping that he could fly confidently and happily.

I will not go to Zhang Jun, nor will Zhang Jun come to me. We started the cold war.

Before the final exam, we took the last physical examination to meet the standards. Rumor has it that if you don’t get a good grade, you won’t get a high school diploma and you won’t be eligible to take the college entrance exam.

Except for the sit-up test, which is relatively good, I can’t bear to see any other results. If the 800 meters do not meet the standard, I will … I don’t know what to do.

On the day of the 800-meter test, there was a light rain in the early morning, and the air was humid and cool. The boys in our class congratulated me: “God is helping you, you will be able to pass.”

I frowned and said, “By everyone’s good words.”

During the exam, our class boys all cheered for me by the playground, but I was still the last one, and my feet were like lead pouring, getting slower and slower, they could not believe in lament: “Only the first lap!”

“Luo Qiqi, there are a million people waiting for you in front.”

“Luo Qiqi, the colored wolf behind you chasing you, ooh–ooh–run!”

“Luo Qiqi, a group of tigers will soon knock you down, and if you don’t run, you’ll be dead. Ao–ao–”

…

Young sports teacher was blinded, when did the playground become the African savannah? Smiled and ordered all our boys to shut up.

The various ways of cheering for boys can’t make me run faster. Originally, I still insisted, I hope I can hurry up, but when I saw Zhang Jun who was standing in the crowd, I was totally exhausted, and I had the idea of ​​violent self-abandonment.

After running the first lap, the teacher looked at the stopwatch and shook his head: “Two minutes and thirty seconds.”

The boys in our class are all in a hurry, Yang Jun and Ma Li both screamed: “Luo Qiqi, why are you so bad?”

As I trudged through the second lap, Zhang Jun suddenly ran to me, took my hand, and led me forward. His hands are strong and strong, and I only feel that although I gasp for breath, I can get faster and faster.

The cry of our class boys changed from “Luo Qiqi, come on” to “Zhang Jun, come on! Zhang Jun, come on!”

All the noise on the playground has disappeared. I seem to be flying in the wind, and my eyes are blurry. I remembered that many years ago, on the stormy day and the hail sky, he took my hand but took my heart.

After so many years, it turned out to be mostly bitter and sweet, only a little bit sweet, if I come again, can I be willing? Would I rather not let him hold my hand?

By the time Zhang Jun dragged me to a stop, I ran to the end in a confused way.

The physical education teacher did not say that we violated the rules, pretended not to see anything, finished the stopwatch, and said with regret: “A total of four minutes and twenty seconds, the standard cannot be met.”

The boys in our class are all around the teacher begging: “Teacher, after it, after it, we multiply the speed of the second lap by two, the first lap is not counted.”

“If you take the exam again next week, let Zhang Jun run Luo Qiqi from the beginning, but that’s a lot of trouble!”

“Luo Qiqi must not fail to take the college entrance examination, she is happy, the school is not happy!”

“Teacher, you will give everyone a face, and we will thank you Dade.”

The physical education teacher was annoyed by everyone. With a big swipe, he changed his grades. He didn’t say anything. He just put the grades in front of Zhang Jun’s eyes, let Zhang Jun glance at them, and left immediately.

Our class boy also plans to go to the office to ask, Zhang Jun said: “It’s over.”

The boys jumped up and cheered, and Ma Li made a joke between me and Zhang Jun: “Since you have held hands, there have been twice as many people at the playground. Everyone is watching you. You are too high-profile. Be careful of the class teacher talking to you . ”

I secretly looked at Zhang Jun, but Zhang Jun didn’t even look at me, just lifted his feet and left.

I froze and ran to chase him. He ignored me, and I begged softly: “You talk to me.”

I kept talking to him, but he just kept his face cold and said nothing. I couldn’t speak anymore, but I refused to give up, so I could only run in small steps and follow him closely.

I followed him all the way, he ignored me all the way.

I followed him upstairs, he was about to enter the classroom, I grabbed his clothes corner, he stopped and looked back at me, as if waiting for me to say something, their classmates were curious Lifting his head and staring at us from the window, I looked embarrassed. I let Zhang Jun busy and let go. He seemed disappointed, but said nothing, and walked into the classroom without looking back.

I went back to the classroom listlessly. As soon as I walked into the classroom, I lay down on the table, because my nose was sour and tears were swirling in my eyes.

Yang Jun asked: “Reconciled?”

I shook my head.

“broke up?”

I shook my head.

Tears fell silently on the sleeves.

Yang Jun asked: “Do you want to go out for a walk?”

When the tears in the corners of the eyes were all wiped away by the sleeves, and when my voice did not reveal my weakness, I raised my head and smiled and said, “I don’t want to go to class.”

Yang Jun said briskly: “No problem, I will take you to the country by bike.”

Yang Jun and I packed up the schoolbags and skipped the class. We didn’t even think about the physical test for the next class.

I know that indulging in sadness does not help. If I am destined to lose Zhang Jun, I can’t lose learning. But that day, I couldn’t control my sorrow. I couldn’t read any books, just wanted to indulge.

I didn’t sleep well at night. I had been dreaming. I woke up from time to time. Outside the dream, there was Zhang Jun’s figure. I was crying in my dream.

The next morning, as soon as the alarm clock rang, I forced myself to get up and read a book. The time for depravity and exhaustion was over. The reason why human beings are called wise advanced creatures is because we are wise and can use reason to restrain incorrect behavior.

In the continuing cold war between Zhang Jun and me, the final exam was ushered in.

I’m still the first place by far ahead; Zhang Jun got a mess, more than 180 grades; Guan He is more than 60 grades.

When I looked at the results on the list in turn, I suddenly realized that Guan He had not entered the top 20 of the grade for a long time. Even Yang Jun and Lin would still be anxious because of the decline in their performance. ? Guan He shouldered not only herself, but also all her mother’s hope.