A Book Dedicated to Our Youth - Chapter 69: Fanwai 2: Parting (1)
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From small to large, Xu Xiaobo and Luo Qiqi both played cards; everyone went out to play together, and Qi Qi would only take the wavelet ’s broken bicycle; go to the restaurant to eat, Qi Qi would always occupy the position around Xiaobo, no matter who came; People shrunk together on the sofa and watched the video. Xiaobo took Qi Qi to watch Jet Li’s “Swordsman”. Qi Qi took Xiao Bo to watch Audrey? Hepburn’s “Roman Holiday”; both love to read books, often lying on the sofa and sitting in front of the table lamp, reading each other, ignoring each other, occasionally glancing at each other when looking up, sometimes the other party is unaware Sometimes the eyes collide, smile relatively, and continue to read each book …
Xu Xiaobo knew that he and his friends were a little bit different, and Qi Qi was a little bit different from them. That little difference made him and Qi Qi always have a great tacit understanding, and he always thought they were a family.
Until that day.
He came back from the field and went to the school gate to pick up Qiqi. He saw Qiqi and a group of classmates walking out of the school.
Just after the literary and artistic performance, the school entrance was full of people. Qi Qi and a beautiful girl holding hands, walking very intimately, surrounded by a group of classmates in the middle. They talked and laughed, and were not honest when they walked. You pushed me, I gave you a shout, shouted and shouted, and did not know what was said, and a group of people laughed back and forth.
The lights at the entrance of the school are very bright, which makes them full of vitality, flying and bright.
In fact, this is not special, it is a picture that is every day on campus.
But that is, he has been trying very hard to chase, but has never been able to get everything.
Those energetic, bright and flying are not his, he realized for the first time, maybe-Qi Qi and he are not a family.
He had already waited for Qiqi for midnight, but at this moment, hesitated. He didn’t want to drag her out of the group of energetic classmates, his world was not as natural and bright as he was.
Qi Qi is so radiant, talking and laughing. It is the kind of mischief that can be easily seen by teachers, parents and students. There is no shadow or bitterness.
Behind Qiqi is the gate of the school. Under the light, it is solemn and solemn, just like a David, condensing the strength of parents and the whole society to protect Qiqi and their flying.
He stared at the door of the school, and his heart was full of bitterness. This door was easy for others to enter, but it was difficult for him.
Qi Qi suddenly turned her head and glanced at her. Before he could avoid it, her face lit up suddenly and rushed across the road in surprise.
At that moment, he had unspeakable joy, the bitterness of his heart swept away, as if flying across the road, with a little hope.
He controlled his joy, fearing that it would be too obvious, and when God saw it, he would take it back. From an early age, he always knew that he was a child who was not favored by God.
Qi Qi asked him: “How long have you been waiting here? Why not call me?”
He smiled and said, “I just came over and saw you coming out.”
Qi Qi’s classmates followed, and a group of people looked at him with strange eyes, as if he could see that they were not the same as them.
“Qiqi, hurry up and eat spicy hot together.” The students called Qiqi.
Qi is on one side and classmates on the other. Qi Qi hesitated among them, not knowing whether to be with his classmates or with him.
Looking at the bright-eyed group of teenagers, Xiaobo made a decision for Qiqi, “Qiqi, go play with classmates.” He smiled and turned away.
Under the dim street light, Xiaobo walked alone, alone.
He knew that Qi Qi was walking in the opposite direction with him, but that end was bright and flying, a joy blessed by everyone.
This is great!
There was a sudden footstep behind him, his heart beating, and before he could turn around, Qi Qi jumped beside him, hooked his arm, and smiled like a flower.
At that moment, he was deeply moved and joyful.
He asked: “Aren’t you going to eat spicy hot?”
“I like to eat lamb skewers.” Qi Qi unreservedly showed his importance in her heart, and he told him her choice firmly.
Rejoicing, he did not think about Qiqi ’s choice, or, at that time, he still had illusions that he could still realize his dream, and he and Qiqi were still a family.
However, the final fantasy also shattered.
He must take on the responsibilities he should take. He cannot shirk all the responsibilities to others for his dreams. People cannot live for themselves, so he decided to break his dreams.
He knew very well that he would slowly become exactly the same as the people around him. He would gradually forget what kind of dreams he had had. He no longer had that little difference, but Qiqi still had it.
For countless nights, he smoked cigarettes, recalling the bits and pieces since the acquaintance in the lingering smoke. In the six years, he almost watched her grow up little by little. There are too many happy memories between them. He also believes that Qi Qi is very happy. But every time, he always remembered the scene he saw at the door of the school that night. Qi Qi was so energetic and happy.
For so many years, he has always felt that he was taking care of the little girl, but now he suddenly found out that the little girl was taking care of him.
Brother Li made a joke. He guarded Qiqi carefully like a treasure keeper. No one was allowed to contaminate Qiqi. He always thought he was protecting Qiqi like a big brother. Now he suddenly realized that he is not only protecting Qiqi. , Or himself, the deepest hidden light in his heart.
No matter when you look up, you can see her around you, no matter what you see when you look down, you will firmly believe that tomorrow will be better.
He always thought that Qi Qi needed his protection. Actually, it was just that the light deep inside him had been struggling. One accidentally would go out at any time. That light needed protection.
Qi Qi does not need his protection. When he is away, Qi Qi soon has new friends, a new life and a very happy life.
For so many years, maybe it was just a little selfishness in his heart, dragging her to be a family with him in their world, and intentionally or unintentionally isolated her chance to make classmates.
Now, will he continue to drag her and be his family?
He knows Qi Qi’s character very well. As long as he is here, Qi Qi will never betray him, but he also knows her intelligence. As long as her intelligence is used by her, she will definitely become a pearl.
Qi Qi doesn’t know what she really wants. Even if she stays in their world, she will never understand what she missed, nor will she regret what she missed.
However, he knew!
He chose to cut off Qiqi!
He knew that Qi Qi was sad, he was more sad than her, because he was not only carrying his own sadness, but also her sadness.
He knows that Qi Qi sits by the river and smokes all day long under the hot sun, but he knows that Qi Qi will never regard decadence and depravity as his attitude to life, do n’t ask him how he knows, he Just know, just as he knew he would never compromise with God, no matter how God made him difficult, he will definitely win.
Qi Qi walked into high school, and conquered all the rebellion and began to be a good student.
During that time, he was particularly tired.
Brother Li was too anxious and oversuccessful, which led to an unstable foundation. When the accident happened, the flowers were garnished and the fire was cooked in oil. No problem could be seen. The cash flow was broken as soon as the accident happened. Falling down like dominoes. The rest of the business was given to others, and in the end only the karaoke hall and dance hall were kept.
But in order to help the squid and him, Li also mortgaged the loan shark to the usury loaner, and used the cash to fight the lawsuit to clear up the relationship. Squid, don’t bully the squid.
Although the karaoke hall is operating normally, due to the influence of the case, the competition is now more intense than before. The business is not as good as before, and the daily income is not enough to pay the interest of usury. What is more terrible is not to mention the enemy, that is, all “good friends” are sitting idly by and waiting for opportunities. It seems that just waiting for them to turn around, they will bite their weakness and divide them up.
Sometimes, he would be very scared, fearing that they would not be able to survive, and Brother Li would be hunted down for debts; afraid of losing care, the squid would fall down psychologically even if he was not physically injured in the prison; afraid they would be gone tomorrow.
However, he could not let anyone know that he was afraid, otherwise those people would immediately rush, or let Brother Li know that he was afraid, Brother Li believed that he could face everything with a smile, but he knew he was afraid Every night, I can’t sleep soundly and often wake up from nightmares.
The next morning, with a smile, confidently facing everyone, disguising nervousness with a careless indulgence.
Sometimes, when he couldn’t hold it, he would go to the green forest by the river and sit deep in the small flower bed, smoking while taking a break. Only at this time would he let his waist loose for a day, and make his smile disappear for a day.
At more than ten o’clock, Qi Qi would carry her schoolbag and stride through the path outside the green forest. Sometimes she is thinking deeply, sometimes memorizing English with words, and she is working hard for tomorrow.
When he saw her, he would temporarily forget those fears and tensions and only enjoy the moment of tranquility.
One night, when he went to the green forest to rest, he saw Zhang Jun.
He didn’t know what happened. He only saw Zhang Jun secretly following Qi Qi. At first, he thought Qi Qi offended Zhang Jun. For a few days, he went to the greening forest to wait for Qi Qi in advance. Zhang Jun is escorting Qiqi home.
He and Zhang Jun were very careful, but Qi Qi didn’t know what was going on, but she noticed something strange and pretended to be very calm and yelled: “Xiao Bo, you come out, I have seen you.”
He couldn’t help laughing, but after a laugh, he was a little sad. Qiqi still didn’t understand that she and he were no longer in a family, and—will never be a family again!
At that moment, three people were sad.
Qi Qi’s sad face was hard to conceal. While walking, he was still looking around unwillingly, “Wavelet, wavelet, you come out!”
Finally, she gave up, as if she had suddenly lost all her energy, crouched her back, buried her head, and walked slowly.
Zhang Jun hid in the green forest, leaning against the big tree with his hands in his trouser pockets, staring up at the treetops without moving.
Until Qiqi had disappeared at the intersection, Zhang Jun still maintained the same posture, even Xiaobo could feel the loneliness and sadness in his heart. In surprise, Xiaobo began to understand his mind a little, this boy has a pair of bright eyes, seeing Qiqi’s good.
Wavelet stared at Zhang Jun with a slight envy.
In this circle, it is easy to fall, but it is difficult to rebirth, and how lucky this boy is to have a chance to come again, now he and Qiqi are on the same road.
Zhang Jun lowered his head and slowly walked out of the woods.
Xiao Bo still sat, lit a cigarette, spit out a smoke ring, and watched the smoke drift away, just like watching all the dreams that had passed away slowly.
When Qiqi’s first mid-term exam results came out, Li Ge was taken aback, saying that he did not expect Qiqi to be so powerful.
There are more than twenty grades in the first grade. This is a good result that many people desire, but Xiaobo knows that this is just Qiqi’s take-off, and she is still groping for directions.
He no longer worried about her, and began to truly integrate into his new identity and new life.
Unconsciously, the number of times he deforested the forest gradually decreased.
However, whenever the pressure is high, or when he thinks of squid, he will go there again, sitting quietly in the dark, smoking a cigarette slowly.
Qiqi has new friends and is a sunny boy.
She also seemed to be truly integrated into her new life. She even talked to the boys about literary and artistic performances. The names of her classmates popped out of her mouth and were properly assigned by her. The boys beside her looked at her with appreciation.
Qiqi is more and more like an ordinary good student. She studies hard, cares about the class, actively participates in group activities, and gets along with her classmates. There is a group of good friends. Maybe she will still have a crush on a boy. Maybe there will be a few more. The boy has a crush on her.
He was very happy, very happy.
Seeing her work hard, he suddenly felt a little ashamed. He was working hard, but he was not active.
There is no way to choose life, but the attitude towards life is always chosen by himself. Is he even lacking the courage?
He pondered for a while, and put out the unsmoked cigarette.
The harder he is, the more he has to cherish himself. This is what he taught Qiqi, but he even forgot.
Since the accident of the squid, Xiaobo smokes very fiercely, drinks very fiercely, and often runs out in the middle of the night gambling and racing with others. Brother Li does not persuade him, he pretends to know nothing, so many years of brother, he understands Wavelet is not the kind of indulgence.
Xiaobo is only 19 years old, and his peers are still enjoying life under the protection of his parents. However, he wants to be deliberate and humbly begging for life. If there is no way to release, he may be crushed by heavy pressure.
But I don’t know since when, wavelet returned to normal, no longer drinking alcohol, and no longer go out to drag racing.
Song Peng asked wonderingly: “Wavebo, what excitement did you get? Why didn’t the cigarettes and alcohol suddenly disappear? Did you pay a housekeeper and girlfriend?”
Xiao Bo smiled and said, “I just want to treat myself better if I don’t have a girlfriend’s love.”
Everyone laughed, no one took Xiaobo’s words seriously. Brother Li looked at Xiaobo and laughed. This is Xiaobo! Everything will be better!
I do n’t know how Xiaobo begged Song Jie. Song Jie made a guarantee for him. Xiaobo borrowed money together and opened a roller skating rink. No one could figure out when the savvy Song Jie started to be unprofitable. Things are up. Brother Li is not surprised. Song Jie is not an ordinary person. He knows how to look at people. He knows to help Xu Xiaobo at this time. In exchange, Xiao Bo is grateful for his whole life. His investment is not a business, but Xu Xiaobo. Brother Li himself is from here, so he understands Song Jie’s approach very well.
Wavelet cherishes the opportunity given to him by Song Jie very desperately, in order to save money for decoration, the migrant workers are invited. Chinese migrant workers are the simplest people, but they are also the most treacherous people. Their simple dialectical psychology is that the people in your city are very cunning. Below the money you give me, I work as little as possible and I earn it. Regardless of whether you are swearing or being polite, they are holding on to their faith under the seemingly honest and sloppy napping.
After seeing it on the construction site for a few days, Xiaobo understood everything. He moved the covering into the construction site, lived with the migrant workers, ate together, and got up earlier than them every day. When he was carrying the glass, his hands were scratched with blood. He said nothing, and the next day he carried a shovel to dig a drain, one blood bubble after another. He did n’t have any nonsense except to order the task. He just buried his head to work and worked hard. The honest side of the migrant workers ’brothers was inspired, and he really got enough energy to start working. Instead, he persuaded Xiaobo to rest and rest . Wavelet’s voice did not say anything, and they all executed immediately.