A spoilt princess - Chapter 239

The way people feel pain is very different. the pain that goes through your body due to a cut or an accident is very much bearable, but the pain that cuts deep down in the heart is very painful. no one can ever guess that feeling of being suffocated with pain when your heart wants to tear out of your own body. That feeling makes us wail while others are silently depressed. it pushes some to greater heights while it leaves others crushing straight to the floor.

An kai was only able to comfort Xia with a hug and bring her back to the fifty-fifty, happy-sad reality, respectively but as for Roline, she had already emptied the bottles in her shelves already. being one of the few people who got to the very apartments in their good times, her apartment was still as luxurious as before. as she drunk her sorrows away, she remembered how Xia had sat in the same chair opposite and tried to explain everything about An kai, it really felt like yesterday.

Problems never solve problems.

“I was very stupid not to stick on my original plan. if I had paid you off when you were still so sick in the head that would have done me so much goodness … you’re not even here to save me from this pain. Smashing the bottle into the wall, Roline continued to make all her worries disappear. of course, that’s what she thought at the beginning of her drinking. she wanted to have a sound sleep today. getting drunk was her number one way to achieve it but then…

” Of all the people I hate, I hate you the most.” I hate everything about you but I hate myself even more. everything must have started with me;

It was me who chose you into my messy plans, I even planned our stay together thinking I was helping you to stand at your own yet I was teaching myself to depend on you unknowingly.

I wanted you to see the goodness in being you but then, I ended up seeing the goods in you. the things I never wanted any other person to identify but now see…

Smashing another bottle into the Tv aside, ” after turning me into a helpless child you left me to wonder all alone on the streets but you’re not bothered at all. I am getting dirtier every single day yet you’re not looking for me! I still want to look at your face and you are carelessly letting other people do that, I won’t forgive you for that Kai, not now or ever…

I want to repay you but before anything, you will have to do me great favour…

Having been a responsible parent for long, Roline had never sipped anything alcoholic so the drinking did make her sleep soundly after countless talks to herself but right there on the floor

…

Han Rein never left the old man’s office. all he could do was to continuous stare to the past he ignored. living without Roline was his biggest regret but after he realised what Roline had done to divorce An kai and live her own life without the son in law he liked…. no, he loved him just so dearly.

to him, An kai was the most transparent thing he had ever seen. there was no time that he looked at Roline and guessed what she was thinking but at this one time, he found the happiness of having a son in a house, things changed even though it wasn’t long but the moments of himself free from all the troubles of the company were all still fresh. An kai being alive didn’t make any news anymore but him not coming to find any of them was still very mystical and heartbreaking…

” You should get strong for the people left at home, go home and rest.” I will come visit you tomorrow but remember, every day has its own troubles and worries, going over sad stories won’t do you any good.

Life is like reading fiction, if you can’t handle bloody scenes in your head, then try heartbreaks but if you realise you can’t handle that also, fantasize all you want or you can choose to laugh your heart out with comedy as long as you make sure that you trust the author because you might land in all of them at once…

“..They aren’t trustworthy,” said Han Rein as he straightened his tired body up. he was very sure that if he didn’t leave, he was most likely to be lectured the whole time out