After I Wear the Book, I Bend the Heroine O - Chapter 82

The author has something to say: [PS: For the coherence of the plot, a part here overlaps with the previous one, and the overlapping part is slightly modified and placed in the words, not counting the number of charged words. And the crematorium will start after the end of this chapter, both parties realize their own problems, the disagreement in love will not be the whole reason for either person w]

After losing the qualification to debut, He Lingxing asked Le Jiaxuan to learn from Shu Minglan and develop towards the line of performing arts. Le Jiaxuan was called to make a cameo role in the filming of “King of the Jungle” this time. Before leaving, she couldn’t hold back and sneaked back to the company to take a look.

The familiar dance training room is brightly lit. The girls who had finished a whole day of boring training were joking and making a noise. Among them, there was a sweet and squeamish female voice mixed with several familiar voices, which made Le Jiaxuan’s heart tighten.

The girl who used to stand with everyone to train, but at this time, she can only hide in the dim corner where the lights can’t be found, hide her figure, and quietly look at the few people who are talking.

The lights went out a few times, and the girls walked out of the room talking and laughing. The faces of the girls who could only be seen in photos or videos gradually became vivid in front of them.

Chi Shuangyan was not as close to Lin Qingyan as rumored, but leaned on Lu Yige’s shoulder and muttered something softly. This sentence made all the members except Lin Qingyan burst into laughter, until they stopped laughing when they saw the captain came out last from the room.

Le Jiaxuan’s breath stagnated, her eyes fixed on Lin Qingyan.

Although the time elapsed since the last time I saw each other is not very long, the feeling of missing is like a poison that spreads and binds in my heart. The girl’s figure is still tall and straight like a cold plum, and the coldness is stronger than before. Every move in Le Jiaxuan’s eyes is so far away, but it can only be touched by running a distance. .

“Tomorrow morning, you can sleep until 8:30 at most. After getting up at this time, you can only eat a white egg. If you want to eat a better breakfast, get up early.”

Lin Qingyan’s voice was cold, and it was almost a world away from showing her doting on Chi Shuangyan outside: “Shuangyan, you have to control your sugar, and the acne on your face can’t appear again.”

“Got it, Captain.”

Chi Shuangyan, who had always liked to play coquettish with Lin Qingyan in front of others, was now well-behaved and honest, and there was no rebuttal after hearing what Lin Qingyan said.

“Okay, let’s go back to the dormitory then.”

Several girls seemed to be a little afraid of Lin Qingyan, and after hearing this, they breathed a sigh of relief and filed out of the dance studio. Lin Qingyan didn’t go with them, but used the excuse to stay and turn off the lights to clean up the desks and chairs, and when she heard the footsteps fade away, she opened the door and walked out again.

“Le Jiaxuan.”

Alpha’s cold voice echoed in the corridor.

Le Jiaxuan’s heart shrank suddenly, whose name was suddenly called. Apparently, she didn’t expect to be discovered by someone who peeked. She gritted her teeth and walked out of the hiding place.

Walking to the place where the light hit, she raised her head slightly. She saw Lin Qingyan standing in the place where the light converged, standing alone like a slender and arrogant white swan. The lights of the dance studio plated the girl’s white skin even more. Bright.

Although it was not on the real stage, but in a simple training room, Le Jiaxuan seemed to be able to perfectly overlap the shadow of her freedom on the stage and her youth at that time.

Only those who have practiced dance know that for ten minutes on stage and ten years of hard work off stage, the idol industry has paid far more hardships than those people imagined, especially someone like Lin Qingyan who is strict with herself…

Lin Qingyan’s gaze fell on her lap first, and an imperceptible regret flashed in her eyes, but she quickly hid her exposed emotions. The character set for her by the planner is “cold as frost”, which is somewhat similar to her own personality, but not exactly the same. Lin Qingyan’s acting skills are not that good, so she can only try to follow that character all the time, even in private.

Just like now, she can’t show her concern for Le Jiaxuan so easily, and she can’t give her random delusions. Lin Qingyan lowered her slightly curled eyelashes and said after a moment of silence:

“Why do you remember coming here?”

This is the place where they used to sweat and work hard together. After Le Jiaxuan was replaced, it became a taboo place for her. In order to avoid touching the scene, Le Jiaxuan would basically not come here unless it was something important. .

Because most of Lin Qingyan’s mobile phones were handed in, Le Jiaxuan was an idler now, but she had little chance to send her a message. If you want to find Lin Qingyan, you can only come here when they have not announced.

In fact, I haven’t seen each other for a while, and I can only see Lin Qingyan’s face every day by looking at photos, Reuters pictures or official pictures.

But now the real person is in front of her, and even taking a few steps forward, she can feel the breath that is so close at hand, but Le Jiaxuan has lost the courage to look at her, and said in a voice like a mosquito:

“I’m leaving, shall we take a picture together?”

Lin Qingyan stared at Le Jiaxuan’s face for a moment, but in the end she couldn’t help but broke her defense and stretched out an arm to wrap her neck. The closeness of Alpha and Omega made Le Jiaxuan’s body tremble, but she tightly hugged the captain’s arm, as if she had planned countless debut group photo plans before—

“Come on starry sky!”

“come on!”

“Lin Qingyan is the best!”

“Le Jiaxuan is the best!”

“You know,” Lin Qingyan seemed to have used up all her strength just now, panting slightly, but her wet eyes flashed with excitement, “The flowers I received from fans are full of sky. star, and the designation is for me.”

“Because you are awesome!”

In the face of Chi Shuangyan, perhaps Le Jiaxuan still has a little dissatisfaction and a little jealousy of being replaced, but Lin Qingyan’s success made her full of joy and did not hesitate to praise her. Lin Qingyan may not know that Le Jiaxuan has liked her for three years, and it is because of her that she signed up for this girl group desperately.

After this meeting, the next meeting will be a long way off. And she has to make a breakthrough in another brand new field before going to see Lin Qingyan again. Tell her about her hard work over the past few years, and tell her about her origins.

It was rare for the tall and slender girl to take her into her arms unscrupulously, with stars twinkling in her eyes. The two just stood there and hugged for a while, until after watching Le Jiaxuan’s back go away, Lin Qingyan restrained the smile on her face and changed to a blank expression.

**

After seeing Lin Qingyan, the two went their separate ways the next day. Le Jiaxuan followed in the footsteps of He Lingxing and Shu Minglan and went to the filming crew of “The Jungle” together.

The design of “The Jungle” can be said to be like a documentary to a certain extent, and the framing alone cost a lot of money and went through several shooting venues. The first time Le Jiaxuan acted was a small supporting role, she only needed to appear in the plot in that section, so it took a while for the filming to start.

I don’t know if it’s Omega’s? The reason is that it is easy to be sentimental in the mind. In the time when I have a lot of free time, Le Jiaxuan’s longing for Lin Qingyan will always start to spread and spread, and it will converge into one. The gigantic Wang Yang drowned people, causing her to waste almost all of her time in that boring mood gradually precipitating.

As for whether Lin Qingyan also misses her like she misses herself, Le Jiaxuan doesn’t know.

Before getting on the plane, she edited a message to Lin Qingyan and sent it out. After getting off the plane, she immediately went to the 99+ ? message to try to find the other party’s ? reply. It’s just a pity that after the news was sent out, it just fell into disrepair, and the one who can make her eyes shine is still not there.

Lin Qingyan was very busy, of course Le Jiaxuan knew that. When the group just debuted, there will be endless announcements. After being busy, they have to practice to consolidate their strength. There are also various stage songs and new songs waiting for them. It is estimated that Lin Qing, who is the leader Yan even wanted to keep her feet off the ground.

During that time, the contact between the two people was basically a sentence of “what are you doing” in the morning, a picture in the afternoon, “good night” in the evening, “I am today…” and then in the second Morning? “Good morning”.

The replies were intermittent, empty, and even when I was busy, I didn’t even have time to send a message. Occasionally, Le Jiaxuan can see the appearance of Lin Qingyan talking to other teammates in Reuters pictures, sometimes it is Chi Shuangyan, sometimes it is Lu Yige, sometimes it is other teammates, there are Can you feel it through the screen? Laughter and laughter, but it is deserted here.

In fact, she envied Shu Minglan and He Lingxing very much.

Mr. He wouldn’t do anything to put on airs in front of other people, but at work, he would never be that kind of someone who was very talkative. When he was in command, he basically kept a blank face A lot of facial expressions. She and Shu Minglan are not together, but every time they talk to each other, they can’t help themselves. Zhude will speak softly, when that annoying Murong Feng appears in front of the two of them many times. , the invariable conflict between the two sides made Le Jiaxuan envious.

Of course she knew that Lin Qingyan would also care about herself, but what she wanted was to let the other party express it as best she could.

Later, she was attacked and hospitalized by the “small pepper” spray that Murong Feng carried with her, and when Lin Qingyan came to visit, she lured the other party to mark her temporarily.

Lin Qingyan’s ?pheromone is a very unique ?smoky rose flavor.

Some Alpha’s pheromone is a combination of two flavors, which is more complicated than normal Alpha. When the smoky rose bloomed in front of her, the smell was not very strong, the attack power was hidden a lot, and the rest were pure and fragrant roses.

The combination of rose and grapefruit is like a phantom dream. After marking, the connection between the two is a little closer than before. Until Lin Qingyan sent her an invitation to love, but was rejected, she left the city a little dejected and a little puzzled, and returned to her busy work.

Later, after the filming of “The Jungle” ended, the illegitimate incident at the airport ignited the long-buried fuse.

Until a long time later, Le Jiaxuan could still remember every word that Lin Qingyan said to herself at that time.

–I’m going to board the plane.

— Next time you won’t be so? Come over impulsive? Look at me.

–There are so many people at the airport, what if someone discovers our relationship? Is the restraint sticker ready?

–I was taken aback just now, you really shouldn’t have come here today?

After feeling that Lin Qingyan seemed to be a little bit wrong, the “I want to see you” that Le Jiaxuan had just entered was immediately deleted from the dialog box, and subconsciously changed it to “I’m sorry”. But when he saw “the other party is typing…”, he quickly deleted the remaining words and waited for Lin Qingyan’s words to continue.

But the other party just sent a sentence “go away” and there is no more news.

Le Jiaxuan bit her lower lip.

It was her decision to go to the airport to see Lin Qingyan, because she heard Lin Qingyan say she was going to be busy for a while, and she might not be able to meet for a long, long time. What she thought at the time was really just to take a look at her from a distance, just that one look…

But when I met an illegitimate child, I couldn’t help rushing up.

She couldn’t see someone hurting Lin Qingyan in front of her, even if that tiny obstacle seemed like a sturdy Alpha to a strong Alpha.

When people are nervous, the body always reacts first to the brain. She also clearly saw the shock and regret in Lin Qingyan’s eyes at that time, even when she was knocked down by an illegitimate child. Time to turn around? Want to drag her off the ground. But the agent next to her quickly pulled Sylvia Lin aside, that is, at the moment when she saw it clearly, she realized the distance between the two with hindsight.

Lin Qingyan took a quick look at her and left, no longer like it was in private? The two of them hugged each other intimately, and it wouldn’t be like before? Gently stroking her back? Telling her it doesn’t matter. The girl looked at her with disapproval and reason in her eyes, which made Le Jiaxuan gradually feel that there seemed to be an ever-widening gap between the two, which was now insurmountable.

Lin Qingyan was no longer the girl who whispered to herself at the signing ceremony a few years ago, and not the ambiguous object who kissed her on the forehead cautiously in the ward, but in front of the camera, Captain Gypsophila who has to maintain his demeanor in public.

Although I don’t want to admit it, although they used to work so hard and so intimately together, there is such a big difference between debuting and not debuting. Artists who are exposed to the camera and who have to do a good job in their own words and deeds are still different from amateurs. They can’t do whatever they want, and they can’t let others discover their relationship.

This is also the reason why Le Jiaxuan rejected Lin Qingyan’s request for a relationship at that time.

She was terrified of… what to lose after what was gained.

**

The section before dawn was very dark, the deep black sky spread like cuttlefish juice, and the breeze made the night warm and greasy. In the silent night, only the flickering light of the mobile phone propped up a little brighter color.

[Special? Pay attention] @天星–林青燕V: Good night, very fulfilling? One day, a certain classmate, please pay attention to your? V

That Weibo Le Jiaxuan clicked over and over again like a self-abuse, knowing that all the comments below were from CP fans, but he couldn’t control himself not to pay attention to the other’s points and bits. I knew it was a business, but I couldn’t help worrying about the “kswl” below.

Compared to the “business” on Weibo, Lin Qingyan’s “Goodnight” message to her seemed a lot more indifferent. Although all of Aite’s teammates are on Weibo every day, Aite Chi Shuangyan is also part of the process, but there are very few other CPs below, only “Shuangyan” comes out on top.

Every time this time, she will be in pain.

Of course Le Jiaxuan knows that the debut of the artist is different from the amateur who has not debuted, every move is exposed to the camera, and the announcement of the relationship is almost ruined for the idol who is in the rising stage of his career. Sexual blows, not to mention Lin Qingyan has yet to gain a firm foothold after her re-debut.

Of course she knew that Lin Qingyan couldn’t resist Chi Shuangyan’s affair, let alone control all her accounts, and she couldn’t let her agent know that Lin Qingyan and herself were like this in private. ? Ambiguous relationship.

She can keep persuading herself, but in the end all she wants is just a little more attention. Like He Lingxing and Shu Minglan, whether he likes it or not, is clearly written on his face and eyes.

In the blurry tears, Le Jiaxuan recalled that at the signing ceremony a few years ago, she was the only lucky one who bought two albums and was selected in the list. . Seeing that the younger girl at that time was able to sign autographs with ease, responding to everyone’s love in a soft voice, and watching her shaking hands with fans and writing down encouragement to them with a smile.

At that time, she was about to take an important exam, and it just so happened that Lin Qingyan’s group signing meeting was held in this city, so that she could take the subway for an hour to arrive in a hurry.

It’s a pity that the gods are not beautiful. When she was about to be lined up, it suddenly started to rain in the open field. The manager and the security guard hurriedly went to build the canopy. An unfamiliar temperature came from her palm, and the girl carefully pulled her up.

Through the mask, Lin Qingyan couldn’t see her face clearly, but she still guessed the reaction from her red ears. After a chuckle, he let go of his hand and gently grasped her sleeve. His voice was different from what he imagined, as gentle as if soaked in water: “Don’t catch a cold, be careful.”

Then she looked up and saw a pair of bright eyes wet with mist.

At that time? Lin Qingyan was the one she had been obsessed with for a long time? Guangming, but after finally following that beam of light, she had a deep sense of self-inferiority hidden in her bones. When she came out, a little bit began to eat away at her mood.

She began to gradually become concerned about gain and loss, and began to keep her own mood firmly fixed on a fixed point, like a tireless perpetual motion machine, only for Lin Qingyan’s sake Spinning non-stop.

But the perpetual motion machine will also lose power when there is no electricity. Without this layer of preservative that supports each other, no matter how strong the emotion is, it will eventually expire.

After uninstalling Weibo and Instagram, Le Jiaxuan gritted her teeth and cleared the chat history with one click, and blocked the other party’s chat box.

She thought that there was no need for the two to meet again until they reached a height where they could stand together.