After Our Divorce, I Still Wore Your Jacket - Chapter 52
Getting away from the track, such as walking on ice, take every step carefully, I am afraid that one step will be empty.
However, such a state may last for a long time, or it will be really empty and completely dropped into the water, or else it will find a good way, and then be down to earth.
Neither of them apparently found the right path.
They finally separated.
Although the wilderness said several times that he would not separate, even though he said that every time he was really so determined.
But in the end it was still gone.
This may be the result that can be expected long ago. They are two different people from the soul. These years of getting along, relying on love to cover up these contradictions and frictions that should have been, will one day face. Their separation didn’t even have anything to push, they didn’t need it, or they hadn’t waited until what happened, it happened in a calm state. Sometimes the broken glass only needs a bullet hole like a finger, and the whole piece of glass will collapse completely. The cracks have been there for a long time.
It’s ridiculous to say that they ended up just because of a coat.
Fang Shaoyi’s film had been filmed for a few days. He flew back from Britain less than a week ago, and the reaction left by the jet lag had not completely cleared up. The time in the wilderness is tight, which is the normal situation of the two of them. When Fang Shao rests, the wilderness is generally very busy. Fang Shaoyi didn’t pick up any work behind him, and wanted to stay for a long vacation and wait for the two of them to go out after the field was busy.
The wilderness often runs back and forth between the two cities, which is indeed very busy.
One day the wilderness drove back and picked him up at Fang Shaoyi Company. The two went back to the wilderness to have dinner together. The wilderness talked a little nasally, and the sound of the urn was sour that it sounded like a cold.
The car parked a little far, and I had to walk for a while after eating. The wilderness only wore short sleeves. It had just rained and it was a bit cold. Fang Shao frowned and said, “Wear so little.”
The wilderness wasn’t taken seriously, it was rough and solid, and he never paid attention to it, but Fang Shaoyi still had a low fever. He smiled and said, “It’s okay, not cold.”
“I don’t know if I have a cold?” Fang Shao took off his jacket and handed it over, “Don.”
The wilderness missed it and shook his head: “I don’t have a cold. You’re wearing it. I’m not cold.”
Fang Shao never told him again that he had to take the wilderness directly when the jacket was unfolded, and the wilderness jumped to the side to hide, and then he also smiled hippy: “Outside, brother, don’t pull and pull. Go to Weibo. Wear it. ”
His jump to the side was a bit exaggerated. Fang Shao paused, his hand fell empty, and his arms were still stiff.
After that, Fang Shaoyi said nothing, and put on his jacket back in silence. The wilderness was nervous, looking down at the message on the phone, without looking up.
Therefore, when Fang Shaoyi suddenly spoke, the wilderness was a little ignorant, and his thoughts were missed. Fang Shao asked him, “Why are you so stupid.”
“Huh?” The wilderness looked up at him, “What?”
Fang Shao didn’t look at him, but just asked again: “What the **** are you doing?”
Wilder blinked his eyes, and after a few seconds his brain realized. Fang Shao’s face was a little bit heavy. The message on the field phone was half back. He squeezed his lips and finished the message. Then the phone pushed back and touched Shao Yi’s hand below. Asked him: “Are you angry?”
Fang Shaoyi said: “No, I just don’t know what you are thinking.”
The wilderness didn’t know what was the point of his anger. Anyway, the two of them have often been like this recently. Many trivial things will cause friction and upset. The wilderness didn’t know where he got angry, and he didn’t even know how to get back to him.
When he arrived in front of the car, Fang Shao took back his hand. The wilderness was empty of heart. He subconsciously clenched his fist, but failed to retain anything.
They are like this now, and the unreasonable friction is reconciled carefully, and it keeps cycling.
Fang Shaoyi is someone who cares about these little things, he and the wilderness rarely get angry, including now should not be angry. It’s just that the long-term tight nerves have made them too sensitive, and care is chaotic. The more you think, the more sensitive and sharp you are. No matter who has the status and the reputation, they are ordinary people in the final analysis, and no one can avoid these.
No one is more sober than feelings when they pull people off the altar.
After getting in the car, there was a long silence. Fang Shaoyi’s eyes were black and dark. After looking at the field, he turned his head and stopped looking.
Later, the wilderness broke the silence first, and he asked Fang Shaoyi: “Baby, you have to let me know how angry you are before I can know how to coax you.”
The expression on Fang Shao’s face did not change. He kept looking at the front, and later said in a deep voice, “You also have to let me know what you are thinking, and I really want to know.”
When he said this sentence, there was exhaustion in his tone, and the field could be heard at once. They are not the only one. They do n’t know when they get along with each other deliberately, but they do n’t deliberately have good results.
It’s pretty tiring, no one is easy.
Fang Shao’s feeling of helplessness and powerlessness seemed to make the heart of the wilderness feel a little bit of electricity, and the pain was burning.
What thoughts in the wilderness flashed through, and what was thought was directly conveyed: “If it is so tired then …”
Fang Shao looked over and stared at him. In the end, the last two words of the wilderness were still unspeakable and unwilling. It hurts too much to say.
He didn’t finish, Fang Shao turned back and asked nothing.
Silent all the way, the air in the car seemed to be frozen, there was a kind of suffocating dullness.
Finally, the car drove home, stopped in the basement, Fang Shao braked down one by one, and also opened the mouth: “I’m done.”
The wilderness unfastened his seat belt and lowered his head to touch the cigarette, but he had quit smoking for some time.
The reality is in front of us, and both of us are aware of the state for so long. I can’t figure it out.
If you ca n’t say more, you have to finally say that the field said softly in the dark before going to bed that night: “I want to keep my relationship young and fresh, let ’s not let it become old and weak.”
Fang Shaoyi never opened his mouth. He was silent as if there was no such thing. He even breathed so softly.
How hard it took the wilderness to say that sentence, and it took all his strength for more than ten years.
It was indeed a cold. I didn’t feel it before. This morning, my whole body was hurt with bones and flesh. His throat was speechless, and the burning sensation in his throat made him no longer want to speak. Fang Shaoyi had not seen him from beginning to end. When he got up in the morning, Fang Shaoyi went downstairs and went to the company in the morning. When he returned at noon, he brought porridge to the wilderness.
The wilderness had no appetite, but he ate all of it, leaving no grain of rice.
Fang Shaoyi was always calm, if nothing happened. The wilderness finished eating the porridge, and the two of them sat at the table and did not move. Fang Shaoyi suddenly reached out and touched the forehead of the wilderness, and said, “You burn or I burn.”
They didn’t burn, they were sober.
Fang Shaoyi looked at the wilderness’s eyes and asked him: “Think of it?”
The wilderness was too exhausted to say the sentence last night, but he couldn’t answer it anyway.
Fang Shao waited for him for a long time, then Fang Shao stood up, his voice was a little low, but calm, and asked him again: “Is it right?”
The headache in the field exploded, and it hurt everywhere. He was still sitting there, watching Fang Shaoyi’s eyes gradually red, his eyes facing each other, Yuan Yuan blinked his eyes, his mouth closed tightly. Fang Shao Yi sighed for a long time.
When Fang Shao ripped off the ring on his neck and threw it towards the wilderness, the wilderness reached for it. They threw things like this in the wilderness, they couldn’t take it, their hands were fast, but they didn’t know whether it was because of illness or what happened this day. He didn’t receive the string. The small metal ring fell to the ground with a soft sound.
The little voice knocked directly on the original ambition, and the heart was like glass, and the ground was broken one by one, and the fragments cut the flesh.
Fang Shao didn’t come back once he left. The wilderness called him a few times, but Fang Shao didn’t answer. Later, the wilderness hit Ji Xiaotao, and Ji Xiaotao also saw that they had a problem. They both spoke carefully, saying that Fang Shaoyi had nothing to do, so he didn’t have to worry.
There was almost no regret for what he said, and he never hesitated about what he decided to do.
But he was not at ease in this matter, and soon regretted it.
In Field 32, he and Fang Shaoyi have been together for fifteen years, and half of the time without Fang Shaoyi, I can hardly remember what it was like. How to separate?
The wilderness really regrets it, although no one knows better than him. For the two of them now, only this way is gone. But he regretted it.
When Fang Shao came back again and again, he took all the divorce agreements together, put them in the field, and said to him, “Sign it.”
The voice of the wilderness was so dumb that he could not speak, and asked him: “Did I see you?”
If Fang Shao did not answer him, he repeated: “Sign.”
The wilderness looked at the sheets of paper. The two of them had no children. The divorce did not involve the raising of children. Basically, it was all about property division. The wilderness glanced a few times, and then laughed. Fang Shaoyi was really generous.
The wilderness shook his head and cleared his throat before saying, “Brother, let’s talk again.”
Fang Shao stuffed it into his hand, his voice became colder and colder, frowning and saying to him: “No more, sign.”
The wilderness nose was sour, he put down the pen and reached out and rubbed it, then said a low voice: “It’s not right to divide the property, please score again.”
Fang Shao dragged his chair, sat down, nodded and said, “OK, what do you say?”
Both hands were placed on the head of the field, scratching the stubble above his head, his face buried in his arms and saying, “Both for you …”
As soon as Fang Shao closed his eyes, he paused for a moment before saying, “You just say what you want, and sign if you don’t want it.”
The wilderness stayed in this position, he cleared his throat several times and wanted to speak, but he never looked up. When the wilderness spoke at last, the voice was unstable, and with a dumb broken voice, the words were almost inaudible. He rarely made himself so embarrassed, the wilderness said: “… brother I don’t want to sign, I don’t want to leave.”
Fang Shaoyi looked at him in silence. The wilderness put his arms down and lay down. His face was buried on the table, his forehead rubbed back and forth twice on his wrist, and his voice was broken: “Can I take the words back? I coax you … No. How do I sign … did you chop my hand and sign it yourself? ”
It was still raining outside, and the crackling raindrops on the windows stained the room with coldness. Fang Shaoyi looked at the back of the field where the wild head was lying. The fundus is also clearly red, a broken red spot.
“Say something, brother,” the wilderness continued on his stomach, “I’m coaxing you to do it … let’s tear it up.”
The wilderness rarely spoke in such a gesture and in such a tone, and it was really soft. He never looked up, his words were stuffy, and his nasal voice was heavy.
He had never asked Fang Shaoyi so much, and he only did this occasionally when he was courting in bed. He wanted nothing to say so hard, no need. And there is nothing too much in the wilderness, the most obsessed in this life is nothing more than Fang Shaoyi.
The wilderness pushed the papers back to Fang Shao’s hand and sat up straight at him and said, “Can we do it again?”
It’s a good idea to play the wilderness, and Fang Shaoyi is also willing to see him playful. But at this moment, the wilderness refused to sign, but Fang Shaoyi didn’t buy it. He grabbed the pieces of paper and scratched the crease on the paper. As soon as Fang Shao stood up, the chair rubbed against the ground with a harsh sound, and the papers were slammed by Fang Shao on the field side.
As soon as Fang Shao walked over, he stood behind the wilderness, the pen was stuffed into his hand, and then he grabbed his hand and squeezed it hard, really hard.
“How long have you thought about it?” Fang Shaoyi’s voice could not have been glacial, the hands of the two held together, one for each, and the other squeezed, the pen trembling in the hands of the two. This posture is equivalent to Fang Shao holding the wilderness in his arms, and his mouth is close to the wilderness ear to speak, a more intimate posture.
“You want to say this sentence for a long time, don’t take it back when you say it.” Fang Shaoyi breathed into the ears of the wilderness when he spoke, and half of the body was numb. Fang Shaoyi continued, “Fifteen years , I didn’t give you what you want. ”
Fang Shao squeezed the hand of the wilderness and smashed it **** the paper, both of them hurt. The tip of the nose poked on the paper, leaving a small black spot. Fang Shaoyi said: “You don’t want it? What are you hesitant about?”
How could the strength of the wilderness be greater than that of Fang Shao. How much has Fang Shao shot in a play, and he has been practicing fist for years. The Wild Bone Festival was almost crushed, and Fang Shao squeezed his hand and signed “The Wilderness” with a strong paper back.
The wilderness is always the same, Fang Shaoyi is not? Fang Shaoyi’s decision has not been changed easily. He rarely expresses his emotions strongly, as if he has no temper. But he insisted on what he wanted to do like now, and the wilderness knew that it couldn’t be stopped.
As soon as Fang Shao wants to divorce, then this marriage must be divorced.
Yuan Yuan shook the hand that was pinched by Fang Shao before, and his fingers opened and closed, and then stroked his heart with this numb hand.
It’s all numb and empty.
Fang Shao was one or twenty years old, and the wilderness was seventeen years old. At that time, they were all fiery teenagers. They tried and collided.
After five years of love, two crazy young people are desperate to tell the world. What are they afraid of? What are they afraid of getting married?
Another ten years later, a paper agreement and a stamp were exchanged for a divorce certificate.