Amnesia - Chapter 21

After shower Arman came for dinner.He is in his normal pajamas.His hair was messy and wet. The dripping water from his hair on his forehead,was addind an extra level of handsomeness..

After having dinner Arman went back to his room.He seemed to be in a bad mood.So Anastasia didn’t talk with him about Lisa.

Anastasia took a shower and dressed in nightgown.She was wearing a of white color sleeveless silk gown that reaches toward her knee.She applied some moisturiser on her face and put some lip bum.She prepared her bad as her back was touching the bed she heard some cracking sound from the Arman’s room.She almost jumped of her bed.What’s this noise!What happened to Arman….

Anastasia heard cracking sound from her brother’s room.She almost jumped out her bed.What’s that?Is her brother alright!!!!!

She hurried to Arman’s room.She was already so stressed now this situation made her mind worse.Her heart is throbbing like a jet plane that any time it would burst open her chest.Many bad thoughts are surrounding her mind.What if the stalker would anything bad to her brother?Or if it is from her past that came haunting for her close ones!If this really happens,what would she do?Did she ever forgive herself?

“No.I can’t.I cant never forgive myself.”

Anastasia was praying a lot in her subconscious mind for Arman that anything wouldn’t happen to her.Otherwise she could never forgive herself.

She hurried to her brother’s room almost holding her breath and pushed the door.

The door wide opened.

“Thanks god.” She sighed a breath of relief.

Armam was alright nothing happened to him.But what’s happened to him!!He was sitting in the floor holding his forhead and the pieces of broken wine bottles were scattering in the floor.Why is he is behaving like this mess?Her gentle brother was really looking like a mess.He seemed like he is in a lot of depression.Something in his heart is eating him.He is in a lot of pain.

What is his cause of depression?Can’t he even share it with her?Doesn’t he consider as her sister?Is she that unworthy that he is sinking in his misery alone!!

“Brother…” Anastasia gently called her.She really wanted know everything of her pain.She wanted to share his sorrows.

“Anastasia.” Arman looked at her with his bloodshoted eye.He seemed like he cried for a long time.

Anastasia stepped close to him.She touched his shoulder and patted with a light touch.

“Why are you so sad?” Anastasia asked worriedly.She was really very anxious in her heart seeing her brother’s conditions.

“Am I a very bad brother to you?Anastasia? ” Arman asked expressionlessly.

“What?” Anastasia was surprised.”What are you saying?”She never thought Arman could think that about himself.

“I am a very bad person Ana….A failure son…now a failure brother.”

Tears were rolling from his beautiful eyes.His eyes was full of guilt and sorrow.Anastasia’s heart ached.This beautiful eyes didnt deserve sorrow or pain.They only deserve sparkling happyness.

“No..You are not bad!You never were a failure son neither a bad brother.Why did you think that?” Anastasia tried to console him.

She just knew him for few months.But its enough to understand any person.To her opinion,Arman is the best brother!He never can be a failure.

“I should brought mom to myself.You know,Ana?I asked her many time but she never listened to me.She always wanted to stay there alone all by herself…”Arman said in a hoarse voice.

Anastasia took his hand between her hands and stroked with her finger.Tried to calm him down.

” But I shouldn’t listen to her.I should took her here with me.If she were with me,she might be alive!It’s my fault all my fault.I should bring her with me”He started breathing heavily.Her beautiful brown eyes were revealing just regret for her mother’s death.

“No brother.It’s not your fault.In fact nobody’s fault.It’s just cruel fate that we can’t change.Nobody can do anything about this.” Anastasia felt very sad.

May be sadness is kind of contagious.A moment before Arman was sad and now Anastasia was sad for the same reason.

“No,Ana…You wont understand.I only had mom in this world whom I loved the most.She was my world!Nobody ever tried to understand me except her…..” Arman closed his eyes.He is in a lot of pain.Which is not physical.May be physical pain is better than mental pain.Its easily cured by painkiller but is there anything that lessens mental pain?

“Big brother!!!I know aunt Katty was your world,your everything.But I think you forget you also have a little sister who loves you very much.”Anastasia said with a fake angerness.

Arman smiled sadly.He patted her head with soft touch as if she is a glass doll.With a little bit of crude touch can broke her apart.

” huh…I almost forgot.I have an extra mature sister.Who always tried acting like an adult who is just a kid”

“Brother!!” Anastasia called her playfully.

“I am happy that you came to my life.Thank you Ana!Thank you very much.” He touched her hand.

“I need to thank you.Except you and Katty anuty what would I do?” Anastasia said indifferently.

“Ana!”

“Yes brother…”

“If you ever find out in the future that I am not that kind of person that you always think…..You would leave my side?Like mom?” Arman asked with his pleading eyes.

“No…..I know that would never happen!You will be always my best brother.”

Anastasia hugged his arm like a little girl.

Arman sighed a long breath.With this short period of time he grew a great bond with her.After Katty she is the one,that he slightly opened up for.He really didnt want to lose her like his mom.