Back To My Husband’s Youth - Chapter 153

Shen Shao stumbled all the way and walked out, his expression dimmed. Those eyes that were quite similar to Li Qinyuan’s eyes seemed to have extinguished all the light at this time, and they were even more hollow than this late night.

Seeing his look, Chang Feng was shocked, and quickly greeted him, holding Shen Shao’s arm, worrying: “Master, are you okay?”

“…It’s okay.”

Shen Shao shook his head, his voice was hoarse, and if he didn’t listen carefully, he wouldn’t even be able to hear him.

Without letting Chang Feng help him, he turned his head and glanced behind him. The night was dark. The curtains he raised earlier had already calmed down. The hand behind him was held tightly by him. Gu Yu told him those things before. Still lingering in his ears, every word like a knife, pierced into his heart again and again, so painful that he even wanted to curl up on the ground regardless of dignity.

“Has anyone seen it?” He asked Chang Feng in a mute voice.

Even at such a time, he still cared about her and didn’t want others to know it, for fear of ruining her reputation.

“No, the subordinates have been guarding the outside, no one came in, only the close maid beside Miss Gu…” Chang Feng said hesitantly, “She came from the small kitchen, and the subordinates were far away and couldn’t stop her.”

“She’s okay.” Shen Shao said dumbly, then glanced at the cloth curtain again, then retracted his gaze, and said solemnly: “…let’s go.”

I want to come later–

He will never come again.

He was never afraid to offend the powerful, nor to offend his Majesty. Even if he loses all the games and wants to start from the beginning, he has never been afraid… But what should he do? His Ah Woo doesn’t want him at all, for her, he is a burden and a burden.

His existence will only make her uncomfortable and painful.

Shen Shao wanted to laugh, but couldn’t laugh, Qing Jun’s face had a smile that was even more ugly than crying.

When he was young, he also hated Gu Yu. He felt that his love was ruined in vain. He felt that the sincere love of so many years was just a lie. At that time, he even thought about waiting until one day. When he ascends to a high position, he must take his wife and children to stand in front of Gu Yu, to make her regret it.

But later…

He left the capital, went to many places, and finally returned to the capital. He originally thought that after such a long age, he could let go…no longer love her or hate her, treat her as a stranger, Or an old friend.

Maybe,

Wait a few more years.

When his mind becomes more stable, he may also sit at the same table with her and toast a cup of tea for the past.

But after all, he still looked at himself highly, Gu Yu was his calamity, he was the mortal evil that he could not detect in his whole life…and also his female bodhisattva, and the only one who supported him in the dim years. hope.

But his female bodhisattva doesn’t want him anymore.

No matter what he does, she doesn’t want him.

The smile on Shen Shao’s face was really ugly. He walked out step by step, and his figure was still like a straight green bamboo, but it made people feel as if he would fall down at any time.

Chang Feng, who was standing next to him, saw him like this, and didn’t know how to persuade him. He was a dumb mouth, but he felt that if the master was like this, it would be better to cry. It’s better than laughing or crying like this. He just wanted to talk. In one sentence, I heard footsteps coming from behind.

Shen Shao heard it too.

He stopped and turned his head, his dim eyes reflected a dazzling light, but when he saw someone coming, the light that had only risen in his eyes suddenly went out again.

Not her.

He was not interested in talking, and looked at Qiuyue lightly.

Qiuyue ran too fast, this would make her breathing a little bit difficult, but she stared at Shen Shao, as if she had cried, red, and when her breathing became smooth, she opened her mouth and asked severely, “Master Shen, you When is it going to torture the young lady?!”

Before Shen Shao spoke, Chang Feng frowned.

He twisted his eyebrows, and said solemnly: “What do you mean? The master is here to deliver medicine to Miss Gu! The ginseng Yang Rongwan was prepared by the master with reference to ancient books and invited countless prestigious doctors. You… …”

He couldn’t bear to be misunderstood by the master’s kindness, but Shen Shao didn’t want to mention it. Just about to interrupt Changfeng, he heard the always calm Qiuyue sneer and said: “Give me medicine? Our government is short of this bottle. Two bottles of medicine? Want you to send it at night?!”

Without waiting for the master and servant to speak, she said again: “Master Shen, you have known the young lady since childhood, don’t you know what kind of illness she is? You know that the young lady is not suitable for sorrows and joys, so why do you appear again and again? In front of her!”

Shen Shao frowned, stopped what he wanted to say, and asked her, “What do you mean?”

Could it be…

His heart sighed, Gu Yu was actually because of him this time?

But why?

Doesn’t she not love him? Don’t you wish you never knew him? When I saw him just now, I could look at him with a cold face, and what he said was harsher than that of a cold winter knife. How could such a Gu get sick for him?

There seemed to be a thought flashing in his mind, but that thought was too fast and too anxious, and disappeared without waiting for him to catch it.

Seeing Qiuyue, whose eyes were red and looking at him with hatred, Shen Shao suddenly became anxious. He took a step and took Qiuyue’s arm, and almost eagerly asked: “Say, what do you mean?! Gu To her, she treats me…”

The arm was gripped hard, and Qiuyue frowned in pain, but she did not struggle, pursing her red lips and said bitterly: “Master Shen, everyone says you are smart, you are amazing, and you are rare in this world. A sensible person, but why are you just like a fool in some things!”

This is really not nice words.

Chang Feng changed his face on the spot, but without Shen Shao’s instructions, he didn’t dare to act rashly, so he could only look at Qiuyue with displeased eyes.

And what about Qiuyue?

Her face was mocking and hate, “Don’t you think it’s weird? The lady is self-conscious and kind. She usually gets off the car to give some money when she sees a beggar she doesn’t know. There is a maid at home who is sick and helps Looking for a doctor to give money… But why do you say such decisive words when you need her most?”

“After so many years, haven’t you doubted it?”

“I……”

Shen Shao looked panic, and his voice was dumb, “I don’t believe she is that kind of person, but she said…”

Qiuyue interrupted him without waiting for him to finish, “She said she doesn’t love you, and that you can live a good life without you…” Looking at the expression on Shen Shao’s face, she wanted to laugh, but she felt that Her young lady is so pitiful.

Her young lady has lost her life since she was a child and was raised by the old lady by her side.

Other children can cry and laugh, act coquettishly and play around, but what about her young lady? When she was still literate, she had already read Buddhist scriptures. Because the scriptures were able to calm down, she followed the rules every day, never laughed, and seldom cried.

Her young lady is intelligent, gentle, tolerant, and at home, who doesn’t like her?

She was only presumptuous once in her life, she secretly liked someone without telling others.

Qiuyue still remembers that, a long time ago, her young lady said to her, “Qiuyue, I seem to like someone.” I also remember the first time the lady was drunk when she agreed to Shen’s pursuit, holding a wine glass, and bringing her Unable to hide Huanxi and said to her, “I know that a person like me is not qualified to be with others, but he is so kind, I like him so much, and I like it until I know I shouldn’t, it’s impossible, and it’s impossible. I still can’t help but want to get closer to him, closer.”

…

“If you don’t care about you, why did the young lady bother to inquire about you all these years?”

“If you don’t like you, why would she be so sad to know that you are married to Princess Changping? Do you know how difficult it has been for the young lady in the past few years? Do you know how much she felt in her heart when she said those things to you? Uncomfortable?!”

“You don’t know anything…”

“You only know that the lady has lost you, and you only know that the lady is sorry for you.”

“But who knows her suffering?”

Tears flowed down, Qiuyue broke away from Shen Shao’s hand, squatted on the ground with her knees, and started crying. I don’t know how long it took before she said dumbly: “Shen Shao, Lord Shen, if you want to know the past Just ask your good mother and ask what she said to the lady back then…”

Shen Shao said dumbly, “Mother…”

He looked down at the crying Qiuyue, then looked at the calm curtain in the distance, and suddenly strode over there, with urgency and panic. He wanted to know what happened that year, but When the hand touched the curtain, he stopped.

There was a dense cry from the room, like a whimper from hiding in a quilt, with restraint and depression…

It seems that I am afraid that others will know, so I don’t even dare to cry.

Shen Shao didn’t dare to go in suddenly.

He already knew what Qiuyue had said in his heart, and he also understood that her previous cold words were all disguise.

It is because he understands that he dare not go in at this time.

If everything is as Qiuyue said, then what is his hatred for her for so many years…what?

Knowing that she was not in good health, she had to come to her again and again, and she couldn’t see her being better with others, so when I saw her and Han Ziqian together that day, he dashed against her identity and wanted her answer, so she was intimidated by drunkenness… …

The heart is like being pierced with a needle, causing dense pain.

Shen Shao stood at the door holding his heart. He didn’t know how long he stood. He only knew that the night was getting darker. He only knew that the people in the house seemed to be tired from crying and fell asleep. Then he dared to sneak in and sit on the side of the bed. She wiped away the tears from her face, and then watched her sit for a while before walking out.

Qiuyue and Changfeng are just outside.

Seeing him coming out, Qiuyue didn’t say a word, and wanted to lift the curtain to go in on the spot.

“Take care of her.” Hearing Shen Shao’s voice behind her, Qiuyue paused, and went in without a word.

Only Shen Shao’s servant remained in the yard. Chang Feng looked at Shen Shao who looked bad and whispered: “Master, we are now…”

“Come back home.”

He needs to know what happened that year!

Shen family.

In Mrs. Shen’s room.

The lights were still not over, the old lady Shen in plain clothes was kneeling on the futon, her hand twisted with the beads, her mouth closed, she was silently reading the Buddhist scriptures, hearing the sound from outside and the sound of approaching footsteps, she She didn’t open her eyes, she was still reading the Buddhist scriptures, and she didn’t open her mouth until one volume of the scriptures was finished, “I’m back.”

The sound is very low.

Shen Shao did not speak, looked down at his mother’s figure, and said for a long time: “Back then, what did you say to her?”

Twisting the hand of the Buddha beads, but it was only a momentary effort, and Mrs. Shen returned to normal again. She raised her eyes to the Buddha who was rescuing the suffering in the altar, and only after a while, she said, “Things have passed for so long, so why bother? Ask again.”

“mother,”

Shen Shao said in a deep voice, “I want to know.”

A slight sigh sounded in the room, and Mrs. Shen Yu Guang saw the red eyes of the young child behind her, and after all she removed the beads from her hand, and whispered: “You and your elder sister are the only two children in my life, your elder sister. It’s a bad-fortune. You left me early, and you… but you like a bad-fortune again.”

Shen Shao understood this as soon as he heard this.

He looked at his mother’s figure in disbelief, and said dumbly, “Are you because of Ah’s body? But you obviously like her, you…”

“I like her.” Mrs. Shen interrupted him, “Ah is a good boy. No one dislikes her. Doesn’t it mean that I know that she is weak and died prematurely. together.”

“I know what kind of temper you are, and what affection you have for her.”

“You are a passionate species just like your sister. If the child leaves you one day, I’m afraid you won’t live long.”

“Yu Qian——”

She sighed in a low voice, “I have sent away your sister. I really don’t want to give away white-haired people to black-haired people.”

Shen Shao was speechless, and said for a while: “But you shouldn’t…should not let her open this mouth, shouldn’t let me misunderstand and resent her for so many years. You know her body is not good, you know… Mother, you have really loved her once, you, how can you bear it?”

Mrs. Shen was silent for a long time, “If I tell you, would you like it?”

Shen Shao pursed his lips without answering.

He was naturally unwilling. He knew from the beginning that her health was not good, but even so, he loved her deeply. For him, if he could stay with Gu for one day, they would have more The joy of a day.

“She won’t.”

Mrs. Shen said: “She said, she doesn’t want to last long, but only hopes to accompany you through this difficult period… It was me who knelt in front of her cruelly and begged her to let you go. Yu Qian, you can blame me. No matter what you hate me, as your mother, I never seek prosperity and wealth, I only hope that you will be safe for your life.”

Shen Shao didn’t know what to say, he couldn’t blame her.

His mother lost her middle-aged daughter and later lost her husband. She watched the Shen family’s family fall and watched others ridicule… But she had never bowed her head with anyone.

Over the years, his mother has accompanied him on his travels. As she said, she only hopes that his life will be stable.

But where’s his Ah? How bad is she?

He couldn’t imagine how her mother felt when she knelt before her? She loved her elders since she was a child, but one day she knelt in front of her and begged her to let her son go. He couldn’t imagine how she came to him later and said such decisive words.

It is even harder to imagine how difficult she has been in recent years.

The **** air in his throat seemed to grow stronger, and Shen Shao pinched his fingers, red eyes, and forcibly endured it.

Suddenly there was no voice in the room, and neither mother nor son spoke.

The evening breeze patted the window woods, and only after a short while, Mrs. Shen’s slightly tired voice came, “Do what you want, do it. I originally thought that you can stay far away and you can be well.”

“But in the past few years…”

“I watched you depress day by day, it would be better to… let you be together from the beginning.”

That way,

At least it can be happy for a few years.

She spent five years trying to prove that there was no future between them, and that after they were separated, they could live well with each other. Unexpectedly, five years later, the girl who laughed at Yan Yan from the preface has become more and more quiet, and Her gentle and gentle son… is getting more and more depressed.

Thinking of Gu Yu’s “Mrs. Shen” that day, her hand holding the Buddhist beads trembled slightly.

It was her who personally ruined the two children.

The next day.

Gu Wuyou and Changping were taking the cold in the yard. There was a rain last night. Today the temperature is not as high as before, but the sky is bluer than before… The two sisters haven’t seen each other for a while. , This meeting also didn’t let people wait, and talked about oneself.

“After a while, the princess mansion will be cleaned up, and you can go out of the palace.” Gu Wuyou held a group fan in his hand, but he didn’t fan it for a while, but his expression was a little bit happy. “We will see you in the future. Speaking is much easier.”

Chang Ping said in distress, “The queen mother is reluctant to bear me, she insists on waiting for me to come out to live after the big wedding.”

“That’s not long.” Gu Wuyou smiled, “You, I have been with my aunt for a while. When you get married in the future, you can’t go back from time to time.” After thinking about it, he asked: “You and Shen Have you got along with your uncle?”

Hearing her talk about this, Chang Ping was a little unhappy.

I couldn’t eat the fruit anymore. I held the kerchief and wiped my hands, pouting, and said with an unhappy expression: “Originally, my brother opened a table yesterday and invited him to come. He also called me, thinking Let us get along before we get married, so that we won’t be unfamiliar in the future.”

“Why don’t you think…”

“I waited for him for a long time and never saw him come. Later, someone came back and said that there was something wrong and couldn’t come.”

The more she talked about it, the more unhappy she was, but she was not the kind of person who would hit people and smash things when she got angry, wringing her veil, and humming, “I don’t want to marry him anymore.”

“You can’t say such a thing.”

Gu Wuyou took a fan and patted the back of her hand lightly. “You and Uncle Shen’s marriage was bestowed by your uncle himself. Besides, Uncle Shen’s is not an unruly person. I’m afraid something happened yesterday. This was delayed. .”

Just now, Bai Lu came to spread the word, “Master, Lord Shen is here.”

These words made the two masters in the yard stunned. After a while, Gu Wuyou smiled and said to Changping: “Look, what did I say, Uncle Shen must have known you are here, so I came to apologize to you. .”

Although Chang Ping didn’t speak, his cheeks were slightly red, and the little mouth he had been pouting a moment ago also lifted slightly.

It looks a little happy.

The eyes are also looking outside, and the expression on his face is also expectant.

Gu Wuyou followed Li Qinyuan’s call to Shen Shao’s uncle, and did not evade him, and invited the person in. He saw that the person came in from the outside in a white coat without official uniform today. Just as he was about to get up to greet others, he saw Shen Shao head towards Changping. He knelt down in the direction of his.