Back To the Past To Fall In Love - Chapter 56
Heart pounding.
Xu Ziran remembered this word again.
Does it mean when the heart starts beating violently?
Xu Ziran thought that Qiu Yurou would definitely be able to hear her heartbeat.
But who can be in such a situation without straining their nerves and making it difficult to breathe?
But what is this situation?
She was indistinguishable.
She began to regret that she had lived for so long in her last life, but she had never been in a relationship, so that she could not take it easy in the face of such petty troubles.
— Take it easy.
Xu Ziran told herself this.
– It’s just a little girl acting like a spoiled child, relax.
The heart gradually calmed down after it seemed to be beating violently for a century. Only then did Xu Ziran realize that Qiu Yu’s soft and furry head was lying motionless against her chest.
Xu Ziran’s hand was hanging on Qiu Yurou’s head, not daring to press it down completely, so he just put it lightly on his hair, and unconsciously brushed the hair on the other’s cheek.
However, when she realized what she was doing, she didn’t know where to put her hands.
Qiu Yurou in his arms was motionless, Xu Ziran’s body froze for a while, and finally he couldn’t help but ask in a soft voice, “Fish, are you still awake?”
Qiu Yurou did not move.
Xu Ziran gradually relaxed, she thought, Qiu Yurou must have fallen asleep.
She gently withdrew her hand from the other’s head, and didn’t know where to put it, so she simply pressed it on her own.
She pinched her hair and sighed in her heart: Ah, Qiu Yurou is still softer.
After thinking this way, she once again felt a sense of guilt for **** after a minor. For a while, I don’t know if it was a psychological and instinctive compensation, and the memory of Qiu Yurou in the future became clear again.
Like all friends, they talked about relationships.
It’s just that two equally inexperienced people are really unconvincing when they talk about this, and they can’t even tell a story. In the end, it becomes a purely theoretical analysis.
“What the **** is love?”
In the coffee shop, Xu Ziran saw the couple kissing in the corner and asked this question.
Qiu Yurou said, “This problem is too big and too broad.”
Xu Ziran thought for a moment, then asked, “Then do you think there is love at first sight in this world?”
“Of course it exists.” Qiu Yurou agreed simply.
“What about long-term love?”
“Also.”
“Which one would you prefer?”
Qiu Yurou fell silent.
Xu Ziran still remembered that in the silence, Qiu Yurou pinched the earlobe with her hand supporting her cheek, her eyes gradually emptied, as if she had thought of something.
So, what is the answer?
Xu Ziran wanted to turn over, but because Qiu Yurou was in her arms, she didn’t dare to move.
The answer seems to be-
In the cafe where soothing music was flowing, Qiu Yurou said, “If I fell in love at first sight, but the other person didn’t, I would hope that I would fall in love with Rijiu.”
“Because love is such a selfish thing. If you’re not careful, it will be doomed.”
While saying this, Qiu Yurou lowered her eyes slightly and cast her gaze on her hand.
At that time, looking at Qiu Yurou with a stunned gaze, Xu Ziran didn’t know why, and felt that the other party must have someone he likes.
This may be some kind of tacit understanding between friends, or a woman’s intuition, but it was at that moment that I had such an idea.
But when I think about it now, I’m not quite sure, because Qiu Yurou never lies, and like her, even if she doesn’t know something about herself, she will talk seriously for a long time.
From this point of view, it is clear that neither of them are talkative people in front of others, and they do not know who infected who.
The indifferent expression in the memory of adult Qiu Yurou made Xu Ziran completely calm down.
She is now beginning to feel that her feverish brain just now is so outrageous.
Of course, things like begging for a pat on the head are really cute, especially when it’s done by a shy fifteen-year-old girl, but it would be too beast to have any thoughts about a little girl because of such a thing.
Qiu Yurou would ask for such a reward, presumably because such a family could not give her a warm relationship at all.
After all, Xu Ziran is an adult psychologically. After calming down, his thoughts began to diverge, his nervousness subsided a little, and the memories of this evening flooded up together.
Too many things happened after this evening, Xu Ziran picked them out one by one.
She actually met Luo Feifei in advance, and she passed through Fan Yijia.
Xu Ziran remembered clearly that Luo Feifei and Fan Yijia in the previous life had no connection at all, they were two straight parallel lines.
Luo Feifei should now be a sophomore in the directing department of the Beijing Film Academy. If she can join a production crew as an assistant director, she must have gone through the back door.
After all, Luo Feifei personally told her back then that she didn’t have any talent for being a director at all, and she was still able to shoot small videos.
At that time, Luo Feifei had the live broadcast website with the most active users. As the CEO, she was one of the most popular Internet celebrities.
But now Luo Feifei will come to this crew as an assistant director, presumably because he is interested in being a director, not in the state of “tired of filming” later.
Fan Yijia wants to enter the Beijing Film Academy, no doubt because of Luo Feifei, the two of them are really looking at each other, regardless of you and me.
But Xu Ziran doesn’t want to care about these things. The biggest problem is that now Tian Jiaqi is hooked and wants to enter the entertainment industry.
Where is the entertainment industry such a good place? Xu Ziran only had occasional contact in his last life, and he knew countless things about pickling, not to mention that the right time, place and people are indispensable for becoming popular. There is no good luck. Human head, it is easy to be fascinated by the glitz and glamour inside, and it will be difficult to go back to the ordinary road at that time.
Xu Ziran still couldn’t help thinking about Tian Jiaqi, and felt that even if he wanted to enter the entertainment industry, he had to go to college, not now.
However, I was a little irritable tonight, and I was reminded of bad memories. The words are a bit heavy, and I should talk about some truths again tomorrow…
Thinking about this, she gradually became sleepy, and she fell asleep without knowing when.
The steady and even breathing undulated in the room with the sound of the air conditioner. After a while, Qiu Yurou stuck her head out of the quilt, and gradually wriggled to a position flush with Xu Ziran.
Of course she wasn’t asleep.
She is not sleepy at all.
She felt that her whole body had a fever and her head was dizzy, but her whole body was not sober.
The curtains were pulled tightly, and there was no light cast. In the room, there was only the yellow light of the air conditioner, which represented the open state, and the red light of the TV that was not completely turned off.
The warm and dull light gave the whole room a strange enchantment. Through this light, Qiu Yurou saw Xu Ziran’s calm face.
Qiu Yurou was nervous and scared, feeling that her hands were constantly shaking.
She whispered, “Cumin, cumin?”
Xu Ziran should have indeed fallen asleep, so he didn’t respond.
But Qiu Yurou was still nervous, so she couldn’t help but mention her voice and called out, “Xu Ziran.”
As soon as she finished speaking, someone on the other bed said, “Crazy, don’t let people sleep in the middle of the night.”
Tian Jiaqi didn’t reduce her volume at all, so although she didn’t raise her voice, it was loud enough in this dark night.
Qiu Yurou suddenly held her breath, worried that even if Xu Ziran fell asleep just now, she would wake up now.
However, Xu Ziran was sound asleep and motionless.
Instead, Tian Jiaqi turned over and turned to the other side.
Qiu Yurou thought: Xu Ziran really fell asleep.
She remembered that when Xu Ziran fell asleep at night, she also slept soundly, as if she would not wake up no matter what happened next to her.
This is completely different from her. She always wakes up if there is a little movement.
It was as if today, the hotel’s air conditioner was not working well and the sound was a little too loud, so she couldn’t hear anyone at all, feeling that her ears were being crushed by the noise.
But there may be other reasons as well. Who knows.
Qiu Yurou finally grew bolder and raised her hand to touch Xu Ziran’s face.
She gently traced the contours of the other person’s face with her fingers, first her forehead, then her eyebrows, her eyelashes swept across her palm, Qiu Yurou’s fingers trembled slightly, crossing the bridge of her nose and reaching her lips.
She stopped.
She didn’t dare to use force, she only felt that she was touching something soft and warm, so she suddenly retracted her hand, squeezed her fist and placed it on her heart.
I had a kiss last time.
This time, he dared not.
Qiu Yurou wanted to follow her heart and do what she wanted to do.
But if you think about it carefully, following your own heart seems like a coward.
But that’s not cowardice, it’s something that shouldn’t be done in the first place.
It is despicable to do such a thing without the consent of others.
But this despicable thing has already been done, what should we do?
Qiu Yurou opened her eyes to dawn in such a tangle.
When it was almost dawn, when she saw that Xu Ziran was about to wake up, she hurriedly closed her eyes and pretended to be asleep, but she actually fell asleep.
So when Xu Ziran and Tian Jiaqi woke up, Qiu Yurou fell asleep instead.
Xu Ziran got out of bed and went to the toilet to wash up. When he came out, Tian Jiaqi was already sitting on the head of the bed, staring at her blankly.
Xu Ziran remembered what happened yesterday, and said softly, “I’m sorry, I said too much yesterday.”
Tian Jiaqi snorted coldly and said, “I don’t know what you are talking about.”
Xu Ziran gave a “shh”, pointed at Qiu Yurou, and said, “She hasn’t woken up yet.”
Tian Jiaqi rolled her eyes, but she didn’t look for trouble, she lowered her voice and said, “What you said yesterday is the truth?”
Xu Ziran hesitated a little, but finally nodded.
Tian Jiaqi’s eyes suddenly darkened, but she still pretended to be calm and pursed her teeth and said, “That’s it.”
Xu Ziran then said, “It’s true and it’s not true. I said it too hastily yesterday, and I didn’t make it clear. Let’s talk about it later.”
Tian Jiaqi stood up, put on trousers and slippers, put on a coat and said, “Let’s go to the corridor and talk.”
Xu Ziran saw that Tian Jiaqi opened the door directly and went out, and had no choice but to follow him out, because he didn’t have a coat, he put on a bath towel.
Fortunately, there were not many people outside. Probably because it was too early, there were not many people staying in this hotel.
There was a thick red carpet in the corridor, and when she stepped on it, she sank. Tian Jiaqi asked while stepping on the carpet, “Then what are you talking about?”
Xu Ziran leaned against the door, not knowing what to say for a while.
Tian Jiaqi was surprisingly patient and waited so quietly.
Xu Ziran finally said, “You can enter the entertainment industry, but only after the college entrance examination.”
Tian Jiaqi didn’t understand: “Zhang Ailing always said that it is time to be famous. Now there is an opportunity, why not seize it?”
“You thought you took your chance, maybe all you took was the snake’s tail.”
“What’s the meaning?”
“…It doesn’t have to be so urgent, you always have a chance – not this kind of chance.”
The conversation paused for a while, Tian Jiaqi still didn’t know what Xu Ziran said, and Xu Ziran also felt that what he said was pointless.
“But this is not the case with Sister Fan.” Tian Jiaqi said again.
“Fan Yijia is different.”
“She is prettier.”
“It’s not because of this—it’s not because of Luo … Luo Lun.” Xu Ziran read Luo Feifei’s English name lamely.
Tian Jiaqi paused and asked, “Why is that?”
Xu Ziran felt that he should say something, but because he was afraid of revealing something that shouldn’t be revealed, he was almost agitated.
“Just trust me, wait two more years, the environment will be better, there will be more opportunities, you will be admitted to a good school, you will have an academic bonus, and your fan loyalty and pride will be higher, isn’t it better?”
Tian Jiaqi looked at Xu Ziran.
She noticed that Xu Ziran was a little anxious, so she felt relieved.
In fact, when she talked about “entering the entertainment industry” last night, she just saw those beautiful and defiant female stars, so she made up her mind temporarily. If Xu Ziran really had no opinion, she might not be able to make up her mind, but Xu Ziran suddenly said to her. With such a heavy word, her whole figure seemed to be ringing in a bell, and her brain was buzzing.
Is it because Xu Ziran’s heart is already insignificant that she can say such words so easily? Tian Jiaqi couldn’t help thinking like this last night.
But now seeing Xu Ziran’s anxious eyes because of her, Tian Jiaqi’s heart relaxed.
She knew that Xu Ziran was still thinking about a lot of things for herself.
As a result, she didn’t care so much about Xu Ziran’s explanation, nodded and said: “Actually, I thought so too, what I said yesterday was really a joke, if that kind of thing is really done, no. Just shameless.”
Xu Ziran breathed a sigh of relief: “In fact, even if you don’t judge by moral standards, if you choose a shortcut, you will definitely have to pay it elsewhere – although this is another matter.”
Tian Jiaqi nodded: “Okay, okay, I’ll talk about it later, I’ll go in and brush my teeth too.”
The two reopened the door and walked in.
After the door was closed again, the door on the other side opened.
Luo Feifei walked out of the room like she had no bones and leaned against the wall in the corridor.
She took a cigarette out of her pocket and lit it.
After a long while, he muttered to himself, “Tsk tsk tsk, I seem to have met a very interesting person.”
…
The morning light is getting thicker.
When Qiu Yurou opened her eyes again, Xu Ziran was getting dressed.
She took off her T-shirt and was wearing a bra, revealing a smooth and delicate back. Because she was too thin, she had a jagged butterfly bone and a concave back. Thin fingers fastened the back button and closed her chest forward.
Qiu Yurou looked at it and realized what she was looking at again. She closed her eyes quickly, but Xu Ziran said, “Fish, are you awake?”
Qiu Yurou didn’t know where she was showing off, so she quickly turned over and pretended that she wasn’t awake.
Xu Ziran didn’t call again. After a while, there was a rustling sound of flipping books.
Qiu Yurou waited for another two minutes before pretending to wake up, stretched her waist and said, “You guys have already woken up.”
Xu Ziran looked at the reminder that the system flashed two minutes ago—
[Added daily tasks: Dear host, a beautiful morning has come, and your target character has woken up, maybe it’s time to have a good morning kiss to deepen our relationship~ (skill value 200)]
Xu Ziran cursed inwardly: This system is really crazy!
She ignored this task, and seeing Qiu Yurou’s haggard expression, she worried: “You didn’t sleep well last night?”
Before Qiu Yurou could answer, Tian Jiaqi, who came out of the toilet, said, “She still called your name in the middle of the night last night, and I don’t know if she didn’t sleep or was talking in her sleep.”
Qiu Yurou didn’t want to admit that she called Xu Ziran’s name in the middle of the night, so she immediately replied, “It’s a dream talk.”
Tian Jiaqi’s expression was even weirder: “What are you dreaming about in the middle of the night? You dream of calling out Cumin’s name?”
Qiu Yurou: “…”
The young Qiu Yurou did not expect that she seemed to make the situation more complicated.
Xu Ziran hurriedly said: “What’s so strange about this, didn’t I cry in my dreams when I was a child? But after I woke up, I didn’t remember what I dreamed at all, and I probably won’t remember the fish either.”
Qiu Yurou pressed her forehead, initially confused and confused, saying that she really couldn’t remember.
Tian Jiaqi didn’t bother, packed her things, and said at the same time, “Did you say the next door woke up, do you want to knock on the door?”
As soon as the voice fell, the door was knocked, and Luo Feifei’s lazy voice came from the door: “Come out and go directly to the restaurant for breakfast.”
After speaking, without waiting for an answer, there was no movement.
Qiu Yurou hurriedly finished washing and dressing, the three of them walked downstairs, went to the lobby and asked where the restaurant was, and came to the restaurant according to the directions of the service staff.
The breakfast in the restaurant is a buffet. When Tian Jiaqi saw the pasta, she wanted to eat it. Xu Ziran took some bread and put it in the toaster to wait for it to be cooked.
When she turned around and saw Qiu Yurou was still following her, she said, “Fish meat, what do you want to eat, get it yourself.”
Qiu Yurou blinked and said, “I also want to eat toast.”
Xu Ziran said, “Okay, I’ll bake it for you later.”
Qiu Yurou looked at the drink: “What drink do you want?”
Xu Ziran said, “Hot milk is ready.”
As a result, the two of them took their own breakfasts, all of which were exactly the same.
Xu Ziran smiled, and felt that Qiu Yurou’s behavior was not disgusting at all.
She raised her head to find a seat, and saw Luo Feifei sitting beside the bed beckoning to them and told them to go over.
Under the morning light, Luo Feifei’s demeanor was powerless and lazy, her eyes were slack, and there was a kind of casual beauty.
– Actually, it looked like he was on drugs.
Xu Ziran frowned slightly, thinking that this matter might not be just her imagination. Now Luo Feifei, who is filled with a second sense of mystery, might actually be taking drugs.
It’s okay for her to take drugs, but she doesn’t know if Fan Yijia will also take drugs.
Xu Ziran felt that he didn’t need to care about Fan Yijia, but when he thought that he had been with him for so long, he couldn’t let it go, so he walked over, looked at Luo Feifei and said, “Where’s Fan Yijia?”
Luo Feifei said, “I’m still asleep.”
Xu Ziran got closer to look at Luo Feifei’s pupils, but when he smelled a mixture of smoke and alcohol, he frowned.
Luo Feifei laughed: “You look exactly the same as when my mother wanted to make sure I was on drugs.”
Xu Ziran rubbed his nose, straightened up, and said, “Really.”
She can’t say that she wants to make the same judgment as her mother.
Luo Feifei said again: “I’m just tired if I don’t take it. Alas, you know, this kind of thing is the same as taking drugs.”
Xu Ziran was stunned for a moment, then remembered that Qiu Yurou was still standing beside her, and quickly ignored Luo Feifei and pulled Qiu Yurou aside.
She secretly spurned Luo Feifei in her heart, not only felt that the other party opened a yellow accent in front of minors, but also because the other party had previously said that he would wait until after his birthday, but in a blink of an eye there was no future.
This is not the same as the later Luo Feifei who had amazing self-control, so Xu Ziran began to hesitate whether to make good cooperation with Luo Feifei in advance.
Of course, this matter is not in a hurry, after all, I don’t have any capital now.
But because of this, Xu Ziran remembered one more thing, Qiu Yurou’s birthday seemed to be imminent.
On July 22, the last day of Cancer, Xu Ziran still remembered the first time she learned about Qiu Yurou’s birthday, on July 22, when Qiu Yurou came to her university city by chance, she came to Xu Ziran. University to see her.
After the two finished eating the meat crab pot, when they came down from the third floor where the restaurant was located, they saw a blessing scrolling across the LED screen—
xxx, happy birthday to you! **** will love you forever!
After this show of affection was passed, Xu Ziran wanted to complain when he heard Qiu Yurou casually say, “Speaking of which, today is also my birthday.”
The cash-strapped college girl Xu Ziran had only enough money left to buy a small cake for Qiu Yurou that day, and she became stumped because of the collision on the bus. This kind of guilt couldn’t help but stay in her heart.
Turning back in time, now facing fifteen-year-old Qiu Yurou, Xu Ziran remembered this and said, “Yurou, isn’t your birthday coming soon, how are you going to spend it?”
Qiu Yurou froze for a while, then asked, “How do you know my birthday?”