Back to the Years When My Father Was in School - Chapter 79
That night, Lu Yan was forced to wake up several times.
She finally understood why Shen Kuo chose this time.
He has accumulated a lot of emotions in his heart, and these emotions cannot be expressed in words.
But Lu Yan felt it, from his sometimes gentle and sometimes […] […], from his obsessive eyes, from every inch of his […], she could feel it.
Shen Kuo loved her to the extreme.
His 【…】 is not appropriate for her. The previous few times, Lu Yan almost fainted.
However, Shen Kuo’s excellence does not lie in work and study. His excellence permeates all aspects of life, such as these things. Every time, he has new attempts and breakthroughs. Gradually, life became unusually harmonious.
When Lu Yan no longer feels the pain, the feeling of floating in the clouds is really inadequate to outsiders.
She started to get to know Shen Kuo again, knowing him as an A-to-explosive male creature, completely different from the other side of the past.
There was an old saying in those days that men conquer the world and women conquer men.
But Lu Yan felt that this was wrong, so she was just a little white, how could she have such great ability to conquer Shen Kuo, she was the one who cried and screamed every time.
Shen Kuoche completely conquered her, leaving no room for it… let her convinced.
So during that time, I don’t know if it was the subtle influence of this matter, Lu Yan’s attitude towards Shen Kuo was particularly docile.
Even Lu Zhen often rubbed Lu Yan’s little head, saying that she seemed to have changed a little recently.
Lu Yan’s petite body instinctively nestled beside Shen Kuo, who was tall and straight, holding him and nuzzling him, eyes full of tenderness.
Men and women fit so naturally, they are especially so.
Shen Kuo hurt her more and more, and the pain went deep into the bones.
During that time, the air always exudes extremely sweet rose red bubbles.
Life and career always complement each other. After experiencing this crisis, Shen Kuo’s career has finally begun to show a trend of exponential rise.
Even an old-school capital like Lu Jian could not defeat him, and from then on, no one could defeat him.
Later, Shen Kuo took Lu Yan on a trip to the beach. The two of them were like newlyweds, like glue and paint, arousing envy.
But the calm leisure time did not last long. The death of Jian Yao was like a dark cloud in Lu Yan’s heart.
Especially after they came back from a trip, Lu Yan and Jian Yao had several contacts, and she could clearly feel that Jian Yao was not in a good mood, was irritable, and had a bad temper.
That night a few brothers had a dinner together. At the dinner table, because Jian Yao didn’t like to eat bitter gourd, and Lu Zhen caught the bitter gourd in her bowl, Jian Yao directly dumped the food in the bowl on the table, completely ignoring Lu. Zhen’s face, angry at him——
“I said you don’t eat if you don’t eat, don’t you understand human words!”
Lu Zhen’s face was embarrassing visible to the naked eye. He pulled Jianyao’s hand and said in a low voice: “Okay, we don’t eat bitter gourd, don’t eat it, waiter, bring a new set of chopsticks.”
Jian Yao felt a nameless fire in her heart and had nowhere to vent, so she got up and left the dining table with her bag: “Don’t eat, let’s go.”
No one in this world dared to shake Lu Zhen’s face like this, except for Lu Yan, everyone was a little surprised.
Liang Ting immediately eased the atmosphere, and smiled and said to Lu Zhen: “It’s up to you to spoil your daughter-in-law, Lu Zhen.”
Lu Zhen smiled bitterly: “She is under a lot of pressure at work.”
Lu Yan and Shen Kuo looked at each other, their expressions a little subtle.
Ye Jiaqi didn’t care about it, and said indifferently: “You like this one, it doesn’t look like a girl should have at all.”
“none of your business.”
“It’s none of my business, it’s not my girlfriend anyway, who knows who suffers.”
The meal was unhappy and broke up. Originally, Lu Yan wanted to stop Lu Zhen and talk about Jian Yao, but Jian Yao made three phone calls to Lu Zhen on the way, urging him to go home quickly, so Lu Yan talked about it. Before he could say it, Lu Zhen hurried back without stopping.
It is not that Lu Zhen has no temper, but he never loses his temper in front of outsiders or even Lu Yan.
But at home, the two inevitably stomped, stomped and shouted.
Lu Zhen had prepared a set of lines, took a deep breath, pretended to be fierce, opened the door with the key, and yelled: “Jian Yao, get out of here!”
The room was empty, with no lights on, and the surrounding area was completely dark.
There seemed to be a faint light overflowing from the kitchen, Lu Zhen changed his shoes, went to the kitchen and opened the door——
With her back facing him, Jian Yao seemed to be cooking, eating while cooking.
I didn’t eat dinner, maybe I was hungry.
Lu Zhen rubbed his nose and shouted at her: “You just made me lose face, you know.”
Jian Yao ignored him and continued to eat with chopsticks.
“Hurry up and apologize, or I won’t finish with you tonight!” Lu Zhen said angrily, “You still eat, eat a fart…”
Before Lu Zhen spoke, he suddenly saw half of the bitter gourd on the chopping board next to him, his eyes widened suddenly, and he was stunned.
“What are you eating?” Lu Zhen walked over and saw Jian Yao chewing a half-cooked bitter gourd, steaming in the pot, cooking another one.
“Jian Yao!” Lu Zhen’s expression changed slightly: “Don’t you… don’t like this?”
Jian Yao swallowed, tears rolling out: “I’m sorry.”
Lu Zhen frowned, grabbed the bitter gourd from her hand, and threw it into the trash can: “If you don’t like it, don’t eat it, what a big deal.”
“I’m sorry! I’m sorry, I’m sorry…” She said more than a dozen “I’m sorry”, crying as she said.
“I shouldn’t lose my temper at you, shouldn’t be in front of so many people, and let you lose face, I’m sorry.”
Lu Zhen’s words that were going to be furious… were all thrown out of the clouds. He quickly returned to hug Jian Yao, gently stroked the back of her head, and said softly, “Hush, it’s okay, it’s okay, I’m not angry. Not angry at all.”
Jian Yao’s mood didn’t seem to be right, and she was very broken. On the way back, she regretted it, and almost ran back crying all the way.
“I bought bitter gourd.” Jian Yao pointed to the table, crying and said to Lu Zhen: “I ate them all, and I apologize for eating them all.”
Lu Zhen felt that his internal organs were screwed together. He held Jian Yao’s shoulder and shook it vigorously: “Yaoyao, what’s the matter with you? Don’t scare me.”
Jian Yao shook her head vigorously, and kissed Lu Zhen on tiptoe, crying as she kissed, tears falling into her lips, salty.
“Lu Zhen, let me make up for you.”
Before Lu Zhen could react, Jian Yao had already squatted down and reached out to Jie Lu Zhen’s…
Lu Zhen felt his scalp explode in an instant.
…
It’s not uncommon before, Jian Yao has a psychological barrier and is unwilling to let Lu Zhen see her legs, so they learned to solve the problem in other ways.
But every time he did this, Lu Zhen felt very guilty and felt very sorry for her, but he had no way to refuse, how could he refuse, unless he was not a man.
Lu Zhen couldn’t think at all, and grabbed her hair…
After half an hour, Jian Yao went to the bathroom, took a bath and rinsed her mouth. She stopped crying and her mood calmed down a lot.
After applying layer after layer of skin care products, his face flushed slightly.
Lu Zhen was lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze, the sage’s time was not over yet.
Jian Yao walked over, and the little bird lay beside him like a human, burying his head in his arms, Lu Zhen smoothly embraced her and said, “Don’t be like this in the future.”
Jian Yao pouted her lips: “The body seems to be very honest.”
“This…I can’t control this.” Lu Zhen’s cheeks were red, and he reached out to touch Jian Yao’s soft earlobe, and played gently.
“Besides, your way of apologizing is very bad, I originally… didn’t blame you.”
Jian Yao hugged his waist and closed her eyes: “I’m getting worse and worse, Lu Zhen, if you continue like this, one day you will hate me.”
She was very scared and terrified, and she could only use this way to make him happy.
Lu Zhen’s hand paused, then sat up and dropped her hand on her shoulder: “There will never be a day, I swear.”
Jian Yao’s eyes were wet, and she looked at him with tears, like a helpless child: “Really?”
Lu Zhen stretched out her hand and rubbed her eyes with her fingers: “You are by my side, talking to me, even arguing with me, these things make me happiest.”
She blinked her eyes: “Then you don’t want anything else.”
Lu Zhen paused and rubbed the back of his head: “Of course, if you are in a good mood and want to give me something, I…I won’t refuse.”
During that time, Lu Zhen could always see the same man downstairs at home.
He is tall and thin, his skin is particularly white, and his appearance is a bit small and handsome. On several occasions, Lu Zhen walked past him, his white eyes had yellow stains, and his mental state was a little depressed when he looked at him.
At first, Lu Zhen didn’t care, until one day when she came home from work, she saw Jian Yao and the man standing in the corner talking. Jian Yao seemed very excited when she looked at her, and her face turned red.
She has been particularly prone to get angry recently, and her nerves are very sensitive. Lu Zhen thought it was a malicious sao harassment from a fan, and was about to stop it, but suddenly saw Jian Yao take out the money from his bag and drop it on that person.
Lu Zhen immediately stopped and hid behind the tree, observing the two of them.
Jian Yao stepped on high heels and left angrily. The man picked up the banknotes scattered on the ground with a smile on his mouth.
Over the years, Lu Zhen’s temperament has become much calmer, and he is no longer as impulsive and reckless as he used to be. Therefore, he did not directly ask.
In the evening, Jian Yao was taking a shower. Lu Zhen walked to the bathroom door, hesitated for a moment, and finally asked, “Yaoyao, what’s the matter with you lately?”
In the bathroom, the sound of water flow suddenly stopped, Jian Yao was silent for half a minute, and said: “What’s the matter?”
“You are very wrong.” He said in a deep voice, “Just downstairs, I saw you give that man…”
Before he finished speaking, Jian Yao suddenly opened the bathroom door, shocking Lu Zhen, and instinctively took two steps back.
Jian Yao wore a black long-sleeved trousers pajamas, wiped her hair with a bath towel, and said, “What do you see?”
“that is…”
Being stared at by her dark eyes, Lu Zhen was inexplicably guilty, as if he had done something invisible to him: “Seeing you give him money.”
Jian Yao said with a calm face, “Oh, my company colleague, I borrowed the money before and returned it to him.”
“Yes.”
“Otherwise.” Jian Yao turned her back, picked up the comb and the hair dryer and started to manage her hair. She stopped looking at him, or in other words, she didn’t dare to look at him.
Jian Yao is a straightforward temperament and is not good at lying. Even if she is clumsy as Lu Zhen, she can see through her lies.
But he didn’t break through her, walked behind her, bowed his head and kissed her smooth neck: “You can tell me anything, you know.”
Jian Yao’s figure was obviously stiff, but she still didn’t say anything.
…
Lu Yan deliberately consulted a doctor, and Jian Yao’s conditions were in line with the signs of pre-depression.
Doctors say that depression is just like heart disease and other diseases. It is not just a simple psychological disorder, but even physical reactions, such as insomnia, loss of appetite, numbness of thinking, and physical pain.
Lu Yan couldn’t hide from Lu Zhen anymore, she specifically called Lu Zhen out and told him about the incident and her guess.
“What are you talking about?”
Lu Zhen obviously had never heard of “depression”, so she didn’t understand, and asked nervously, “Did she encounter something unhappy? Or did she encounter some difficulties?”
Lu Yan shook her head and passed the information on depression that the doctor had given her to Lu Zhen, and explained to him: “Although there is no clear medical evidence that depression can be genetically inherited, the doctor said that most depression is in family. Characteristically, Jian Yao’s mother used to suffer from depression and… committed suicide.”
Lu Zhen’s hand holding the information began to tremble. Before he could recover, Lu Yan continued, “I have not told you something.”
Lu Zhen raised his head, with some bloodshot eyes in his eyes: “What?”
She took a sip of coffee and tried to calm her emotions, but her voice was still difficult to calm down: “Jian Yao, the future, committed suicide less than three months after giving birth to your first child, which is me.” NS.”
With a “pop”, the coffee cup in Lu Zhen’s hand fell to the ground, smashing to pieces.
“suicide…”
He shook his head blankly, unable to accept: “What do you care about.”
“I’m not talking nonsense.” Lu Yan suddenly shook his hand: “Dad, we can’t let the tragedy happen again, absolutely can’t!”
Lu Zhen’s hands were already cold like iron, he couldn’t believe it, and he held the information about depression tightly: “How come…”
Lu Yan understood that Lu Zhen, who suddenly knew about it, definitely couldn’t accept it.
She gave him time and waited for him to calm down slowly.
“You should have also noticed that Jian Yao’s mood is very wrong, and she already has the initial symptoms of depression.”
“Yes, she has been a little…not quite right recently, but… it’s just that the work pressure is too great, she cried and apologized to me that night, I… I didn’t think much about it, I’m such a jerk! “
Lu Zhen rubbed his hands, and now he was in a mess.
Lu Yan shook Lu Zhen’s hand: “Dad, don’t worry about it. Depression doesn’t mean that you will get better if you take care of it.”
“But you just said she…said her…” His voice trembled, and he didn’t even dare to say those two words.
“A lot of things have changed, haven’t they, you and Shen Kuo, as incompatible in the past, haven’t they both shook hands and made peace.”
Lu Yan tried to comfort him: “With me, nothing will happen, but the premise is that we don’t mess with ourselves.”
Lu Zhen looked at Lu Yan: “You said, when did she have an accident in the last life?”
“Three months after I was born.” Lu Yan said in a deep voice, “If her condition really worsens after giving birth, then you can’t consider having a baby. At least, until her condition is stable, you can’t… “
Before she finished her words, Lu Zhen seemed to suddenly think of something, stood up abruptly, stumbled and ran out the door.
…
On the computer screen in the office, a video of Jian Yao’s variety show is playing.
The girl in the picture is optimistic, cheerful, witty and funny, and even the host sometimes does not react as well as her thinking. She is sincere and frank, without the pretentiousness of other actresses.
In Lu Zhen’s eyes, she is the best, whether it is Jian Yao who was driving him on a motorcycle in the past, or the sensitive and fragile Jian Yao who desperately concealed his shortcomings…
In Lu Zhen’s eyes, they are the best Jian Yao.
At this moment, Liang Ting pushed the door in, handed the folder to the table, and said, “I found it.”
Lu Zhen presses Enter, the video pauses, and freezes while Jian Yao is smiling.
“Say.”
Liang Ting opened the file and passed the information to Lu Zhen’s hands: “This man’s name is Chen Luan, a native of Beicheng, and Jian Yao’s ex-boyfriend. The two had fallen in love in junior high school.”
Liang Ting and Lu Zhen have been close friends for many years, so they have no scruples about their speech——
“Considering that our sister-in-law used to be a’windy girl’ as you said, his ex-boyfriend is also a windy boy. To be precise, he is a gangster who dropped out of school before finishing high school. Work, until now…It is said that I love gambling.”
Lu Zhen’s hand holding the document suddenly tightened.
“Is it accurate?”
Liang Ting came over and patted him on the shoulder: “When did I give you false news, your brother?”
Indeed, since childhood, Lu Zhen has relied on Liang Ting very much. He always seemed to be able to observe all directions and help Lu Zhen solve many problems.
“Liang Ting, this man…I want to see him, find a way to contact, and tie it in front of me.”
The corner of Liang Ting’s mouth raised: “I have brought you people, right outside the door. There is no need to tie them up. Our Xingchen boss wants to see him, and he rushes over with a busy call.”