Bad X Bad: My Dear Hana - Chapter 21

He has tried to stay away from her. But, it feels like a whale is trying to crush him under its weight. He wants to apologize to her. She is the only woman who is making him feel like this. He can’t name this feeling. He won’t feel relaxed until he sees her again.

He paces around her house, almost seeing shadows of her everywhere. He realizes that he is being delusional. He is probably sick. He lays down on the bed, trying to find her scent in the sheet. He grabs his hair. She is driving him crazy.

What’s so special about her? There are a lot of women. Then, why he is here? He is upset. Why is he upset? He is upset because she must be upset. There is no logic to this. His head is on standstill.

He jumps up when he hears a male voice. He slightly opens the door and sees Ahn Hana leaning on a man. He is holding her shoulder and helping her walk inside. She looks extremely tired. The man doesn’t look any better. He notices something else. Ahn Hana is wearing a white shirt that is too big for her size and a loose trouser that is folded up to her knees. The clothes are coincidentally man’s size.

Something unfamiliar grows inside his body. Something dark and strange. He clenches his fists. That man must be Jung Kwang-soo, her first time. So, she is with him now. He is easily forgotten by her.

Jung Kwang-soo, who has been driving for two straight days non-stop because of this crazy person, doesn’t have any energy to move. Ahn Hana is not doing any better either. This mad lawyer has made him drive to all the murder locations non-stop. She wouldn’t sleep or let him sleep. They only stopped once to change their clothes.

“Can I take a bath at your house?” It’s funny how she doesn’t ask for his permission when she is at his house. She always acts like his house belongs to her. No, she acts like the world is her playground. No one is allowed to do the same here unless they have her permission.

Ahn Hana smiles at him, unkindly. “You have to convince the alibis.”

“You are cruel.” He goes to the kitchen. “I am hungry. I will leave after I eat.”

“Make something delicious.” A peal of laughter follows the yell.

Do Sejin takes a deep breath when he sees their interactions. It is as natural as the flow of the river. They speak with their eyes and bodies more than words. Their intimacy is at a different level. Even if he knows the nook and croony of Ahn Hana’s body, it cannot replace what they have between them.

He can’t bear to watch this anymore. He wants to leave the house. He can’t go out without facing Ahn Hana and Jung Kwang-soo.

“Ready!” Jung Kwang-soo jogs to the living room. He puts the pot of ramen on the floor. Ahn Hana slides down the couch onto the floor. She sits cross-legged and picks up the ladle. Jung Kwang-soo takes the spoon.

Do Sejin grabs her wrist before her lips can touch the ladle, startling her. Jung Kwang-soo is also surprised to see him. He can guess who this boy is. This boy has some courage.

“What are you doing?” Ahn Hana slaps his hand off her wrist, disgusted.

Do Sejin presses his lips together. He is so mad that his lips are turning white. She is disgusted by his touch now? Jung Kwang-soo laughs when he sees the anger and jealousy in the boy’s eyes. He can guess what is going inside this boy’s mind. The boy doesn’t know what he is dealing with. Ahn Hana is not someone who will be affected by these emotions.

“Hey, kid. Why are you clinging onto her? Are you in love with her?” He decides to add fuel to spark. “If she doesn’t want you, accept it.”

Do Sejin gnashes his teeth. Just then, Ahn Hana stands up abruptly. She drags him by his collar and throws him out of her house. She crosses her arms and looks at him like she can easily crush under her heels.

“I know that you are mad at me.” He tries to swallow down his temper. “I want to apologize. I am sorry for lying to you. It was a prank at first because you forgot our first night together. You treated me like a kid.”

“Do I have the time to be mad at a little kid for his prank?” Ahn Hana eyes him coldly. “If you come here again, I will call the cops.”

She slams the door on his face. He falls on his buŧŧ, shaking with fury. It’s Jung Kwang-soo and Ahn Hana’s relationship that makes him feel like his insides are being grated. After seeing that, he realizes something. He has been overthinking. Ahn Hana doesn’t need him. She is not affected by him.

To her, he has been a boy who had fun with her. The ȧduŀts let go easily if a little child plays a prank on them. Just like that, she can easily let go of what he did. He is not even worthy of her anger.

Jung Kwang-soo is slurping the ramen when she comes back. They don’t exchange words. The ramen is finished. He doesn’t leave immediately

She comes out with a towel wrapped around her body after the shower. She changes into the pajamas, unaffected by the fact that a person is in the room. That’s how their relationship is.

“Are you coming to the office?” He asks her.

“I will sleep for a while.”

“What?” Jung Kwang-soo stares at her.

“I want to sleep on the couch.”

“What is the purpose of your bed?”

“I don’t have the energy to change the sheet.”

“You must really dislike that boy.”

“Are you leaving or not?”

He is totally unwelcomed.

Jung Kwang-soo pauses his step when he sees Do Sejin sitting outside in the corridor with a lost expression. He pities the boy. He lits a cigarette and offers it to him. “Since you are like me, I have an advice for you. ”

“Don’t underestimate her.” Jung Kwang-soo flicks the ashes of the cigarette on the boy’s head. “She is a playboy’s kryptonite.”