Because I simply love you - Chapter 481

Jianyu said, “Serena wants to have another child.”

Jinhai and Shin stayed quiet.

“And you know her condition. Even if we tried and she did get pregnant, there are chances of miscarriage, and not only that, her health will deteriorate and get in danger. How can I agree to a second child then?”

“Look what I found!” Zixin picked up some strange rock and raised his hand as he showed it to the other boys. They gathered around him and giggled as they played with it.

Jianyu smiled as he looked at him. “I told her that we have Zixin, and it’s enough, but…she wants to give him a sibling. She doesn’t want Zixin to be an only child. And whenever she looks at your kids having brothers and sisters, she feels it all the way more. It’s not just Zixin too…”

Shin asked, “What do you mean?”

“It’s for me as well. She hasn’t said this to me directly but I can feel that in her eyes. She wants to give me a daughter,” he scratched his head. “I felt it because she asked me many times about daughters and stuff, especially whenever I played with Nuo, Meixiu, and Meirong.”

Jinhai said, “It’s not her fault if she thought about that.”

“Huh?”

“I mean, you always looked like you really want a daughter so much whenever you were with our girls. Even we felt that desire in you. You looked completely different when you were them. It’s no surprise that Serena caught on to it. And no wonder she is urging for a second child.”

Jinhai chuckled. “I can say this from my experience. After Jun was born, I never thought of having another child, but Nana was hell-bent on trying for it. She said she knew that I really wanted one, especially after how I always thought that our third child would be a daughter. I still remember the lengthy discussions we had, and after Nana practically threatened not to eat anything until I agree, I finally gave in.”

Shin and Jianyu looked at him, speechless. “Nana threatened you?”

Jinhai said, “With her health, yes. She had really stopped eating. How could I see her like that? I had no choice but to agree. And that’s the story behind Nuo’s birth. So, I understand where Serena is coming from. Even more than Zixin and even herself, she wants to give you another child. That is exactly how Nana felt for me.”

Jianyu pursed his lips. “I understand that…Damn, it’s all my fault! I shouldn’t have behaved so eagerly that she thought of having another child.”

Shin said, “It’s nobody’s fault. The desire for having a daughter is not a bad thing, and neither is she wrong to want to fulfill your wish.”

“She isn’t wrong, but neither am I if the pregnancy takes a toll on her health. I don’t want a child at the expense of her. I don’t want anything to happen to her. If I lose her, it will be all over for me, and she doesn’t understand that. And now she is mad at me.”

Jinhai smiled. “It’s a complicated cycle. She is thinking about you, and you are thinking about her.”

Shin touched his chin. “Have you consulted a gynecologist? It’s been five years since that accident. Her body would be much more stable now, and only after a new thorough checkup, we can say for her current condition for pregnancy. I know one great gynecologist. You should check with her once.”

Jianyu hesitated. “I…am not sure…Look, I don’t want Serena to feel hopeful only to get it crushed. If the doctor says that it’s really impossible, I know how hard it will hit her. She won’t show it to me, but I know how she will feel. She will just smile it off, but her heart would be crushed into pieces. I don’t want to see her disappointed and disheartened.”

Jinhai said, “Even so, I think you should go for a checkup. Look, you are refusing for another child and even for a checkup at the least. Of course, she is going to be mad if you don’t listen to anything.”

Shin agreed. “Just give it a try. Worst comes to worst, you two will always be there for each other.”

Jianyu said nothing.

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At the same time, Serena also said everything to Nana and Huian.

Huian asked, “Have you asked Aunt Liling or talked about it to Aunt Xiao Fan?”

Serena seemed even more in distress. “Well, they know about it because I couldn’t hide my anger and argument with Jianyu. But when they came to know about it, even they told me the same thing as Jianyu did. That I shouldn’t take the risk of going through another pregnancy. Neither of my mom’s supported me on this.”

Nana and Huian were silent.

Serena looked at them. “Oh, come on, guys! I can handle it. I know it isn’t easy but I really want to try. Jianyu isn’t even agreeing on visiting a doctor. Maybe I am better now and can really handle my second pregnancy! How will we know without a checkup?”

Nana awkwardly smiled. “I guess he just doesn’t want you to see disappointed…”

“I am not that weak,” Serena stubbornly said.

They sighed.

Nana said, “I can understand why everybody is opposing your decision, but they just want you to be safe, including Huian and me.”

Huian nodded. “If the pregnancy can threaten your life, then there is no way we can advise you to do otherwise. But at the same time, I admit that there is no harm in getting a checkup done.”

Serena brightened. “Isn’t it? I am telling Jianyu the same thing, but he isn’t listening to me.”

Nana said, “Arguing with him is not going to give any solution. You have to calmly sit down with him and talk to him because you know that Jianyu is only thinking about your well-being. It’s not like he may not want another child, but he doesn’t want to lose you or see you hurt because of your child either. And you have to think about Zixin too.”

Serena pursed her lips. “I understand that, but…”

Nana patted her shoulder. “Just calmly talk to him and remember that he is only thinking about you. Try to understand his point of view. If Jianyu insisted on doing something that might put him in danger, then you would have opposed it too, right?”

Serena’s shoulders slumped.

“You can convince him for a checkup. Huian and I will help you too if you need it. And I really hope that there might be a way for you to get pregnant without putting your life at risk, but…if there really isn’t, then you will have to listen to Jianyu, okay?”

Serena bit her lip. “Y-you are right…”

Nana and Huian smiled.

“Hey, we brought the woods!” Shin said as the men returned.