Before Love Fades - Chapter 57：You will live

Aurora is still weak after that last poison attack. Usually she would be fine the moment she woke up. However this time is a little different. According to Caleb, some of her organs start to weaken and deteriorate. And if the next time the poison attack, he’s not sure if the trial antidote this time will work on her. Caleb needed to head to China to look for a certain herb which he believe to be the key ingredient but he can’t leave her side for a long time so he send Darren and Aaron to do the job since they were on a business trip. Hearing this, she only kept mum about it. It was Cole who was looking all worried and restless. He’s been shooting questions at Caleb to the point Caleb avoid from bumping into him. Which is impossible since he kept lingering by her side. He even let his P.A. send all the work to the house. Only handle meeting through video conference. She kept on telling him to go out, leave the house. Caleb can take care of her while he’s at the office. But he shot her down with a glare. He’s becoming like henpecked husband. He had a list of food of what she can eat and what not to eat. He control everything including the company. He told her to let Zeus handle the company. She rebuked him saying it will look bad to others if she’s never present at the company. Then he made another rule. If she leave for her company, he will follow her. He already made it clear and she had to agree because she knew the scare that she gave him that day. Now looking at him wiping her body earnestly, made her eyes glisten with tears. She looked away from him and stare out the window. It was a cloudy morning. For everyone else, a dull day. But for her a perfect day to cooped up in bed. No matter how she loves a cloudy morning, she also miss the blue sky. Not too bright from the sun but just the clear blue sky. She kept staring, wondering how long will she be able to look this view and feel this sensation and all in all to be Cole’s wife. She wanted to give him the perfect family. With kids to annoyed them and let their world come to chaos. She close her eyes from the threatening tears. She’s just getting greedier with him around her.

A rough, strong hand pulled her into a hug. Enveloping her from behind as Cole sunk his face near her neck. Kissing and nibbling it making her shivers. She covered his hand which laid on her stomach.

“It would be nice if i can leave you with our kids.”

Hearing that, he went stiff before tighten his hold onto her. He got up sideways and caught her lips. Biting it hard as she moaned in pain. Thrusting his tongue inside hers and continue assaulting her lips until she went weak. He stopped after he felt he had punish her enough. He stare at her cloudy eyes before kissing her lips hard again. It was then he spoke angrily.

“You will live for as long as i live as well. And we will have our lifetime to have our kids. You will not leave me alone with our kids. I will throw him/her to the adoption program or to the orphanage. If you dare to leave me alone with our kids, i will do just that.”

“But dear,,,”

“No more buts. Didn’t you hear what Caleb said? He just need one final ingredient for your antidote. Don’t you give me some sort ‘gift’ or your last word. I will hate you and ignore you if you keep doing this.” He glare at her. Ignoring her tears although it pains his own heart. How could it not be painful? She was his heart. His life. She tugged his hand when he chose to look elsewhere. He let go of her and turn his back. Her face was already wet of tears. This time she’s hugging him from behind. Burying her wet face onto his back.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I wanted to live so much that i get greedier each day i wake up and see your face. Each day i wake up with you pampering me all day long. I became selfish. I wanted to give birth to a daughter or son for you so and watch them grow up. Or maybe i can see them getting married and then we’ll grow old together. I wanted to see you looking dashingly handsome old man with bald head and wrinkle face and to keep holding your hand even until i die. I wanted to do so much but it just gets hard for me each day to stop and to hope if there is a cure. When i found out this poison will never go away, i accepted it and chose not to avenge myself. But now that i want to live so much, i hated them for feeding me poison. So much i wanted to kill them but it still can’t cure the toxic. Tell me Cole, am i being selfish to want this thing? Am i too greedy because i’m not thankful with what i have when all i ever wanted is a healthy me? I…I want to live so much. So,so, much.” She cry her heart out, wailing. Causing his shirt turn so wet that he could barely stand it anymore. He turn around and hug her back as he let her cry and just continue on crying. His eyes turn red. The pain in his heart just keep on piercing, bleeding like his wet shirt. It took a whole 30 minutes to soothe her and make her calm down. Wiping away the leftover tears on her face, he planted kisses on both of her puffy, red eyes. Cupping her face, he look at her sternly.

“I promise you, you will live. Trust in me and Caleb. He will give you the true antidote now that he knows what he is searching for. So, promise me this. Don’t think about leaving me or anyone else. And you’re not greedy. If you are greedy then i am rapacious enough to want you by my side every single seconds. Even when i fall asleep i still want to see you in my dream although you’re next to me. And if i could keep you in my pocket, i would do that. Without you in my life, it’s empty. You took my heart away and you’re responsible for it until my last breath.” She nodded her head and they just stay like that in bed feeling and listening to each other’s heartbeat.