Beware of the Brothers - Chapter 4.5

Eugene’s POV

“Eugene. Since you are the eldest son, you should always take good care of your brothers. When we are not here, you are the father of the children.”

As the successor of Ernst, Eugene lived along with the body he deserves, and

that was to be what he most heard.

For Eugene, Ernst was all the life he

had to keep for a lifetime, and it was a task he had to accomplish until his death.

From birth until now, he has never been free from that task.

However, because Eugene loved Ernst and his family more than anything in the world, Eugene was willing to bet his life on this Ernst.

“You’re pathetic.”

Eugene whispered, chilling down his eyes.

The temperature was extremely low for the eyes of a 12-year-old boy, but it wasn’t as cold as his little contempt for his dark eyes.

“Stand up. Don’t make me embarrassed.”

In front of him was a little girl who fell on the floor. Hari. A girl he never knew came from, is taken by his parents two months ago and they took her as a stepdaughter.

From lunch today, she was dragged back

and forth by Cabel, and her elbows and knees were hurt, causing blood to leak out.

“Sorry.”

The moment she saw him, the child, who was astonished at the fire in his eyes, muttered with a voice as if crawling.

Immediately after that, the child who stood up on the floor stumbled once

as if her leg had been released.

Eugene jumped intently without knowing

it, and reached out in front of her, and then clenched his fist and deliberately said it colder.

“Arina wasn’t stupid like you. If you want

to be a doll, why don’t you imitate it more properly like a doll?”

“Sorry.”

Hari apologized to him again. While looking down at the child who could not even meet him and clasped her head, Eugene’s pupils began to move shallowly.

Eventually, he left the room first, as if he was running away, saying nothing more.

“I can’t accept it.”

Eugene bites his mouth and keep struggling with a weak heart that keep eating his heart. He can never admit that child as Ernst. Even for the dead Arina.

“Yes. I can’t admit it.”

Arina Ernst was his younger sister who Eugene had to protect until the day she died. So it was never acceptable. Such a tacky girl who came in coveting Arina’s place.

********

“Brother. I’m sick.”

Erich and Arina, born as twins, were innately weak. In Eugene’s memory, Arina

always cried with pain, otherwise she lay all day without energy.

At that time, Erich couldn’t leave Arina’s bed all day, and he was crying.

“Brother. Arina is sick because of me. Is that real?”

The twins were born by nature, and one day Erich was crying and asked him when he heard the myth that twin was often born weak.

“Who makes that statement? It’s not

because of you that Arina is sick. Erich, don’t think about it again.”

“Brother, Arina and I are twins. But why can’t I’m sick instead?”

Erich used to say that after Arina faint, he wished he would be sick instead.

Everyone prayed that Arina will be better with one hope, but as time went by, her illness became more serious.

“Arina. Our lovely baby.”

His mother never lived without in tears. It was natural.

When Arina crouched and cried when she was sick, telling Eugene that she was feeling stuffy as if her chest was tight, but the doctors all shook their head and said

nothing more.

So they cried because Arina couldn’t even rest her body on the bed.

Whenever his mother hugged the little body and soothed her, she was forced to go undercover with the helpless feeling that she could do nothing for her child.

“Baby. This is the candy that the fairy gave you. If you eat this, all the painful things will fly away.”

It was clear that it was a lie for her daughter, but whether the sky had heard his mother’s wishes, after that day, Arina’s illness seemed increasingly slow.

But it was an illusion. The less days she complained of pain, the more Arina looked blank, and later she didn’t even recognize her family’s face.

Even when she was awake, there were many times when she was talking about

hallucination.

And when the time passed a little, only the eyes without focus were blurred, as if nothing was heard and nothing was seen.

Arina was everyone’s heart in Ernst.

A poor child who was never able to jump

outside and was just lying in one small room and quietly staring out the window from birth.

Eventually, Arina died without even having a six-year-old birthday.

“Oh huah!”

Cabel and Erich’s crying in the room filled their hearts. On that day, Eugene cried together without even thinking of

appeaseing his brothers.

Not only his brothers, his parents who sent their children away also cried together that day.

*******

For a while he couldn’t keep himself. It seemed like a big hole had been drilled in his chest, but no one knew how to fill that vacancy, and the time flowed swiftly.

Still, about a year after Arina’s death, the wound that seemed to open up seemed to show off gradually, but it was only a good illusion that seemed plausible.

That time it was about when Eugene first realized that his mother was weird

somewhere.

“Mother. You’ve decided to change my tutor to Hudson.”

He remember that day was an ordinary day.

Whether the time is right or not, now they are sore every time they think of Arina and that they are able to handle their sorrows so that they do not drown in sadness.

His father went back and forth to the imperial palace and started to fulfill his

responsibilities as head of Ernst, and his mother sometimes went out with

invitations from other wives.

His younger brothers gave the name ‘Penny’ to the puppies that they started raising Arina’s death and regained some

of their former vitality.

And Eugene was studying at Arlanta’s Academy, which should be admitted to any family successor.

“Yes. I decided to do it in consultation with your father. You’re going to know him because Hudson is going to visit next week.”

“Yes, mother.”

“Of course, Eugene always takes care of matter, so I don’t have to worry about it.”

That said, his mother smiled openly. Eugene was very relieved to see the smile.

But it was the next moment that his heart was shattered.

“Oh, look at my mind! I almost forgot. It’s time to give Arina some medicine.”

For a moment, Eugene didn’t notice what she was saying.

“It’s almost too late. I’m going to go to the kitchen. Eugene, can you go to Arina first and check if she’s sleeping now?”

“Mother…?”

Eugene called his mother in an awkward position, but she stand up in a hurry and then left the room soon. Eugene took a step that did not fall and followed his mother’s trace.

“Eugene, have you already been to Arina? Did she still asleep? Whoa. My baby is sleeping.”

He couldn’t even speak.

“Where is my baby?”

Arina’s room was still in Ernst, but it was the first time in a few months that the door had been opened.

Eugene looked at his mother as if she was looking for someone in her dead room and looked around without breath.

“Aha, I guess you want to play hide-and-seek with mom. Let’s see. Will she be behind the curtain?”

“Arina. My baby, where are you hiding? Are you in the closet?”

Right then, someone behind his back, caught his leg. Eugene breathed in and

hurriedly headed down and realized that the person holding onto him was

Erich, and soon exhaled.

“Brother, is there Arina…?”

“Erich, come here.”

Erich tried to jump into the room by moving his gaze around the room as if he was looking for Arina with his mother.

Eugene did know what Erich doing and stopped it.

“That’s nothing. No Arina. Just, just our mother for a moment thinking… For awhile…”

But he couldn’t speak like there’s a stone on his neck.

Eugene’s hand, gripping Erich’s shoulders, was terribly shaking, but he closed his eyes once, opened, and said to his younger brother in a firm tone.

“Erich, forget about what you’ve seen right now. Okay?”

“Arina, where are you, baby?”

Eugene turned his head in slow motion again. In the room, his mother was still wandering to find her dead daughter.

It feels like he’s being thrown out alone and drowned little by little.

*******

He told his father.

“I must call the doctor.”

Even the duke of Ernst wasn’t able to hide the shaking of his eyes as if he was greatly agitated.

“Yes, father.”

But even with regular treatment, Mrs. Ernst would sometimes act like her dead daughter is still alive.

The clear disappearance of her symptoms occurred shortly after bringing a young girl on the journey she had left for a refreshment. That was Hari.

Eugene hated the little girl who was in his sister’s place, but he inevitably swallowed the voice of rejection because his mother seemed to have finally recovered.

“What, I hate it! Why is she’s my sister?”

“Isn’t she not Arina? But why do we have to live together?”

He took care of his younger brother.

It was natural that his brothers who were shocked by the fact that the child simply rolled into their sister’s place became more dissatisfied with her appearance.

It was an instant that a small, helpless girl became the target of anger. It was as if the wound, which had yet to heal, had burst out at once.

Maybe he just needed a place to solve this terrible anxiety that he had been pressing and holding after all.

Even though he thought it was despicable act by himself, Eugene also had no control over the thorny words that popped out of his mind whenever he saw Hari.

“I’m sorry.”

Everytime Hari apologized to him. Everytime he faced the child, Eugene became more and more thrilled, but

the more he rationalized his actions, the more it hurt.

Still, though, she is alive. Living, breathing day by day, was terribly painful. She took the place of his sister.

And she takes attention away from their mother and father. His head was messed up with intense emotions tangled all over.

He knew. That it was an unreasonable idea, but he couldn’t stand it. No one told him how to get rid of this wildly raving mind this way. So Eugene just turned away.

The fact that the girl they hated is only a child who is only 7 years old. Because it was the most comfortable way for him at that moment.

******

“Strange.”

“Yeah?”

Suddenly, Eugene muttered to himself, and the orthodox teacher, Hudson, raised his head instead of reading a book.

Eugene had a bizarre feeling and stopped his hand instead of organizing the timeline as Hudson wanted.

Why is the house so quiet? Even if he listen, there wasn’t some sound outside the door.

No sound was heard. If others knew his doubts, they would have a look like that they do not understand what he’s talking about like Hudson now, but Eugene was raised by a certain instinct and raised his body.

“Hubert!”

He came down the stairs and called the butler Hubert, but no answer came back. It was the same even after shouting a few times.

“Cabel, what happened while I wasn’t there?”

“Yeah? What?”

Cabel was playing in a room alone for some reason.

The toy Cabel was playing with was the one that Erich would never lend him no matter how much he begged for days.

When he got the toy he wanted, Cabel responded with enthusiasm to Eugene’s question.

“Where is Erich?”

“I don’t know. He said he’s going to be playing with Penny.”

Eugene left Cabel room and started looking for others.

But nothing happened as he walked down the hall. In the meantime, none of the housers, including butler Hubert, noticed.

“Erich!”

It was Penny who replied to his call. Eugene found Erich hugging Penny in the playroom where they used to gather together.

“Have you been alone?”

“No, I was with Penny.”

But, naturally he answered, a strange sensation was peeking from Erich’s face. Looking closely, his brother was avoiding Eugene’s eyes.

“Where is she?”

“How do I know that. I’m in my room.”

“I just went to her room and there was no sign of her. Then I guess she’s with you.”

Eugene approached Erich and grabbed his brother’s small shoulders.

“Erich, tell me the truth. What did you do while I wasn’t here?”

It was just an intuition. A kind of ominous foreboding that passed through his mind

while walking through a strangely quiet mansion.

“I do not know.”

“Erich!”

In the end, Eugene succeeded in persuading Erich and hearing the answer. Shortly thereafter, he immediately jumped out of the mansion.

Erich said that he yelled at Hari to go home and kicked her out.

As he ran and looked at the clock on the first floor, it was already an hour,

there was too much time that had passed.

“Hari!”

Eugene started running, sweeping around the building looking for a child somewhere outside the mansion. When he was outside, it was snowing.

There was no realization that he had called her name for the first time in half a year, except in front of his parents, because his heart was in a hurry due to a blizzard.

Eventually, a white, human figure came into his eyes.

“Hari!”

Hari lay motionless on the stairs leading to the annex. When he saw her, his chest sat down.

“Wake up, Hari!”

He hated this child, but he didn’t want her to die. Lying quietly, the face of his younger sister passed away from her body for a moment.

“Hari! Hari!”

He was caughting an excruciating fear and shook her whole body.

The eyelids that were locked are standing up and opened, and the purple color in them come to his view. It was at that moment that revealed her eyes.

The moment she opened her eyes, she screamed. He thought she was really dying like this, and he was glad she didn’t die, so he lingered inside, but in the end, Eugene said nothing.

And it was also because of the eyes of the child he encountered next moment.

“Brother Eugene?”

Hari looked at him somewhere with a blinding feeling, as if Eugene really became his brother. At that moment, Eugene stopped looking and hardened.

“When did you rejuvenate, brother?”

But the child began to line up strange crap towards him.

“Or are you Eugene’s son?”

As she doubted, she narrowed her eyes narrowly and he heard her muttering, and Eugene shouted without his knowledge.

“What are you talking about? Are you out of your mind?”

Somewhere, it was different. Then, it was the first time in the past few months that Hari’s eyes were met with him.

Was this the child who faced the eyes of others in her way?

Anyway, Eugene was in alert and brought Hari into the house. Cabel, who was walking through the first floor, was tired of finding a toy and was surprised to find them first.

The problem was with Erich.

“Brother, I….”

Erich, who saw Hari came in with Eugene, with his eyes wide open, and soon he said with trembling body.

“I was wrong?”

He was still a 7-year-old child. Even if there was malice in another person, it would not have been recognized that his action would lead to death.

It was clear that this time, too, he just wanted to get Hari out of their house, and he would have never realized the idea that a child who had been forced out of this

place might die.

“Do you know it can’t be hide completely from my father and mother? This time your prank was too bad.”

It wasn’t okay to dismiss it as a “bad prank” and as a “brother”, but once again, the treatment of Hari was urgent. Scolding Erich would not be too late.

So Eugene had his brothers bring the people they needed and then threw more firewood into the fireplace.

It was natural for the three brothers to get called by their parents who returned that day.

******

“Yes. I heard that this happened because Hari ran away from Erich’s mischief and went out.”

Eugene paused at his father’s words. He clearly told his father what happened today.

However, what the father said in a position to scold the three brothers was slightly different from what Eugene explained.

“Yeah! Right.”

Only Cabel, who did not know the inside of the prank, stood and shook his head.

“No matter how you do it, Did you mean that no one know when she went out alone and passed out that long time? Eugene!”

His mother first pursued Eugene, the eldest son.

The moment he met his father eyes, Eugene realized that his father was trying to hide the fact because he was worried that his mother would be shocked.

“Sorry, Mother. I wasn’t aware of it because I was studying with Hudson.”

“Cabel! You don’t even know what happened to your sister, and you’re only focusing on toys. The toys are seized for a week”

“Hey! This is Erich fault anyway.”

“I think all the toys in your room can be seized!”

“Uh, Mom!”

“Erich.”

At the moment his name was called, Erich’s shoulders shook. Erich was scared from the beginning and couldn’t say anything.

“What the hell do you usually do to make Hari escape and run away from you?”

Have they ever felt anything after seeing bad things or something like that? Erich began to shake his body and tears started falling from his eyes.

At other times, he would have cried to Eugene next to him and asked for support, but now he just stood up with tears falling, he was already deeply aware of his fault.

It seemed to be like that.

“You should never have do this again.”

His mother, who doesn’t know that Hari was in great danger due to her son’s fault, stops scolding that much, and massaging her foreheads. She stand up from her seat.

“You should take a break.”

“I’m not going to take a break. I have to go to Hari.”

After his parents left the room, Eugene quietly approached Erich, who was still crying, and hugged his shoulder.

“I, I. I just hate that she’s at my house. So.. I…”

Erich cried for a long time since then, and Cabel became bloated next to him, shut his mouth and didn’t say anything.

‘Don’t do it again, you’re not alone.’

He held back the word. After that, Hari became strange. Is she really want to die?

She go out again in a blizzard outside with a thin clothes, she look at his eyes and express her embarrassingly embarrassing

intentions, and even brazenly claim to bring her something to eat.

Besides, for some reason, Eugene heart was easily swaying by her like that.

“Brother Eugene, it’s so slow to see you now. Can’t you take this? Can’t you? Yes, yes? Yes?”

It was the same since he went to an unprovoked provocation and forgot the first purpose and wrestled with an

unpretentious body.

“Well, who is slow?”

The next moment, Eugene, who grabbed Hari and laid her with her mouth open hardened like a stone when their eyes met.

When he think about it, since he first discovered Hari in the white snow, she, who couldn’t speak without lowering her eye, has changed now. Why the hell?

Then, it seemed that in front of Hari was the first he seem to be childish in this way. In the meantime, he had never played with his brothers in this way.

“You got along with your younger brothers and I think you’re starting to act like them. Apologize to Hari right now.”

After a while, Eugene was confused by his father, who entered the room.

Immediately after leaving the room, his father said, wrapping Eugene’s cheeks that he had just hit by hand.

“I’m sorry. In front of Hari, I thought it would be better not to speak more about the candy,” he said.

His father was worried that Hari would know about the candy his mother had given her.

“Yeah. You know everything. In the meantime, You were carrying too heavy load by yourself on your shoulders.”

When he heard that, Eugene was unhappy.

When he was told that he couldn’t speak to anyone and complained the anxiety he was holding alone, his nose became sore and he wanted to bring out the weakest sound to his father for the first time.

However, his father’s words were different from his expectations.

“Pretend you don’t know.”

“Now your mother has just returned to stability. As if you couldn’t see and hear anything, pretend you don’t know.”

“But..”

“Of course I’m going to stop her as much as I can about that candy. But even when you seeing Hari eat it, Don’t say anything.”

His father whispered to him, and after

Eugene’s shoulders had been knocked on twice, he turned his feet first.

Eugene stood alone and looked at his father’s back. Crack. Soon his hands break the candy that had been in it.

He gripped his hand hard.

“Eugene. Yesterday, I heard that your father was getting angry.”

The next day, while hid father was out, his mother visited his room.

“It was okay,” He said.

“So that’s why he hit your face.”

As he stared at his mother’s face touching his cheek as if upset, Eugene opened his mouth impulsively.

“Mother, why did you give Hari ‘that candy’?”

Then she shook her head as if she had no idea.

“Is there any reason why I shouldn’t give

her?”

“Mother, that’s……”

Eugene raised his voice without knowing it, and then bite it and paused for a while. His voice that followed was divided as if he had rested a lot.

“That’s a drug,” he said, the yellow candy that hid mother gave to the sick Arina.

Eugene already knew what it was. The candy, which has a strong analgesic component, was a drug with serious addictive and side effects.

If a person continue to eat it, that person will eventually become an idiot who doesn’t know anything….

“Hari is not Arina,”

Eugene remembered how sadly his mother cried in the room after she gave his sister that candy.

Arina’s hurting so much every day and she couldn’t heal with the bottle medicine instead, so….

He rather remember his mother crying and crying infinitely, giving the candy with trembling hands every evening, hoping that her daughter would forget the pain in the hallucinations.

“Oh, that a story from long ago.”

She said to Eugene, and she couldn’t have wanted to bring back that painful memory.

“I think you misunderstand me. That candy is not dangerous.”

Eugene heard her still whispered to him as he looked at the face of his mother who was innocent.

“Give me that candy too.”

“No, Eugene.”

Then the mother scolded her son with a stern look.

“That’s only for sick children.”

“If you can’t cope with your sick sister, I couldn’t be able to give it to you.”

Mother really confused Eugene as if she believed that the candy was a medicine

that would cure the sore. Eugene’s black eyes began to shake.

Slowly, he think his fear was over. He thought it was getting better little by

little. He thought they were better than before…

But nothing has changed.

Just look, that they all pretending, everyone was covering each other’s

eyes and covering up their bitter wounds to settle in reality. Just look at his ‘Mother.’

Look at Cabel and Erich. And they still need a mother. He don’t know what to do everyday. What he can do now is just pretending not to know everything?

“Okay Eugene?”

But Eugene couldn’t say anything this

time.

“Yes, mother.”

A mother who smiles like a flower toward him is really….

Because she looks happy enough so that it’s hitting his chest.

******

Eugene sneaked into his mother’s room and brought out a yellow candy.

“Uh, that was what Arina ate.”, said Cabel.

So now there is no one to eat it. He found it as quickly as possible, and he was worried that there might be more candy hidden in places he couldn’t find.

His father said he would try to stop it as much as he could.

But the words that follows are if there is a risk that Hari will have to eat it because mother, he ask him to pretend he don’t know anything.

But Eugene couldn’t let Hari eat it. Maybe she haven’t had this candy yet before…?

“Hey, are you guys ready?”

Then he heard his mother calling them from a distance. Today was a day when all family members decided to go out to town.

“Cabel, you’re going down first.”

Cabel first went down the stairs. Later, Eugene began to rush to handle the candy.

******

“Because there are many people, it’s

easy to get lost, so the two of you must hold your hands and go. Hari should be well attached to her brother.”

They walked silently looking forward while holding hands in white mittens. Hari also seemed uncomfortable.

Suddenly, before he went out today, the yellow candy he had handled and his mother’s smiling face passed by.

“Even now….”

There are all kinds of abnormal situations that come around him right now.

“Do you want to go back to where you were?”

He didn’t know why he was asking. Hari looked up at him as if she hadn’t heard or confirmed the word he said. Eugene chewed his fine lips and asked again.

“Will you still want to go back to where you were?”

“I want to go back.”

The answer came back quickly. There was still silence between the two. Only the two of them were quiet while the surroundings were all tumultuous.

Yes… this wasn’t normal. Of course she want to go back. At this time he almost obsessed with anxiety.

If she want to go back to where she lived like that, it better to let her go right now. It would be a better way for all of us. He thought so.

Woosh.

It was at that moment that he had let go of the hand he was holding until then in the air. In a moment, warmth passed from the palm of his hand.

Eugene walked without looking back. He was pushed by so many people that he wasn’t willing to look back until he get out of the crowd.

And finally, when he left the street just before, Eugene suddenly stopped walking in the middle of the road.

Hahaha. The noises that people make are stinging into his ears. Hari never called him out, when he was leaving herself alone. So this is it? Really?

All of this was so easy that it didn’t feel real. But why is it that he feel this way? Why. Why…. Why, as if he’s lost in the middle of this road…

“Hey, are you okay?”

Suddenly, Eugene was surprised and raised his head to the sound he heard in front of him. He looked strange in the middle of the road alone.

A couple of men and women who seemed to be a couple looked at him and looked worried. It was like seeing a child who left alone with his parents.

Like this, It was the first time he had been treated as a child, so Eugene was speechless for a moment.

He left the street as he had said nothing and ran away, but eventually he couldn’t go far and sat down, leaning against the visible wall.

Eugene then really squeezed his body as if he was a child, and bury his face in his trembling hands. The sound of his throat was rubbing through the throat and leaking out.

What happened now? What the hell did he had done?

He couldn’t figure out what he was doing right now. In fact, the visible truth was extremely simple.

It was that he had released the hand he was holding, but the meaning in it was certainly not the same weight as that one.

“Kh”

A cries of pain are screaming and boiled up from his chest. Both his eyes swelled, and his heart jumped as fast as a sprint. His vision were all dark.

Even the noise that had just filled up until now disappeared as if it had been washed away, and it seemed as if he is the only one that had fallen into the unfamiliar space without gravity.

Eugene opened his mouth and gasped his breath. The pupil who looked up at himself seemed to rise and fall as if he had been stuck in his eyes.

When he recalled what he had just done, he was afraid, but what made him really scared was what he did. He was really such a terrible human being.

Wasn’t it such a pathetic human being who could only do this? ‘I want to go back’

was the only word.

At the same time, He is looking forward to the rational self-rationalization..

He doesn’t know exactly where Hari lived, but Eugene knew what it was like. So he try to told himself it better to let her go.

Instead of giving a warm house, freshly made bread, and pretty clothes, he didn’t even know what he was thinking about in the middle of nowhere.

She also got what she want, so she shouldn’t pay for it. But the child said she wanted to go back.

Even if the flowers are all withered, it is difficult to even eat one meal without selling them as if begging people. If so, it probably meant that the current life was just as hard for the her.

To the extent that they are terrible people who make her think it better for her to go back to her previous life.

‘Brother Eugene’

With that thought, Eugene began to feel more terrible for himself. He bends his knees and bury his face in the meantime.

Just like trying to hide himself from this world so that no one can see it. Projecting the dead arina on their own, the child who is angry at the anger with no place to go.

All that was the fault of the people in Ernst. In fact, she did nothing wrong with them. He was there. If only he could said it was wrong. It wouldn’t be Hari’s fault.

Nevertheless, the child never even resented them for suffering her.

Because she doesn’t know the truth, maybe she didn’t even know why he had left his hand first, as if he were running away in front of Hari.

In a way, Eugene, who decided to take over Ernst’s maintenance, should take care of his brother and he pretend he

was not responsible for their mistakes.

From the beginning, his younger brothers pretended not to know what they had done, and in addition to that, they had to try to solve the current situation somehow by bullying the child.

“Ha.”

Suddenly, a dry arsenic rubbed his lips and leaked. Maybe he was really horrible now. Wasn’t it just himself that was wrong?

He turned away from the situation in front of his eyes as it was convenient, and he

gave up saying that it was unavoidable.

Pretending to be a good son, pretending to be a caring older brother, and pretending to be an adult, but in fact all of them were too hard to handle and he wanted to run away.

Right. Eventually, he wanted to run away and let go of the little hand that was holding him.

‘Doing this is the best way for everyone’, while he was having such a stubby comfort for himself.

“Honey, are you sick? Where are your parents?”

It was asked by someone whom approaching him, when he crouched against the wall. Instead of answering, Eugene stand up from the wall, wriggling.

The lady who saw Eugene’s face became more worried and asked again.

“If anything happens, I’ll help. Is there an adult accompanying you?”

“I have to go find my sister.”

“Ooh. You were looking like that because you lost your sister. Oh my!”

Eugene began to jump back on the road that he had come to disregard, even the voice who came from his behind, he ignored them.

Again, there was a loud noise around him, and many other people passed by. Please stay there.

Eugene thought many times desperately, running as his breath rose to the chin. And finally, when he finds the girl who is crouching down like that, sitting on the box, Eugene notices her quickly.

He moved slowly, feeling that his step was getting hot.

One step. One step.

Every time he walked forward, the feeling of dismay, which seemed to be a lost child, began to drop away from him.

Instead, something new starts to sprout in its place…

“Let’s go.”

Eugene said to the child who was looking at him as if she had been waiting. Oh, how can he express the mood of this moment?

“…Have you been there?”

Perhaps he would never forget today until the day he died.

“I have.”

It’s like he go back to the day when he was born and experienced countless emotions that seemed to die like firecrackers from his inside.

And the moment when he once again met this little hand that he had placed in his hand. Obviously, he would continue to live with a heart on his chest.

“My legs hurt.”

Eugene lifted her, and walked back to where their family would be. He heard a small murmur from behind.

It was a vague whisper that he couldn’t tell whether she was talking to herself when sitting alone in that place as if she was waiting for him.

“You look uncomfortable.”

“Noisy.”

Now the sun started to settle down on the ground. The shadows created by the two fools also stretched to the floor.

On that road, Eugene wanted to cry for a bit, but because he thought she didn’t

deserve it, he pushed his back up and down again and continue walking.

“I’m sorry.”

After he impulsively put that short word out of his mouth, he couldn’t stand it without saying it again.

“I’m sorry.”

She just said nothing. So Eugene was able to whisper the same words several times

afterwards.

Until the burden whom pressing his chest tightly enough to choke him feel very lightly.

A cowardly apology without being heard.