Blazing Armour - Chapter 180

The carriage was the place where their feelings germinated. Ren Yu is a warm and fertile soil, and Gong Yingxian is an indifferent seed everywhere. However, in this carriage wrapped with warmth and safety, it’s OK to say that it’s a greenhouse or a greenhouse. In short, everything is right and sprouts.

This is out of control.

After they left the carriage, they experienced ups and downs, fell black and blue, fled back to the carriage, heard each other’s breathing, smelled each other’s taste, and once again felt the original calm and unstoppable power of germination.

They can feel what the other person is thinking at this time, and they are very determined.

But Ren Yu chose to be silent, while Gong Yingxian chose to speak: “do you remember, we used to eat boxed lunch in the car.”

Ren’s Adam’s apple slid gently and looked at the traffic lights in front of him.

“I never like others to be close to me. If I were anywhere else, I could avoid you, but I had no place to hide in the carriage, so gradually, I got used to you being so close to me.” Gong Yingxian leaned slightly in the direction of Ren Yu, “after getting used to it, you can’t stay away from me.”

Ren Yu was a little upset. Gong Yingxian was right. He had nowhere to hide in the carriage. He didn’t even dare to look at it, but his breath was filled with a faint smell of vegetation unique to Gong Yingxian. He couldn’t ignore this person’s existence.

“You say I have a problem. Yes, I do have a problem. I have a communication with Dr. Pompeii. I know what my problem is.” Gong Yingxian’s eyes fell on his knees, “You are a person who always puts other people’s feelings before myself, but I am just the opposite. I don’t even care about my feelings. With feelings, people will have pain, so in the first period of my accident, I closed all my feelings, didn’t communicate with others, and prevented others from coming in and going out. It’s too tired to bear other people’s feelings, and I even have my own Can’t afford it. ”

Ren Yi took a breath and felt a tingling pain in his heart. Did Gong Yingxian grasp his weakness? He hesitated for a long time and finally said, “since you are aware of your problem, have you ever thought of doing anything.”

When waiting for the red light, Gong Yingxian tilted his head on Ren Yu’s shoulder: “not before, but I have you. I want to change everything. I want you to like everything up and down.”

He sat up straight.

Gong Yingxian’s head lost support and had to retreat in disappointment. He carefully described Ren Yu’s side face with his eyes and said seriously: “because I like you everywhere, I hope you can get the same satisfaction as me.”

Ren Yi pursed his lips and didn’t answer.

“I’ll change it. I’ve been changing it all the time. Maybe it hasn’t been changed yet. Give me some time. I’ll change it. Don’t give up on me.” Gong Yingxian’s eyes were warm and moving. It seemed so sincere and simple that people couldn’t help believing it.

Ren Yi sighed, “you didn’t speak so well before. Who taught you this.”

“No one taught me, but I only said a lot to you.”

“Ying Xian, you can’t fool me with a few words every time.”

“What do you want me to do?”

Ren Shuo paused and made up his mind. He generally said, “I hope we can be separated for a period of time. Now I can’t see the possibility that we can last for a long time. Once or twice, maybe more. It’s like a time bomb. I’m afraid I’ll hate you one day.”

Gong Yingxian bit his lower lip: “I don’t want to separate from you. What if you go far and never come back?”

“… I can’t guarantee anything.”

“You can’t promise anything.” Gong Yingxian repeated this sentence with heartache, “I often feel that you are a lifetime for me, and I am only a period for you, so you can give up, but I can’t.”

Ren Yu was so frustrated that he suddenly hit the steering wheel and parked the car on the side of the road, Then he turned his head and looked at Gong Yingxian: “Don’t be a moral kidnapper. What’s your life? What’s your life? I have no reservations about your life. I’m in my thirties, not a teenager. Do you know how difficult it is for a person in my thirties to dare to go out and like a person like a teenager? You treat me as a lifetime? How do you treat me? Who dares to live with a person like you all his life ！”

All the things in his heart were vented in one breath. Ren Yu suddenly felt that the air in and out of the exchange was clear. He tried to calm himself these days. Following the doctor’s advice was just an excuse. He was just afraid. He was afraid that once a gap was opened, Gong Yingxian’s feelings without impurities and reservations would be everywhere.

There is a person who loves you deeply, but doesn’t mind cheating you or hurting you. How can there be such a fucking thing in the world.

Gong Yingxian’s eyes showed clear pain. He whispered, “you’ve held it for a long time. You can say everything you want. You don’t have to bear it.” Ren Yu, who will lose his temper and talk hard at him, is better than ignoring him.

“I don’t know what else to say before you understand.” Ren Yu doesn’t want to talk anymore. He finds himself hopeless. At this point, he still doesn’t want to hurt Gong Yingxian, but he can’t let Gong Yingxian hurt him again.

Gong Yingxian said sadly, “am I destined to die alone?”

“… I didn’t say that. Maybe it’s just that we… Don’t fit.”

“It’s not appropriate to be happy with each other, and it’s not appropriate to have a life and death friend. Who else can I meet?” Gong Yingxian stared at Ren Yu without blinking. His eyes were red. “As you said, no one wants to be with me all his life.”

Ren Yu was angry and didn’t turn his face: “Gong Yingxian, don’t fucking pretend to be pathetic.” Why should a man like a beast pretend to be a cat in front of him when he is fierce!

Gong Yingxian stretched out his hand and broke Ren Yu’s chin: “you dare not face me.”

Ren Yi opened Gong Yingxian’s hand, started the car again, and said, “enough, enough, shut up and get off.”

Gong Yingxian leaned back in his chair.

After a period of silence in the carriage, Gong Yingxian said again, “do you still like me?”

Ren Yu said in a deep voice, “I said shut up.”

“When you finish answering this question, I’ll shut up.”

Ren Yi couldn’t answer. In front of Gong Yingxian, he could neither lie nor tell the truth.

After waiting for a long time, Gong Yingxian smiled faintly and said happily, “you still like me.”

Ren Yu, with a black face, looked ahead and drove quietly.

“Sometimes, I really want to hide you.” Gong Yingxian stared at Ren Yu with eyes like wolves and tigers, but his voice was very soft. “I don’t care about anything, I don’t care about anything, let you become me alone.”

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When the car arrived, Ren quickly engaged, pulled out the key, opened the door and got out of the car. It seemed that if he stayed in the car for more than one second, it would explode.

Gong Yingxian followed up. He looked at the surrounding environment: “it’s OK here. How about security?”

“OK.”

“Medical care.”

“OK.”

“I can’t see very well. The camera is broken.” Gong Yingxian pointed to the camera at the entrance, “I’ll complain later and ask them to replace it as soon as possible.”

Before entering the door, Ren Yu suddenly stopped and looked at Gong Yingxian: “don’t talk when you see my father.”

Gong Yingxian also looked at Ren Yu: “what do you mean?”

“You know.” Ren Yi opened the door and went straight to the front desk to register.

“Mr. Ren, please follow me.” The nurse takes them to the housing department. From the office building to the housing department, they have to go through the atrium. This is the activity area of the elderly, with a large garden and fitness and entertainment facilities. At this time, flowers bloom in spring. If it is not just time for dinner, there should be a lot of people.

As soon as they reached the garden, they heard a noise in the distance. Ren Yu turned his head and looked silly.

He even saw his father and some nurses tearing in the garden, shouting vaguely. He couldn’t hear the distance.

Ren Yu rushed over.

On approaching, Ren Xiangrong held a fire extinguisher in his hand. The safety pin had been torn off. There was splashing dry powder on the ground, and on one side, there was a burned and deformed trash can. Several support workers were trying to grab it from him, but they didn’t dare to grab it.

“Don’t come here. What are you doing?” Ren Xiangrong’s legs and feet are inconvenient. He is shaking just standing, but he is full of anger when shouting, “you hinder firefighters from performing their official duties!”

Ren Yu sighed in his heart. He shouted, “Dad.”

Several nursing workers looked at him: “are you a family member? Think of a way quickly.”

Ren Yu went over and said, “Dad, what are you doing? The fire has gone out. Put your things down.”

“Don’t come here. It’s dangerous here. Who let you come here?” Ren Xiangrong blushed with anger. When he lifted the fire extinguisher, he would spray it.

“Dad, there’s no fire. It’s just a trash can. It’s already out. Look.” Ren Yu didn’t dare to grab it. He was afraid of hurting his father, so he had to coax him.

Gong Yingxian stood behind Ren Xiangrong and spread his arms to prevent Ren Xiangrong from falling.

“What do you know? There are potential safety hazards everywhere. You have to check them. Go and call Xiaofei. Who approved the fire fighting here? I won’t approve it.” Ren Xiangrong looked around nervously with an angry face.

Ren Yi said helplessly, “Captain Ren, if you have anything to say, go back to the squadron. Put down the fire extinguisher first.” When he saw his father shaking his legs, he was afraid that although he might fall down, his heart beat suddenly and he was very nervous.

Ren Xiangrong holds a fire extinguisher, just like a soldier holding a weapon on the battlefield. He refuses to give up. He just looks around warily and has a dignified expression.

Ren Yu carefully approached and wanted to take over the fire extinguisher from Ren Xiangrong.

But just then, a nurse’s cell phone rang, and the bell was somewhat similar to the alarm bell of the fire brigade. Ren Xiangrong suddenly lifted the fire extinguisher, held the nozzle in one hand and pressed the mouth in the other hand. Each firefighter trained thousands of times in the most standard and fastest posture, aimed at the garbage can and began to spray.

Ren Yu stood beside him. Even if he turned around in time to cover his face, dry powder came in from his mouth and nose, choking him more than coughing.

At the same time, Ren Xiangrong softened his legs and sat down to the ground.

Gong Yingxian and the nurse quickly helped him, put him in the wheelchair, and took the opportunity to grab the fire extinguisher.

Ren Xiangrong looked around nervously: “check again, look at the ceiling and look inside the wall.”

Two nurses pushed Ren Xiangrong away. The other asked with concern, “Mr. Ren, are you okay? Go wash your face and mouth.”

Ren Yu wiped his face with white powder in one hand. He stood rigidly in place, even ignoring the embarrassment of his head and face.

Gong Yingxian said to the nurse, “go and be busy.” Then he took out his handkerchief from his pocket and wanted to wipe Ren’s face. He said painfully, “did you suck it in?”

Ren Yu didn’t open his face and whispered, “I’ll wash it.”

Gong Yingxian’s hands were frozen in the air, and he felt very uncomfortable.