Blood Bound - Chapter 62

>>Maya

I see, so that’s the whole story.

I smiled sadly.

So that’s what happened.

I got to know the story but I guess I learned a lot more from it.

“So, there’s one thing I want to ask you.” I sighed softly, “Regarding the curse.” I had come to a realization after all.

“You’re a smart girl.” Esra knew I had caught on, “You picked up ‘that’ point didn’t you?”

I nodded, “Is it because of that I felt the same amount of pain when Yohan was hurt?”

“Mmmm” Esra nodded, “Because you both are bound to each other. In blood and in soul. There will never be an escape from it. If he gets hurt, you’ll feel the pain too. It’s because you accepted him, now the second part will continue.”

“I see, so it switched.”

“Yes.” She held my hands tighter, “I’m so sorry child.”

“Actually, this is bad.” My hands trembled, “After all that, it’s like we’ll be at point zero.”

“I’m so sorry.”

“Why? Why did you have to be so hateful?” I tried holding my tears. I know what happened wasn’t her intention but her actions led to things far worse than one can imagine.

“I’m so sorry…” Esra looked down as she let go of my hands and placed them on top her thighs, “I know saying that it was never meant for Yohan will seem like an excuse because from the beginning as a fae, as a queen, as a ruler, I should never have resorted to something like this no matter how hurt I was.” Her body trembled, “I’m so sorry child.” She bowed to the ground, “Please forgive me.”

I gulped as I took a deep breath that made my body shiver. I looked down at her and my eyes landed on her hair bound to the ground.

“Is this your punishment?”I asked, “Because you used a taboo, you’re bound to the forest?”

She raised her head, “Yes.” Her gaze was still glued to the ground, “I can not step outside of it.”

“What if you do?”

“I can’t.” She shook her head, “It’s like there’s an invisible barrier there. It just won’t let me out.” She gulped, “The hair too, it’s chained to the ground of the forest. I can never leave.”

“I see. So it’s like that just with you?”

“Arsay isn’t bound to it like I am. She can leave but only for a short span of time. Her time is limited and after it’s up the forest pulls her back in.”

“But she didn’t do anything.”

“She didn’t stop me either.” She sighed, “As the second Queen, it was her duty to stop me from doing something like that but she didn’t, she was as furious as me and let me do it but her punishment is a lot lighter than mine since not stopping me is her only sin.” She looked at me and bowed, “I’m sorry child. I’m so sorry.”

Words,

All that was left to say were mere words.

The actions had already been performed and the wheels of fate were set in stone.

I was at a complete loss.

There was no point in blaming anyone, nothing was going to change…

This was the first time in my entire life where I felt so cold inside, it felt like my heartbeat was slowing down as if it had given up too.

What now?

I turned my head towards Yohan and suddenly a smile formed on my face.

Give up?

After how I decided I’d give my everything to him?

“It can’t be helped now…” She raised her head, “It’s already done.” I held the bottom part of my shirt. “You’ve already been suffering enough.” I thought about it already, “You couldn’t even leave to find your son and for years you were stuck.” I placed my hand on hers, “You didn’t want to meet him to unite did you?”

“What a smart child you are.” The soft breeze made our hair flutter and I caught a glimpse of her eyes getting wet with tears, “No. I’m not.”

“Do you seek forgiveness?”

She sighed, “Only when my sins will be forgiven by whom they affect will I be at peace.”

“Well then, I forgive you.” I smiled, “I should, after all your nephew was a huge help to me and my sister and I led a good life. Not one filled with luxuries…” In my heart I knew, “But I got all the things I needed.” The leaves rustled softly and some of the them fluttered past us, “And your son,” I took a deep breath, “He gave me so much love I felt filled up, so I’ll forgive you.”

“…” Her eyelids trembled as she closed and opened her eyes, “Thank you.”

“But I have a request.” I gulped, “This might sound selfish but don’t tell Yohan about it.”

“Don’t tell him?” She asked, surprised.

“If there’s a possibility, I’d like to keep it a secret until the time it’s really needed.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes.” I answered her softly, “Can I ask you to not apologize to him? Just for a little more time? I know it’s very selfish of me but please. It’s the only request I’ll ever ask of you.”

She smiled, “Okay.” Her voice was soothing but I could feel the sorrow behind it as well, “I can wait for a little more time.”

I smiled back at her, “ And since it’s come to this.” I stood up, “I’ll see it through the end. I’ll give all of myself to him.” I smiled trying to hide the pain.

Esra smiled, “He has such a wonderful partner.”

“Right! There’s no one who could be better than me.” I said as finally my voice trembled and the tears that I was holding could no longer be contained.

I wiped them away.

I’m not giving up.

I’ll do my best.