Ceo And His Empress.. - Volume 2 Chapter 232 229. Deserving..

Meilin was taken aback by the domineering ZiXuan by surprise and forgot what she wanted to say, but for a fact she couldn’t believe what he was saying and wanted to avoid those eyes that looked like they could see through her everything… she suddenly felt that they were scrutinising her every inch of her body… n.a.k.e.d and in spite of herself, she felt embarrassed and avoided his eyes…

But–

ZiXuan had enough of this running away and so, she forced her to look into his eyes and spoke in a low tone, “You still can’t believe that I actually love you and this is not infatuation or simple possessiveness, right?”, his lips curved up into an evil smirk and he came dangerously close to her, “Meilin, my love”, his voice magnetic and sultry enough to make one’s knees weak, “..do you want me to prove it, eh?… Then let me tell you something more about them…”, his lips lingered over her ears as he spoke in whispers, “My feelings are not only to keep you by my side, you see, just that will never satisfy me… You probably can’t see the position you are in right now, well, my love has always been quite ignorant when it comes to herself and how much of a potent drug she is… without knowing, she attracts bugs and flies from all over the world, but at least… I’m glad that, it is only me who is projected in your eyes…”, if seduction had a form, that will definitely be him.

As he softly bit her ear that made them flush a blood-red, he chuckled in a hoarse voice and said, “….but to me, you seem like the most delectable woman that ever existed … the only person in this world that I’ll get hard for, I might as well be impotent for all except you and at this point of time, if I have to prove it, I can bed you… and prove that only you are special to me, hm?”, his words, though not vulgar, were too straight forward…

But because he spoke like this, her eyes widened in shock as a tinge of pink crept onto her cheeks and her whole body for the matter…

When ZiXuan saw that she was not a least bit averse by his words and actually flushed like this, his eyes darkened as his wild hand crept inside her blouse and came directly in contact with her cold skin, evoking a soft m.o.a.n from her…

“mmhm”, Meilin didn’t dare move as she bit her lips…

She couldn’t believe what was happening; was everything really a dream..?

On the other hand, ZiXuan never wanted for things to be like this, he liked to eat a lot of her tofu, but he never saw himself as a man, who could actually take advantage of her… but it seems, he had overestimated his self-control…

He was a normal man and he had his needs; his beloved was lying on the bed with him on top, vulnerable and inviting… he thought that the self-control he had been showing till now could actually enlighten him!

His rationality shedding all pretence as he felt that flexible and soft skin under his touch, he was losing his mind, as his mouth went out of control, “… Meilin, believe me… I’m a man and the latter part of it is, for the time being, overpowering my restrains”, Meilin wasn’t ignorant enough to nor know what he meant… he really wanted to bed her…

As things stands, it seems, this method was really useful on her… because she was never aware of this side of his, it hit her where it was intended… it felt more genuine than when she heard it from the ‘him‘ she had known forever… even though they were the same person… even she couldn’t make sense of what she meant anymore.

She heard him clarify it with his deep voice as her brain was turning into a mush with all that intimate skinship… his hand was really not listening to him and doing what it wanted to.

“…You see, I thought you’re not ready and so, I took advantage of your kindness to bind you to me. I’m not someone who needed your protection,.. though you don’t know it… you see, before I met you, I was what you call a killing machine… we have probably killed about the same number of people, the only difference was, I did it as a child”, his voice cold. ZiXuan really hated the him from before he met Meilin, on the other hand, Meilin didn’t know what to say as she sub-consciously started frowning, hating everything in existence that made him go through that.

ZiXuan leaned back and again met her eyes, “I didn’t have any feelings to speak of and I without me knowing it, I actually wanted someone to hold close to… At first, even I thought that I was simply using you to get rid of that void inside my heart, but you were never meant to get rid of it, rather… you filled that void… without knowing, I was overflowing with all sort of emotions and feelings that I never thought I could have…my life was a harsh monotone, but you added colours to it “, for a second there, he was lost in that nostalgia as his voice softened, but in the next second he remembered how she talked about his feeling and his eyes dimmed, “I don’t see any problem in loving the person who gave me all my feelings, I think it is very natural… so, don’t tag my feelings as impulses or fleeting cause they are not… I want your everything..I want to occupy your thoughts, your body, your heart…your everything! It’s true, my only truth! I’ve been like this since that day you said you’ll protect me…my feelings, my infatuation has turned into an obsession…

I want you to desire me till you can’t see anything but me…I want you…DO YOU GET IT? I am always scared that I’ll scare you away. I’m not the innocent person you think I am.. I’m everything but that. I never needed your protection but I cherished the feeling and so, I’ve always been nonchalant in front of you so as to hide that side of me, but–“, he had a sad face for a second, “..but because of that, you thought I didn’t feel anything for you…I won’t say that I’m still the same boy from back then, but part of him still lives in me…”

He looked straight into her eyes and said, “..ne…Linlin, even when I try to hide something,…you actually seem to understand everything about me, right?”

Meilin froze…

He saw her like this and just continued, “You see, I was scared that I’ll be found out… but I was also expecting it.. somewhere, I also wanted you to find out about my hidden feelings…..but you didn’t!! Meilin how couldn’t you see through my most desired need…even that engagement facade, it was something the rumours said, it wasn’t official, but when I found out, I didn’t do anything. Do you know why?

I did it to keep the flies away from me plus, I knew that, if you were still in love with me, you will definitely come back… I guess it was my childish tantrum..?”

ZiXuan held his face and snorted on his temper, “When I heard that you’ve returned, I knew that I won….but even when you were there, you started withdrawing from me too. I guess my plan backfired. The last time I met that woman, I asked her to stop this farce. I knew her family was behind it, but when she had come to ask me to become her boyfriend, that is after I took over the office, she didn’t even confess… She said, that it was a give and take sort of agreement… but now that you were back, I didn’t want any ambiguity between us so, I ‘broke up’ and suppressed all those rumours too…”

Meilin finally heard his part of the story and the missing pieces of the puzzle were found… it seems, the fact that he had actually had a girlfriend before was weighing on her more than she thought… She had guessed that, even if it is not her, he can still find someone else… but it seems, everything was done for her… though her face didn’t show it, she felt butterflies fluttering in her stomach as her heartbeat quickened. She was actually happy when he said that she had become his obsession…

Their relationship wasn’t toxic, just a bit dark… they couldn’t do without the other after all so, they had to do everything to have them.

Without knowing, she had already started accepting his words and felt lighter…

Meilin has been too reclusive and controlling, but that had somehow, warped her judgement about herself… she couldn’t love herself and so, someone, especially ZiXuan had to make her realise that, she was someone who could love others… she deserved it… just that, she should start loving herself before that.

ZiXuan was subconsciously doing just that… his deep-rooted feelings were the key to open her heart, the mirror that will help her face herself.

These two were hopelessly in love…