Complex Romance - 22 Her resolution

At night, Teresa’s parents took her out for dinner to celebrate her birthday. With the happy and warm atmosphere surrounding her, she did not think about those unhappy thoughts. She just went with the flow and enjoyed her birthday night with her family. To her, her family was the most important existence in her life as she loved them so much.

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After the celebration, Teresa was arranging her gifts in her room. Looking at the gifts that John gave her, she finally made her resolution as she decided to be brave and text John to tell him her feelings. She sent a message saying,

“Thank you again for your gift but please don’t ever buy any gifts for me. This the last time that I will accept your gifts, I won’t accept any if you give me again next time. I don’t want to hurt you, but I need to tell you the truth that I don’t like you anymore… Our relationship was already over when you said you liked someone else. I don’t want to be in any relationships now. I only want to focus on my studies. So, please don’t chase after me anymore… Let’s just be friends…”

It took her a lot of courage to send this message, she did not want to hurt him by being too cruel, but she needed to tell him the truth to totally stop him from doing anything unnecessary. After sending the text message, a large weight was immediately taken off from her heart.

Buzzz, buzz, buzz.

“Can’t you give me another chance? I really regret leaving you… I really love you Teresa, I really do.” Replied John desperately.

“No… I don’t love you and that’s it… Please understand my feelings…” She said as she was determined not to ever feel soft hearted to totally stop him from loving her.

“Why? I have already put in so much effort to make you feel happy, but why can’t you see it? Why can’t you see my love for you? Am I not good enough? Do you like someone else? Give me a reason.” said John as he was so disappointed. He thought that Teresa would be touched and would fall for him again, but reality hit him so hard.

“It’s because I don’t love you anymore. You know, sometimes I think that it’s not that you love me, it’s because you can’t have me, that’s why you want me… When I chose to trust you and promised to be together after we graduate, I had put in all my heart and my trust in you but you yourself crushed it, you crushed my love and my trust… Sometimes when things leave, it can never come back. You did not appreciate my love and trust, so don’t think of getting it back…” she replied as she continued,

“This is the last time that I’m going to tell you, I don’t want any relationships and I just want to focus on my studies. So, please stop this.”

After sending all those messages, she did not receive any reply from John, she assumed that he had already given up. At that moment, she had a complicated feeling which she could not explain, but she knew that this was the best for both of them, she knew that this was the right choice. John was her first love, so it was normal for her to have that complicated feeling as what others say, ‘First love is special and is one that you will always remember’.