Confession (Ying Cheng) - Chapter 88
Hu Qianxi’s condition is getting worse and worse. The night before yesterday, she suffered a heart attack and was sent to the emergency room again. At five o’clock in the morning, she came back from the ghost gate.
Because of the sudden reduction of heart function and various complications, Hu Qianxi’s disease has become more and more frequent, her breathing has become shorter, and her chest is often tight.
Not only that, her abdominal cavity was filled with a large amount of fluid, which caused edema throughout the body, and she needed to draw waste fluid every day.
Sometimes the pain made Hu Qianxi so painful that she couldn’t say a word. She was lying on the hospital bed, unable to move, she could only cry silently.
Seeing Hu Qianxi’s pain in this way, Sheng Nanzhou often thought, if only he could replace her.
While Hu Qianxi was simmering, Sheng Nanzhou was also accompany her to simmer. Sheng Nanzhou went everywhere to find Hu Qianxi drugs for intravenous expansion, and the other party often asked him to put down the important things at hand to find medicine.
Sheng Nanzhou accompanied Hu Qianxi for treatment, and went to find a doctor. After a month, Sheng Nanzhou lost a lot of weight, his skeleton became more and more fierce, and his profile became sharper.
The new year is approaching, the ice and snow are melting, the spring is quietly climbing the branches, and large swaths of sunshine are surging. In the ward, Sheng Nanzhou hugged Hu Qianxi onto the chair, pushing her to the window to bask in the sun and blow the hair.
Hu Qianxi was sitting there with her hands on her knees, and she accidentally saw a bloodless, sickly woman whose stomach was bloated due to excessive fluid accumulation in the glass window.
She seems to be ten years old.
Hu Qianxi was taken aback, then she covered her face, tears streaming from the gap, and whispered: “I’m so ugly now.”
Sheng Nanzhou squatted halfway in front of her, pulled her hand away, and teased her with a smile: “It’s not ugly, I think it’s pretty good-looking.”
“Moreover, I haven’t seen the appearance of you peeing on your pants when you were a kid. It’s even uglier.” Sheng Nanzhou said lazily.
With a “pouch”, Hu Qianxi burst into laughter. She quietly looked at Sheng Nanzhou, who was thin with only a fierce skeleton, and suddenly said: “Brother Nanzhou, I’m fine, I really can’t delay you, you leave me alone. NS.”
Sheng Nanzhou wiped Hu Qianxi’s tears, raised his hand and removed the bangs on her forehead. A scar was exposed on her smooth forehead, which had shrunk to the size of a fingernail because of time.
The man gently pressed the crescent-sized scar on her forehead with his thumb, and said, “That’s why I delayed you first. My brother can’t care about you for the rest of my life.”
Hu Qian suffocated her heart. These words were like a stone rippled on the calm lake surface, and her heart jumped uncontrollably.
Sheng Nanzhou gently touched her head, her dark eyes reflected her figure, her voice was very low, and he said seriously:
“I want to be responsible for the rest of my life, willingly.”
This vague confession is better than a hundred words like “I like you”, which is like a reincarnation that spans a long period of time.
When she was a child, Hu Qianxi wore a delicate princess dress, held a golden Shangfang sword, and handed it to Sheng Nanzhou, holding her chin open and said, “You will be the princess’s knight from now on.”
At the age of eleven when the goods arrived, Sheng Nanzhou had a stubborn personality and was playful for a while. He missed and pushed Hu Qianxi to the ground, her forehead just hitting the vase on the ground.
The little princess cried so much that she sobbed: “If I get disfigured, what should I do if no one wants it in the future?”
Sheng Nanzhou couldn’t coax it well, and finally patted his chest and promised: “Princess, don’t cry, I will marry you.”
All the way to the university, the two quarreled and quarreled, always appearing in the best way to harm their friends. Now, Sheng Nanzhou finally revealed the secret hidden in his heart.
“But I heard you in junior high school that I was just one of your younger sisters.” This sentence lingers in Hu Qianxi’s heart for many years, and it seems that it has become less important.
Sheng Nanzhou squatted halfway in front of Hu Qianxi, looking at her, Hu Qianxi cried and laughed, and looked back at him, finally gently raising his hand to caress his sideburns.
At 3:30 in the afternoon the sun was shining in obliquely through the window, and the shadows of the two on the ground came together again, and everything was just fine.
As the New Year’s Eve is approaching, lanterns are being replaced on the street, and there are more and more pedestrians on the road. Xu Sui occasionally takes the bus home and glances out inadvertently. There are more vendors selling red spring festival couplets on the road, and the car flashes by. The scene outside the window was obscured by the white mist coming out of it.
Xu’s mother had been urging Xu Sui to buy a ticket to go home early. She didn’t want to go home so quickly, because after all Zhou Jingze also took a vacation, she wanted to stay with him for a few more days.
After all, once he returned to the team, Xu Sui might not see anyone else for two months.
On Friday, Xu Sui and Zhou Jingze went to the supermarket together and bought a lot of ingredients. The weather was cold, and the two planned to have hot pot at home.
The sensor light in the corridor was on, Xu Sui took Zhou Jingze’s arm and walked to the door with a dazzling face. Xu Sui touched the key on his body, and found that there was no key, so he went to Zhou Jingze’s coat pocket and reached for it.
The key was inserted into the keyhole, and the door opened with a “click”. Xu Sui opened the door and was about to speak. When he saw the person in front of him, his smile froze on his face.
Zhou Jingze followed Xu Sui’s eyes and looked at him. Standing in front of him was a woman in her 40s. She was neatly dressed and gentle, with a pair of watery eyes that resembled Xu Sui.
He guessed the woman’s identity from the bottom of his heart, he gathered the original sloppy smile on his face, and said hello politely: “Auntie, hello, I am Xu Sui’s boyfriend——”
“Mom, why are you here?” Xu Sui took his hand out of the man’s arm, and then quietly pulled his sleeve to beckon him not to speak.
Xu’s mother’s attitude was not good. She smiled at Zhou Jingze and never asked anything else. Then she looked at her daughter and said, “I think you haven’t come back, so I want to come and have a look.”
Xu’s mother took the supermarket bag in Xu Sui’s hand and glanced at the wall clock on the wall, with an apologetic expression: “Thank you for sending her back, it’s so late…”
Zhou Jingze originally wanted to say something, but after meeting Xu Sui’s eyes, he changed his words: “Sure, I will put things here, then I will leave.”
Xu’s mother’s expulsion was decent, but also blunt and strong. As soon as Zhou Jingze took a step out, the door closed in front of him.
Inside, there were only two people, Xu Mu and Xu Sui. Xu Sui’s throat was a little dry, and he tentatively called out: “Mom——”
“One by one, Mom doesn’t agree with you being together, let’s divide it, go back tomorrow and go home with Mom early for the New Year.” Xu Mu turned around and said.
“Mom, I…” Xu Sui tried to say something.
“I gave you the dumplings stuffed with fennel that you like to eat. I’ll go get them.” Mother Xu smiled and hurriedly walked towards the kitchen.
Xu Sui sighed. This is Xu Mu’s typical tactic, and she will avoid it when she decides or doesn’t want to talk about it anymore. Xu Sui only thought she was angry, and planned to have a good talk the next day when her anger disappeared.
Xu Sui took a sip of water while sitting on the sofa, and saw the phone screen light up. When he clicked on it, it was a message from the man:
[Call me if you have anything. 】
Xu Sui typed his reply in the dialog box: [It’s okay. 】
She suddenly remembered something, and asked: [You won’t have left yet. 】
Zhou Jingze quickly sent a message. Xu Sui felt warm in his heart. He replied: [I happened to smoke two cigarettes downstairs. I was afraid that your mother would think that I was with me and said you were disobedient, and then started to beat you. 】
[Why, my mother is very gentle and never hits people, you go back quickly, I will tell you tomorrow. 】
When the two of them were eating dumplings together, Xu Sui specially observed her mother’s expression. Xu’s mother seemed to be in a relaxed state. She also talked to her about the housework, saying that the kid at aunt’s was too naughty.
Xu Sui’s heart settled down a bit.
Unexpectedly, the next day, Xu Sui woke up from the bed in a daze, and at a glance saw Xu mother taking out her silver suitcase and folding her clothes into it.
“You wake up, clean up, we will go back this afternoon.” Xu Mu said while folding clothes.
Xu’s follower got up from the bed and explained: “Mom, there are still four days to go before the Chinese New Year. I still have some work in my hands that is not finished. I will definitely go back the day after tomorrow.”
But Xu’s mother was just like she hadn’t heard. She took care of her things. Xu Sui called her helplessly. Xu’s mother paused and said, “You have been reluctant to go home. Are you staying with him?” Divide, I won’t agree with you being together.”
Xu Sui walked over, reached for his clothes, and said, “Mom, I know what your concerns are. He is a pilot and has been flying safely for so many years, and his flying skills are very good. There will be nothing wrong with me. Doctors, this career risk is not high, and there are sudden deaths…”
She was trying to persuade him. Mother Xu grabbed her clothes and fell on the bed. Her eyes blushed instantly: “Have you forgotten how your dad died?”
“Do you want to be called a widow at a young age like me?”
With one sentence, the original half-scabbed wound was cut through again. Xu Sui remained silent for a long time before whispering, “That was just an accident.”
“Mom, before you told me to study hard and not let others read the jokes. I am very obedient and work hard to learn. You made me sensible and considerate of adults, so I never dared to make you angry, nor would I say no. I remember that the whole class organized an outing. I especially wanted to ski once, but you told me to study at home, saying that I would walk one day longer than others and I would win.” Xu Sui paused while looking at her, struggling from his throat. A sentence was squeezed out, “Later I found out that this was not the case. You asked me to give up playing drums and games and I gave up too. It was not until college that I met him that I picked up the ones I liked again.”
“I really like him and I am very happy with him.”
“This time I want to make the decision on my own. I will be happy. Don’t you believe me? Ever since I was a child, how often have I disappointed you?” Xu Sui sniffed his nose and lowered his dark eyelashes, “I just want to together with him.”