Conqueror - Chapter 210

It was like the feeling of your chest being ripped out open. I wanted to do more. Serve more under his lead. He has given me so much but I have given nothing in return.

He saved me from that hellhole in the black market, he gave me the chance to take revenge, he gave me the motivation to get stronger and he let me meet Greta in this lifetime. But was that a mistake that I didn’t expect?

Right now I’m doubting my love for Greta. This all happened because of that child. That child was Zieglind’s reason to kick me out. I wasn’t even on planning that but it just happened.

“For an intelligent man like you, you’re incredibly, stupidly dumb.” Yurid was inside of me, talking to me.

That’s it! Yurid can help me. She’s stronger than me but she just needs mana. “Help me Yurid, I’ll defeat Zieglind and earn my place again!”

“No Zeta. I agree with his decision. And you should too. Enjoy your life with Greta. That’s the best gift you’ll ever had.”

“What are you saying Yurid! I came to get you so that I can stay by his side and repay him. And at the same time take revenge for our master!”

“You already killed him didn’t you?”

“I already did but the one who ordered him is who I want to take revenge on!”

“Ouroboros? I see. I won’t blame you for that. I also feel that way. I will kill that person by myself.”

“That’s why help me! So that we have a better chance of killing Ouroboros! Once we’re at Zieglind’s side, we’ll easily kill him!”

“Did you forget what I said? I will kill Ouroboros by myself. Zeta, your journey ends here.”

“Yurid..?”

“I’ll stay by Zieglind’s side. Just live peacefully.” Yurid detached from my soul and summoned her physical form.

“Yurid! What are you doing!?”

“Sorry Zeta. You need this. You need to accept what Zieglind gave you. A life that he wished he had.” Yurid then flew next to Zieglind.

“Zeta,” Zieglind began to speak. “While I still can and while there’s still time. I want you both to leave and start over. I want you to have the life that I want. So Zeta, Greta… thank you for everything and… goodbye.” He turned around and left the room. Everyone was silent. While I was here on my knees, trying to remember all the times he saved me and the times that he gave for me.

I couldn’t do anything for him. Not a single thing. He keeps on saving and saving but the one he saved couldn’t save him from this sorrow of this world. I want to repay it back somehow. That’s literally all I want.

Greta hugged me as to ease the pain but all I can feel now in just emptiness. He gave me the reason to live and suddenly all of that was casted away into nothingness.

Greta helped me stand up and we began to walk away at Izgoy. A final look as we both let out tears. We’re no longer part of that world. And we can no longer repay the person that gave us salvation.

“I’m sorry Zeta… this is my fault.” Greta leaned on my chest.

“No its not…” I couldn’t blame her. Even if I wanted to. Three years disappeared in a blink of an eye. Our loyalty, our pledge and everything that we wanted to do. Its… all gone.

We both wandered around the world for the next week. We had nowhere to go, nowhere to go back to. A few days after that, Greta’s condition worsened. It seems that the baby is nearing. Beast people have a faster time to grow a baby than humans.

I bought a house far in the kingdom of Germogorn and settled there as normal citizens. I was there not as an adventurer but a fisherman. So that I could have some time to clear my head.

Few days pass and Greta’s stomach is now larger than before. Because of that kid.

From this day forward, I hated the baby that was growing inside of Greta. That baby was the reason the both of us didn’t have anything to go back to.

I can’t help Zieglind. He’s going to cut me off his life for good if I ever did that. This was his decision and all I can do now is obey that. That’s the least I could do.

BUT WHY!? Why am I getting punished for this… accident!?

I was only happy when Greta said that she was pregnant since I thought our relationship has gone farther than that. I thought… I thought I wanted it. But the way things are going now… I’ll only raise this kid to be hated by me.

Greta definitely sees through my anger and frustration… But she never says anything. She’s just there silent… I couldn’t say it straight to her face but this kid… was a mistake. It was a simple mistake.

A few more days pass and Greta’s condition worsened. I’ve called doctors around the town and it seems that her due date was near so all I could do was stand by her side and wait.

They gave me potions and herbs and what Greta needs to take. She was there on the bed laying down incredibly exhausted. “Zeta… Do you regret… having a baby?”

That question of hers in that weakened state broke my heart. But I have to be honest. “No. I just hate that that kid was the reason that we didn’t get to repay Zieglind.”

“I… see.” A sorrow face went on Greta’s face. “I know how you feel… And I hate myself too for it.”

“This isn’t your fa-”

Greta put her hands on my face. “But no matter what happens will you promise me something?”

“Sure…”

“Will you love this kid?”

“I’ll try.” I couldn’t agree to that. I already hate it when it still isn’t even born. That kid was a mistake and is a mistake.

“ARGH!” Greta began to shout in pain. “It’s… here! Call them!”

“Got it!” I ran out and began to call the doctor that I hired. She rushed over to Greta and began to help her. I couldn’t bear to see her in that state. In so much pain so I went out. Just patiently waiting. Uneasiness worked up throughout my whole body trying to wish that she’d be fine.

After a few hours, the doctor went out, “The delivery is a success. Congratulations mister.”

“Thank you.” I let out a wry smile as I couldn’t be happy at this moment. But I just went in and saw Greta holding the baby.

Her pace was pale and her body was extremely exhausted. But the moment she saw her child, tears came out from her eyes. “Zeta… our child… she’s beautiful… And yes… its a girl.”

“Wow…” I began to shed tears but I didn’t know why. I had to hate this girl. I have to. She’s the reason why Zieglind banished me.

“Hold her Zeta… please.”Greta stretched out her hand to give me this baby.

I grabbed her and the torrent of tears coming out of my eyes couldn’t stop. Why..? Why am I feeling this way? This overwhelming happiness? Was it because of her beautiful eyes that she inherited from her mother? Her smile that gave me peace? It was like holding something so fragile that I don’t want anything or anyone to hurt her.

This conflicted feelings of mine disappeared and just turned into love. This feeling of happiness… this peace… I couldn’t contain it anymore. I let out a cry that if a man would see me, they’d call me a wimp. But I didn’t care for it.

This is the first time in my life that I’ve felt so happy. So successful. So… fulfilled.

The baby grabbed my finger with her tiny little hands and I felt like I could die today and I wouldn’t mind it at all. I thought I hated her… She was the reason I was casted out… But the words that came out of my mouth… “I… love her.” Were the true feelings inside me as I saw her.

In the end, Zieglind gave me another reason to live and helped me gain the peace that me and Greta wanted for a very long time. How can I ever repay him? This happiness… this is too much. Am I really allowed to have this? “Zieglind… thank you… thank you…” I held her tightly with an embrace. As if I could never let her go.

“What should we name her?” Greta asked me.

“Even if its a memento… Lin. Let’s name her Lin. Taken from Zieglind’s name.”

“Lin huh… that’s a great name.”

“It seems that you’ve finally realized what Zieglind had to do.” Yurid was inside of my head. Which caught me off-guard.

“Yurid!?” I asked.

“Zeta… protect your child and Greta. That’s what our master would’ve wanted. Take a rest now. You no longer need to fight. Live in peace… That’s Zieglind’s farewell gift to you.”

“Yurid… Zieglind… everyone…” I couldn’t believe it. I was surrounded by people who I love so much and care for me.

“I’ll assist Zieglind in his journey. Zeta… live well.” Yurid’s soul came out of my body but this time it was smaller than her normal size. And flew away.

“So you’ve left a part of your soul with me… Thank you… Yurid… everyone… thank you… I love you all so much.”