Daydream Me - Chapter 52
What is it like to hug someone of the opposite **** for the first time?
It’s a little uncomfortable feeling.
Lin Yu squatted in front of Shen Lian in shock, he raised his hands to wrap his arms around her, she straightened up and thrust forward, her whole body resting on him, and she was able to maintain her balance. To be honest, it was not particularly comfortable.
But this person didn’t let her move.
Until Lin Yujing felt that his legs seemed to be cramping, Shen Juan didn’t let her go.
Lin Yujing hesitated for a while, but still said, “Shen Jian.”
Shen Wan buried her head in her neck and shook it slightly.
Lin Yu was startled and went numb.
Did you just rub it in?
Did you scratch it?
Yes or no!
Lin Yu was startled and felt a little unable to hold on, so he cleared his throat: “Are you ready to hug?”
With a dull smile, he said, “I thought you didn’t ask anymore.”
“…I don’t ask you to keep holding me?”
“Well,” Shen Jian let go of her arm, raised his head, and leaned back, “You don’t ask me, just keep holding me like this.” Shen Jian paused: “After all, there is only one chance.”
Lin Yujing didn’t know what to say, her feet were numb and she sat on the floor.
Shen Juan raised his hand, pulled a pillow from the sofa and threw it over: “It’s cold on the ground.”
She took it, put it under her butt, bent her legs, and rubbed her ankle quietly.
Shen Juan noticed her small movements: “What’s wrong?”
“Your posture just now is really creative,” Lin Yu rolled his eyes in shock, “My feet are numb.”
Shen Juan was stunned for a while, then slumped there and smiled: “Can I rub it for you?”
Lin Yu shrank his feet in fright, and quickly refused: “Take a rest, you, I will take it slow.”
“Then take it easy,” Shen Juan scratched his hair, his body was full of the smell of tobacco and alcohol, and it didn’t smell very good. He bent his long legs and stood up with his hands on the floor, “I’ll go take a shower, wait a minute. I.”
“…”
Perhaps it was because their table-mate relationship was no longer so pure, and this line made Lin Yu wonder for a moment.
Shen Wan got up and went into the bedroom. A few minutes later, there was a faint sound of water, clattering.
In the autumn night, the cold wind was blowing in, and the cigarettes in the house were almost out. Lin Yu waited for a while, and the numbness of her feet passed. She got up and packed up the pile of cigarette butts and empty wine bottles and other garbage into a plastic bag and threw them in a plastic bag. door, shut the door.
After the garbage was thrown away, there were still a bunch of things scattered on the sofa, she sighed and bent over to sort it out.
While tidying up, I couldn’t help but start praising myself.
Lin Yu was shocked, you are too virtuous.
Shen Juan saved the universe in his last life, so he was able to meet you so nice… at the same table.
She piled the wine she didn’t drink together, and turned her head to see a thin photo album spread out beside her.
Lin Yu was startled for a while, and his eyes fell on the page he just opened.
Shen Juan doesn’t seem like the kind of person who likes to take pictures and recall the past. This album should not belong to him either. There are two photos on the open page, one is a group photo of a bunch of children, probably an autumn tour or something. The children wore small yellow straw hats on their heads, and the teacher in the last row held a sign—Class 1, Class 2.
Lin Yu was startled to see Xiao Shen Lian back then, the cutest one, this little boy was standing at the very edge of the first row with a small slingshot in his small hands, and he was surprisingly short.
The picture below is a group photo of two people. Shen Juan is still in Qiuyou’s suit, wearing a small yellow hat. A man is squatting next to him, looking handsome and gentle.
A line of words was written in the sky in the corner of the photo: Ah Juan’s first autumn tour.
The six-year-old Xiao Shenyan still has baby fat on his face, his eyes are pitch black, and the shape of his eyes is not the same as he is now.
He pursed his red lips, his face was expressionless and weary, and “so boring” was written on his tender little face.
Lin Yu was stunned for a while, but suddenly reacted.
At this time, Shen Juan was in the first grade of elementary school and was six years old.
She did mental arithmetic very quickly, and the photos had the date, year, and date. She just glanced at it and calculated it naturally, and she didn’t realize it very much.
She still remembered that Shen Juan called her little girl before and told her that she was two years older than her.
After taking a year off from school, Lin Yujing thought it was because he was studying in elementary school at the age of seven, and he was just two years older than her, but it turned out that he was also studying at the age of six.
Then where did the year he was vacant in the middle go?
Ten minutes later, Shen Wan came out of the bedroom, he changed into a suit, his hair was half dry, and there was a towel on his head.
The lights in the room were all on and the light was bright enough. Lin Yujing sat cross-legged on the sofa and stared straight at him.
Shen Juan was stared a little hairy, and the hand holding the towel and rubbing his head paused: “What’s wrong?”
Lin Yu said in shock: “You are really a mysterious classmate Shen.”
Shen Lian: “…”
The mysterious classmate Shen was a little dazed, didn’t speak, came over and pulled a chair to sit down.
Lin Yujing had already tidy up the house, the wine bottles were lined up by the wall, the ashtray was clean, and the sofa cushions were neatly placed on the sofa.
Shen Juan’s eyes fell on the album on the coffee table, and stopped for a moment.
Lin Yujing originally brought wine. She was mainly afraid that she would not be able to ask questions, or that the atmosphere would be awkward, or to inquire about other people’s secrets. She is not very good at it, nor does she like to meddle in her own business. thing.
But she really couldn’t let go of Shen Fan, the white moonlight.
It wasn’t because the person he liked couldn’t wake up and make a speech like this. Lin Yujing didn’t care about this, it was mainly the person he liked last.
One of them sat on the sofa and the other on a chair, and they were silent for a while without speaking.
Lin Yujing pulled over the bag of snacks he had bought: “Have you eaten dinner?”
Shen Juan put the wet towel on the chair and fiddled with his half-dry hair: “Eat.”
He didn’t look abnormal, and he had recovered to the usual sloppy and indifferent Lao Tzu Invincible. The appearance of begging for a hug ten minutes ago was gone. Lin Yujing didn’t know if he wanted to praise him for his resilience.
She raised her head and glanced at the bright overhead light: “Should you turn off the light? Just turn on a floor light, and make it darker.”
Shen Wan fiddled with her hair for a while, inserted her fingers in her hair, raised her eyelids to look at her, and suddenly hooked her lips: “Why are you turning off the lights, I’m not drunk, and I’m not that kind of person.”
Lin Yu was startled: “…”
“But if you are very willing, I can also cooperate.” Shen Yan said.
“Shen Juan, I remind you for the hundredth time, be a person,” Lin Yujing said, “I just want to create a little storytelling atmosphere.”
Shen Lian lowered his head and smiled, stood up and walked to the door, turning off the overhead light with a snap.
The room fell into darkness in an instant, and Lin Yu was startled to see a dark figure walking over, walking to the sofa, and then to her.
Then propped up the back of the sofa with one hand, leaned over, bowed his head, and approached.
Lin Yu was shocked: …?
She was sitting on the sofa, he was standing in front of her, his arm passed her ear against the sofa, the distance was very close, the half-wet hair was swept over, and his body smelled like he had just bathed.
In a panic, Lin Yu asked a very embarrassing question: “What are you doing?”
Don’t come here! !
Come over again and I’ll call! !
After she finished speaking, she almost bit her tongue off, feeling that she was two hundred and five books.
Shen Juan suppressed his voice and wrapped his breath in thin strands. He tilted his head and rubbed the tip of his nose against her face: “I want…”
In the darkness, all touch and hearing became sensitive, Lin Yujing felt his other hand stretched out from his waist, leaned down against the back of the sofa, and brought up the sound of fabric rubbing softly.
Under the influence of alcohol, he could feel the temperature of his palm slightly higher than usual.
I?
day?
Am I still underestimating how brutish you are…?
Lin Yu was shocked as if struck by lightning and stiffened.
Just when Lin Yu was startled and felt that he would directly overturn this person in the next second, Shen Juan drew his hand, rubbing his knuckles against her waist, and pulled something out from behind her. At the same time, the dim light of the floor lamp lights up.
Shen Lian straightened up, holding a small remote control in his hand, looked down at her, raised his eyebrows: “Take a remote control.”
Lin Yu was startled: “…”
“What do you think I’m going to do?” He sat back in his chair and smiled. “My ears are red again.”
“…”
Lin Yujing didn’t know if other hooligans were like him, so she had to show off with a remote control, making it seem like she wanted to do something. Because of this level of hooligans, she had never come into contact with anything but The second other than him.
What kind of show was eclipsed in front of Shen Yan.
Xueba’s skills are just too complete.
Shen Jian put it away when he saw it, leaned into the chair, stretched his long legs forward, and put his arms on the armrests: “What do you want to hear.”
He suddenly entered the topic, Lin Yu was startled: “Ah, I, I don’t know where to ask…”
She didn’t know if asking directly would be too sensitive and direct, but the questions before her now didn’t seem to be insensitive.
Lin Yu was shocked and asked directly: “Your Bai Yueguang, isn’t it, the last person you liked was a man or a woman?”
“Men,” Shen Yan looked at her strangely, “it’s not what you think.”
Lin Yu was shocked for a moment and felt guilty: “What do I think…”.
“It’s my uncle.” Shen Yan said.
Lin Yu was stunned for a moment, remembering Ning Yuan’s words: “Because…” She couldn’t say it anymore.
“Well,” Shen Yan knew what she wanted to ask, and was silent for a few seconds, “because of me.”
“When I was a child, my parents were busy with work. When my uncle came back from Hong Kong when I was six years old, I was the one who brought it up. This studio,” he tapped on the armrest with his fingertips, “is his.”
“He taught me everything about painting,” he raised his eyes. “The first time you came to ask me about the painting, I painted it when I was a child, the first one.”
“Actually, I think you draw very well, a bit like that, Doraemon.” Lin Yujing said quickly.
Shen Juan smiled and played with the remote control with his fingers: “My uncle is a good guy, there was a kid next door at that time, he was beaten by his dad every day, and he came here often, he would help him deal with his injuries and teach him about tattooing and so on. , accepted him as an apprentice, the child has no money at home, my uncle sponsored him to study.”
“That kid’s name is Nie Xinghe, the one you saw on the street before.”
“I don’t remember how old I was at that time. Anyway, he went to which school I went to since then. We have always been in the same class, went to school together, and went back to the studio together after school.”
“But at that time, I didn’t like him very much. I was young and couldn’t tell why, but I didn’t hate him because my uncle liked him. “
“My uncle doesn’t have a girlfriend, he is not going to fall in love, get married and have children. He wants to hand over this studio to me in the future, but I… At that time, the sports school shooting team went to our junior high school to select candidates, and I agreed to go. already.”
Shen Yan turned his head to the side, and his eyes fell on the black dart board hanging on the wall: “I have been interested in this aspect since I was a child, and I have a little talent.”
Lin Yu was shocked and didn’t say anything, thinking that it was really modest for him to call this a little talent.
“He shouldn’t be too happy, but he didn’t say it. He said I would do whatever I want. I spent a year in the sports school and I needed accommodation, so I didn’t come back very often. He stayed with Nie Xinghe every day.”
“After that, it became more and more wrong. Nie Xinghe is a lunatic.”
“He was abused by his father since he was a child, and his heart is no longer normal. He hides it very well.”
“But this kind of abnormality is contagious. He is not normal himself, and he wants to make others better. I am gone, he has no worries, he can have no worries.”
Lin Yu was startled and felt a little chilled, and she suddenly didn’t want to listen anymore.
Don’t want to, or dare not.
“When I came back and realized that something was wrong with my uncle, he became anxious and world-weary. I later learned that he had a history of depression when he was in Hong Kong and had seen a psychiatrist for a while.”
Shen Wan hardly thought about it at the time, such a gentle and delicate person, his nerves are also slender and fragile.
“What I don’t know, Nie Xinghe knows. He has drawn out all his extremes. I don’t know anything. I thought he was… to accompany him instead of me.”
“My mother later helped my uncle find a psychiatrist, and he visited several times.”
“Later, I don’t know what Nie Xinghe told him. He refused to go again unless I came back.”
“He wanted me to come back and be here with him. He didn’t want me to go back to the sports school, so I coaxed him to see a doctor while training, and I continued on and off for a year. The provincial coach came to me.”
“I…” Shen Yan closed his eyes, “I can’t refuse.”
“We kept it from him, but he still knew it. He didn’t agree. He felt that I was lying to him before. I betrayed him. He probably regarded me as… a hope or a continuation of a dream or something.”
“The day before I joined the provincial team, he came to me and wanted to take me back, but I didn’t agree,” Shen Lian lowered his eyes, “After returning, he committed suicide.”
Lin Yu’s mind went blank for a few seconds, and the chill ran up his spine: “What…?”
“He committed suicide,” Shen Yan repeated flatly, “so I can’t go away, I have to be here for the rest of my life.”
“Shen Jian…” Lin Yu was startled to hear his voice trembling. He didn’t know if it was because of what he said, or because of his calm and silent tone when he said it.
“He didn’t die, he’s just lying there now,” Shen Jian continued, “I came back to study again and went to No. 8 middle school. After a long time, I realized what kind of role Nie Xinghe played in the middle. , he’s very proud, he can’t hide it.”
Nie Xinghe has all the qualities that make people believe in him, weak and gentle, shy and harmless.
Shen Juan later found him and asked him why.
Nie Xinghe said he was jealous.
In order to satisfy Luo Qinghe, he worked hard to do everything well. He was born in a deformed family, and Luo Qinghe was the first person who made him feel warm.
Luo Qinghe was the one who took care of him when he was sick. He was the first to notice when he was happy and sad.
He poured all his father’s and family’s love into Luo Qinghe, and he even thought that Luo Qinghe was his father, and they should be the closest people in the world.
But Luo Qinghe’s mind was always Shen Juan, he left everything he had to Shen Juan, even if Shen Juan didn’t show up again in the next few months, even if Shen Juan wouldn’t want this studio at all, Luo Qinghe still wanted to leave it to him.
“Obviously I was standing next to him, he couldn’t see me, he betrayed me, he was good to me, and then he didn’t want me.”
“I also want him to taste what it’s like to be betrayed by his most beloved nephew. It doesn’t matter if he can’t wake up now. I will always take care of him. He can’t see you anymore.”
In the dark and long alley, the skinny boy was pushed against the wall by him, smiled and said softly, “Shen Juan, you won’t regret it later, it’s all caused by you, it’s all because of you.”
The author has something to say:
Sweet text girl Su Jian is hot!
Tired Treasure: I, the most accurate of all the male protagonists, why didn’t you let me **** (?