December - Chapter 12

This was completely my space, and it didn’t matter what I did. Besides, it was nighttime, and my heat was only two weeks away. I thought so. Based on the fact that I continued to masturbate without keeping count. However, even if I brought in all kinds of reasons, there was no excuse for the fact that Kim Shin was my partner in my delusions.

“Ha-ah…ha-ah…”

My lips parted as if I sucked a large lollipop into her mouth. I grabbed my hot penis with my hands and rubbed it up and down, staring blankly into the dark void. I still had a conscience, so I turned off the lights, but I didn’t know if what I wanted to hide was my masturbation or my shamelessness of imagining him.

Like an ostrich hiding its face in a pile of sand, I hid my shame in the dark. I had to. The pleasure rushing through my genitals combined with him in my imagination, left no room for my reasons. Instead, my imagination took over me effortlessly and sweetly drenched my brain like cotton candy.

‘Yeonwoo Sunbae.’

The low and soft voice that had called me resounded damply in my head. He smiled as he casually sat on the chair with his long legs apart. His scent. Just the thought of the cool and unique scent made my lower stomach numb. I put more force into the hand that was rubbing my genitals.

“Ha-ha, ha, ha….”

My breathing quickened and my heart thumped, causing my whole chest to throb. Kim Shin sat in the chair and looked up at me without smiling. Although he had an arrogant gaze, he was expressionless and had an aura that could not be approached resembling an emperor. So I became more nervous, and this tension led to tremors. He observed such a scene and commanded me with his eyes like a ruler.

‘Come up.’

I didn’t even imagine he liked me, so I sat on his legs in excitement mixed with fear. My heart pounded more. The penis held in his hand grew as large as it could, and it became hot enough to ejaculate at any moment.

I closed my eyes and imagined myself sitting on his legs. Embarrassingly, it was the library shelter where I had talked to him, and it was open all around. No matter how many Alpha and Omega who went into heat and quenched their sexual urges in public, I never dreamed of it or wanted to do that.

Was it just because all the places I met him were at the library, so I couldn’t think of anything else? I was clueless. Even though I was imagining it, I felt ashamed, but strangely more excited. I imagined his penis between my legs. When I thought of the same feeling that I felt on my back in the bathroom between my legs, I was breathless.

“Hng… Mmh…”

Now the whole lower belly was numb, and the muscles were starting to tighten like stone. Just the thought of the feeling of his large penis touching my body made me want to ejaculate. However, even if I ran my hands faster along my penis, something was lacking.

The desperate and burning heat inside tickled my back, not the stimulated genitals. At some point, I unknowingly applied strength to the back hole and tried to relieve the tickling desire, but it was not enough. I couldn’t stand it and my hips moved and it was even harder to bear.

“Ah-ha…Ha-ha…”

I closed my eyes tighter enough to frown. In my dark imagination over there, I climbed on top of him and started shaking my waist on top of his hard penis. My hands in reality flowed with wet bodily fluids rubbing against my genitals at a faster rate. In my delusion, I couldn’t get enough of his big, hot penis between my legs, and I only wiggled and rubbed my butt over it.

His gaze, the stare at me, was so familiar that I followed it unintentionally. The thought of me shaking my waist lewdly on top of his thighs made me feel ashamed, but my lower stomach tightened as if it were convulsing even more.

I thought that if I opened my mouth, a loud moan would come out, so I clenched my teeth tightly and swallowed my gasping breath. The thump and thump as well as the sticky sound echoed loudly from the friction of my hands, and I rubbed my buttocks on the blanket to relieve the tingling feeling in the back hole. But in my imagination, I held his shoulders and lowered my head, intoxicated by his scent. I heard his voice mixed with laughter.

‘Is it that good?’

In an instant, shame soared with excitement.

“Ah-Hng…Mhm!”

As soon as my lower stomach trembled rapidly, hot liquid flowed over my hand. I gasped for breath, like someone who lacked oxygen. My heart, which had been throbbing loudly, slowly subsided after a while. Belatedly, in the dark, I pulled out a tissue paper and tried to wipe the dirty liquid right away, but gave up and stood up.

It wasn’t just my genitals that got dirty. Before I knew it, body fluids flowed from my hole in the back, making it sticky and wet. It was a very short distance to the bathroom, but it was enough to make me feel embarrassed. Without even entering the bathroom, I put my hand on the door and bowed my head. I have gone crazy. What am I doing?

Let’s just pretend nothing happened. Coming to the library, I hypnotized myself with the chant the whole time. To be honest, his erection in the library bathroom yesterday didn’t matter anymore. Heat is a daily routine for Alpha and Omegas, and he might have been excited to see a couple fighting on the stairs before that.

The problem was me. I’ve been taking suppressants since my heat cycle started, and I’ve never really experienced a heat cycle except for 3 years ago. Of course, suppression is not for all-purpose so whenever my heat cycle arrived, I felt more excited than usual. But to a level that I could control.

However, last night wasn’t even a heat cycle where I had to eat suppressants, so I couldn’t control my excitement until dawn. Just the feeling of a hard penis that I felt behind my back. I didn’t know I was such a shameless person. To imagine such a thing and to do such a thing against a person whom I have only met a few times.

Kim Shin would only know me as someone whom he treated as a senior and used my help to find those Alpha high school students. Ha…I sighed again. I could barely sleep because of my guilt and shame. How will I face Kim Shin now? I was afraid to come to the library because of this worry, but I couldn’t stop myself.

He couldn’t properly greet me as he injured his hand while helping me. Kim Shin said he was going to the hospital and left. He had to check how it was.I had to go but when he got off the bus, my feet didn’t move so easily. Just then, the phone in my pocket buzzed. I stopped myself at the bus stop using  my phone as an excuse. My maternal uncle appeared on my phone screen.

“Uncle”

[Oh, Yeonwoo. where are you?]

“I’m at the library.”

[Yes, I heard you go to the library. Is it near where you work part-time?]

He was talking to my mother, I guessed. So, did something happen? When I asked if something was up, my uncle quickly brought up a problem.

[I’m going up to Seoul tomorrow. The meeting place is near the library you go to, so I’ll call you tomorrow after work. I don’t have much time, so I’ll drop by to see your face once. Your aunt packed something for you.]