Defeated By Love - Chapter 80

This time Xie Ruhe heard Shunen’s words clearly, and the trace of sleepiness that had been left behind disappeared at this moment. His lips opened, and some of his fluffy hair curled up, like a few dull hairs.

Before he could make any response, Shunen seemed to be difficult to follow, and it seemed as if he slipped in along the gap between Xie Ruhe and the door frame.

The temperature of the air conditioner in this room is very low, like two worlds outside. Xie Ruhe didn’t have the habit of turning on the light when he slept, and it was cold and dark inside.

Shunian walked to Xie Ruhe’s bed with the light coming in from the outside, and climbed up silently and consciously.

Xie Ruhe was still standing by the door.

In the middle of the night, she came suddenly.

Xie Ruhe couldn’t think of how to react. There was a feeling that he was dreaming and his brain was blank. The first thought that came out of my mind was that Shunen was afraid of the dark.

The next moment, Xie Ruhe reached out and turned on the light switch.

The light is yellowish white, bright like sunlight.

Shunian wore a beige nightdress made of cotton and linen, which was over knee length. She was afraid of running out, so she deliberately pulled the skirt. She climbed to a position against the wall and obediently covered herself with a quilt.

Xie Ruhe closed the door quietly and locked it.

The room is not too big. The small space seems to magnify the atmosphere at this moment, and it also clears some small, imperceptible movements.

There was a ding of the door lock, the sound of the wind tapping the window gently, and the breath of the two.

After that, Xie Ruhe walked to the bedside table and picked up the remote control to increase the temperature of the air conditioner. He asked in a low voice, “Does it feel cold?”

Shunen hummed vaguely.

The room fell into endless silence again.

After turning down the temperature, Xie Ruhe still stood on the spot and did not lie down on the bed. He lowered his eyes to play with the remote control in his hand, not knowing what he was thinking.

Half of Shunen’s face was buried in the quilt, secretly looking in his direction.

He can only see his profile face, softly smudged by the light, wearing casual and clean clothes. There is no similarity to the one in the dream.

If there is parallel time and space.

If Shunen in that parallel time and space has the same choice as in dreams.

So now, Xie Ruhe in that parallel time and space.

Is it still searching for the traces of Zeng Yuanxue, or is it already in that house, leaving the world silently with despair and destruction?

I always feel that death is the greatest relief for myself, including others.

I felt that I couldn’t go on anymore, so I chose to die and lost consciousness ever since. Whether it is her happiness or his sadness, it has nothing to do with her.

I don’t know what will happen again.

I don’t know, in fact, people who are alive don’t get less pain than people who have died.

Shunen’s nose was sour, he tore off the quilt and asked in a low voice, “Why don’t you sleep anymore.”

Xie Ruhe licked his lips, raised his hand and scratched his head, his voice was low.

“sleep.”

After a few seconds, Xie Ruhe went to bed slowly.

He looked at the pillow that Shunen was leaning on, remembered the situation before, hesitated and consciously put the pillow on his side between the two.

“Xie Ruhe.” Shunian didn’t pay much attention to his actions, and suddenly said, “I just had a dream.”

Aware of her emotions, Xie Ruhe didn’t ask her what she had dreamed of, but soothed: “Dreams are all fake.”

“When I woke up, I knew it was fake.” Shunen stared at the ceiling. “I used to have some bad dreams. When I woke up, I knew it was fake, but I started to be scared and afraid. Will these things become reality someday in the future.”

Xie Ruhe said seriously: “No.”

“But after waking up this time, the only thing I felt was. Fortunately, it was a dream. Fortunately, it was a fake. Fortunately… I can prevent this from happening.” Shunen sniffed, “I am the first one. I felt this way again.”

Upon hearing this, Xie Ruhe looked at her.

“I’m sorry.” Shunen raised his eyes and sat up suddenly, “I told you something like that today.”

She was too unhappy.

Because of the shame and low self-esteem brought by other people’s words, they entangled her like vines and eroded her sanity. It’s painful to want to use this life to offset this non-existent debt.

I think this is good for each other.

But I also forgot that Xie Ruhe’s mother suffered the same thing as her.

He lost his mother because of Zeng Yuanxue.

It will definitely be unbearable, this kind of thing happens the second time.

Xie Ruhe reached out and touched her head without speaking.

“I will treat the disease well in the future.” Shunen pursed her lips and said seriously, “I won’t refuse the things the doctor asked me to do or the treatment plans I was afraid of.”

“…”

“I will try not to care about what others say, and I won’t hide from you like before.” Shunen raised his head and met Xie Ruhe’s eyes. She clenched her fist and said everything she wanted to say:

“I want to be with you and live like a normal person.”

Want to be with you.

Live like a normal person.

Living in this is not a particularly beautiful, but still a beautiful world.

Xie Ruhe stared at her face, then grabbed her hand, and slowly and slowly released her clenched fist. He curled his lips and his voice was low and dumb.

“Great.”

This night.

Shunian told Xie Ruhe a lot about the past.

Tell him that when he saw Zeng Yuanxue in court, he did not feel remorse for his actions. Even in the face of lawyers and judges, he is still outspoken.

I feel so regretful that I haven’t sent Shunen to die.

Because Zeng Yuan learned this sentence.

After he died, recalling his expression when he said these words, Shunen always had the feeling that he would come back at any time, and would jump out of a corner at any time to fill up his regrets.

Tell him that he can understand Xu Zeyuan’s breakup, but he cannot forgive him. Because of his choice to be alone, she has a shadow. Therefore, I am worried that Xie Ruhe might one day choose to abandon her.

And his behavior this time only made her unable to understand and unable to forgive.

The boy who was born in a well-off family was loved by his parents endlessly because he was an only child. He grew up and was praised by adults for his grades and appearance.

He should be a little arrogant, but kind-hearted big boy.

It has become what it is now.

Shunian didn’t know why Xu Zeyuan was like this.

It seemed that after meeting again, he seemed to have changed a lot.

Will pull her wrist angrily and impatiently, yell at her, let her listen to herself; think that she is with Xie Ruhe for money, and call Xie Ruhe a lame; even put aside all the education and talk to her Unobservable words that are hard to hear.

Perhaps it was because he chose a bad path.

When the mud that couldn’t be washed off was splashed on his body, I met Shunen again.

He thought that something like that had happened back then, but he didn’t choose to go side by side with Shunen, thinking that her current life is probably very bad. But unexpectedly, she found that she was doing well, and there was someone who was much better than him.

It will feel painful, low self-esteem and self-rejection to the extreme.

I will feel whether I made the wrong choice.

So I want to rediscover the original choice, I want to pull her into it.

Even if it is unscrupulous, I want to do it.

Finally, Shunian also told Xie Ruhe that he was actually a little unhappy. Because he rejected the one she said before, and went to see his grandpa’s proposal.

Will feel that he has not yet determined the relationship between the two.

But he did not dare to take the initiative to mention this matter to him.

Hearing this, Xie Ruhe was a little stunned and at a loss, probably not paying attention to this at all. When he mentioned this, his tone was a little stiff: “It’s not unwilling, but I’m still angry with my grandpa.”

“…”

“So I don’t want to take you back in this situation.”

Shunian said, “Why are you angry?”

“What happened to you back then.” Xie Ruhe paused and said blankly, “He didn’t tell me.”

Hearing this, Shunian snorted and said softly: “Is it because you had a car accident at that time? But during that time, Grandpa Ji called me.”

Xie Ruhe raised his eyes.

“He told me that he would help me deal with the information leaked out on the Internet.” Shunian thought back, “So at that time, it wouldn’t spread as widely as it is now.”

“…”

“He also transferred the money to me.” Shunen rubbed his eyes, “but I can’t take his money, I transferred it back.”

Xie Ruhe was suddenly speechless.

Shunen said seriously: “Grandpa Ji is very good, don’t be angry with him.”

Xie Ruhe was silent for a few seconds before exhaling: “After a while, I will take you back to see him.”

As soon as his words fell, Shunen’s long eyelashes raised, blinked, suddenly raised his head and kissed his lips happily. It’s not the first time to do this kind of thing, this time she is a lot proficient, and her strength is not too great.

He won’t knock his teeth again.

After the sneak attack, Shunen’s stamina immediately came up.

She moved a few inches back, got into the quilt again, and her voice came from inside, sounding dull: “It’s time to sleep.”

Xie Ruhe still stopped in place and did not move.

After a long while, he licked his lips, the peach blossom eyes became darker, and the corners of his eyes were a little red. He stretched out his hand across the quilt, like a hunter lurking in the dark, slowly pulling Shunen over.

Shunen’s head is still hidden in the quilt: “What are you talking about with me…”

Xie Ruhe didn’t say a word, pulled her whole body into his arms, and then tore the quilt off her head. There was no time gap, no time for her to react, and she kissed directly.

He loosened her ankle, pressed the back of Shunen’s head with one hand, and bit her lip lightly.

After that, Xie Ruhe stepped back, his voice was mute, his tone seemed to be commanding, and it seemed to be inducing.

“Open your mouth.”

Shunen’s hand was still holding the quilt, slowly tightening his strength, but at a loss.

The next moment, Xie Ruhe pinched her chin, buckled down, and kissed her lips again.

The breath of the two of them blended, bright yellow lights gleamed on them, and the shadows entangled into a ball.

Very close distance, real feeling.

Shunen was a little out of breath, and there was a whining sound in his throat unconsciously.

The hand gradually lifted, pressing against his chest.

Shunen forgot to close his eyes, and Xie Ruhe’s appearance was reflected in his light brown eyes. His forehead was smooth and full, and his eyebrows were drooping, not meeting her gaze.

It’s a distance that can’t be closer.

Later, Xie Ruhe raised his eyes, as if he noticed her gaze.

He raised his hand and covered her eyes with one hand.

Shunen immediately closed his eyes.

The charming and ambiguous interior.

Everything is like a fuse, this night, this light, this atmosphere, her sudden kiss.

Xie Ruhe’s lips moved downward, and the warm touch ran across her earlobes, stopping at the neck, leaving a shallow mark.

The breath that came out seemed to take shape, touching every corner of her body.

Gentle, confused, and soothing.

His hand touched her, his fingertips were cold, and she couldn’t help but shrink back. Shunen had never experienced such an intimate thing before, and a mist of water floated in his eyes.

Because of this strange touch, Shunen’s consciousness suddenly became clearer, flushed and grabbed his hand, but instead of saying rejection, his voice was soft and trembling: “Turn off, turn off the light.”

Xie Ruhe’s Adam’s apple slid up and down, his eyes were stained with scarlet, his emotions swept like waves.

“Niannian is afraid of the dark.” He said dumbly, “Can’t turn off the lights.”