Desire Of The Call Girl - Chapter 181

“Your body is so cold, why are you outside the room? Aren’t you afraid of getting sick? You just got out of the hospital.” Said Edwards who spoke so softly, Choon-hee was already shaking and couldn’t help but hug her husband. But she tried her best to contain the damn feeling that was in her mind. She misses, but is a little insecure.

“I’m fine, you’re just exaggerating.” Choon-hee said quietly, her voice even running out. because the look in her husband’s eyes could make Choon-hee unable to do anything. Even to breathe alone, it is very difficult and afraid to disturb this silence.

“I’m here to apologize, I’m sorry because Mommy’s words hurt your heart. And I’m sorry that I haven’t been able to fully be a good husband for you. I know that our marriage is far from happy, I always make you sad and rarely make you happy. But I’m really very sorry that we lost our baby, I really want that child in this world. If you think I don’t love our baby, you’re wrong.. I’ve even thought of his name, I’ve thought of how happy I will be when have a baby.” There was a quiver behind her husband’s voice, and it made Choon-hee couldn’t help but turn to look at Edwards.

Edward’s face was shining under the moonlight, the reflection of the light made her husband’s face look like an angel who had just descended from the sky. There was a face of regret behind it all, and Edwards knew that regret wasn’t a lie. But Choon-hee doesn’t want to take those words for granted, Choon-hee doesn’t want to be hurt anymore, she doesn’t want to put too much hope anymore..

“He’s gone, all this because of you who never wanted to take care of him. My son deserved to go, if he came in this world at a time that was not good, I think my son would experience a bad situation. Our two families are at odds with each other, you suspect my family. I don’t accept that, we fight and will continue to fight. I also don’t want my son to be put under heavy pressure in this family matter, I’ve had enough of this bad condition.

All of this is because of your problems, your family’s past. and your arrogance, our child will be very sad if he has to feel the revenge carried out by others. Don’t you feel sorry for your child Later? After all, you will have a child from Violet. Aren’t you?” Choon-hee asked with a sigh. Letting her hair fly carried by the night wind.

Edwards was silent for a moment, silence enveloped two people who were busy with their thoughts, busy with such a broken heart, busy with circumstances that were not taking sides at all.

There is no happiness between their love, no trust between their relationship, all because of someone who created distance between them. The distance is getting farther and farther away..

“I was so lost when you lost that baby, I was so lost when you said you were going to divorce me. Tell me I don’t have any feelings for you, but why am I in so much pain? Why do I feel tight in my chest and my mind is a mess? Tell me Choon-hee, is all this love? do i love my wife who is away from me? can i feel guilt when i have felt loss?” Edwards stared intently at his wife’s face, gently stroking the black hair that was flying.

Choon-Hee could only be silent, looking behind those beautiful eyes, she could only scream in her heart. shouted that if time could turn back, she wanted Edwards to tell her all these feelings the first time they became husband and wife.

Edwards brought his face closer to Choon-hee’s, but because Choon-hee’s consciousness had not yet passed away. She pulled her face back and looked the other way.

“You can’t get everything you want, you can’t just decide you love someone when that person wants to leave you. If the disappointment you feel right now is so painful, what was the meaning of my heart then? What was my heart feeling when I loved you so much and You easily ignored my feelings? If your question is why, I will answer why… because all that has passed away, the situation when I loved you so much is gone.

Died with our child, died with the blood flowing behind my womb. There is no love, no more happy feelings when with you” Choon-hee said the feeling was like stabbing a spear into her own chest. Maybe she wasn’t hurting Edwards right now. But hurting her self

There is a sense of selfishness that screams in her heart, that ego makes her heart freeze and so arrogant. She felt that Edward had loved her, but her heart still wanted to play with that feeling. What for? Of course to confirm whether Edwards really loved Choon-hee or not.

because Choon-Hee didn’t want Edwards to feel victorious, just because of the small words he hoped to get Choon-hee again, she didn’t want Edwards to think that this heart was like stone. Not easily crushed, and not easily damaged. Choon-hee just wants Edwards to learn from his past mistakes. learn not to dump women so easily.

“Give me one more chance, a chance to make you happy again. Give me a chance to take that love back from your heart, give me a chance to perfect my vows on my wedding vows, give me a chance to be a good husband and father to you guys. I don’t know if I’m good enough to be your lover, your husband, the father of your children..

But I want to be able to make that smile rise behind your beautiful lips, every day, every time.. I also want the air I breathe is the same air I don’t want to lose again, I don’t want to be broken again. I don’t want to be a jerk anymore, so please.. Please give me a chance my wife!.” Edwards’ words were soul-stirring.

Is Choon-hee’s heart this weak? Is her heart so stupid and eager to nod and agree with all her husband’s words? Is Choon-hee really broken just because of those sweet words?

Edwards lips spoke with sincerity, ripping Choon-hee deep inside.

Edwards’s gaze was so piercing, it cut Choon-hee’s soul into tiny pieces.

The night feels so long, long and painful..

The air was heavy, like shards of glass being inhaled and making blood flood Choon-hee’s heart.

Love and stupidity…

Why is it so fun to keep Choon-hee confused and dazed?

“Stop teasing me Edwards, now you better go and forget all your bullshit. I’m sick because I’m really annoyed with you, I don’t even know I can forgive all your behavior quickly or not.” Choon-hee said trying not to cry because Edwards’ words were so heart-wrenching.

“But I need an answer from you Choon-hee”. Edwards said quietly, his eyes already drooping upwards looking up at the ceiling with a feeling of desperation.

“I already answered, I can’t. You go back to your own hotel and forget all this talk, don’t make it difficult for me anymore Edwards. All of this has been very difficult for me, I can’t tolerate having my family you brought into all this trouble, and don’t forget our child who has also become a victim.

You better find the real enemy and kill him!! like he killed our child”. Edwards nodded at Choon-Hee’s words, Choon-hee’s breath that sounded lazy made Edwards finally get up from his seat and enter his wife’s room.

Choon-hee watched Edwards’ steps, paused for a moment and then looked at the bed.

“You come in, I’ll be home if you close your balcony door and get into bed. It’s too late, you can’t stay cold on the balcony like that.” Edward said concernedly, Choon-hee who didn’t want to add more drama. Finally complied and entered the room. lock the balcony door well and climb onto the bed.

“I’m here, now you go. I want to sleep”. said Choon-hee lazily, looking the other way because she couldn’t stand looking at her husband’s face for long.

Edward walked over to his wife and turned off the bedroom light, then kissed Choon-hee on the forehead for a long time and affectionately.

“Good night dear, I’ll make sure the person who killed our son, I’ll teach him a lesson he deserves and you’ll see him die in a gruesome way.” After Edward said that, he looked closely at his wife’s face and then left the room.

the dim light made Choon-hee feel a pang of sadness, Edward had already stepped away and closed the door. made Choon-hee shed tears slowly.

“Edwards, I’m sorry..” Choon-Hee said quietly while closing her eyes and crying silently.

I’m sorry..

I’m sorry..

And I love you..

Really love you Edward Salvador Douglas!

That night Choon-Hee cried while imagining her husband’s face, disappointment and love mixed in her chest.