Destroying the Virgin-the Making of a Saint- - Chapter 14: Beauty and Madness

A recognizable illusion materialized behind Akane. It was the figure of an elderly, ugly woman who resembled me.

Then, it re-emerged in my mind. The nightmare of the past, when that woman—my mother—kicked and thrashed me viciously.

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Why can’t you do things you’re asked to do?!Translator: MadHatter

Why can’t you even do this?! How come you can’t do exactly as I told you to!

I am sorry. I am sorry.

All your apologies don’t mean anything if you don’t understand! You are truly a foolish child!

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Whatever I did, I couldn’t please my mother, and every day she would beat me, abusing me over and over again.

In reality, I was a brilliant, “can-do” child. My mother, not knowing her position, set excessive expectations for me as her own child. Despite having been reared in this manner, it goes without saying that I did not meet my mother’s standards until the very end.

And when I ultimately failed the university entrance exam, that was when my mother utterly lost interest in me. She was no longer indignant or appalled but ceased to even recognize my very existence.

When I dropped out of university, Mother disowned me as if she were simply discarding trash unwanted by her. I was probably inferior more than trash to her because I could not do as she wished.

I was not grief-stricken. I only felt as if a part of my feelings were missing from my heart.

Even though I am exerting so much effort…

In childhood, I could not figure out why I, who was striving so diligently, had to be so vehemently criticized.

“Even though I am exerting so much effort…”

But at last, I understood. A woman as stupid as Mother, incapable of understanding, must be forced to understand by any means possible.

Neither Mother nor Akane tried to grasp me. She was a stupid woman. Therefore, I had to make them understand me by any means necessary. In time, both Mother and Akane would come to an understanding. The reason for the existence of my exalted plan.

“Why don’t you understand?”

“I don’t understand.. because you’re simply running away! You can’t face people head-on, you can only force… people to do this kind of thing because you’re afraid!” Akane cockily spoke as if she understood me.

What could you possibly know? When I faced things head-on, no one understood me.

That was why, that was why I…

“Do you deny me too… like Mother did to me back then?”

I must be merciless to you, my love. From now on, I must make you suffer even more. Like Mother, I must correct your denial of me… and make you understand.

And for that, I have made up my mind. Every aspect that denied me, I must eliminate those from you. Even if it meant destroying Akane now.

I would punish the mouth that spewed foul words with mouth stitches. The limbs that denied me and opposed me must likewise be punished.

“…”

That wicked arm of yours that shook off my hand and denied me… was unfit for the ideal Akane.

“Are you listening to me?! Stop this cowardly act…”

“These beautifully sculptured muscles will eventually rot and fall as the years go by. Then why… do you need all this stuff in the first place?”

Right now, they were beautiful and supple without flab. But eventually, they would senescence, rot, and… disintegrate into an unsightly mess.

In addition to that, this arm denied me.

It was incomplete. Non-essential.

Such an arm was superfluous and would be better off without it.

“What? What are you talking about…”

“Please don’t worry. It’s just like the medical practice I learned in university… where the bad parts are removed from the beautiful and healthy parts.”

“Stop your… nonsense…”

Even so, Akane was still determined to fight back, but her consciousness gradually began to slip into a daze, and her speech became slurred. Unable to even remain seated in her chair, she slowly collapsed to the floor.

“What is this…?”

“Hmm, the medicine mixed with the liquid food has finally begun to take effect. Take it easy and have a good sleep. It is likely to be more convenient for you as well.”

A specific medication was applied to the liquid food. In layman’s terms, it was like a fast-acting sleeping drug that worked quickly and was ideal for temporarily robbing Akane of her physical freedom. Initially, after administering the drug to put Akane to sleep, I intended to watch her body without worrying that she may lose control, but I had to extract something out of her that needed to be dealt with right away… In any case, it would be more convenient for Akane to be unconscious.

“It’s preferable to be as pain-free as possible, isn’t it?”

While she was sleeping, I would make it quick.