Disaster For the Country · Return Journey - Chapter 33

When Jiang Wanyi came in again, seeing the expressions of the two, he understood: “Have you made a decision?”

Feng Xiaoya nodded: “Yes. We…”

In his voice, Yifei didn’t say anything, turned his head and left.

He hurried to the stables and started harnessing the horses, cursing himself for wasting so much precious time, and the worst part was that nothing could be changed until the end.

He was aggrieved and annoyed, and the action of harnessing the horse was a bit rough, and the horse was hurt and cried out in dissatisfaction.

A voice suddenly said: “You are really promising by throwing animals on fire!”

Looking back, it was Luo Zi again.

Yi Fei didn’t answer, and continued to tie the horse. Luo Zi raised her eyebrows and said, “It’s going to rain soon, and it’s almost midnight, so you really want to go on the road at this time?”

He led the horse out of the stable, and just as he was about to leave, Luo Zi stood in front of him.

Yifei sighed helplessly in his heart, and shouted: “Mother Concubine!”

This address caused Luo Zi’s expression to change slightly, but she did not give way: “Are you really going to leave? Have you thought about it carefully? Once you leave, you will never see her again.”

“A quarter of an hour ago you were still persuading me to leave quickly, but now I want to leave but you are blocking me, what is the reason?”

“I persuaded you to leave before because I thought that with Mr. He around, your little beauty should be fine. But now, I heard that Mr. He doesn’t plan to wake her up, that is to say, if she can’t wake up by herself before dawn, she will die.” Yes. Xiaofei, think again.”

Yi Fei’s lips moved a few times, he turned his head suddenly, and said in a deep voice, “I’m not worthy, Concubine Mother. I’m not even worthy to keep a single person.”

He appeared too late in Qiu Jiang’s life.

On this trip back, he was more like a spectator, able to witness a legend up close.

And in the last big scene, he couldn’t really help.

Such a him, such a weak and powerless him, such a useless him, who didn’t even trust her completely from the beginning to the end, what qualifications does he have to decide her ending?

In particular, the dearest relatives are like Ji Ying, and the most beloved ones are like He Gong, they both chose to let her go.

Another thunderbolt pierced the night, and this time, the torrential rain finally broke down, instantly wet his hair and cheeks.

There was a drop of water on his thin and dark cheeks.

***

The lightning also tore apart the boundless darkness again.

There was a glimmer of light in front of Qiu Jiang’s eyes, and then, she found that she could move.

She subconsciously walked towards Ji Ying’s direction, but the scenery remained the same, but there was no one on the couch.

Ah Ying? She shouted and looked around. Where did you go? Where did he go?

Then everything in front of me rotated rapidly, and the scene changed.

There is a river in front of her. A frozen river.

In the sky above the river, there are countless Kongming lanterns flying. The lights are dense, like starlight.

Ah, this is… Yukikawa.

The river bank is full of people, busy, all putting on lights. They were praying, begging God to take pity on the only son of the prime minister and recover from his illness.

There was a little girl, who was also crowded in the crowd, and crookedly wrote on the lamp with charcoal. What she wrote was “Looking forward to the blue sky to steal the elixir, and bless him with a peaceful life.”

Jiang Jiang.

It’s Jiang Jiang. She was praying for Feng Xiaoya.

Qiu Jiang’s heart tightened suddenly, and she shouted to her, “Run away! Run away!”

Do you know that disaster is coming soon? Did you know that you would be the pain of that person’s life?

You run away! You run away!

The little girl seemed to have heard her heart, turned her head towards her, and then showed joy, and asked, “Do you have any elixir?”

I, I…I didn’t…

The little girl smiled brightly, “Then I’m going to heaven.” As she spoke, she let go of her hand, and the Kongming Lantern flew up, and she also flew up, flying higher and higher, farther and farther, and gradually turned into a small black spot.

Qiu Jiang couldn’t help thinking: It’s over. After all, I owe this karma.

When she thought of the word “ow”, she suddenly thought of something else—I haven’t got the Siguo notation yet. I haven’t had those people actually “homecoming”. I haven’t paid off the karma yet…

Qiu Jiang frowned, her body, which had finally calmed down, struggled unconsciously again.

Jiang Wanyi at the side hurried over to check, and then said to Feng Xiaoya, “She’s about to wake up.”

Feng Xiaoya’s face turned pale.

***

The heavy rain covered everything, and the road ahead could no longer be seen clearly.

Yifei was overwhelmed in an instant, Luo Zi hurriedly pulled him and the horse back to the stable, sighed and said: “It seems that God wants you to stay.”

Looking at the heavy rain, Yi Fei thought of Qiu Jiang’s bleeding ears again for some reason.

“You can’t get there.”

“Who said that? I’ll be there soon. See that smoke? Fifty paces to go!”

“How are you?”

“You can’t die, don’t worry.”

“If there is a next life, how do you want me to compensate you?”

“I don’t want another life! I say this to tell you that there is no next life, and there is no chance to come again. If you don’t want to accept your fate, you have to change this life!”

Yi Fei’s whole body was shocked suddenly, as if struck by lightning.

Luo Zi stared at him nervously: “What’s wrong with you?”

Yi Fei’s face was already covered with water droplets, but now there are two more water marks.

He cried? ! Speaking of which, this was the first time Luo Zi saw him cry, and she was very shocked. But the next moment, I saw the corners of the two thin lips curled up, and the smile was a bit cheap, a bit bad, a bit struggling and free and easy.

“She’s not that kind of person.”

“What?”

“How could she be willing to die? She is a person who will never give up no matter what time comes, and clenches her teeth to live desperately. She is unable to move, cannot walk, and is imprisoned on Yunmeng Mountain. Admit defeat, someone who spends four years learning how to walk again. Such a person, how can he be willing to let others decide his fate? Ji Ying can’t, and Feng Xiaoya can’t either.” Yi Fei went out laughing, threw the reins of his horse suddenly, and walked into the rain , to the small building in the wind and rain.

***

Qiu Jiang’s body moved more and more intensely.

Both Jiang Wanyi and Feng Xiaoya looked at her fixedly. Jiang Wanyi asked: “Do you want to make her calm again?” As he spoke, he reached for the incense burner, but was blocked by the other hand.

Jiang Wanyi turned her head and saw Yi Fei, who was drenched all over but with eyes as bright as a star.

“I want to wake her up. No, she wants to wake up herself. I want to help her. She hasn’t finished her mission yet. She hasn’t really returned home yet. She still has regrets, so she can’t die. Because…” Yi Fei said, turning her eyes Turning to Feng Xiaoya, she said word for word, “The **** flower hasn’t bloomed yet.”

Feng Xiaoya’s eyes were foggy, and finally slowly condensed into drops of water.

***

Qiu Jiang ran desperately after Jiang Jiang’s Kongming lantern. She didn’t know the meaning of her running like this, and she didn’t know how long she could run. thing.

She lowered her head and saw another Kongming lantern with a crooked line of children’s handwriting on it: “Please let brother get better soon.”

Then she remembered that the lamp was real. She didn’t really meet Jiang Jiang in Xingchuan, but she did pick up a lamp. I don’t know whose family’s girl wrote this line to make this lamp, but in the end it was not put in the sky, and it was left on the shore.

Brother’s illness…

Brother’s illness doesn’t need to be treated, he has already flown into the sky, and he has no illness, no pain, no injury and no regrets since then.

A voice suddenly asked, “Do you only have one younger brother?”

There was a thunderbolt, and the scene rotated. She returned to the deserted courtyard again, and saw a woman washing clothes and a boy feeding wine. The boy spread his teeth and smiled, his brows and eyes crooked.

Then, he suddenly turned his head to look at her and called out, “Sister.”

Her heart tightened.

The next moment, the barren small courtyard turned into Ji’s study. The young man sat on the chessboard, turned his head to look at her, and called out with surprise, “Sister?”

For a moment, it was like a dream, and my heart was broken.

The boy stood up gracefully, flicked his sleeves, and brushed away the arrow that was shot at him like dust, then opened his arms to her and smiled slightly: “Welcome back, sister.”

Qiu Jiang shuddered and slowly opened her eyes.

At the entrance, a ray of morning light shone in from the half-opened window and shone on the two of them. They sat by the couch, looking at her from left to right.

The person on the left is quiet and melancholy, while the person on the right escapes. But at this moment, the expressions of the two were exactly the same, and they both said together: “Welcome back.”

Qiu Jiang wanted to get up, but then found that she couldn’t move, her hands and feet couldn’t be controlled.

“What’s wrong with me?”

The two looked at each other, each in a dilemma. At this time, the third person came into her sight, sighed and said, “Let me tell you. It will take you a long time…to learn to walk.”

Qiu Jiang was stunned, the expression on his face fluctuated, and finally cried out suddenly: “God, let me die!”

Yi Fei and Feng Xiaoya were both startled, and after a while, they laughed at the same time.

***

The sun has officially risen, and Feng Xiaoya hugs Qiu Jiang to the window—just like on Yunmeng Mountain, Grandma Yue and Axiu often hug her who can’t move to the window to bask in the sun.

The warm sunlight shone on Qiu Jiang’s face, and she couldn’t help closing her eyes gently. The light dispelled all the darkness, and that long dream seemed so far away at this moment.

She suddenly asked, “Are Grandma Yue and Axiu still there?”

“Yes. Why ask them?”

“They are very experienced in taking care of me like this. Can you pick me up and help me?”

Feng Xiaoya was startled: “Come?” Then he smiled slightly, and held her hands in his palms, “It’s time to deal with it, treat you better, we can take the boat, we have to go home.”

Qiu Jiang stared at him with thick eyebrows.

“Don’t forget, the **** flower you planted is about to bloom.”

When **** blossoms, as you wish.

That was the oath made many years ago, and it went around and around, and came back to me again. The eyes that I couldn’t understand when I lost my memory, at this moment, are so clear——

He has always been in love with her.

“As you said, I owed me ten years, so I have to pay you back for ten years. Now, since we are still alive, it is time to fulfill our promise.” Feng Xiaoya said, grabbed her hand and put To the lips, kissed lightly.

Qiu Jiang’s eyes became more and more sad.

“You will get better. I will always be with you.” Feng Xiaoya laughed when she said this, “Look, we are both sick, so we are just a good pair.”

He has always been depressed, but this smile at this moment is really radiant.

So Qiu Jiang couldn’t help but also smiled along with her.

Still alive, still laughing.

It’s probably the best thing in the world. the best.

***

Yi Fei walked in the Chaoshou verandah, from one end to the other, from the other end to the end, tossing and turning, walking no less than twenty times.

There is a row of long railings in the veranda, and he started to count: “Go, don’t go. Don’t go, go…” However, when he counted the log that he broke before, he hesitated, “Does this count? ?”

If it counts, you have to go. If it doesn’t count, don’t go.

He struggled for a long time, and simply smashed another piece of wood with a bang: “Okay, it’s clear now, go!”

He took a deep breath, stepped up to the small building, and knocked on the door.

“Come in.” Qiu Jiang’s still weak voice came from inside.

He opened the door and walked in, but saw Qiu Jiang alone in the room, he couldn’t help but startled: “Where is he?” He clearly saw Feng Xiaoya coming in before, when did he go out?

Qiu Jiang sat by the window, her eyes were originally outside the window, she was a little dazed, now she saw him coming in, she looked at him.

For some reason, Yi Fei suddenly felt even more uncomfortable when he was stared at by her black pupils. “Well… I, um, the weather is fine. I’m also quite busy. Mainly the rain has stopped and the ground is dry… Let’s go now, the horses can run…”

“Are you going back to Luwan?”

Yi Fei’s voice stopped abruptly, and after a while, he nodded.

He tried his best to make himself laugh, looking less coy and sloppy, “I’ll see if there are any good things left in the palace after I go back, and I’ll send you any medicinal materials you can use right away. Of course, if you need anything I’m helping, write a letter. We are a life-and-death friendship all the way. Don’t be shy, just open your mouth.”

Qiu Jiang stared at him quietly.

Yi Fei felt that he couldn’t continue, so he cleared his throat and said, “Then… I’m leaving.” He waved his hand, turned and left.

Seeing that he was about to step over the threshold, Qiu Jiang suddenly said, “Is that all?”

Yi Fei stopped involuntarily: “What?”

“Is there anything else you want to say to me?”

He suddenly felt his heart beating fast: “What, what else…”

“I thought you would ask me…” Qiu Jiang stopped, and this pause made Yi Fei feel dizzy, a certain emotion that had been suppressed could no longer be hidden, and it was about to rush out of his throat, when he vented desperately , the second half of the sentence came out, “Ask me if I want to go with you.”

Yi Fei’s fingers gripped the door frame tightly, and his voice became even more hoarse: “Together…to go?”

“Xue Cai found the genealogy of the four kingdoms at the teacher’s house. Ruyimen currently has 30,000 disciples scattered in the four kingdoms. It will take a long process to disband them and resettle them. I also have a lot of things to deal with, so I don’t have time to stay Here?”

Yi Fei was startled, and looked back at Qiu Jiang thoughtfully, seeing her face that was weak even to speak from her hands and legs that could not move at all, he couldn’t help laughing.

“You really are…”

“What?”

“No, nothing.” He was completely convinced in his heart. Fortunately, he was so nervous just now that he almost lost his wits, thinking that she could see what was going on in his mind, but in the end, he really was just being self-indulgent. Ji Hu only had the return journey in mind, and it was still the return journey.

However, if she really wants to go to Luwan to preside over the overall situation and sort out the follow-up matters, that is to say…they will continue to be together for a long time…

Yi Fei finally calmed down a bit, and his heart jumped again. “You come with me… Then, what about Mr. He?”

He thought he was really despicable, at this moment, he still wanted to squeeze out his rival in love.

Qiu Jiang lowered her eyes.

Did his question make her sad? Yifei regretted it suddenly, and said quickly: “Well, of course I can take you with me, as long as you are ready, I can do it anytime!”

“He’s gone.” Qiu Jiang said lightly.

“Leaving? At this time?!” Yi Fei saw her legs from her hands again, and couldn’t believe that Feng Xiaoya would leave Qiu Jiang like this and leave. Where did he go? What else in the world is more important than taking care of her?

“He’s gone to Yi Country.” After Qiu Jiang finished speaking, she raised her head and suddenly looked at the short guy next to her, “I just gave him a box. Now, I’ll give you a box too. Go and see.”

Yi Fei suppressed his emotions and walked a few steps away, there was indeed a small box on it, and when he opened it, there were three thin sheets of paper inside.

He unfolded the paper in a daze, and then, his eyes were fixed on it, unable to move away.

Qiu Jiang said: “I’ll ask Xue Cai to send over the files of the four people after he finds the music of the four countries. Gin wine, pine and bamboo, and landscape, these three are for you.”

The paper trembled in Yi Fei’s hands for a long time.

Finally, he turned his head, looked back at Qiu Jiang and said, “I swore in my heart that I would build a big and beautiful grave for the three of them, and engrave their original names on it.”

Qiu Jiang said: “So, the name is actually very important.”

“Very important.”

Qiu Jiang smiled: “Then the teacher and I have not been in vain…” She couldn’t finish her sentence.

Because Yi Fei had rushed over, picked her up and spun her around.

Qiu Jiang was startled.

“I thank you for the three of them! I thank you for myself! Thank you! Thank you…”

“I accept your thanks. But, can you let me go first?” Qiu Jiang raised her eyebrows.

It was only then that Yifei realized that he was still hugging her tightly, and quickly put her back on the couch, feeling at a loss for what to do: “Holding, I’m sorry, I got carried away for a while…”

Qiu Jiang saw that he was embarrassed, a smile flashed in his eyes, and he said, “Then, shall we go together?”

“Of course! I’m going to set up the car right now! I’m sure I’ll make the car comfortable… If only my walk-in room was still there…” Yi Fei went out while bumping around excitedly, and went to Outside the door, Tu looked back again, “You gave me three names, so is the fourth one for Mr. He?”

Qiu Jiang nodded.

Yi Fei smiled and went out in a jolt.

Qiu Jiang’s smile slowly disappeared, the sun shone on her face, she looked extremely bright, but when the eyelashes fell down, there was a trace of shadow.

There is always some haze that cannot be avoided, and there is nowhere to hide.

Before a cup of tea, Feng Xiaoya told her that she would take her back to Yujing. She didn’t express her opinion immediately, but asked him to open the box on the case.

There are two boxes, one for Feng Xiaoya and one for Yi Fei.

What was given to Yi Fei was the files of Shanshui Songzhu Qinjiu, which recorded where they were born, when they were born, and who their parents were.

Those were Yifei’s three personal bodyguards who all died under Yishu’s pursuit to save him, which became a heavy wound on Yifei’s heart.

From then on, she thought that this person’s heart was so soft, which was not at all the same as the meanness and shamelessness shown on the outside.

From then on, she thought that one day when she got the genealogy of the Four Kingdoms, she would first find out the original names of the three people and give them to him.

However, Xue Cai ordered Zhu Long to send these three names along with the name of another person.

And the name of the fourth person was in the box given to Feng Xiaoya. How would he react when he saw it? How would you choose?

Feng Xiaoya walked to the case, picked up the box on the left, and just about to open it, Qiu Jiang, who had been staring at her, suddenly felt a tightening in his heart: “Wait…” He said all the words, but stopped.

Feng Xiaoya turned her head and raised her eyebrows: “What’s wrong?”

Qiu Jiang took a deep breath, then shook her head, curbing the unrealistic thoughts in her heart.

There was a light click, and the lid of the box was opened. The paper inside was very thin and the words were very short, but in an instant, Feng Xiaoya’s eyes were burned—

“Jiang Jiang, the daughter of Jiang Yun in the Yujing Fuchun Hall of Yan State. Give her name Qianse. Go to Yi.”

The wind blowing in from the window blew Qiu Jiang’s hair and Feng Xiaoya’s sleeves.

Feng Xiaoya’s fingers suddenly loosened, and the box fell to the ground with a thud, but the piece of paper flew out lightly, was blown by the wind, and was firmly attached to the hem of his robe. A fate as vicious as tarsal maggots.

Qiu Jiang secretly sighed in his heart, but his voice became calmer: “I have an impression of this name. In the Jiuxian, the big maid next to Hu Qianniang is called Qianse.”

Yiguo, Qianse. All marked.

Qiu Jiang, who has always had an unforgettable memory, can even think of her wearing a red dress, standing next to Hu Qianniang and smiling sweetly. That day, she asked Hongyu who was the nail in the Ruyi Gate besides Hu Zhiren, and who arranged for the Jiuxian number on Hongyu. Hongyu smiled and said nothing at that time. At this moment, the answer finally surfaced——

It’s Akane.

Also… the real Jiang Jiang.

Feng Xiaoya murmured: “Impossible…It’s impossible…I was also on the boat at the time, she knew I was there, why didn’t she recognize me?” At that time, there were a group of Yingying and Yanyan around Hu Qianniang, chattering, he was annoyed, even Did not take a closer look. But now, Qiu Jiang told him that Jiang Jiang was among those people?

“Maybe, she also lost her memory. Maybe, she has unspeakable difficulties.”

Feng Xiaoya only felt that the seven internal forces in his body began to rush around again, so that he had to support a few tables to stand still.

“Now…” Qiu Jiang bit her lip and said softly, “Do you still want to take me back to Yan?”

—I am not your Jiang Jiang. Your Jiang Jiang is now in Yiguo.

—Yes, you are not Jiang Jiang. My Jiang Jiang is not dead. She’s not dead, and I should be very, very happy.

—Since I am not Jiang Jiang, if Jiang Jiang really found out, would you still choose me?

—Since you are not Jiang Jiang, and my Jiang Jiang is elsewhere, can I still choose you?

The two stared at each other in silence for a while.

After a long time, Feng Xiaoya seemed to have made some kind of decision, and said, “Even so, I really like…”

Before he could continue, Qiu Jiang interrupted him suddenly: “I am in great pain!”

Feng Xiaoya was taken aback.

“Every time I see you, I am in pain…” Qiu Jiang turned her face away, looked at the blue sky and white clouds outside the window, and said slowly, “I was eighteen years old at that time, but my aunt refused to pass on the position to me for a long time. , but you also made up a lie about the Four Kingdoms Genealogy in your hands, and wanted to find Jiang Jiang. That made my aunt feel that the Four Kingdoms Genealogy is very important and cannot tell anyone. I am very painful. In order to win her trust, I had to pretend Jiang Jiang is going to see you.”

Feng Xiaoya fell silent.

“Ruyi Sect disciples have no chastity, and they can sacrifice their bodies for missions at any time. But I have always been protected by my teacher. On the surface, I have no scruples, but in fact I have no experience in sexual temptation. So in the days when I married you, I was very anxious every day .Sometimes I feel that it’s no big deal, so I go to sleep. Sometimes I’m inexplicably afraid, afraid that I’m really attracted to you, and when it’s time to leave, I won’t be able to break it off. What makes me most anxious is… “Qiu Jiang lowered her eyes, covering up the emotions that were about to overflow, “You are so kind.”

Feng Xiaoya didn’t speak, he just looked at the piece of paper pasted on the hem, the paper was blown rattling by the wind, but refused to float away, just kept sticking it.

“You are so kind. Your father is too kind. You are so kind…I am at a loss. Especially your father, he finally guessed that I am not Jiang Jiang, guessed my rebellious heart towards Ruyimen, in order to help me , He took the initiative to help me set up a New Year’s Eve game.”

***

That day, after Feng Letian finished writing the couplet, he called her into the house, invited her to drink and eat venison, and said to her, “You are a good boy.” He stretched out his hand, patted the back of her hand gently, and said in a way He stared at her with loving eyes, and then said a word softly.

What he said was: “Xie Bin deserved to die for you.”

After hearing those words, Qiu Jiang’s eyes turned red all of a sudden, and his hands were shaking for a while, with disbelief and extreme fear.

“You, how do you know…”

Feng Letian smiled: “I can’t let a person who doesn’t know the details marry my son.”

“Then, what else do you know?”

“It’s gone. You were well hidden. If you dug to the end, you only found out what happened after you joined Ruyimen. Before you entered Ruyimen, who were you and why did you fall into Ruyimen’s hands? It’s really impossible to find out… But I guess…” Feng Letian blinked at her, “You should have taken the initiative to get started. From the beginning, your goal was to kill Mrs. Ruyi.”

Qiu Jiang’s ears were buzzing, and she didn’t know what to say.

“Like Xie Bin, I won’t live long. Do you want me to help you too?”

Qiu Jiang licked her dry lips: “Does Mr. He know about this?”

Feng Letian chuckled: “If he knows it’s time to cry again, how annoying it is to watch. Let him cry casually after I leave.”

“I…” Qiu Jiang said something to Feng Letian in a low voice. A word about who she really is.

Feng Letian was so shocked that he was unable to speak for a long time, and when he was able to speak, he first sighed and finally laughed again.

“So… it’s you.”

yes. That person is me.

On the snowfield, it is easy to lose your way, and you must remind yourself with one thing. And that thing of hers is her true identity—Win Xin Wei Wei. She is Ji Hu.

“Just do what you want.” Feng Letian walked to the front of the courtyard, stared at the Spring Festival couplets he wrote, and said slowly, “Don’t worry about Xiaoya, don’t worry about anyone, even…don’t worry about me. You, will win.”

***

Recalling this, the emotion in his eyes could no longer be suppressed, and turned into tears across Qiu Jiang’s face. She choked up and said: “When I entered Ruyimen, the teacher told me not to kill people. Killing people is very easy in Ruyimen, but it is actually not difficult at all. But only by sticking to this bottom line can I stick to other things. Some things. Such as dignity, such as faith. For example…compassion. So I have never killed anyone. I used “not to kill untouchables” as an excuse, and everyone in Ruyimen believed it. Your father was the first one I killed. A man, and the only one so far. He drank the poison and looked at me with a smile. I took out the wire and cut off his head. He was still smiling when I took the head in my hand , didn’t seem to have any pain…”

Feng Xiaoya supported the desks, staggered a few steps, and finally sat down with a snap. He couldn’t stand anymore.

“I killed your father with my own hands. No matter what purpose or reason, I was the one who killed him.” Qiu Jiang finally turned his head to look at him again, “So, I am in great pain. As long as I see you When I see you, I will be very, very painful. How can I go with you when I am in such pain?”

Everything was destined to be a tragedy from the beginning.

The teacher said: “What you have to do is a very difficult, lonely, incomprehensible, and hopeless thing. You will encounter many temptations, difficulties, and life and death. You can only face it alone, no one can help.”

“If your heart is a little weak, you will be lost.”

She did not get lost, but she lost a lot.

Her younger brother, nine years old and one goodbye, will never see each other again in this life.

Her parents are dead, and there is no chance for a final confrontation.

Her family is broken, and everyone in the family will hate her instead of admiring her.

Ruyimen disciples would not be grateful to her either, and the disbandment of Ruyimen would cause most of them to lose their direction and become confused.

The families whose children were lost will not be grateful to her, because she appeared too late and moved too slowly, and the children’s childhood and youth have been destroyed, and there is no way to make up for it…

She was doing something that seemed meaningless. But you have to pay so much for so many things.

And in the end, she even sacrificed love for it.

“Ginger flowers bloom as I wish… Ginger flowers will bloom, but… I’m not Qiu Jiang.” Ji Hu stared at Feng Xiaoya, every word was very light, but it fell into his ears, every word was sweet. very heavy.

Feng Xiaoya’s tears flowed down.

Such a beautiful face is like a jade plate with thousands of years of tenderness. When tears fall, it will slide over the jade plate like pearls, which will break people’s hearts when they see it.

Ji Hu forced himself to close his eyes and stop looking.

“So, let me go. I have my things to do, and you have yours to do. Let’s leave now and never see each other again. It will be you, the greatest kindness to me.”

Feng Xiaoya stretched out her hand to pick up the piece of paper on the hem, staring at the name on it, her eyes deepened little by little. Then he stood up slowly with the support of a few tables, standing up straight, as straight as he used to be.

As he stood up straight again, his confidence and poise returned. The reason why the jade plate is a jade plate is that the moment the pearls pass by, they are extremely bright, but when the pearls leave, they are still bright and clean.

“When the **** flower blooms, it is as you wish. If it is your wish not to see each other again in this life, then…” He even smiled a little, “Yes.”

Ji Hu opened his eyes and stared at him blankly.

“My father died a worthy death for the sake of righteousness. He has no regrets. I chased you obsessively because I was ignorant. Since I knew I was chasing the wrong person, I corrected it, so I have no regrets. So…” Feng Xiaoya looked back at her, The voice was firm, “I forgive you.”

Ji Hu trembled uncontrollably and wanted to say something, but in the end he didn’t say anything.

Feng Xiaoya walked out, his back was straight, every step was the same distance, his clothes fluttered in the wind, and he walked out of Ji Hu’s sight little by little…

Ji Hu looked away, feeling countless emotions, emotions, and sorrows, but he could only sigh.

fool.

What a…fool, she thought.

In order to make her no longer suffer, I deliberately said these words at the time of parting. At the end, he was still thinking about her, accommodating her, caring about her, everything was for her.

If only I were really Jiang Jiang…

If I were really Jiang Jiang, how could I be willing to let down and miss such a small and elegant person?

But all of this now is just stolen from Jiang Jiang, the cause and effect of the wrong circumstances, no matter how reluctant it is, it must be returned to her.

Give it back to him too.

Thinking back to this, Qiu Jiang gently rested her head on the window lattice, closed her eyes quietly and concentrated on basking in the sun.

She is very busy. He was so busy that he only dared to give himself such a short time to think about Feng Xiaoya.

***

Yi Fei stumbled out of the small building to ask Luo Zi for a carriage. When he learned that Qiu Jiang decided to go back to Luwan with him, Luo Zi was shocked: “How, how is it possible? She, she…” She didn’t choose Feng Xiaoya , and chose Yifei? ? Taking the wrong medicine?

Yi Fei laughed, stretched out two hands in front of her, raised three fingers on one hand and one finger on the other, and asked, “Do you know what this is?”

“What?”

“I’m three, he’s one.”

“What?” Luo Zi still didn’t understand. Yi Fei didn’t intend to go into details, he chose the best horse and the softest couch, and prepared food, water, books, chess pieces and other things.

Luo Zi was so angry that he tried his best to stop him: “No, no, I can’t give you this one! No, no, that one is very expensive!”

“Don’t be stingy, go back to Luwan, I’ll send someone to pay you back ten times.”

“Bah! Luwan is completely in ruins now, I don’t believe there are any good things left… Ah, don’t take it anymore! Take me to your death!”

Yifei carried a bag on his shoulder, two bags in his hand, and two bags on his arm, and walked away happily.

Luo Zi quit and chased after him, only to meet Jiang Wanyi on the way. Yi Fei pushed Jiang Wanyi towards her: “You guys also say goodbye. I’ll go prepare the car first!”

Luo Zi paused, only then did she realize that once Qiu Jiang left, Jiang Wanyi would follow.

Jiang Wanyi looked at her quietly, not knowing what to say for a moment. The atmosphere between the two became inexplicably awkward.

In the end, Luo Zi saw that the jade belt hook on Jiang Wan’s waist was crooked, so she naturally stepped forward to straighten it for him, saying, “You must be careful when you go to Luwan. I heard that there is a plague over there…”

“That’s why I left.” Taking care of Qiu Jiang was just incidental.

Luo Zi couldn’t help laughing when she heard the words: “You really lived the life you wanted.”

Jiang Wanyi also laughed: “Yes.”

Luo Zi looked up, saw his smiling face, and thought that he was really the same as when he was a child, with such an obedient face, yet he dared to disobey his father.

“Yu Guan…” Her movements slowed down, and her heart ached, “Thank you.”

Thank you for letting go of the past and forgiving me.

Thank you for never swearing at me.

Thank you even more, for still smiling at me so tenderly after going through so many things.

You may not know how important your forgiveness and laughter are to me, it is the strength that allows me to live with a thick skin in this life…

Jiang Wanyi looked at Luo Zi who was about to cry, time seemed to be back in childhood at this moment. She also squatted down to straighten his robes for him, and when she raised her head, she looked at him full of longing.

He didn’t understand it then. Now, I finally know why.

“You…” He hesitated for a moment, but he still spoke, “Would you like to go with me?”

Luo Zi was taken aback.

Jiang Wanyi looked around at the small building and bamboo forest in front of him, and said slowly: “Although this place is nice, it’s a little small. Although the outside is not very nice, it’s big. If it’s big, you can meet many, many people, and many, many things. Maybe One day, you’ll feel like it’s no big deal.”

“Nothing… big deal?”

“Pain.” Jiang Wanyi smiled at her, “Human beings are born with the instinct to forget pain, when they meet more people and things.”

Luo Zi was stunned, and stood still, her mind blank.

Jiang Wanyi waited for a while. At this time, Yi Fei’s calling voice came from a distance: “Okay, let’s go—”

So he asked again: “Would you like to come with me?”

Luo Zi was shocked, as if waking up from a dream, after glancing at him, he rushed towards Yi Fei’s direction: “Go! I have to watch my babies! I won’t be harmed by that brat! “

Behind her, Jiang Wanyi gently