Dominant Woman Looking for Love - CH 14:Aww... such a good girl.
I laughed it off at the time, but I was really hurt because of the way he reacted.
I’d never force anyone to do something they don’t want to, especially since…
It was just something I thought of at the spur of a moment — you know, an impulse?!
Would it have killed him to be more polite?
But to show such strong aversion to something in THAT way would understandably come as a shock to me.
It was almost like he rejected ME, instead of the ‘act’.
Being looked at in disgust was very disconcerting. This is even more so because he was my husband, after all. Maybe I expected too much; I honestly don’t know.
As if it wasn’t already apparent from what I mentioned earlier, I’d like to clarify again that it wasn’t a deal-breaker for me if he had said ‘no’.
Why couldn’t he have been a bit more understanding or nicer about it?!
It’s just… I refuse to accept it was THAT hard to talk with me about it like adults?
I get that he got caught off guard, but the way he rejected me didn’t sit right with me. I wonder if he would have reacted the same way if I asked for a threesome with another girl?
…
…
Pfft.
Yeah, right.
No way.
Maybe if it was another guy, he might? But even then, I’m not convinced. Perhaps if it was another male, he might be angry instead of disgusted.
I sigh and stop this nonsense.
In an upward and downward motion, I repeatedly stroke my hand over my mouth out of frustration.
* * * * *
Honey flicks my forehead gently.
“Penny for your thoughts?” She smiles quite contemptuously at me for going off once again into my own world.
Scowling mostly from how sudden that was, I rub my forehead out of reflex. “Well… I honestly don’t know what to do with Jett…”
Without missing a beat, I lie through my teeth as I am not comfortable enough to discuss what I was thinking of earlier.
She crosses her arms and advises me. “My dear, here’s a straightforward question for you: objectively speaking, is he not worth it at all to you? Think long and hard before you answer.”
I close my eyes and list all the pros and cons of having a relationship with Jett. I think back to every single memory that involved any conflict or problem.
I’ve also included all the observations I’ve made of him whenever we’ve interacted recently.
After coming up with an answer, I open my eyes again.
“… He’s one of the best people I know.”
My heart feels heavy from the realization and how easy all of this was in the end. “He’s also very level-headed, and he is one of the most open-minded people I’ve come across.”
“Whatever flaws Jett has, they pale in comparison to all the good things about him. So basically…”
I let out a deep breath. “I’d have to be a complete idiot not to give ‘us’ another try JUST because I’m afraid of being rejected by him without any proof whatsoever.”
After that long assessment, I regret blocking every effort he has made so far without even giving him a chance.
Honey smiles and looks satisfied. “Well, that wasn’t so hard, was it?”
Smiling glumly, I answer, “… Yes, you’re right.”
“I’m not saying you should dive in headfirst or whatever just because he’s quite the catch. Just let things flow naturally. Who knows? Maybe things will work out if you just let it.” She pats my head.
Interlacing my fingers together, I respond with a reluctant, “… I guess.”
“Aww… such a good girl.” The dependable woman next to me laughs right after she says that.
Being treated like a kid, I playfully snap back at her. “Seriously, shut up.”
* * * * *
[7:00 pm]
After I was done talking to Honey about my woes, it was already around 6:00 pm. I still had so much work left that I did not bother going home.
I show up at the reception table outside the xx conference hall where our company gathering is being held. After signing in, I follow one of the receptionists until I reach inside.
Despite the ‘casual’ dress code, some people look a bit overdressed for the occasion. Well, this is the entertainment industry after all, so what did I even expect?
The conference hall was already half full, and I take my time looking around, checking out all the over-eager people who’re here so early.
By the time I left the company, it was almost like a deserted town. Most lights were off aside from the rooms that still needed to be cleaned by the custodians.
Unlike me, most of the people in attendance had time to freshen up.
Being busy with work, I missed dinner. I’m SO hungry. I turn around and eye the table filled with cocktail food. Better than nothing, I suppose.
I am close enough to where the fruit, jam, crackers, meat, and cheeses are when an arm loosely drapes across my shoulder.
“Heyyyy~ Looks like someone had to work late today. You’re still in the same boring outfit as earlier.”
“This ensemble does nothing to hide your beauty, though.” An annoying blockhead coos a ridiculously lame line into my ear.
Getting the heebie-jeebies, I turn around and frown when I come face to face with Ren Hille. I twist and turn to get out of his grasp.
He grins impishly, and the arm that’s encircling the back of my shoulders latches on even more.
Upon seeing his annoying smile, I scratch my collarbone in displeasure.
Before I could tell him off, the weight behind me quickly disappears. What follows then is some pitiful yelping.
“Can you stop harassing Ms. Raley already? You’re disgraceful and an embarrassment to 7Crowns.”