Don’t Hide From Me! - Chapter 31

Seeing the smile on Lu Xun’s face, Ye Yao was a little confused.

…Is it being provoked and laughing out of anger, or has it simply lost the ability to manage expressions?

Probably didn’t hear it clearly.

“Did you hear it wrong?” Ye Yao decided to say it again cruelly, “I like men.”

“I heard, I heard, you like men—” Lu Xun suddenly paused and opened his eyes slightly, “You like men!”

At this moment, Lu Xun finally realized the meaning behind this sentence.

Lu Xun’s hand tightened unconsciously, pinching Ye Yao’s hand in his palm.

Ye Yao wanted to pull out his hand, but Lu Xunxiang was woken up and relaxed a little, but he still held it, not letting Ye Yao take out his hand smoothly.

“You said before that having physical contact with **** men, even just touching your fingers, will make you sick.” Ye Yao said.

“I…” Lu Xun’s words were difficult, the temperature of his hand began to decrease, but he still held Ye Yao stubbornly.

“You let me take it easy.” Lu Xun said in a muffled voice.

Lu Xun’s mind was chaotic, and he couldn’t help remembering those childhood memories that made him sick to the present.

When Lu Xun was young, his parents’ careers were on the rise, and they were too busy to take care of him.

Lu’s father and Lu’s mother wanted to hire a nanny. Grandpa Lu, who knew about this, took Lu Xun to his side for discipline while scolding.

For a long time when he knew the world as a child, Lu Xun followed his grandfather and was taught all kinds of useful or useless knowledge, and a large part of it was about how disgusting **** men are.

Grandpa Lu’s younger brother fell in love with a man when he was young and ran away from home for that man. The two brothers hadn’t seen each other for a long time. When the younger brother finally returned home after many years, his body was terribly thin. Only then did Grandpa Lu know that his younger brother was not only defrauded of his feelings but also of his money.

From then on, the old man hated the male fox who would seduce men. He would never allow his grandson to go astray, so he frightened Lu Xun in various ways.

Lu Xun knew a lot of miscellaneous things when he was a child. For example, **** men were more likely to be infected with AIDS. There was no good treatment in those days.

For example, two men go to bed, and in the end, the whole room is full of disgusting things, on the ground and on the walls.

Up to now, Lu Xun would feel sick to his stomach and vomit when he recalled the pictures of the smelly rooms.

For example, a relationship that cannot be protected by law is easy to be a scumbag. The one who cheats today, and the other cheats tomorrow, there are not many good ones.

After all kinds of guidance from Grandpa Lu, he succeeded in making Lu Xun firm on the path of being a straight man.

It’s not that Lu Xun has not raised doubts, but Grandpa Lu said to him earnestly: In life, the key is to reconcile yin and yang. Only by reconciling can we achieve great consummation. What good end can two positive poles have when they communicate deeply together? This is the truth passed down by our ancestors!

The best relationship between two men is a friend, a confidant, and an exchange of souls! Is there anything more intimate than soul communion?

Lu Xun once thought it was justified. Brothers don’t need so much physical contact. The emphasis is on the spiritual level of communication.

Later, when he met Ye Yao, Lu Xun gradually began to feel that this statement was not necessarily correct.

To be good brothers, try to understand each other as much as possible and be tolerant of each other.

He didn’t hold Ye Yao’s hand, how could he know the temperature of Ye Yao’s palm? He didn’t hold Ye Yao’s waist, how did he know if Ye Yao was hungry and thin recently? He didn’t help each other with Ye Yao, how could he see Ye Yao’s different expressions when he was lost?

What the old man said is not necessarily all right. Some experiences are outdated and need to be viewed from the perspective of developmental dialectics.

He and Ye Yao are best friends.

But now Ye Yao told him that he liked men.

… Ye Yao likes men.

Fortunately, it is fortunate that he is not married to someone else.

“Have you figured it out?” Ye Yao looked at Lu Xun’s weird face, and smiled sadly and happily, “If you want to go out now, I won’t blame you.”

Lu Xun’s palm was sweating finely, sticking to Ye Yao’s skin, very uncomfortable.

Lu Xun’s voice was still dull: “You are alienating me because of this?”

“Isn’t this reason enough?” Ye Yao’s voice was low, “I thought you would never be friends with a **** man, you would feel disgusted.”

This is a fact, Lu Xun didn’t say anything.

Ye Yao continued to speak slowly: “…I wanted to hide it, so I stayed away. I also don’t want you to think of all the contacts you had with me before, and you were so disgusted that you couldn’t eat. If I appeared in your dream, that dream would change. nightmare.”

Lu Xun clenched Ye Yao’s hand again.

Indescribable feelings surged in his heart, he seemed to watch Ye Yao step into the quagmire of his mind, that area in his heart was dirty, chaotic, and smelly, he would never be with this one. People in the swamp have deep connections.

But now Ye Yao walked in.

“Just tell me what you think, there is no need to hide it now.” Ye Yao finally said.

“I…” Lu Xun raised his eyes in a complicated mood and looked at the face he was familiar with.

Every line on this face was memorized by his heart, making him happy when he saw it.

Just as he looked at Ye Yao now, he couldn’t ignore the joy in his heart.

Ye Yao is Ye Yao, even if Ye Yao rolls in this swamp, it is still a fresh and refined Ye Yao, not smelly at all, how can he be the same as others?

Ye Yao was waiting for Lu Xun’s answer, he was waiting for the result of his trial.

The judge who could pronounce his punishment was frowning in thought.

“You said before that you didn’t want to hold hands with me. The reason was that my hand didn’t look like a girl. Your excuse was false.” Lu Xun frowned and said, “Can I just shake your hand in the future?”

Ye Yao: “…”

What is this person thinking?

Ye Yao couldn’t help it: “Are you too stimulated, and now you’re crazy? Would you like me to call 120 for you?”

“I’m serious.” Lu Xun said dully, “No matter what your sexual orientation is… I don’t want the two of us to be distant.”

Ye Yao was stunned, his nose a little sour.

He got the only exception again, and Lu Xun was even willing to make an exception for him to this extent.

Ye Yao said that it was impossible not to be moved. He was about to say something when he saw Lu Xun’s face suddenly sank.

“Why did you find out that you liked men? When did you find out that you liked men? Did you like it since you were a child?” Lu Xun spoke quickly, “The **** high school boy is still fussing and asking you to touch his abdominal muscles, do you like it? He is like that!”

Ye Yao: “…Enough, don’t use your imagination everywhere.”

Ye Yao didn’t want Lu Xun to misunderstand that they had just started making friends but he was hiding it, so he said frankly: “I didn’t discover it since I was a child, I only discovered it after I went to college. I was indeed a straight man in high school.”

What’s the meaning? This doesn’t mean that Ye Yao met a heart-warming character after he went to college, and he was so moved that Ye Yao turned himself into a corner!

Who is it!

Lu Xun was so angry that his head became dizzy. He stared at Ye Yao fiercely, trying to see through Ye Yao’s brain through Ye Yao’s eyes, and then pull out the object of Ye Yao’s heart and beat him.

Lu Xun gritted his teeth: “Who made you discover that you suddenly like men?”

Ye Yao looked away with a little guilty conscience: “It’s all over, don’t think about it so much.”

Ye Yao was even defending that person.

Lu Xun felt that he was about to explode.

When Ye Yao was a child, he liked girls who were gentle like water, and the one who bent Ye Yao was probably a boy who was gentle and like water.

Because Ye Yao turned from a straight man, and his personality and various small details were too straight on weekdays, Lu Xun subconsciously placed Ye Yao above him, thus imagining the image of the boy who bent Ye Yao.

It must be in vain, thin and thin, with eyes like autumn water, and he speaks softly and never fights. Anyway, he is the exact opposite type.

Lu Xun felt bored in his heart. He had an anger that came from nowhere, which made him eager to correct this mistake.

Ye Yao used to be a straight man, but he was bent by a man, so he might not be able to go back straight again.

How do you know if you don’t try? In this society, being a straight guy is much better than being a curvy guy.

Lu Xun slowed down: “You like men. Have you ever seen a love action movie starring two men? Do you know how they got into bed?”

Ye Yao: “…No, I don’t know the specifics.”

Lu Xun breathed a sigh of relief: “After you’ve seen it, you probably don’t like men anymore.”

In the afternoon, Ye Yao had to continue making up lessons, so Lu Xun ordered two takeaways to have lunch with Ye Yao.

They hadn’t had lunch together for a long time. Lu Xun took a bite and glanced at Ye Yao, who was on the opposite side.

When it was time to make up the class in the afternoon, Ye Yao and the others were in the living room to make up the class, and Lu Xun sat in the bedroom, while listening to the outside, there was no unexpected movement, and while downloading some… double male love action movies on the phone.

Looking at the cover on the phone, Lu Xun closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths.

The food he ate at noon seemed to pour into his throat again, and Lu Xun felt very uncomfortable. He seemed to be back to childhood, back to those disgusting and frightening news and pictures.

The mobile phone in his hand became disgusting because he had browsed this website. In the past, Lu Xun would quickly quit and replace the mobile phone, but now he gritted his teeth and clicked to download.

It is very likely that Ye Yao had the illusion that he could accept men because he did not know or understand, and automatically beautified the matter of two men going to bed in his imagination.

When he and Ye Yao watch it together… Ye Yao will understand.

After finishing the day’s make-up class, eating and taking a shower, Ye Yao went to the next door and saw Lu Xun again.

Lu Xun had just taken a shower, and his hair was still wet. With a tall stature and a handsome face, he is the hormone that walks in the eyes of countless people and the object of their dreams.

When Lu Xun looked up and smiled at him, Ye Yao heard his heartbeat in that second.

The reunion after being separated for a period of time, for couples, is a new marriage, dry wood and fire. For his secret lover, what is about to come may be the next out of control.

Not all his secrets were told to Lu Xun. Lu Xun made an exception for him and accepted him as a homosexual as a friend, but after Lu Xun knew who he really liked?

At noon, he was happy because Lu Xun was willing to accept it, and deliberately forgot about this dangerous bomb that might be about to explode.

“Come on, I’ll watch with you.” Lu Xun patted the chair beside him and called Ye Yao over.

Ye Yao walked over and sat down: “What are you looking at?”

Lu Xun put the mobile phone on the table, between him and Ye Yao: “A little movie that can give you a lot of insight.”

The film is played slowly. This kind of film will not pay too much attention to the plot, and will soon enter the main line that everyone wants to watch.

Ye Yao recalled what Lu Xun said before and understood.

This guy Lu Xun was thinking about straightening him.

The straight homophobic guy he has a crush on, sits next to him and watches **** movies with him in order to straighten him.

It sounds like a ridiculous joke.

In the film, the two male protagonists met, one touched the other’s Adam’s apple, and Lu Xun’s face was faintly blue.

“Forget it, don’t look at it.” Ye Yao said softly, “I don’t think I will come back.”

Lu Xun didn’t answer the words, he approached Ye Yao’s ear: “Can you imagine, can you touch that man’s Adam’s apple?”

When the air flowed into his ear, it caused a tingling, Ye Yao tilted his head slightly and saw the Adam’s apple protruding on Lu Xunxiu’s long neck.

This is one of Lu Xun’s masculine symbols, and of course he is willing to touch it and feel the sliding of the Adam’s apple when swallowing.

He also hoped that Lu Xun could touch him.

“…Yes.” Ye Yao said softly.

Lu Xun turned his head and looked at Ye Yao briefly, with surprise and faint anger in his eyes.

“Can?” Lu Xun suppressed his voice.

“Why not?” Ye Yao asked back.

“Okay, very good.” Lu Xun turned his head sharply, “Then look behind.”

The plot develops quickly, the male lead No. 1 has invited the male lead No. 0 to his house. They are drinking small wine. The male lead No. 0 does not know whether it is intentional or not. With a shake of his hand, he spilled the red wine on his white shirt. superior.

The white fabric was soaked in red wine, and something was visible under the shirt.

“Don’t be afraid, I’ll help you clean it up.” The male lead No. 1 took a tissue and put it on the wet area and wiped it gently.

The male protagonist No. 0 snorted softly, fell forward, and fell into the arms of the male protagonist No. 1.

The male protagonist No. 0’s eyes are blurred: “Why… you are so good at rubbing? I like it very much.”

This plot is too outrageous for Lu Xun, and I get goosebumps watching him. In normal times, he must leave quickly, and then pour himself ice water to ease the discomfort.

But now Lu Xun’s anger has suppressed other emotions, he approached Ye Yao again and asked coldly, “So, can you accept touching other men like this?”

Under Lu Xunhu’s covetous gaze, Ye Yao was slightly distracted.

Lu Xun has a good figure. He is diligent in exercising and does not like to eat junk food. He has no excess fat on his body, and his muscles are smooth but not scary.

The protagonists in the movie were replaced with his and Lu Xun’s faces in Ye Yao’s mind. He splashed his clothes, and Lu Xun helped him dry with a tissue.

They will have some kind of contact, he likes this kind of contact, but as a friend he is not qualified to ask Lu Xun to touch him like that.

Ye Yao pursed her lips and said what she thought: “To be honest… I prefer another way.”

Lu Xun’s face softened slightly.

He knew that Ye Yao couldn’t accept it, and this film was not in vain.

The two protagonists who reached this level hugged each other and pulled and stumbled into the bedroom.

Seeing Lu Xun here, he couldn’t help himself. He drank two big mouthfuls of water, but it didn’t help much.

Lu Xun moved in the direction of Ye Yao subconsciously, his arm touched Ye Yao’s arm, just a little physical contact relieved the discomfort caused by the small movie.

Lu Xun simply wrapped his arms around Ye Yao’s shoulders, and half hugged Ye Yao into his arms.

Ye Yao: “…”

“Don’t move, you can watch with me.” Lu Xun took a breath of the air around Ye Yao and felt better, then raised his eyes to face the things on the phone screen.

The male protagonist Zero One has entered the theme, Lu Xun’s head hurts when he sees it, he quickly looks away, and continues to try to straighten Ye Yao.

“Think about it, can you really accept a man under you? They are tough, you have everything on them, and there is no complementarity at all.” Lu Xun said, “Most of them are not after Mental understanding, but bodily pleasure.”

“…Only pursuing the body?” Ye Yao whispered.

Does it really feel that way? Just thinking about being with Lu Xun made him mentally happy, but he never thought it could be better?

He would also want to try if he could.

It’s a pity he didn’t have a chance, Lu Xun is really a straight man.

Lu Xun felt that his efforts should have paid off, so he quickly struck while the iron was hot: “Yes, there is no lofty spiritual pursuit, it should not be. Moreover, men are not suitable for it, there is no such thing, it will definitely make you very tired. , how can it be done?”

Lu Xun saw that Ye Yao’s face was fine, and said what he wanted to say most: “We don’t like men anymore, okay?”

Ye Yao sighed.

He vaguely felt a little bit of Lu Xun’s thoughts. Lu Xun probably thought that even if he was gay, he was the one at the top. The difference from straight men was that the object was a man. No wonder Lu Xun accepted it so quickly.

But after watching this video, Ye Yao clearly knew that he was not.

As long as he said it, Lu Xun would be scared away.

It’s good, so that he doesn’t have to work hard to hide his liking.

“Tired or not…it’s not something I should consider,” Ye Yao said slowly, “it’s something that another person should consider.”

Lu Xun froze: “…what do you mean?”

“You got Lu Xun wrong,” Ye Yao said lightly, “I like to be the next one.”

Lu Xun’s expression was blank in an instant, he stared at Ye Yao for a moment, his ears stained a little red for some reason.

Ye Yao looked at Lu Xun silently, and after seeing Lu Xun regain his senses, he stood up abruptly, and fled the door in a panic.

Ye Yao sat in the room where he was alone, paused and exited the movie still playing on Lu Xun’s phone, then stood up and walked out of the room where Lu Xun lived.

Lu Xun should not come to him again in the future.

Ye Yao closed the door and recalled the scene of Lu Xun leaving.

When Lu Xun finally left, he was so angry that his face turned red.