Dream Love : Dream Land - Chapter 185

Haru could not sleep that night. Over the past few days, his nights have often been disturbed. His memory always reminds him of his conversation with Ayana when they were on their way to the Coastal Land, taking refuge in the house belonging to the people of the Elysium Land at the time. Making himself, until now, has not found solace.

His memory went back to what they were talking about then.

“But what if one day I find my way back to the original world? How would you feel if that happened?” He asked the girl seriously.

Ayana looked stunned there listening to his words, but what she said next was what made him restless now.

“Then… I’ll be happy for you. Who isn’t happy when something good happens to their friend… right?” She also smiled at the time when she said it.

Haru can no longer lie on his bed. He then got up and started rubbing his face several times as he looked out the window of the guest room where he lived. Seeing the beautiful scenery in the Land of Elysium in the hope that his heart will calm a little.

Even so, a deep sigh finally came out of him as well as he tried to think of other things at the time. His face also started to get a little tight. Not like he always is. The problem,he faces is very confusing. The girl, who has had a special place in his heart for so long, seems to be now far away from him despite being physically close.

In fact, he felt there was something he needed to sort out with the girl, even though he wasn’t so sure about what. His time is tickling fast for him makes it difficult for him to make a decision. If the last wish really, really happened, he would probably leave this world and never see the girl again. He didn’t want to let the question go unanswered forever, even if the ending wasn’t something to be happy about.

At least, he try and do something…

At least, the girl knows his true feelings…

However, he began to feel heartbroken when they were in Coastal Land and also after returning to Dream Land. Ayana seemed to be too calm and just treat him as usual. No. Too ordinary as she treats him just like any other prince. As if there was a barrier between them.

The most annoying things that he felt, it seemed like she wasn’t immediately bothered by what she knew, about he probably wouldn’t return to this world again. Does she really not care or just pretend?

“Guess I didn’t get any answer if I just thinking this by myself.” He started realizing it himself.

At that very moment, he saw Ayana walking out of a building. The place where the treatment room is located. They have already been informed by Queen Anna that Jieun and Eun-Woo are there due to Jieun’s necklace which all this time was apparently Eun-Woo’s twin stone. They also know about the Jieun illness as the Queen also explains that to them. So now, they just need to wait for both of them to wake up. But it looks like it took them a lot of time for that as the day was already night and they were still in the same state.

Without really thinking about what he is doing, Haru grabs his long cloak to cover his body from the cold of the night and rushes out. Hopefully he can run into Ayana before the girl disappears from there. He even runs! That’s how rush he feels now.

As he ran, he finally saw a glimpse of the girl walking slowly while looking around. Like she’s taking her time to enjoy the scenery there. Haru started to slow down after seeing that. He knows he won’t lose the girl from his sight in this situation.

As he got closer to the girl, he slowly called her name so that the girl would not be surprised by his sudden presence there.

“Aya…”

Ayana, who was not aware of the man’s presence was a little startled, but continued to smile when she saw Haru there.

“Prince Haru, what are you doing here? Still not asleep?” Ayana asked.

Haru didn’t like that. Ayana now always calls him by that formal, ‘prince’ even though they were alone at the time. But, Haru decides to let alone his dissatisfaction with the matter as he has a much bigger thing to resolve now.

“And you? What are you doing alone late at night like this? Can’t you sleep either?”

“Mmhmm ​​…” Ayana nodded in acknowledgment.

“I was reminded of Lady Jieun so I went to see her for a while. Then decided to take a walk. You know, people like me can’t always move freely like this so I want to enjoy this moment to the fullest.” Ayana who was still smiling at that time, told him.

Haru began to remember the words of King Mizuto, the king of the Coastal Land who wanted to make Ayana his daughter-in-law even though she is just a commoner. It would be nice if King Liam was also open -minded like that, but he knows it won’t happen anytime soon.

“Ayana, can we talk?” He asked with determination now. This time he didn’t want to be puzzled anymore.

Ayana looked at Haru’s face there which was not like always. She could now feel something in her heart. She knew, by time they would eventually have to speak honestly to each other. And she, already prepared herself with all the possibilities.

What Haru doesn’t know, after she knows all the truth, she is crying every single night. Thinking about one day she won’t be able to see Jieun and him after the last wish they often say. Still, she decides to appear strong, giving support, because she doesn’t want to look selfish in the hope that they will never leave here. Because that’s not a good feeling in her view.

“What is it? I’m ready to listen.” Ayana looks calm on the outside, but in her heart is now actually so chaotic. She could only hope that she could be strong until their conversation was over.

She now faces the man completely while placing her hands behind her back, so that she doesn’t do her habit of biting her fingers when in a flustered state. Didn’t want the man to realize that she was a bit nervous with their situation. She’s already been training for today for so long and she can’t waste it.

Haru gripped his hand tightly then. Didn’t like the calm state the girl was showing him at this time. But he has already made up his mind. This girl needs to hear what he wanted to say now!

“I want to talk about us.”

Ayana’s eyes widened a little listen to that, but she didn’t say a word. Just waiting for the guy to keep talking.

“I think… No,” Haru sighed for a moment there. He didn’t think expressing his feelings was so difficult like this.

“I like you! From then until now. I like you… More than a friend.” Finally he said that while his eyes looked at the girl.

In her heart Ayana said, ‘I know. ‘

How could she not have known when Haru so clearly showed his heart. Although he never said it out loud, Ayana knew it.

“Thank you.” Ayana said it, still smiling there.

“What? That’s it? Here I am confessing to you and you can only say that? How about you? How do you feel about me?” Haru became restless.

‘I’m sorry’, Ayana said again in her heart. Something she couldn’t say directly to the man.

“I do like you Haru but only as a friend.”

Haru’s face then, changed a little. All this time he thought Ayana also had feelings for him. Is he wrong?

“Wait… Are you serious?” Haru is hard to believe. His eyes were now focused on the ring he had given to the girl that was still hanging on her neck at this point.

“To me, you were like a hero who saved me when I was in the dark. What you did when we were younger, I still remember to this day. You are someone that was so cool, helping when I was too hopeless and did not believe in myself. And that’s when I was determined to be your friend forever. Nothing more, nothing less, my feelings towards you. ”

“Are you being honest with me right now? I thought… we always spend time together… You also still wearing that.” Haru finds it hard to talk now.

“As a commoner, I never wish I could feel more than that towards you, Prince Haru. Maybe that’s why this feeling is never more as I always remind my heart not to fall for you or some other people with the same status as you. So I… am really being honest with you right now. ”

‘Lie’, Ayana keeps telling her mind now.

“And I’m wearing this as a gift from you. My most important friend.”

Haru then felt too upset. His heart seemed feeling too painful now. Slowly he backed away. Keeping himself away from the girl. He chuckles a little after realizing the whole thing.

“Looks like I’m the only one all this time…” Disappointed. He was really disappointed then.

“I’m sorry.”  Without looking at Ayana, he said that and kept turning, walking away.

Ayana at that time also slowly walked away, towards her room.

As soon as she entered the room, she leaning against the door which was now tightly closed.  The tears that were held back began to fall profusely on her face. She even sat there because she felt her legs were no longer able to stand. All her strength vanished just like that.

“I love you too… Haru.” She can only say that now..  Trying hard not to regret rejecting him.