Dressed As a Cannon Fodder Substitute For a Beautiful President - Chapter 107

Qi Zheng’s answer made the atmosphere fall from freezing point to dead silence. Shen Zhibing seemed to have been beaten with a sap, and she was almost unable to react. A sincerity that was held in front of the other party, but still bravely expressed, was ruthlessly rejected.

This is a more complete preparation than the previous two visits to see Qi Zheng, and this is a yearning that is more anticipated than the previous two. Shen Zhibing thought she came with hope, but what she didn’t expect was the most fatal despair.

Her eyes were instantly hot, so hot that she had to speed up blinking more frequently.

The makeup, which was specially dressed up, was in stark contrast to the calm mood she had endured at this time, but she wanted to cry without tears.

She really couldn’t cry, the sourness stuck in her throat, which made her hurt. Her long eyelashes flickered and her eyes were hot without a single tear.

She doesn’t cry, Qi Zheng said, don’t become humble.

Shen Zhibing meditated in her heart, she was not humble, she was just sad.

After a long time, she barely managed to stabilize her mind, but she spoke in a very sad tone: “I thought our relationship had eased a lot than before. I also thought that there would be at least one chance.”

She lowered her eyes, unwilling to look at Qi Zheng again.

After being stunned and embarrassed after being directly rejected, she was more sad at this time. Sad that she lost the chance to be with Qi Zheng, and also lost the reason to continue her hope.

These days, I have been getting along with Qi Zheng not far or near, and I have never returned to the distance of the past. But Shen Zhibing still had thoughts in her heart: at least Qi Zheng didn’t completely disappear from her world.

She’s still there, letting you know how she’s doing now and letting you see her change and grow. But Shen Zhibing forgot that Qi Zheng no longer belonged to her, and she grew up to soar.

“I said, not yet, I thought you understood what I meant, Mr. Shen.”

Of course Shen Zhibing remembered what she said. She thought it was those few months now. It turned out that what Qi Zheng said now is not the case.

Qi Zheng is not a fickle person. She doesn’t talk much, but she always does what she says. Shen Zhibing has learned a lot from various aspects during this period of time, and just hearing this answer, he already understands that it is difficult to turn around today.

“Up to now, you still only regard me as President Shen. I think, I really don’t understand what you mean.”

Shen Zhibing’s back was always straight, and in this small corner shop, she still couldn’t hide the dazzling light on her body. But she clearly heard the sound of her heart hitting the ground and shattering, and she truly understood the feeling that prompted Qi Zheng to leave resolutely that night.

If it was her, she might have slapped the other party in the face immediately. And Qi Zheng was still so gentle. At that time, Shen Zhibing didn’t understand her forbearance and tolerance.

But now, she understood, but it was too late.

Shen Zhibing is not a stalker. The first two careful attempts made her think that today would be a good opportunity, but she made a mistake in her judgment. She raised her hand on the bag, brewing her final farewell words.

Qi Zheng spoke again, leaving her temporarily.

“Between us, we have never really understood each other, nor have we seriously talked about this…” Qi Zheng paused, “about the future of this relationship.”

She didn’t say feelings, but only positioned in relationships. Shen Zhibing heard her reservation and smiled helplessly.

But she didn’t leave, just sat there and listened quietly. She thought this was probably the last time she heard about her and her past from Qi Zheng.

“The reason that forced Mr. Shen to push away from me at the beginning has not changed much now. If we go back to the past, after a long time, it will just repeat the same mistakes.”

Shen Zhibing pursed her lips, and occasionally defended herself: “The most fundamental one has changed. I really like you, and I will do my best to protect you.”

At that time, Shen Zhibing hadn’t realized that he was so reluctant to let go of Qizheng, and of course the emphasis was different when making a decision.

Qi Zheng smiled helplessly: “But other external factors are still there. If the next time your family or the media puts pressure on you directly, will I be hidden again?”

She knew that Shen Zhibing would not abandon her at will, but she couldn’t guarantee that she would not be the one who was hidden, which was still not what she wanted.

“I……”

Shen Zhibing is indeed not fully sure about this at present, but she is already planning to deal with the second uncle. This is a long process. Without three or five years, without careful deployment, there is no chance of success.

“Mr. Shen, you have taught me before that when you can’t see the direction clearly and feel confused, let yourself get away from it. It will be more objective and comprehensive to look at it from the perspective of a bystander.”

Of course she remembered that when Qi Zheng first went to the secretary’s office, he always stuck to one corner of the report when he wrote the report.

She taught Qi Zheng to look at the overall situation, she taught Qi Zheng to weigh the pros and cons objectively, and she taught Qi Zheng to know how to choose.

“We all know that love is not the whole of life. I don’t want to be without love one day, and even lose the ability and courage to continue living. I want to live a good life first, and I can’t and dare not gamble my future. Emotionally.”

Qi Zheng spoke frankly and sincerely. She did not settle for the past damage, nor did she use the same way to fight back against Shen Zhibing, even if it was the best time.

She just spoke her concerns and her decisions objectively and calmly.

“I made you sad and made you lose confidence. I don’t even have a reason to convince you.” The astringency on Shen Zhibing’s lips was deeper, and she understood that it was her own fault.

“Building trust takes a long process, but destroying it is quick and easy. Maybe it’s a sentence, maybe it’s a choice.” Qi Zheng looked at Shen Zhibing, “I have been given up twice, and I don’t want to go through the third time. I can’t bear it either.”

Shen Zhibing clasped his hands, always restrained, and endured the bursts of sadness and pain.

“Now we are not capable of 100% protection of such feelings, and we are also very clear that we will encounter obstacles in the future. With our current ability, we will probably choose to compromise.” Qi Zheng analyzed calmly, as if he was no longer this way. A personal experience of the relationship, at this time, she looked very much like when she was discussing work with Shen Zhibing.

She tried to hide her sadness and helplessness. She hoped that Shen Zhibing could get an explanation as fully as possible when she was rejected by herself.

She didn’t want this fruitless relationship to become someone’s heartache.

“You don’t believe that I will protect you and this relationship, so you choose to stay here and start over.” Shen Zhibing doesn’t need to ask any more, he can already draw a conclusion.

The strength in her body was gradually emptied, and she held on to her life, but like the sand in her hands that she couldn’t hold, she forced them to slip away.

“Maybe we met at the wrong time. I was educated by reality when I wanted to replace my reason with emotion most of the time.”

That night, like a sharp blade, the dream and reality were cut with blood.

Having said this, Shen Zhibing had nothing to say. She thought about it and handed the gift to Qi Zheng from her bag.

“This is your graduation gift, I hope you will accept it.”

As soon as Qi Zheng’s eyes fell on the packaging, she heard her say again: “It’s not an expensive gift, but you are starting a business now, and sooner or later you will need something to match your identity.”

Qi Zheng reached out and unpacked by himself.

The pen is exquisite, well-designed, and exquisitely crafted, and she stroked the kite pattern on the cap.

Shen Zhibing looked at her, trying to remember this scene firmly. This may be the last chance to send gifts to Qi Zheng in person. She is afraid that she will see too little and miss the details.

She was also prepared for the gift to be returned, and even the smile that said she was okay. But she waited for a while before she saw Qi Zheng put the pen back in the box.

“Thank you, I like it very much.”

Shen Zhibing smiled, I knew that sentence was already on my lips, but what I didn’t expect to hear was: “Mr. Shen has spent a lot of money.”

Then she saw Qi Zheng put the gift into her bag.

She accepted it, and Shen Zhibing finally showed a genuinely happy smile.

As soon as Qi Zheng put the gift away, when he looked up, he saw Shen Zhibing’s soul-stirring smile, and his heart trembled.

“Today I am treating this little wonton as a thank you gift to Mr. Shen.”

The saddest words have already been said, and the wontons are already cold. Qi Zheng couldn’t find the boss and his wife, got up and turned around, and finally cooked two new bowls in the kitchen by himself.

“I come here often, and I know the boss very well. They won’t be angry, just eat it at ease.”

After the wontons were eaten, it was finally time to say goodbye.

The reluctance and faint sadness in Shen Zhibing’s eyes were obvious and moving, Qi Zheng staggered his eyes, got up and stretched out his hand: “I hope we can all become better ourselves.”

Only by becoming a better version of yourself can you be qualified to love others.

Shen Zhibing reached out and shook hands with her, and when he released it, his fingertips slipped from her hand, leaving a trace of residual warmth.

“You take care of yourself in America.”

**

Shen Zhibing ended the trip early the next day and returned to Haicheng. Yu Xinyan and Yun Fei couldn’t find out anything from her mouth, but they also knew that it was definitely not the expected result. Shen Zhibing was indeed depressed for a while because of this. She repeatedly thought about what Qi Zheng said in the wonton shop that day.

It was the most sincere day for them to confess their feelings to each other since they met, and it was also the most sincere day for them to treat each other.

Neither she nor Qi Zheng deleted each other, but they did not interact anymore.

Don’t delete, don’t contact, don’t disturb.

Shen Zhibing re-discussed the subsequent treatment plan with a psychiatrist one month after returning from the United States.

“Miss Shen, if you really decide to receive comprehensive treatment, then I suggest you reduce the dose from now on.”

“Okay, you can show me the complete plan.”

In order to control emotional problems as soon as possible, Shen Zhibing adopted a radical and aggressive approach some time ago, relying on increased doses of drugs to achieve physical control effects.

Now, she finally decided to accept the reality and face the disease correctly.

There are some things that really can’t be rushed. She needs to take good treatment and truly become a better version of herself.

Maybe by then, she will still have a chance to win Qi Zheng’s affection.

Qi Zheng’s tuition was paid off after a year, which let Shen Zhibing know that her career was going well. Occasionally, when I was having dinner with Jiang Youyou, I would hear some of her recent situation. Shen Zhibing always smiled and listened, not as eager to find out all the details as in the past.

She seemed to take a step back, calm and relieved.

Only she herself knew that the distant concern did not disappear because of distance and time, she just changed the way.

Qi Zheng once said that the earth is round, and if there is still fate, they will all return to the origin.

The author says:

The sad part is over, and then Mr. Shen will continue to “seduce”

ps: There is an update before 11 o’clock, alright