Falling In Love - Chapter 190

Jack.

Proposal sex is the best sex I have ever had. Can I even call it that? I don’t know if there is anything like that. Tonight is the most emotional I have ever felt since I got with Trick and he is not even helping matters. He is being extra sweet. He is the best boyfriend I have ever had.

“More,” I cry as I clutch unto him. he thrusts into me harder and I see stars as I look at him. sex hasn’t ever been this intense. We started this night with a fight and now we are naked on our bed, sweating and panting like today is our last night on earth. He pushes into me and I close my eyes because the intensity of this is more than I can take. I am in shambles right now. my heart is beating a mile a minute. I have never felt this way before. There are excitement, joy, and too much love that it feels like I am having a heart attack. His eyes never leave mine. I clutch unto him tightly, never wanting to let go of this moment. Never wanting to let go of the way I feel in his arms right now. it is all I have ever wanted. How do you even know you want something until it finally happens to you?

He proposed to me. I didn’t even want to get married. It was not something that was in my books until I knew that I might never have it. suddenly it became all I wanted. It became important.

I don’t know what else I might have said I didn’t want, that I might end up wanting but I have the rest of my life to figure it out. The rest of my life with Trick sounds like a dream. I can’t wait to see him old and grey. I can’t wait to see that smile on his face when he is old. The future has never looked brighter than tonight.

“I love you so much,” he breathes out in between breaths. I open my eyes and he is looking down at me as he moves. It is the most beautiful sight I have ever seen. I am happy, so happy and he is to blame.

“I love you too.”

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“About the job,” I breathe out in his arms. I don’t know how many times we had sex but it is already very late. We should be asleep but every time I try to close my eyes in his arms, I glance at the ring and can’t.

“I am sorry. I will tell Adina that it’s not happening. I will never do anything like that again. I am sure you can do this on your own.” He rambles. He doesn’t want to upset me any further and thinking about it now, I don’t even know why I was upset in the first place. the fact that he keeps thinking about me just shows me how much he loves me.

Maybe I am just in a love bubble where anger and frustration aren’t allowed.

“I will go for the interview,” I manage because this is as important to me as it is to him. he opens his eyes wide—probably shocked at my response.

“You don’t have to Baby; I don’t want you to do anything you’re not comfortable with. This seems like a bad idea,” he manages, the skepticism clear in his voice.

“I want to, I am tired of sitting at home and waiting for something to happen. Maybe this is just fate. I mean I will take the interview and I have to be judged fairly. If I am not qualified, then I don’t want the job.”

He sits up on the bed and I rest my face on his chest, not wanting any distance from him. I want to stay glued to him until he gets sick and tired of me. I know that will never happen. The obsession I have for him is mutual.

“Are you sure about this? You were pretty upset earlier,” he reminds me of my outbursts. I have regrets about our date. No matter what happens between us. I don’t want to ever get that upset with him again. He didn’t even do anything and I ruined the date for him—especially knowing that he was really excited about it.

“I am sorry about earlier. I was a douche,” I apologize, knowing full well that I should have apologized since.

He shakes his head “You were honest. There is a difference. I don’t want to interfere with your job search because I know you can do it on your own. I don’t want to ever make you feel like you are less than. I made a mistake tonight. I should have talked to you before I talked to Adina. I didn’t mean to go behind your back.”

He is right about one thing. He actually should have talked to me first but I know Trick. He wanted to help. He wanted it to be a surprise and even though it backfired. I appreciate him more than he will ever know.

“I want to try for the job. I want to help in contributing. We are getting married. Weddings are expensive.”

A slow smile sprawls to his face at the mention of a wedding “Oh, we most definitely are. He rests his back on the pillow and we both look at the ceiling “What kind of wedding do you want?” he adds in question.

I close my eyes, already picturing walking down the aisle to him. I don’t even know how that will work but I want it all.

“A small one. We don’t really have a lot of friends and we have to think about money,” I tell him.

He nods “If it is about money. I can handle it all. I want to give you the world and if you want the biggest wedding ever. I will do that.”

“It’s not about the money,” I tell him, completely detaching from him. I climb unto him and he smiles as he grabs my waist “I want to focus on you on that day. If there are too many people, there will be too many distractions.”

I lean forward, pressing my lips to his and he moans into the kiss, completely ready for our future.