Falling In Love - Chapter 198

Jack

I run out of the bathroom without even saying a word to him. I don’t even know how to handle this situation. I didn’t kiss him back but once Trick finds out about this; he is going to freak out. he is going to make a big deal about this and I might end up not even starting at that job. this is something I am finally excited about and I don’t want to just let go of it so quickly.

I find Lance at the bar. He is talking to the bartender again. now I know that this was a bad idea. he is too drunk to even know what he is doing. I grab his arm and he turns around. I tell him that I want to leave and he just looks at me like a deer in headlights.

“Come on Lance, please can we just leave?” I beg him. I don’t even know how to explain what just happened. I am still trying to process it. Gill kissed me.

I try to think back to earlier.

did I lead him on or something?

“What is wrong?” he asks me, shifting from intoxicated to worried.

I pull him off the seat and lead him out of the building, he struggles to walk at my pace but all I want to do is leave this club and forget this night ever happened.

I can’t tell Trick what happened tonight because I already know his reaction. He is going to get upset and then talk to Adina. which in turn might lead to me not even getting the job. I don’t want to cause any problems for Gill.

I don’t even know the guy and maybe I lead him on.

“What is happening,” Lance pushes his grip off me and I stop walking and turn to him. My head is spinning and I just want to go to sleep. I don’t even know what is going on. I don’t know how to handle this. I just want to forget about it.

“It is not a big deal, I will tell you in the morning when you are sober,” I decide because I don’t even think he can comprehend anything right now. “Why did you drink so much?” I ask him, wondering what the point is.

he rolls his eyes “Is it a problem now? Are you the anti-fun police?”

As I said, Lance is not in his right frame of mind “Can you just give me your phone, so that I can get a car?”

he reaches into his pocket and brings out his phone, slowly handing it to me “Did something happen in the bathroom? I saw that guy follow you.”

I stiffen. Is he talking about Gill? “What guy?” I ask, trying to sound casual. He doesn’t know anything; I don’t know if I even want to tell him. I know Lance, he would want me to be honest with Trick. I swear this is not me feeling guilty. this is not me wanting this to be a secret. I just don’t want this to escalate more than it needs to and with Trick, it most definitely will.

“You know who I am talking about, the one from the office. you know, what did you say his name was again.”

I sigh and then run my hands through my hair. I was so excited about the new job and now, all thanks to Gill, all I feel is dread. “I don’t know what you are talking about,” I tell him.

“You are being weird; did you hook up with him? I mean, the way you keep avoiding the question.”

I open my eyes wide from the shock of his words “What do you mean? I would never hook up with anyone. how can you even think that?”

Lance is drunk but he is still suspicious of me. I hate that he sees me and can read my mind. I hate that right now; I can’t hide from him.

“You are hiding something. tell me what it is before I start to think the worst.”

I sigh, and then open the uber app “Let’s just get you home, and then we will talk about it tomorrow when you are sober.”

he rolls his eyes and slings his arm over my shoulder “You know I will remember tomorrow, so don’t think you are going to get away with it.”

I nod in agreement and silently pray he doesn’t remember tomorrow. I want to forget about it and it seems like the only way I can do that is if we all forget that this night happened.

the Uber parks in front of the club after about two minutes and I check to make sure the license plate matches the one on the app. After my confirmation, I lead Lance into the car and the man starts the trip.

I look out the window because I need to make a decision. I need to know if I should tell Trick about this.

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I finally get home after dropping Lance home. once I pay the fee for the car, I get down and walk into the house, grabbing my keys from my pocket. I finally get inside and lock the door. All I want to do is take a shower and get some sleep. it was a long night and I don’t know how to handle this. I don’t know what to tell Trick.

the house is dark and I realize that Trick must be asleep. I am so lost in my thoughts that I don’t even notice him walking out of the room. He is dressed in striped pajama bottoms and a plain white shirt. A smile sprawls to his face when he notices me “You are back early,” he comments, walking into my arms.

I welcome him because I have missed him.

“Yeah, I just missed you so much,” I tell him. that is the truth. I actually missed him. I mean, if Gill hadn’t kissed me, I would have still found a way to get Lance to call it a night. I wasn’t even feeling the vibes of the club.

I wanted to come home to the most important person in my life.

“Did you at least have fun?” he asks me, resting in the crook of my neck.

I sigh because his question has me remembering the one thing I don’t want to ever remember.

“Yeah, I did,” I lie because I know that he will never understand what if I say otherwise. if I tell him what happened. he will overreact and I don’t want that to happen. I have to keep this to myself because there is no point in telling him.

there is no point in worrying him when I don’t even feel the same way. I didn’t reciprocate the kiss and I plan on shutting Gill down once I start work. I will let him know that I have a fiancé. one that I love very much and we will never speak of the kiss again.

“Good, because I am glad you are finally back home, the bed was lonely without you” he whispers into my neck causing my heart to melt.

“I am sorry that I made you sleep alone, I love you,” I say and he pulls away so that he can look into my eyes.

“I love you too. Now, let’s go to bed,” he tells me, grabbing my hand and leading me towards the room.

“But I just came from the club, I need to shower and change,” I tell him.

he shakes his head “No, I don’t want to wait, I need to hold you now.”

I want to deny him, but I can’t. his words are like magic to me. I just want to forget all about the night, so that I can share my bed with the man that I love.

“Alright,” I say in defeat.

I just have to forget tonight.

We get into the room and he helps me get all my clothes off. once I am just in my boxers, he drags me to the bed and rests his head on my chest with a cheeky smile on his face.

“You start work tomorrow,” he whispers into my ear.

I shake my head “I don’t think so. I still have the tests to do,” I remind him. I hate that he is bringing the job up. I don’t want to talk about it because guilt is eating me up right now.

“Oh, well I am so excited for you,” he nuzzles into me and I feel his warmth as it starts to take over me.

My heart is racing against my chest. I hate this feeling. If the tables were turned, I will not want him to keep this from me. I would want him to tell me the truth and here I am, saying I want to keep this from him.

I cannot do that.

“Someone kissed me tonight,” I tell him.

Damn the consequences, I need to be honest with him.