Falling In Love - Chapter 92
Lance.
”I don’t have anything to say to you,” I try to push past her, but she grabs my arm in an attempt to stop me.
”I just want to talk. Hear me out first,” she smiles. This smile to me is so evil because I know she is up to no good. This girl is not a friend, she is my number one enemy because she wants to take the one person that matters the most to me away from me.
”What do you want?” I roll my eyes.
Her eyes roam around where she is. It seems like she is up to something, there is too much excitement in her eyes. ”I warned you the last time. He is sick. What you are doing to him is wrong?”
There we go, she is talking about Ford. She said he didn’t really love me the last time we talked. That he was having another manic episode and whatever was going on with me was a phase. I don’t believe her. I have been researching on his disorder.
I know that he is not going through a phase with me. he genuinely loves me, and she is trying to put ideas in my head. she wants Ford for herself and she thinks she can manipulate me into thinking he doesn’t love me.
”It is none of your business. Even if this is just a phase, I want to explore it with him. why is it your concern?” I ask her. I don’t want to prolong this conversation. I want this to stick to her thick skull. She needs to back the fuck off.
”he is my boyfriend. This is my business.”
Lisa is the only one that thinks she is in a relationship with Ford. How can you be in a relationship with someone that doesn’t accept you?
I think she is the delusional one, but I don’t say it.
”Then speak to your boyfriend. Why are you talking to me about your relationship?”
Her eyes open wide. I can see that she is thinking of the next thing to say. Come on, let’s do this fucking back and forth that you want. I will stay here all day and fight for what is mine if that is what she wants.
”What if I talk to his dad, I think that would be the solution,” she smiles finally getting a comeback.
I raise a brow; I mean she is fucking bluffing right now. If she wanted to tell John, she would’ve already. She doesn’t want to be the one to break it to him. she is not willing to hurt Ford yet.
”Do it, let’s see if he will believe you. Do you know how insane you will look? Just ridiculous if you don’t mind me saying,” I fold my arms across my chest, calling her bluff.
Her smile widens.
”I have proof though,” she raises a brow waiting for my next move.
I can’t tell If she is being serious right now. What proof could she have? The only thing I can think of is today. we had sex in the showers of his locker room. It was an open space; anyone could’ve seen us, and we wouldn’t have even known.
Oh shit.
”I see you know what I am talking about,” she retorts excitedly.
Fuck.
I don’t know what to say. There is a possibility that she has something. Thinking about it, Lisa could be desperate enough. She could have taken a picture and now she has enough to get us to do whatever she wants us to do.
”Why can’t you just back the fuck off. He doesn’t love you. Let him go and accept defeat.”
I have no comebacks. I don’t know what to say to talk sense into her. It looks like she has won this round.
She grabs her phone from the little purse around her and unlocks it. I don’t know what she wants to show me but I wait as she scrolls through her phone ”You call this love?” she asks me pointing her phone in my face. I was right all along. That private moment we shared in such a public place, she has it recorded.
What is the point of showing me?
I look at the video and it is obvious what we are doing. There is no denying this and the minute she shares this with John, we will be in big trouble. She has all the power at this moment. If Ford finds out about this, he will spiral. He will not be able to handle this.
”what do you want from me,” I ask her, desperate for a solution.
”I told you before. Leave him alone. Brad doesn’t need you in his life clouding his judgement. You are not good for him.”
I guess she is saying she is the only one that is good enough for him. the fact that we can’t even really be together because of all the obstacles says it all. This is a lot harder than I thought it would be and now I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to give up on him. I love him too much to let him go. There has been so much fighting. I had to convince him, it took a lot from me and she wants me to let him go now?
How is this fair?
”What you are asking is impossible,” I tell her honestly.
There is no way I will leave him, and he will just let me go easily. Not after everything we have been through. He will want to fight; he will not just let go.
”Tell him you don’t love him.”
”I can’t lie to him.”
She smiles ”Do you want this to get out,” she waves the phone in my face. this is the kind of blackmail I never thought I would experience. This is all happening because of me. He wasn’t comfortable with me being in the shower with him and I took the risk. I fucking ruined things because of my stupidity.
”He will never be with you. Even though I am not in the picture. He will never choose you.”
That is the honest truth. Ford doesn’t love her, he doesn’t even see her in that light. He is gay. He will always be gay and she is just the wrong gender.
”I rather he be alone that happy with you,” she concedes, the vilest logic I have ever heard.
How can someone be this heartless?
”Please, please don’t do this.”
I stoop to begging. Maybe if I beg enough, she will listen to me and let us be. it is such a fucking long shot. People like Lisa always want what they want and somehow Ford is what she wants. She looks like the kind of person that will do whatever it takes.
”I am sorry Lance. this is really not about you. I don’t have any problems with you.”
Her words contradict her actions.
”Brad is not a faggot like you. He is sick and that is why he is doing all this. once he consistently takes his medicine, he will get over this phase.”
She uses that word.
The hate spews out of her mouth like bullets ready for a kill.
What kind of human being will use that word? I have never hated any word as much as that word. My heart races in my chest from all the anger within me. there is a blank expression on her face, almost like she doesn’t even realise what she just said.
I cannot let her win.
”Fine, you win. You can have him to yourself. I will back off,” I tell her what she wants to hear.
This is not about her. Like I said before Lisa is inconsequential to my story with Ford. She means nothing and if she chooses to be the villain. Then I will treat her like a villain. I will not let her win this battle. The world is full of hate. People are afraid of what they don’t understand, what they haven’t experienced and they turn that fear into hate. Just like she is doing right now.
If the world tells me that being with another man is wrong, then I will flaunt it to the world, show them how fucking happy I can be with what they think is so wrong.
If they tell me I don’t deserve to be happy, that this is a sin. Then I will pray to God to forgive their hate. Show them that I am different, I will not treat them the same way they treat me.
If Lisa thinks she is going to break us apart, if she thinks she is going to have him even though that is not what he wants, then I will show her that he is mine.
I will hold unto him.
I will never let go of him.
”Glad you are back to your senses. I hope we don’t have a problem. You know what will happen if we do,” she waves the phone again.
I manage a smile.
Even though I am ready for war.