Fancy Me, Professor! - Chapter 234

Yu Yan’s mother proceeded to the kitchen to cook dinner even though it’s quite early in the afternoon, around 3 PM.

With the thought of Wang Lei putting Yu Yan’s son, Li Jie, in the guest bedroom where his room is, Yu Yan decided to see how the two are since Wang Lei had not come down yet.

As Yu Yan walked up the stairs, she already saw her son’s door room open. As she walked quietly to see how they’re doing, she stopped in her tracks to take a peek, surprised to see Wang Lei sitting on the side of the bed, tapping the side of Li Jie as he slept.

He was humming the tone of the nursery rhyme “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star”, making sure that Li Jie would completely fall asleep.

With the sight of Li Jie holding on to Wang Lei’s other hand, Yu Yan arched a brow in amusement, not expecting her son to be this attached to someone whom he recently met.

Watching them this way had given Yu Yan a strange sensation in her chest. She never pegged him to be this good with children and she had always seen an uptight and mischievous side to Wang Lei as she worked with him.

Now that Wang Lei is showing a soft side especially towards children, Yu Yan weirdly felt warm in her chest. She crossed her arms in front of her chest and smiled as she leaned on the doorframe, watching Wang Lei put her son to sleep.

Wang Lei felt the same—he felt different, especially towards little Li Jie. Even he didn’t expect that he could be this doting to a child, not a relative of his, even!

As he then pulled his hand away from Li Jie, now assured that he is asleep, he then looked towards the door and was quite surprised to see Yu Yan watching both of them.

‘She’s so silent! When did she come in?’

“Thank you,” Yu Yan mouthed, Wang Lei smiling at her as he now stood up from the bed and came out of the room, not closing the door so that they could hear or check up on him any time.

As the two now went to the hallway, both of them talked, still in a soft voice so that they could not wake little Li Jie up.

“I had to admit, Wang Lei,” Yu Yan started, her smile turning into a grin. “I didn’t expect you to be so good with children.”

“Me either,” Wang Lei replied, letting out a soft chuckle. “With my seven-years gap with my little sister, I had been a bully towards her. Didn’t know I could be this nice towards a kid who’s not even mine.”

Both of them smiled at each other. With them realizing that they are both alone in the hallway, it made it slightly awkward for them—especially now that they realized where they are.

In Wang Lei’s home.

Wang Lei cleared his throat. With him looking at Yu Yan, he spoke again in hopes that it would distract them from whatever they could be thinking.

“I mean Li Jie is a very good boy. He’s not as obnoxious as the other children his age and I commend you for raising your child.”

“Of course,” Yu Yan replied, playfully rolling her eyes at him. “I’m glad that in a way, he’s not like his father. Well… I actually hope that as he grows, he won’t turn out like him.”

“Oh, you don’t have to worry,” Wang Lei said, crossing his arms in front of his chest as he arched a brow at his secretary. “He will never be like that wretched man. You’re raising him very well!”

“Thank you,” Yu Yan said, feeling warm in her heart that even her boss says so. “But, you know… I worry about him—my little mooncake.”

Yu Yan then started to drown in her own thoughts. With her remembering that her son is fatherless and that his real father is irresponsible and is thrown in jail, she wondered what she would do in the near future as Li Jie will grow up.

Telling him now that his dad is a bad man won’t make him understand. Telling him in the future once he had come of age that she was sexually assaulted by that man will break his heart.

Being a good boy that he is, Yu Yan started to imagine what if her Li Jie would compare himself to his real father—thinking that he might be like him?

Of course as his mother, Yu Yan would constantly reassure him that he won’t be like him if ever the case were to rise but still… a boy who hadn’t even met his father would have doubts about himself here and then.

What Yu Yan worried about the most is that starting this age, Li Jie started yearning for his father. Heck, it even broke her heart at most times when Li Jie would ask her why he was different from the others.

By different from the others: like why he doesn’t have a father?

Yu Yan didn’t want to lie—she would never like to lie to her son. She hated the thought of it. So every time Li Jie would ask her, Yu Yan would just say that he would know in the near future when the time is right—when’s old enough to understand.

Of course, being the good boy that Li Jie is, he nodded and said to be patient. But it won’t always be this way especially if his curiosity and him questioning his existence would overtake him.

What would happen then?

With that, the anxiety within Yu Yan rose, making tears pool in her eyes even though the future that she feared hadn’t happened yet.

As the tears in her eyes now escaped one by one, Wang Lei widened his eyes, worried and surprised why his secretary suddenly started crying before him.

“Yu Yan? What’s wrong?”

It’s as if her boss was not before her. Still, she raised her head to look at him, her lips trembling as she answered him truthfully.

“I—I’m afraid I’m not a good mother to Li Jie. I’m afraid that I’m not enough.”

“Yu Yan…”

Wang Lei felt an ache in his heart, seeing his secretary Yu Yan this way.

Heck, why would he suddenly feel this way towards her? She had always been with him in work and they had always talked and even teased each other from time to time when she looked for women for him.

How did she suddenly become like a dear friend to him in such a quick span of time?

Wait… is she only like a dear friend to him?

Or something more?

“Yu Yan.”

With Wang Lei saying her name once more, he snapped himself out of his thoughts as the idea of cheering her up arose in his mind as his priority.

“You’re the best mother for Li Jie. You’re more than enough.”

“I know… I know,” Yu Yan spoke, wiping her tears away with her free hand. “Even my mother said so over and over again, but I just can’t help it.”

Yu Yan tried her best to stop crying. However, the more that she forced herself to stop, the more that she cried. She felt a painful lump in her throat, already overcome with her emotions as she spoke comfortably to Wang Lei.

“I had a lot of what ifs even though my Li Jie is still a little boy. What if I’m not giving him enough? What if in the future he will change and that he keeps looking for something more? Something more—like a father figure? I… I can’t—”

Yu Yan sobbed, her lips turning into a tight line. She then looked down on both of their feet, already embarrassed to look straight at her boss’ eyes.

“I want what’s best for Li Jie. Even though he’ll hate me in the future, I would still be his mama forever.”

“Yu Yan, don’t say that. He will never hate you.”

Wang Lei then tipped her chin up so she could look at him. However, the moment they locked eyes, he felt his heart skip a beat, seeing how beautiful Yu Yan is up this close even though she was crying.

Has she always been this beautiful?

“But if he starts looking for his father, I wouldn’t know what to do. What if being his mother I won’t be enough and that—”

Before Yu Yan could even finish her sentence, Wang Lei softly placed his lips on her to shut her up. With Yu Yan’s eyes widening in surprise, she found herself frozen still, her heart racing in her chest as she didn’t expect this to happen at all.

Wang Lei had his eyes closed, his lips gentle and soft upon hers. With Wang Lei gently pulling her towards him to embrace her, Yu Yan didn’t know why, but she melted in his arms as she closed her eyes, the sensation of his lips still felt.

She allowed her mind to shut down, her worries slowly slipping away from her as if the only support and reassurance that she needed was the man before him.

It’s as if his kiss was more reassuring compared to the words that had ever left his mouth.