Forbidden Alpha - Chapter 186

Gabe

It wasn’t jealousy that had me ready to break down, it was the feeling of betrayal. He wasn’t a baby, he’d been on this earth for years. If his nanny hadn’t brought him here, would I have ever known? Would Odis have kept me at arm’s length to keep him a secret from me?

The child wasn’t an issue. I didn’t have a problem with him. It’s the fact that I didn’t know about the said child. I never would have known about him if not for this chance meeting. I still wasn’t sure how I felt about him.

I was mad but not about him. I wasn’t mad that there was a history I didn’t know about. I wasn’t mad that the history I thought I knew wasn’t that. I wasn’t mad that there was a shit load of time that was unaccounted for. I wasn’t mad that she kept him a secret from me.

I was mad that now that I knew and had questions, I couldn’t fucking ask her. Why had this been kept a secret from me? Why didn’t she have pictures of him? Why hadn’t there been any signs of his existence? Why didn’t we know him? Why didn’t she introduce me to him?

My head was spinning and I didn’t know if I could stomach any more of this. I had so many questions and the two people I wanted to ask kept this knowledge from me. Did Ady know? No, if she’d known, she would have told me. Her mate definitely knew but he didn’t have to tell me. The people who should have told me didn’t.

Leo’s laugh echoed off the walls at the same time all of the breath in my lungs left my body. The thoughts swirling in my head promised a headache. Questions I knew I may never have answers for flashed through my mind.

Denial slapped me across the face. Maybe I was seeing things wrong. Or maybe you were refusing to see reality. My wolf, Felix was quick to hit me with reality. The obviousness of Paul’s paternity stared me right in the face. As much as I wanted to, there was no denying it.

A muffled voice could be heard and even though it sounded far away I knew better. Closing my eyes, I struggled to focus on where I was. I could just keep staring at him, I was probably making the poor kid nervous.

The voice had to belong to Leo or Ady but I couldn’t differentiate between which one. It was as if I were hearing everything with my hands on my ears. Ripping my gaze from Paul, I turned to look at my best friend by my side.

“Your dad’s name is Odee?” Leo asked. I could finally hear him as his voice cut through the tornado of thoughts that had begun to drown me.

Ady’s eyes were wide with worry and I could feel her concern for me coming off of her in waves. My best friend’s lips opened slightly and I knew she just wanted to know what I was thinking.

Even as I looked at her, all I could see was the pair of gray eyes I knew were sitting across from me. She was about to say something when the front door swung open, interrupting her. Turning towards the front door, I followed her gaze.

My best friend’s mate walks in but I only glance at him for a second. The smell coming through the door tells me who’s about to walk in after him. My heart skips a stupid little beat and I don’t even flinch when Odis walks in.

His hair isn’t as neat as it usually is, it falls forward over his forehead. His facial expression doesn’t say that he’s stressed but the look in his eyes betrays him. They went somewhere but when I try to figure out where they went, I come up blank.

A meeting.

The meeting, right, I’d forgotten all about it. Ethan had been summoned to an emergency meeting. Judging from his face and Ethan’s lack of a smile, something bad must have happened.

Odis doesn’t see me at first, he doesn’t see anyone but his alpha. His eyes are on his back as he walks in. When Ethan starts walking towards Ady, Odis’s gaze lands on his Luna. I want to run and hide.

I don’t want him to see me but I’m a deer stuck in the headlights. We haven’t said a word to each other since that night but his eyes drift from Ady to me. I hate the way my stupid heart does a somersault in my chest despite the betrayal I feel.

Ethan leans down and kisses Adea breathless. I don’t need to look at them to know, the smooching sounds fill the room. My eyes lock on Odis’s and I want to hate him. The way he looks at me sends my body into overdrive.

Shit, I want to blame him but I can’t. He isn’t my mate, wasn’t my anything, never was. My mate isn’t here anymore and he’s all I have. I want to blame him, I want to yell at him, hit him, cuss him out.

I want to run to him and take all of my hate out on him. As much as I want to do that, I can’t, can I? It’s not his fault that I didn’t know about him. It wasn’t his job to tell me about Paul.

At the same time, I want to run into his arms and cry. I want him to make this make sense. I want him to wrap his arms around me and beg me to hear him out. I want him to tell me everything. I want him to make this okay. I want him to tell me he wants me in his life.

I swallow the painful lump in my throat as his gaze drifts from me across to Leo. I keep my eyes on his face, waiting for him to see who else is here, waiting for the pin to drop. His body tenses and his eyes widen as his eyes drop down to Leo’s side.. I’ve never seen him so shocked.