God Made Incompatibility - Chapter 57

It was still cool on a rainy night at the end of April. Sheng Jinshu came back after delivering Yu Xingqian. It was already dark, and Meng Wanji hadn’t returned to her room.

She was wrapped in a bathrobe and stood on the balcony looking at the night outside the building, as if she was in a daze, and Yuehui took a thin picture of her figure.

Sheng Jinshu felt distressed for no reason.

She didn’t slow down her steps deliberately, she hugged Meng Wanji from behind, and rubbed gently: “Why are you in a daze here?”

She still carried the coolness of the wind and rain outside, but her embrace and tone were warm. Meng Wanji fell into her arms, like drowning in warm water. She wanted to sink, but she was afraid of suffocation.

She raised her hand to touch Sheng Jinshu’s elbow and hugged her, touching her body temperature, and replied, “It’s nothing.”

Sheng Jinshu smiled nicely: “It seems dishonest.”

Meng Wanji’s ears were itchy, but her throat was even more dry. She wriggled her arms slightly, turned around in Sheng Jinshu’s arms, and looked at Sheng Jinshu against the balcony railing.

Sheng Jinshu looked at her suspiciously and patiently. The peach blossom eyes have their own style, delicate facial features, and both smiling and not smiling are equally moving. It is the appearance of her seventeen-year-old who is moved by just one glance, and the person she still wants to have no matter how many years have passed, one more glance.

She looked at her, as if she was making up a beautiful dream for herself at the end, raised her chin and kissed the corner of her lips, soothing her: “Go take a bath.”

The tone was gentle, even with a smile, as if the loneliness just now was just an illusion of Sheng Jinshu. Sheng Jinshu is not someone who likes to be reluctant. Seeing that Meng Wanji really doesn’t want to say anything, he really doesn’t ask anymore.

She should: “Okay.” Joke: “Would you like to accompany me?”

Meng Wanji chuckled: “I have washed it.”

“It’s cold after standing here for so long. Let’s wash it again to warm up.”

Meng Wanji glanced at her angrily, but did not smile.

Sheng Jinshu didn’t expect her to actually agree, but just wanted to tease her, divert her attention, and make her happier. But she didn’t expect that Meng Wanji actually went into the bathroom to accompany her to wash again after she made a few more jokes.

For two consecutive weeks of high pressure, they have not done it for half a month. As if to release the pressure and unhappiness of the past few days, they did it arbitrarily and cheerfully. Meng Wanji was a rare initiative, and the corners of her brows and eyes were full of affection, asking for everything, asking again and again.

In the end, Meng Wanji could feel that Sheng Jinshu was becoming more careful and gentle, for fear that she would be hurt.

There was a feeling in her heart that she didn’t know whether it was satisfaction or pain. It was obviously filled, but she still felt empty. She couldn’t bear it anymore, she had no strength, she leaned against Sheng Jinshu’s shoulders, she couldn’t help herself, and confided in her heart: “I love you…”

His voice was trembling, softly spoken, but his tone was genuine.

It was the first time in her life that she spoke of love.

He lost all his self-esteem, shame, and timidity, and presented himself to Sheng Jinshu naked and naked.

But Sheng Jinshu didn’t answer her.

She seemed to breathe a little harder, then just hugged her tighter, kissed her more tenderly, and reassured her.

Not even “me too”.

Meng Wanji was desperate in her silence.

The second day was Saturday. When Sheng Jinshu was woken up by the alarm clock, Meng Wanji was already up. She was sitting beside her, looking sideways at her, neatly dressed, as if she had been awake for a long time.

“Morning.” Sheng Jinshu smiled, turned over and put his hand on her lap to act like a spoiled child: “Why do you always get up earlier than me?”

Meng Wanji smiled lightly: “Maybe you are working harder?”

Sheng Jinshu laughed softly, expressing satisfaction with the answer.

Meng Wanji teased her forehead hair, stroked her with nostalgia, got out of bed, opened the curtains, opened the window, and greeted Sheng Jinshu to come out to do yoga after washing up.

Just like every ordinary and warm morning after they were together.

They did yoga together, made breakfast, finished the meal, washed the dishes, and sat idly in the living room.

The morning sun outside the balcony has fully risen, radiant and scorching hot. Sheng Jinshu sighed casually, “Is summer about to start in Ningcheng?”

Meng Wanji didn’t answer right away.

Sheng Jinshu looked back at her, and Meng Wanji was also looking at her. Her face was paler than the clouds outside the window.

“What’s wrong?” Sheng Jinshu’s smile couldn’t help but fade.

Meng Wanji said, “Jinshu, let’s be apart for a while.”

Suddenly, it was like a bolt from the blue.

Sheng Jinshu couldn’t understand what she was saying for a few seconds. She thought she was ready for this day, even from the first day of dating. But when the day really came, she found that she was actually unprepared and panicked like never before.

“What’s wrong? It’s so sudden.” She didn’t want to make herself too embarrassed, but she still couldn’t hang up, and she didn’t want to hang up the indifferent mask a few times before.

Obviously everything was fine last night.

“What happened?” She held Meng Wanji’s hand on her lap, her eyes were concerned, and her voice seemed to be squeezed out of her throat.

Meng Wanji shook her head, her jet-black pupils were as bright as black pearls and as quiet as an ancient pool.

She drew her hands and said, “We’re not suitable, I don’t want to waste time.”

Again.

“What’s inappropriate?” Sheng Jin’s eyebrows tightened, and there was an almost uncontrollable anxiety in his tone.

Meng Wanji said, “I’ve never been on guard against you since I was with you, so today, it may be the last time, can you not guard me and answer me a few questions frankly?”

Sheng Jinshu Ying: “I have never lied to you without being frank.”

Meng Wanji nodded. It’s true, she really didn’t lie to her, she just didn’t even want to lie to her or coax her.

She stared at her and asked, “Have you never thought about walking with me all the time?”

Sheng Jinshu’s face turned pale in an instant, and the whole portrait was dumbfounded, and she froze in her questioning.

Meng Wanji laughed, a bit sad and self-deprecating in her smile.

It seems that the last sentence “Do you love me?” There is no need to ask and humiliate yourself.

Sheng Jinshu could see the disappointment and sadness on her calm face, and there was a sharp pain in her heart. She opened her mouth to explain, “It’s not like this, even if it was at first, then it wasn’t…”, she thought about it, she thought about it many times, and has been thinking about it recently.

But she couldn’t make a sound.

Like the words “I love you”, she had thought she would not expect or even take it seriously. But last night, when she heard Meng Wanji say it, she realized that she had already not only liked Meng Wanji, but when she heard her love say these words, it was like the miracle of fate, life fullness, completeness of the soul. She actually thought of the word “forever”.

She still doesn’t believe in love or forever, but she really wants to believe in Meng Wanji.

She wanted to answer her “I love you too”, but she didn’t dare.

Guilt blocked her voice.

She didn’t know if she was qualified to make such a promise. It has been irresponsible once, and will it be irresponsible again?

She clenched her knuckles and apologized apologetically, “I’m sorry…”

Meng Wanji’s eyes darkened completely, trying to pull her lips, but she couldn’t say “it’s okay” after all.

She moved her lips, her eyes turned red before speaking, but she was still decent and went through the process calmly and calmly: “I know, if you want to be together forever, you may not be able to be together forever, but I never thought that it should be It will be gone sooner or later. I admit that I like you, and even… I love you very much.”

“But I don’t like the feeling of being unsettled, I don’t like myself having to worry about gains and losses, and I don’t want to be in a relationship that obviously won’t work out. So just stop here, at least like you said, in retrospect after many years, it can be regarded as A wonderful memory.”

She was so sensible that she was almost decisive.

Sheng Jinshu had no face to ask her if she could give her some more time.

She clenched her fists and looked at Meng Wanji, her throat choked with pain, and she said, “I’m sorry.”

Meng Wanji couldn’t hold it anymore. She clearly knew that what she wanted was never her apology.

She stood up, took two steps, turned her back to Sheng Jinshu and said, “I can give you the bedroom.”

Sheng Jinshu said, “No, I’ll move back.”

Meng Wanji nodded: “Alright, it won’t be too long.” She promised: “I’ll leave after teaching this semester, and then this suite will only live in you.”

Sheng Jinshu was speechless.

Meng Wanji didn’t stop, and went straight to the entrance, carrying her bag and changing her shoes, and went out in one go.

Sheng Jin looked at the closed security door in a nerd, as if his whole heart had been gouged out with Meng Wanji’s departure.

Like a dream, they got together on an ordinary day, and then broke up on an ordinary day.

It seems to be a normal thing in life.

She was used to such a silent separation.

But at this moment, she still can’t come back to God.

She looked at the place where Meng Wanji had just sat. On the first day of check-in, Meng Wanji sat there and told her about the three chapters of the law. At that time, she felt that this woman was very beautiful and proud. How could she have imagined that this woman would sit there upright, with her pillow on her leg and the relationship with her. She watches movies together.

As far as the eye can see, this house and this living room are full of memories of her and Meng Wanji.

The real feeling fell to the ground, and the pain became more and more fierce to chisel Sheng Jinshu’s heart and Sheng Jinshu’s nerves. She forced herself to go back to the bedroom and do the right thing to do – pack up.

But in the bedroom and on the bed, there were Meng Wanji’s figure everywhere, Meng Wanji’s frown and smile, her coldness, her arrogance, and the tenderness and tenderness she only gave her.

She sat in the position where Meng Wanji was sitting when she got up in the morning, looking at the non-existent self who was still sleeping, imagining what she was thinking at that time, her vision suddenly blurred.

She reached out to rub it, but the tears grew more and more.

The heartache, reluctance and shame finally broke her down. She raised her head and covered her eyes and cried silently. She cried out all the pain and confusion after the death of her mother and teacher.

She no longer felt that life had no meaning, and it didn’t matter whether it was long or short.

She gasped, hugged Meng Wanji’s pillow and sent a text message to Shen Tinghua:

“Sister, do you have a recommendation from a thoracic surgeon who is good at removing pulmonary nodules? You can save as much lung tissue as possible and remove it cleanly.”