Green Tea is So Annoying - Chapter 60

“Okay. Let’s go, don’t be too nervous.” Xie Mingjun coaxed softly, she didn’t coax Dong Yin to open the door again, she could feel Dong Yin’s trembling voice and Dong Yin’s fear.

Xie Mingjun said: “Dong Yin, it’s okay, we don’t care about this, we are very happy to come here, if you feel uncomfortable, we will not come.”

She comforted her gently, fearing that the loud voice would scare the people inside, “I step back, I don’t see anything now.”

Xie Mingjun took a few steps back and stepped into the black ashes. She retreated to the side of the hut, Chu Ning’an sat on the luggage box, her hands on her legs and she was at a loss.

The three of them didn’t know what to do.

They were originally thinking about New Year’s Day and New Year’s Eve, how could Dong Yin be missing? The four of them should be neat and tidy, so they thought of giving Dong Yin a surprise, but I didn’t expect…

Chu Ning’an stood up, took back the suitcase, and said, “I have to tell her what I think.”

Lu Hanqiu called her and wanted to stop her, but she didn’t stop. Xie Mingjun lifted the suitcase and said, “Let her try it, maybe I can comfort Dongyin.”

“She…” Lu Hanqiu looked at the house and felt an invisible sense of depression. It wasn’t how the house was run down, it was Dong Yin who was 21 years old, she had lived here for 21 years, and the current social development…

Is there no one to help her?

Along the way, she also encountered such a house, most of which were unoccupied or used as a livestock shed, but she still lived here.

Lu Hanqiu asked, “Didn’t she tell you? Is that what her family is like?”

“I said, she said she was very poor and there was no one at home, but I think…” Xie Mingjun can be so poor no matter how poor, but after seeing it, she realized that Dong Yin’s life is more than she imagined A lot of suffering. After walking all the way, she could see that this place was poor, but she never thought that Dong Yin lived in this kind of house…

She looked at the courtyard, it couldn’t be said to be a courtyard, it was a wide country road, and those weeds should have been broken by the winter yin yesterday.

Yesterday, Dongyin still sent a message in the group saying that she was making weeds. Xie Mingjun was still thinking that it was good. You can still grow flowers and grass in Dongyin’s courtyard. Isn’t this a small country house? How could she think that the yard is full? Weeds can grow up to knee high.

Chu Ning’an talked a lot at the door, enlightened, coaxed, and said nothing, but she still didn’t hear an echo. She came back with her head down and she wanted to sigh, but she saw the hole in the wall.

The room is small and sealed, and it seems that only this hole can be peeped in. Chu Ning’an pulled Lu Hanqiu over to carry the stone over to tiptoe, and she said softly, “I’ll take a look, if she’s good, I can rest assured. If you really don’t want to. See us and we’ll go as if nothing happened.”

Xie Mingjun helped him, “Be careful.”

Chu Ning’an stood on the stone and looked in.

It was pitch black, and it was difficult to see clearly inside. Only this hole leaked a ray of light. She saw the old wooden table, gray, as if it had been used for decades, and there was only one box in the room, which was the only furniture There is not even a cabinet. Next to the box is a wooden bed. The wooden bed looks very old and seems to be covered with a layer of straw.

The suitcase that Dong Yin brought back was right next to her. She searched for a long time before she found Dong Yin. Dong Yin was not leaning against the door, but huddled in the corner of the bed, bowing her head and twisting her fingers tightly.

The scene is terrifying.

Chu Ning’an tilted her head.

Yesterday in the group, Dongyin also sent a message saying: “I’m going home, I’ve cleaned up my nest so beautifully, and the quilt smells like sunshine.”

The little nest she thought was the same as her hometown, or like a kitten’s nest, with warm quilts and soft beds on which to feel the hot summer sun.

The punch from reality smashed her fantasies into pieces. After she had a good relationship with Dong Yin, she felt that Dong Yin was very bright and hardworking, and felt that she had never thought she was so depressed.

Chu Ning’an got down from the stone, Xie Mingjun wanted to stand up, but was stopped by Chu Ning’an, she said, “Don’t look, let’s go back.”

“Huh?” Lu Hanqiu looked at her suspiciously. She said just now that she would bring Dongyin out of the house no matter what, and let her see the sunlight outside. Why now…

Lu Hanqiu went to see Chu Ning’an, tears in Chu Ning’an’s eyes fell unconsciously, and she didn’t know what to do, so she said, “I, I’m hungry, I haven’t eaten since last night, let’s go back Let’s eat.”

As she spoke, she looked up at the hole again.

Like an invisible abyss, living in darkness for a long time, the hole is not used for lighting and ventilation, but more like a struggle for her. Looking at the light that shines in, she struggles desperately out.

Therefore, Dong Yin has to study hard and run forward.

They sat for a while, and Lu Hanqiu agreed with Chu Ning’an, pretending that he had never been there, and that no one had discovered Dong Yin’s secret.

When Chu Ningan got up to pick up her luggage, she heard several squeaks in a row, the door seemed to be open, and she hurriedly turned to look.

Dong Yin stood at the door, pursing her lips, holding her clothes in her hands, trying her best to control her emotions, tears falling one by one.

“I-I’m here…” She was a little speechless, as if she had been stabbed in the eyes by the early morning sun, her eyes kept blinking, and then reflected a colorful halo, with tears in her eyes.

Chu Ning’an wanted to hug her, but she didn’t dare, for fear of hurting her.

Xie Mingjun walked over, rubbed her hair, and said, “Just be here.”

Dong Yin was still speechless, tears were falling, she pinched Xie Mingjun’s clothes and said, “…I have something to eat here.”

She just heard Chu Ning’an say that she is hungry.

Any coaxing or comforting words would only make her even more ashamed and hopeless, but for some reason she was afraid that her friend would be hungry, so she struggled and had to come out.

Chu Ning’an burst into tears and wiped her face with the tissue that Lu Hanqiu gave. She choked and asked, “I saw you eating just now, are you full?”

Dong Yin muffled her voice and said that she was almost full.

“I’m not very hungry.” Chu Ning’an said, “I was just looking for an excuse.” She was afraid that Dong Yin would run into that house again.

Dong Yin pressed against Xie Mingjun’s chest.

Listening to Xie Mingjun’s heartbeat, it was very sonorous, Xie Mingjun’s hand was tightly protecting her, Dong Yin’s nose was sore, she didn’t dare to make a sound, and let the tears finish.

When it was over, she wanted to talk, but she was afraid that she would be too hypocritical, so she said she was going to get something. She went into the hut and closed the door a little, and then desperately wiped away her tears to clean up her emotions.

Xie Mingjun clenched his hands, afraid that she would not come out after entering.

However, Dong Yin went in and took a clean handkerchief and tissues and came out. She ran down again with a bucket. Xie Mingjun didn’t know where she was going, so she tiptoed and looked down, feeling that Dong Yin had walked into a weed forest.

Dong Yin held something with an iron handle and pressed it a few times, and water came out. She brought the water over and asked Xie Mingjun and the others to wash their hands.

The water is warm and ready to go.

Several people washed their hands, Dong Yin pointed at Xie Mingjun’s shoes and said, “You wipe it.”

“Okay.” Xie Mingjun came over with a tissue and wiped the shoes clean.

Dong Yin looked at the three people in the courtyard, her chest was so tight that she was suffocating, she summoned the greatest courage in her life and said, “I’ll bring your suitcases in.”

Chu Ning’an didn’t know how to respond, she looked at Xie Mingjun, Xie Mingjun was wiping his shoes, Xie Mingjun nodded.

Dong Yin carried all three boxes into the house, and when she came out, she brought a red plastic bag, much like a plastic bag for rubbish.

She said, “I, I’m going to see my grandma on the mountain, you wait for me here.”

“I’ll go with you.” Xie Mingjun pinched the tissue, not knowing where to throw it, Dong Yin took the tissue and threw it into a sunken cement tank at the door.

Dong Yin said that the road may be difficult to walk.

“It’s alright, it’s all here.” Chu Ning’an said while sniffing.

Dong Yin went to lock the door, and she led the way with the bag in front.

They went down the **** above, and there were several other houses below. The doors were all open, and the houses were filled with people of different generations. They squinted when they saw them.

Someone asked: “Dong Yin?”

Dong Yin did not answer.

Several friends behind her did not respond.

“Who is it, why is there a man with black and white hair?”

Those fathers and mothers squinted their eyes, Dong Yin’s hairstyle was fine, the purple one could not be seen clearly, but Chu Ning’an’s black and white haircut was too obvious.

Chu Ning’an didn’t know whether these people had good intentions or bad intentions, and she couldn’t understand what these people were saying, so she put her hands in her pockets.

Walking out of the village, they passed a few ridges, Chu Ningan felt that the road was not difficult to walk, maybe Dong Yin was too inferior, and she was afraid that she would trouble them.

She thought so…

When they came to a small hillside, it was covered with dry grass. Dongyin walked in front and stepped on the grass, and stepped on a path that could barely pass people.

Then came to a grave.

They are still buried here, still burning incense paper, like a barren mountain that no one has jurisdiction over, allowing it to grow savagely, turning their heads to see that Dong Yin’s family is also on the top of the mountain.

The morning mist turned into dew, Dong Yin’s trouser legs were wet, she squatted and took out the incense paper and candles, the ground was wet, she still cleaned the nearby weeds, so as not to burn on the mountain.

The incense paper was lit a few times before it ignited.

Dong Yin kowtowed on the ground, her lips moved, maybe she wanted to speak, but she didn’t know how to say it. Xie Mingjun’s brows and eyes were lightly curved. She opened her lips and said, “Hello, grandma, we are Dong Yin’s friends. We came to play with her. I’m bothering you.”

“We are very good friends, hello grandma, my name is Chu Ning’an, I pushed Dongyin to dye my hair, so don’t be surprised.” Chu Ning’an said with a smile, and after kowtowing, she also pulled Lu Hanqiu A kowtow.

Lu Hanqiu also spoke, “Dong Yin is very good, she is very good at study and work, we are all learning from her.”

What do old people like to hear and what they say.

Tears snapped and fell into the burning incense paper.

The fire was out, and after kowtowing, Dong Yin said, “Grandma, I’m back.”

Xie Mingjun felt sorry for her very much. She was squatting, and when she was kowtowing just now, her knees got muddy.

Xie Mingjun didn’t care. When she didn’t see it, she said, “Don’t be afraid, we are all with you. Where are your parents, we will accompany you.”

She thought, Dongyin must be very sad to go to the three graves alone. Now that they are all here, they can accompany Dong Yin well, Dong Yin makes her feel so distressed.

Dong Yin held the incense paper in her hand, and there were several gold ingots in the bag. She lit it again, and threw them into the fire. After burning for a while, she said, “This…she is actually my mother.”

“Huh?” Xie Mingjun looked at her, not quite understanding.

Chu Ning’an tilted her head slightly, daring not to move too much, for fear of disturbing her.

Dong Yin plucked the incense paper, and people swarmed into a ball. She took a long time to say, “I was an abandoned baby. I was thrown away when I was very young. My grandma took me back from the train station. At that time, my grandma was already old. It’s big.”

She choked and continued to fiddle with the burning incense paper on the ground. Some of them were only half burned, and some were extinguished. Some of them turned to ashes. After crying for so long, some tears still fell, “Because it’s a girl, a country No one wanted it, I almost froze to death at the train station, grandma picked it up and raised it.”

The withered grass in the morning is frosted, layer by layer like candy that has been kneaded and cooled and wrapped in a layer of powdered sugar. If you lick it, your tongue will be cold and you will freeze yourself.

Her feet squeaked on it, and Dong Yin knelt on the ground to kowtow to the grave, which she didn’t know whether to call her mother or grandma. Friends around her also kowtowed with her, and their knees were soaked.

After the yellow paper is burnt, the incense burns out.

They put the fake flowers they bought on the grave.

Dong Yin wiped away her tears and made her face dark. Xie Mingjun took a tissue and carefully cleaned her. Dong Yin told her story in a very flat tone. She held a small stick in her hand and broke it a little bit. , a few friends, sitting on the hillside and listening quietly.

The warm sun rises in winter, Dongyin still feels cold, but not so cold anymore.

Dong Yin said that she was an abandoned baby. She was thrown at the train station two days after she was born. Her grandmother picked her up when she passed by the train station.

At that time, my grandmother was very old. At the age of 76, my grandmother had three sons, all three sons were married, and the eldest grandson had all of them.

Grandma took Dongyin back, but the family strongly disagreed and told her to throw the baby away quickly. Grandma didn’t agree. She had raised the doll at the train station for a few days, and she had waited for a few days, and no one wanted to pick it up. If you don’t take it back, you will freeze to death, or even be picked up by traffickers.

When she brought the child back, a war broke out in the originally harmonious family. Several sons and daughters-in-law disagreed. Who would take care of the child? Who will eat and drink when the old lady is gone?

The old lady’s original plan was to bring the child back to the third family. The third family has only one young son, so the burden is not heavy, and her third son has always wanted a daughter. If the third child does not agree, she will ask the third child to help the baby get a household registration, and then she will bring the child up and prevent her son from paying.

But the old lady made a mistake, and her third son didn’t agree at all.

The old lady was holding the baby, but she had no choice. After tidying up the original cow pen, she lived in with the child. The child walked from the village to the end of the village without milk, and the village did not go to other villages.

Anyway, after raising the child to one year old and able to walk, the third child did not know where to inquire about a family who could not give birth and wanted to adopt Dong Yin.

The family was in good condition, and they could still feed Dong Yin with cereal. The old lady brought the baby over there, but it was not raised for half a year. The family was pregnant and had to send Dong Yin back. The third child didn’t tell the old lady, The old lady went to the street to inquire about how the doll was doing, and then she heard others say that it was a good fart, she only fed rice soup, she was too thin, she didn’t wear two pieces of clothes, and she had frostbite all over her body.

The old lady went to see it, and tears almost fell. It would be better to throw the child at the train station, or wrap it in a thick quilt. The old lady brought the child back again, and since then she has never dared to give it away for adoption.

The old lady grows vegetables, raises cattle and pigs, and goes to the street on foot to pick up bottles and jars to sell for money, thinking that the doll will grow up to have money to study and clothes to wear in winter.

When she was three or four years old, Dong Yin ran around with her grandmother. Grandma wouldn’t let her pick up scraps with her. Grandparents and grandchildren lived happily.

Until Dong Yin was five or six years old, she had to apply for a hukou to study, and the third family still did not give up, for fear that the old lady would want to have a second child and give birth to a daughter, and she was even more reluctant to give Dong Yin a hukou.

The old lady had no choice, so she took her own savings and led Dong Yin, who had no name, to run around, begging for a relationship. The old lady thought about it for a month, and now the child is not happy with the previous name of Gui or Hua, and will be laughed at in the future. She saw that the words on the sign at the entrance of the police station were very beautiful, so she asked how to pronounce the words.

People say that it is a street sign, reminding people who come to be polite and not to step on the lawn, and read: “The grass is full of love, how can you bear to step on it?”

“It means that the grass is so beautiful and green, who would have the heart to step on it?”

“This is good, just call it Yinyin, Dongyin, and my surname.” The old lady touched Xiao Dongyin, who was waiting for her household registration, and said, “In the future, our Dongyin’s good days will come, and no one is willing to bully Xiaocao Xiaohua. of.”

Dong Yin didn’t understand anything, so she slammed the counter and hummed.

After she was registered, she was still called the old lady and grandma.

People in the village tease her with malice, what is grandma? You should be called Mom! She is your mother, Dong Yin, you have an eighty-year-old mother!

It is also malicious to say that the old lady, she is so old, and she is still such a young girl, is it possible that she was born with that wild man outside, can she live, and breastfeed her? Are you breastfeeding?

Dong Yin didn’t understand it at that time, and was yelled at by people to call the old lady’s mother. The old lady made her a schoolbag and said with a smile, “It’s enough to call her grandma, and you can’t tell people that I am your mother when you go to school. Does grandma know? “

Later, when she went to primary school, the old lady often went to see her at school and picked up some bottles and jars. Dongyin would also pick up the school’s bottles and jars in advance. .

One day, a child of the same age as her in the village had a falling out with her, saying that her grandmother was actually her mother’s business, laughing at her about it, saying that she stinks of picking up garbage, saying that she has an 80-year-old mother, a group of People want to isolate her.

Dong Yin was sad, but she was not afraid. She had a grandmother, so she still went to pick up bottles and jars, and told her grandmother not to come to school. She was afraid that others would laugh at her grandmother.

But grandma would still come to school. She brought a lot of beautiful roses to the little girls in the class. When giving roses, she let the little girls play with Dongyin.

During that time, Dongyin was very proud. She felt that she was different from other children. Her grandmother would come to send flowers to other children every day. Other children did not have such a good grandma, and many of those flowers had never been seen before. She From the textbook, I saw that roses look like roses, and they boasted that they were roses, and one was very expensive. The children are also very envious of her. Naturally, they think that what they have received are precious roses, and they save waste paper and bottles and jars for her grandma every day.

She was carefree and carefree as a child. Although she would encounter unhappy things, she turned her head and forgot, and would not be anxious and sad because of unknown things.

until elementary school.

Grandma is almost ninety years old, and the old one can’t walk anymore. She can’t walk around like before, and she can’t pick up bottles and jars, but she still uses crutches to feed chickens, ducks, and sell eggs. Sell ​​duck eggs to save money for Dong Yin.

Dong Yin knew early on that earning money was not easy, and the road ahead was difficult.

Grandma told her not to pick up bottles at school, lest her classmates would laugh at her, she would find a way, but Dongyin was not afraid, just laugh, she was just afraid that grandma was overworked and wanted grandma to enjoy herself.

The verbal violence and school violence in junior high school are particularly serious with the arrival of puberty. Dong Yin is very afraid. She often encounters them. When others laugh at her, she comforts herself that she is fine. She comforts herself and her grandmother to accompany her.

Reading, picking up trash, reading…

As long as you read the first place, there is a preferential treatment.

The teacher will not strictly ask her to eat breakfast at school, she can save a fortune for breakfast, the teacher will not strictly ask her to stay at school at noon, she can pick up bottles and cans, and the teacher will help her apply for subsidies from the school , as long as she is good enough, the school can also skip dinner.

She read, won a lot of awards, got a lot of awards.

It was the New Year’s Day holiday that day, so she thought about picking up some more bottles and selling the money to buy a lollipop for her grandmother to try.

She picked it up and picked it up. After picking up the good things, she ran back. The big dog in the village ran after her and kept barking at her. She was so frightened that she ran to the door of the house and watched a group of people talking around.

Dong Yin was very uneasy.

A villager turned his head and said to her, “Dongyin, your grandma is gone. Come in and have a look, your grandma’s eyes have been closed.”

Dong Yin walked over and stupidly wiped her grandma’s eyes.

She didn’t shed a single tear, and couldn’t cry. From knowing the news of her grandmother’s death to her burial, she hadn’t shed a single tear.

Since then, Dong Yin has lived alone. A person eats, sleeps, reads… A person does a lot of things.

The sun hangs above their heads, and the shallow sunlight cannot withstand the cold of winter, but it is better than never, there will always be a touch of warmth.

Dong Yin pursed her lips and put her hands on her knees. She was wearing black trousers. After a while, her trousers would absorb heat and be very warm.

The tone of her storytelling is very flat. When it comes to the stories of her childhood, she will be very happy. This is one of the few joys in her memory, and she remembers it very clearly.

What color are grandma’s roses?

Pink, one can grow quite big.

There are also gardenias, which can be tied into the hair.

“Very happy.” Dong Yin said.

It feels sad when it falls in their ears. They are very happy, so happy that they think that ordinary people in the world live like this.

It’s really absurd and unexpected.

Chu Ning’an couldn’t help but ask, “Then what are your grandma’s three sons doing to you?”

Dong Yin pointed out to them that there were two second-floor houses next to the small earthen house, “The white tile is the third son’s house, the red tile is the second son’s house, and the one-story house that entered the village is the eldest son’s house. Now they are not at home. Live, they moved into the city to live. Last year, they came back on Qingming Festival, and they probably won’t be back on New Year’s Day.”

As for what happened, Dong Yin thought about it, “They are okay with my grandma, but they will often accuse my grandma of raising me. When grandma is there, they will share some delicious food with grandma, and they will buy grandma’s clothes.”

“What about you?” Xie Mingjun asked.

Dong Yin said, “It’s good for me… it’s not bad. When I was a child, their children didn’t wear clothes, and they would wear clothes that they couldn’t wear to me.”

She has a good definition, and she feels good when others give her a bag.

Dong Yin’s voice was small, and she added: “Everyone says I have no conscience, and I don’t know if I have a conscience or not.”

“Huh?” Xie Mingjun was puzzled.

Dong Yin continued: “After my grandma left, they discussed what to do with me and how to support me. At that time, it happened to be for my grandma’s funeral, and they asked me to take two thousand yuan for the purpose.”

“Two thousand yuan! Where did you get the two thousand yuan? You dare not scold me for helping you. How old were you at that time, were you thirteen or fourteen? Let you live alone? Even if you were picked up by your grandma, you With their household registration, they have to take care of you and leave you alone. How dare you say that you have no conscience? They have no sympathy! They are too cruel!” Chu Ning’an scolded angrily, scolding Tears fell after scolding, “I’m so embarrassed to ask you for two thousand yuan, where did you get the money, even if you have money, you can’t take your money away.”

Dong Yin’s eyes were also a little uncomfortable, she took a breath of cold air, “At that time my grandma had some money, she sold all the cows and pigs, and saved nearly 30,000 yuan, she gave it to me.”

“Maybe my grandma already knew that time was running out, so she told me that the money was for my studies, clothes and candy for me to eat. Who cares if I want it, I can’t give it out. Even if my uncle asks me to tell me later If you want to buy her a coffin, you can’t even give this money.”

The old lady guessed right. Not long after she left, the three sons asked Dongyin for money. They calculated it very accurately. They calculated how much the old lady had. The three of them raised Dong Yin as their younger sister.

Dong Yin did not give it, not a penny.

“My grandma said that adults will not ask children for help. No matter how old I am, those who ask me for help and ask me for money are not good people. She also said that if I live alone in the future, don’t believe anyone and take good care of myself. Later, when my third year of junior high school was about to enter high school, my third uncle fell ill, and he asked me to borrow money. He said that he was going to get medical treatment. He said that if my grandmother was here, he would definitely take the money to treat him, and he also said that he would definitely Give it back to me. I didn’t give it. I took it to study. Later, he was sick for a long time. People scolded me for how long he was sick. He said that I had no conscience. If my grandma knew that I was so cruel, she knew that I had If the money doesn’t save her son, she must regret picking me up, and she must regret not strangling me in the first place.”

After Dong Yin said this, she was very anxious, she was afraid that Xie Mingjun and the others would think of her the same way, and before Xie Mingjun and the others could speak, she shivered and explained, “I also thought about giving money at the time, but there are The first time I heard them say that this money is what they deserve, and even the house I live in is theirs. The house was repaired by grandma. Grandma said that the cow pen was reserved for me… They wanted all my money and wanted me to go out to work, so I dared not give it. They took the money and I would not I was going to be rotten here when I got money to study, I had to go to work in a factory, and when I was old, they told me that someone would let me get married and have children. I was really scared at the time, especially scared. They asked me to give me money, while Let my two children go to the city to study. That money is what I use to study, I have never spent it indiscriminately, I use it as tuition, and I earn the food money by picking up bottles and jars.”

She explained a lot and closed her eyes, “I don’t know why so long has passed, but it still makes me sad to think about it.”

Xie Mingjun put his hand on her hair, rubbed her hair gently, and held her hand again. Dong Yin endured it for a long time, but she held back her tears, “Later, my third uncle got better, and he said he was holding back his breath and wanted to live well, just to show me what a person with conscience is. The family did well, he took engineering as his boss and moved to the city very early.”

How well the third family lived, how hateful Dong Yin’s behavior at that time seemed. People in the village didn’t like her, they thought she was a coward, and the three uncles slowly moved away and no longer cared about her. .

Of course, he didn’t care about her.

“Dong Yin.” Xie Mingjun looked at her seriously and said, “You are right, what your grandma said is right, adults have their own way, they have so many relatives and friends, they are not short of you at all. They don’t lack your 10,000 yuan. They just think that 10,000 yuan is deserved. They just take care of you because they are sick. These people are garbage. The normal practice is that even if they are sick, they should not worry about it. Your money, you didn’t burden them at that time, and they shouldn’t bother you. To put it bluntly, those people are selfish and really want to be nice to you. They should have given you a hukou in the first place, not your grandma. At an age, beg someone to put your household registration in your own name, instead of letting her be scolded in the spine.”

Chu Ning’an also said, “Yes, no matter what you did right or not, first of all, they didn’t do it right.”

Dong Yin nodded vigorously.

There are still many things that Dong Yin didn’t say. It was too detailed. It would be very sad to say it. She didn’t want to get caught up in it. She took a deep breath, then forcefully.

When Dong Yin encounters something, she will shrink herself, find a space to shrink herself, and then frantically comfort herself, comfort herself all the time, and dig herself out of the quagmire.

The same is true now. She is actually very sad and doesn’t want to tell others about these things. She knows that she is miserable, and she has comforted herself for so many years, telling herself that she can see the sun today, tomorrow and the day after.

She was very afraid that others would tell her, Dong Yin, you are so pitiful, why are you so miserable, listening to such words, she always felt that the good days would not come.

Over time, she was reluctant to tell anyone about her past, and when people asked her, she also gave a fake reply, ah, it’s like this, I seem to be quite poor, I seem to have been so miserable all the time.

It’s been too long, I almost forgot, I’ve forgotten, I was very happy, the hard days are over.

Actually.

She knew it clearly, but she couldn’t forget it.

From the moment she got off the plane, she turned her head to look at the landing plane, the familiar rural road in front of her, and the familiar green bricks and green tiles, and she knew that nightmares accompany her.

She really doesn’t want to come back here, but grandma is here, she has to come back, she can only pat the ashes on her body, wipe the mud on her shoes, and walk back in the best possible way.

Maybe.

Maybe someone else will say.

Wow, that Dongyin did the right thing. She got along well. Those relatives deserved to have a hard time. They knew why they were in the first place today.

She was not so calm at all, she was still thinking, very humble and cliché, she was going to kill everyone in all directions and trample everyone under their feet.

If, can do…

Dong Yin touched her face, resting her chin in her hands, and exhaled the air she had inhaled deeply. Then she won’t be followed by her inferiority complex.