Hakai Me no Yuuri - Chapter 36
Author: Kaburagi Haruka
Translator: s.h.i.+roiKaze/Soyokaze Translations
2nd Arc, Chapter 36: Becoming Self-Conscious
Authors Comments:
This chapter contains s.e.xual content. Viewer discretion is advised.
Winding back time a bit, we start this chapter the night before the ending lines of chapter 35.
Translators Notes:
And by s.e.xual content, the author means a brief bit of it at the start. Skip to the first break if you want to go past it (just hit ctrl+f and search ~*~). Anything after that is simply reference to something having happened.
Once again, as the author mentioned, this chapter starts out by fles.h.i.+ng out the rest of the night when Yuuri goes a bit uhh wild in the previous chapter. Enjoy.
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My masters body twitches and jumps. It splashes out up to my elbows and dirties my hands.
Once that happened, the emotional high finally came down.
Yes, I do realize what I just did.
“U-ummm”
Dammit, I only meant to hara.s.s him a bit I really overdid it though.
This is far beyond a simple prank.
Hes probably furious with me actually, thats not the problem, is it?!
Thinking that, I timidly raise my eyes to my masters face.
His body was completely exhausted, and his face was flushed. Fortunately, I couldnt see any anger in his expression.
However, he has an expression that seems to desire something more. I wonder if the rest of him feels that way?
And my body also answers to that desire my hand goes to his chest, and I bring my face close to his
“Ma ster Haster”
“”
My body covers that of my stirring master.
I get closer, to the point where I can even feel his breath
“Ah I-Im sorry!”
At the very last moment, I pushed my masters body away.
“I-I cant. If we keep going, then I cant go back anymore! Thats why”
“Yuuri”
“Im sorry!”
While saying that, I ran away from my master.
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The fountain at the city square. I ran all the way there, and was catching my breath.
My masters stuff is still on my hands.
With the horrible incident from 5 years ago, any aversion I had to it was already broken.
After all, its been shot into my mouth, and Ive even experienced choking to death on it.
Its just, theres only a feeling of discomfortbut when I thought about it being my masters, that discomfort wasnt there.
” Aum.”
I suddenly decide to try licking off the stuff on my fingers.
Just like five years ago, its fishy, bitter, and disgusting enough to feel like vomiting.
But, I really dont feel any aversion to it bubbling up. How strange.
“Cant go back huh”
While licking it all off, I reflectively spoke my own words again in contemplation.
My previous worlds body is currently a ma.s.s of minced meat.
Of course I cant go back.
“Even so I had that body for twenty-two years.”
It has already been five years.
I lived my previous life in that body, and had a family. I even had a few friends.
With the sudden accident, and this irrational reincarnation, I personally think Ive gotten by without any further problems.
But, to do that, the only thing I avoided was my death. Because to the people around me, I unquestionably died already.
“The police probably had a terrible time identifying me. The funeral preparations must have been a mess too.”
The scene from my final moments is still burned into my retina.
Its quite possible that it was a body-less funeral.
“Im sorry, Dad Mom”
I started thinking about my family, even though Ive been trying not to until now, and tears started overflowing, running down my cheeks.
I didnt think I would die before them. I definitely didnt think I would become a girl.
I felt like I had betrayed my parents, who raised me, in so many ways so I continued crying for a while.
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After crying my eyes out for a bit, I suddenly started thinking about myself from now on.
“Myself from when I was man my current self as a woman”
I cant go back anymore. So from now on, I must continue living as a woman.
I dont grow at all, so I probably cant even consider marriage and children But since I cant die either, Ill have to live eternally as a woman.
I wonder when it was that my male thoughts faded, and their discord with my female thoughts disappeared?
“Well, whether it be my enthusiasm as a man or my chast.i.ty as a woman, it was completely destroyed on the first day I reincarnated, wasnt it?”
Anyway, with these gifts its probably difficult to live as a woman. If I go out with a a man, then “Sacred Treasure” will end up killing my partner.
Can I even get pregnant in the first place? Of course Ive never menstruated anyway, and I feel like the effects of “Golden Ratio” or “Adaptability” would keep me from being able to.
This is the one thing that I cant just try out. Speaking of which, in the Trade City Lilith incident, after five days of action it still didnt happen, so Im pretty sure its impossible.
“I know that having children isnt a womans only source of happiness, but even with that in mind arent I a total failure as a woman?”
If I get together with someone, that person will die, I cant have children, and I cant grow older. Married life would probably be hopeless.
“I wont be a good match for my master like this wait, what does this have to do with my master?!”
Except I cant imagine any man other than my master. Someone like Alec doesnt count as a man.
There are hardly any other potential relations.h.i.+ps of that sort around me.
“In any case, Ive only ever thought of my relations.h.i.+p with my master as a very friendly grandpa and grandkid, or an indulgent father and child,”
I want to think that I just went a little too far this time. But
“In the first place, I wouldnt play a prank like that on someone that I dont like, would I?
Or do what happened afterward, either.
If this was my previous life, then I probably would have exclaimed are you gay?! and flailed around. But fortunately Im in a womans body now even though Im a child.
And if my master was a man who swung that way, then I cant deny that hes a real catch of a manand actually, looking at this from a womans perspective, that would make him even cooler.
“Huh, so in other words, I”
I wonder when it happened? Im sure its been this way for a long time
“I like my master probably?”
The moment that escaped from my mouth, I found my face immediately flushed.
I shake my head left and right vigorously, and with a gasp I noticed my surroundings a bunch of people were looking my way, making faces that look like they were being healed.
Lets imagine this.
Its a street corner at sunset, and theres a young girl whos licking her fingers while turning red, going pale, crying, and shaking her head, so
If you were there, then what would you do?
1. Get excited
2. Be calmed
3. Take her home
“What are you all looking at me calmly for, YOU JEEEERKS!”
For now I chose the option to leave them with an insult, and escape from there.
By the time I realized, my dirtied hands had been completely licked clean.
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(Alecs Perspective)
Its three days after the dragon was defeated, and Master seems kinda worn out. Is it because of the illness I wonder?
Yuuri said, maybe its because hes feeling refreshed?, in response, but she seems to be having trouble looking me in the eye?
And while that was happening, Master comes this way
“Uh, Yuuri. Umm, Id like to talk”
“Ah, Alec! Im going to go check on how things are going at the weapon shop, see ya!”
Well, rather than not listening, she was definitely running away. Its felt this way the whole time recently.
“What did you do, Master?”
“Uh, nothi aah, yeah. Nothing at all?”
“Frankly, when youre talking like that, its hard to believe that its nothing.”
” Well, I was just a little too forward.”
Master made the unusual move of falling prostrate. Is he seriously depressed right now?
“Its pretty unusual for you to fail at something, Master. It would be normal for Yuuri though.”
“That was an error. She probably hates me. No, theres no way she wouldnt hate me after that, is there!?”
“No, thats definitely not it.”
I think this teacher and student pair each evaluate themselves far too low.
I would expect the world to be destroyed before Yuuri hates Master, you know?
And I guess Master has held distrust for other people for a long time, so maybe theres no helping that.
“But that was wrong That was definitely wrong. Though some of it was out of my control.
“Seriously, what did you do?”
“You think I can say it out loud?!”
Looks like Masters going off the deep end. This is the only time Ive ever seen him this shaken up.
Well, as his apprentice, this is when I should mediate in their relations.h.i.+p I suppose. Ive gotta thank her for the other day anyway
“Ah, good morning! Sir Alec, mister Haster!”
“Good morning Marle. And remember, Im Albine right now.”
“Oops, Im sorry.”
“Morning, are you feeling better now?”
“Yes!”
Im glad shes okay now.
I give Marle a light kiss on the cheek, and then plan to chase after Yuuri.
Shes so cute when shes embarra.s.sed. Yep.
“Dammit, go explode!”
Master seems like hes really stressed out right now. Hes almost like a guy who just got dumped.
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(Yuuris perspective)
I said I was going to the weapon shop, but I know that the order isnt complete yet, so I ended up with nothing to do.
Well I decided to make the most of it, so while I was enjoying my morning walk, Alec caught up with me.
” and thats the why Im here. Master is seeming really stressed, so could you at least hear him out?”
“Im just shy about it is all. My prank went a little actually, doesnt he hate me?”
“Of course he doesnt.”
“In the first place, just thinking about talking with Master alone is frying my head!”
Leaving that prank set-up aside, I really think Im late in realizing this though!
Whether Im conscious of it or not conscious of it changes the significance of it in all sorts of ways.
“Yuuri, youre living with Master, just the two of you. What are you saying all of a sudden?”
“Please dont remind me. Im trying not to think about it.”
If I become conscious of that right now I wont be able to stop it anymore. I never had a girlfriend in the past, so I didnt think about it.
Certainly, the way things are right now isnt good. Master is a popular, so if I take my eyes off of him, then all sorts of people will get close to him.
Like miss Bella, or miss Bella, and also miss Bella just imagining it makes me really irritated!
“Urgh, I get it. When we get back Ill try talking with Master.”
“Im glad you understand.”
“By the way, Alec. Hows your body feeling? You havent felt bad since then?”
“Mm, right. Been in great shape. Ive even got enough strength to swing a regular great sword one-handed now.”
“Then I guess it should be fine to let Master use the blood about now.”
“I was the guinea pig?!”
“For Marles, take good care of it until she grows up, got it? Dont use it unless its an emergency.”
“Yeah, I get it.”
For now, lets confirm how things stand.
The members of Forest Bear used the blood as soon as they were cured of the illness.
Theyve been sulky because they want to test out their new strength. They want to head out of here quickly, but we cant depart until the scale equipment is ready after all.
For that job, I handed over a hammer with [Toughness] on it, and a knife with [Sharpness] on it, so the manufacturing is proceeding at quite the pace.
Also, those tools are not the types that can have their magic refilled, so theyll naturally break after a while. Im not going to let replenish-able enchanted goods out into the world.
After checking on the progress of things, Ill have my showdown with my master.
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Later on
“Master, Im sorry!”
“Ah, no, I was in the wrong.”
“You dont hate me?”
“Of course not. When you were avoiding me, I thought you hated me, and I was really anxious.”
“I could never hate you, Master, not even if heaven and earth went backwards!”
” tch.”
I could hear mister Bhav clicking his tongue, but Ill ignore it.
Actually, you had miss Bella taking care of you that much, and you didnt tell her how you feel? What a loser
Authors Comments:
Miss Yuuri, finally self-conscious.
Translators Snark:
Riajuu bakuhatsus.h.i.+ro!
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