Hakai Me no Yuuri - Chapter 38
Author: Kaburagi Haruka
Translator: s.h.i.+roiKaze/Soyokaze Translations
2nd Arc, Chapter 38: Feeling Alienated
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When we left town, we renewed our equipment.
First, scale mail, just like mister Jacks, for my master.
And the same armor for Alec. Also we purchased a great sword for him.
It doesnt have [Weight Reduction], but with Alec strengthened by the Blood, he easily handles it with one hand.
And last, I bought a dummy short bow.
It can also be thought of as a childs practice bow, but it at least has some killing power.
If used along with [Far Sight], itll have a fair bit of accuracy, so I should be able to use it in battle.
Since were so heavily equipped despite being luggage carriers, the members of Wild Horse were looking at us with curious expressions.
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“Haaa.”
“Miss Yuuri, youre sighing again.”
“Yeah, its just ait feels like everythings been solved but it hasnt reallykinda thing.”
“You and mister Haster made up, didnt you?”
“We did, but”
Yeah, when you think about it, things just went back to the way they were.
Ive become aware of my own feelings, but is it really a good idea to try making those feelings bear fruit?
By the way, were on the the third carriage, the large one carrying the sarcophagus, and its just Marle and I here.
Mister Elric is driving the first carriage, Forest Bear is acting as their escort, and my master is with them.
The second carriage is miss Leche and mister Peles. Their escorts are Wild Horse and Alec.
This third carriage is my personal responsibility, so theres no escort with it. As such, its carrying Marle and I, who were originally extra baggage.
And, as naturally happens in any world when two girls get together, were having some girl talkwell, even though I used to be a man.
“So? And? Did you have a make-up kiss or something like that?”
“That kind of thing is unnecessary between my master and I.”
“Then I guess Im a step ahead of you!”
“Wha?! I never thought Alec would go that far!”
“I was a sickly girl with an ephemeral ambiancewhich worked really well!”
“Marle you are frighteningly good at this!”
This girl is just getting worse these days.
Although, what I did is something that could only be called a hand job, so I guess I ended up jumping past her in certain ways.
“But Im sure mister Haster likes you, Yuuri. Though theres a big gap in your age.”
“The problem is on my end.”
“Miss Yuuri, do you dislike mister Haster?”
“Not at all! I love him to the point where I could request a second helping!”
If there were two of my master uhehehe Im starting to understand how the heroines in harem games aimed at women feel.
“Miss Yuuri, your face is rotting.”
“What do you mean its rotting?!”
“Lets put that aside In that case, whats the problem?”
“Please dont put that aside. The problem has to do with how my body works.”
“How your body works is this about gifts?”
“Marle, what are your dreams for the future?”
I also have dreams, but I really think I should ask a “real” girl about her dreams for reference.
“Lets see. Get married (to Alec)~, have (Alecs) children~, live in a small house (with Alec)~”
“I can hear what youre really thinking between what youre saying, Marle.”
What a sappy, lovey dovey couple!
You were such a pure girl when I first met you. Where did that girl go?!
“In my case, I cant even give someone a family.”
“Oh really?”
“My body is stuck in this shape. Basically, I cant get older. So Ill never have an adults charm, ever.”
“Is staying young a bad thing?”
“It means Ill always be a child. And if my body is that of a childs, then I cant have children.”
“Thats a problem.”
Though I do recall hearing about someone giving birth at age 8 on the news in my past life once.
“And even if I get married, I cant be a nighttime partner. You probably cant do that either.”
“Th-thats! I-I-I-I definitely cant do that yet!”
Ive physically experienced it plenty of times, but with the effect of “Sacred Treasure,” its as I said before.
Its only a question of whether Im the one who dies, or my partner does.
“Ill always be a child, and though I can love someone, I cant make love with them, and I cant have children. Do you think my master would take someone like me?”
“Im sure mister Haster would.”
“But, would he be happy that way?”
” uu.”
My master is going on 60. He probably wants children and grandchildren.
Of course there are homes without children, and people who cant have children, and Im sure they can be happy that way.
But to prepare myself to approach and push that on someone who Im not even going out with hell totally end up thinking that Im being way too selfish.
“Thats why Im so dang worried right now!”
Wis.h.i.+ng only for my own happiness, is it really a good idea for me to confess my feelings to my master?
Is there any way through this at all hm?
” Come to think of it.”
“What? Did you get a good idea?”
I may not have an adults charm, but could the charm from “Golden Ratio” serve as a subst.i.tute?
In which case, the problem becomes the danger of s.e.xual activity, and whether I can get pregnant or not As far as gifts that would inhibit pregnancy “Appraisal,” “Ageless body,” “Immortality,” “Peerless Magic,” and “Revival Growth” are definitely unrelated.
I stick my index finger out and wave it around to guide my thoughts.
“Which leaves “Golden Ratio,” “Adaptability,” and “Sacred Treasure”.”
“Wh-what?”
“And “Sacred Treasure” only gives pleasure, so thats out too. Which means the problem must be either “Adaptability,” which prevents abnormal status effects and allows me to endure pain, or “Golden Ratio,” which maintains my figure.”
At Lilith I kept “Adaptability” on, so did that prevent the status effect known as pregnancy?
Wait, I disabled it once didnt I? Then did “Golden Ratio” prevent my body type from changing to that of a pregnant woman?
“I can disable “Adaptability,” so maybe I really can get pregnant?”
“Really? Thats great!”
“Nah, as long as I have “Sacred Treasure” I cant do the deed, so in the end it doesnt help.”
“Awww~”
In my past life, there was a method for getting pregnant without any such activity. Something like in vitro fertilization?
Anyway, my blood strengthened master could manage to resist my gift if its only 30 minutes. Its a little fast, but it should be possible, at least. Right?
Be that as it may
“In the end, if I dont do something about “Golden Ratio,” then nothings going to happen.”
The charm effect from “Golden Ratio” can at least be sealed, so maybe the body maintaining effect can also be sealed.
“Next is the problem of ovulation wait, why the h.e.l.l am I so carefully thinking about how to get myself pregnant?!”
“Kyaaa! Thats dirty, miss Yuuri!”
“I dont even know if my master will take me yet”
“But you cant confess until you know if you can have children, right?”
“Its one of those chicken and egg problems.”
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There are 5 days left until we reach Solkalis. Today is at its end, so actually 4 days.
I tried making dinner tonight.
While practicing my bow, I took down a bird partway through, dressed it, and simmered it with our dried vegetables and fruits to make a stew.
Usually I would go to gather firewood, but when Im cooking theres no need for wood.
We have the light stones to see with, so theres no problems there.
First, I use a [Heat Ball] to warm the pot, and saute the bird meat in it.
I toss some freshly picked herbs in to add flavor, and take away the meaty smell. Once all that is heated through, I add the water, and toss a [Heat Ball] in to bring it to a boil.
Then I add the preserved vegetables, and let it simmer for hmm? Why is the meat disappearing?
“Agu, agu”
“Yig, no swiping food!”
“Agya!”
I scold Yig, who was sneakily eating some of the meat. With that taken care of, the meal is complete.
“Wow, thanks for the food little miss. Did that winged lizard help too?”
“Its Yig. Please, call him by his name.”
There are things called winged lizards in this world.
At most they grow to about 1 meter, and they arent particularly dangerous, so people dont usually mind them very much.
Yig is being mistaken as one of those winged lizards.
By the way, I dont deny that he is one, nor do I confirm that he is, so Im not lying about it, okay?
“Theres not very much meat in it because Yig was sneaking bites. Be aware that its not because Im being stingy or anything like that.”
“You could have just cut his tail off and added it to the stew!”
“If you cut off Yigs tail, then Ill stew your fingers, mister Ayl!”
While threatening mister Ayl, whos saying disturbing things, I serve the meal.
My master was having an aperitif and joking with miss Bella.
” Master, heres your dinner.”
“Ah, thanks Yuuri.”
“Today were having Yuu miss Yuuris cooking I see.”
“You dont need to call me miss you know? Since I look like this.”
This sight kind of makes my heart hurt.
An adult appearance that Ill never obtain. A body that can drink alcohol alongside my master.
The rest of the party members are relaxing wherever they please.
“It sort of feels like I shouldnt be here.”
I quickly finished my meal with Yig, then headed to the woods near the road to be by myself for a bit.
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Holding a light stone, I head a ways into the woods and, finding a small clearing, I crouch down and hug my knees.
Yig alights from my head and sits at my side. Is that a worried look on his face?
I lightly pet his head, let out a sigh, and lie down on my side.
The cool dirt feels nice.
“Its not like anything even really happened”
“Ukyu?”
Yig bounded onto my chest. While there, he starts licking my cheek.
He must be worried about me.
“I was thinking about all that stuff this afternoon, so Im just feeling a little down.”
About normal people.
About how abnormal I am.
I felt a “youre too different” sort of alienating feeling.
“Maybe Im being too fussy, minding something so simple. I never even cared a long time ago.”
Both I and others acknowledged that Im a sketchy character, and I didnt mind the gazes of others in the least.
So even when my employed friends ironically called me a NEET1, I didnt mind it a bit.
And yet now Im worrying back and forth about the actions of one person.
“The ground feels nice and cold, Yig.”
Maybe Im tired from the long journey? I feel like Im gonna fall asleep like this.
But that would make them to worry about me, so lets head back before that happens.
I lied there for a bit, and when I got my feelings back in order, I returned to the merchant caravan.
A late night walk became part of my daily routine after this day.
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Translators Snark:
Ahh, poor Yuuri cant even tell that her worries are probably pointless. Marle and Alec have taken the lead (sort of), just kiss him already!
And you can cut off As fingers Yuuri. We wont tell anyone. Protect your cute child/winged lizard!
NEET stands for “Not in Education, Employment, or Training”. A term often used derogatorily.
