Hellish Deep Love - Chapter 319

Maybe I took a gentle route before, plus we had little contact for several months, and Li Yan didn’t respond. He was stunned by the battle of starving wolves like me for a while again, and he held my hand at half a sound: “Chen Shi, don’t fool around, so we can get together and disperse

“gather and scatter you! Do you think I’m a boat with no requirements? You can get on and get off if you want? Anyway, you can even say so shameless words. Since you are shameless, you should be shameless together! If you want me to break up as you said last time, I’ll roll as fast as a snowball for you, and you’ll have a dream

I’ve successfully pulled down the three buttons in front of Li Yan while you come and I go. I find that once people have the cheek to throw away those worthless shyness, I’m just a good rogue.

tactlessly or indiscreetly rubbed his hands on his chest after Li Yan pulled his shirt down. I was more excited when I tore up the slot. My movements were even more serious. I make complaints about a slip at my feet. I threw myself on him. Li Yan was also unprepared. He was supported by inertia, and we both fell down from the sand. On the carpet over there.

There’s something under it. I’m a little dazed by the impact force, and I don’t have anything to do. On the contrary, I’m able to strengthen my dizziness and act recklessly. I went down all the way to remove all the buttons of Li Yan’s shirt, and then my hand touched his pants.

Li Yan stretched out his hand and strangled my hand. His voice was as vague as if he had just picked it up from the ground and covered with dust. He said, “Chen Shi, let’s leave a final dignity for the story between us, so that we can get together and disperse. Don’t make any more noise, OK?”

It’s like being pulled by someone with a rope to lead my heart into the dark abyss. I feel like I’ve been put into an empty balloon. My hand can’t hang down for a moment. I slowly pull it back. I turn to my side and put my hand on Li Yan’s arm with a little hesitation. I pat it gently: “turn your face to me.”

Like me, Li Yan was stagnant and hesitant. After ten seconds, he let me get what I wanted. He moved his body and turned around. His well-defined face was squeezed out of balance by the soft blanket. His voice was more transparent by the ashes. It was like a hazy mist in front of me, but it still puzzled me. He said:“ Chen Shi, I can only say sorry to you. I can’t control or change the fact that I don’t love you anymore. It may be that in the past four years, you and I have experienced different changes. You are not the one you used to be, and I am not the one I used to be. If we don’t have those four years, we can be with each other and witness each other’s ups and downs every minute, or we can accept each other’s changes that are driven by time more easily. But in fact, in those four years, we have each other’s fortune, even if it has nothing to do with feelings, but these four years have diluted my desire to have you all the time. Over the past few months, I’ve been facing you with guilt and compensation in my heart. It’s hard for me to put myself and you on an equal level. I’ve been pushed forward by the so-called obsession, even holding your hand, kissing you, hugging you, or even doing the most intimate thing. I think I’ve done enough rituals, and my faded feelings can survive. ”

With a slight sigh, Li Yan pressed his voice to a deeper level: “however, just like the fact that the withered grass can’t be changed by drenching it with more water, no matter how hard the remote feelings support and deceive themselves, it will never come back. Chen Shi, no matter you or I, we are not the kind of people who can make do with each other. We can’t live a life of making do with each other, so we can’t let each other go. As for Nian en, if you’re afraid that divorce will hurt your child, we’ll keep it from him first, and we’ll tell him that I’ve been sent out for a period of time because of work. We’ll let him know the truth when he gets used to my absence and grows up. Nian’en is a very smart and structured child. You are also a very tough mother. Even if you and I can’t continue our marriage, I will do my duty to the child. I believe these problems in our marriage will not affect nian’en’s childhood. And Chen Shi, I promise you, as long as you don’t find a stepfather for Nian en one day, I will never find a stepmother for Nian en ”

” you’ve had enough of Li Yan! ”

It’s like being swung into the eye socket with the palm of my hand. After the burning pain, the sour and astringent feeling kept surging. I drew back my hand to sink the back of my hand into the eye socket and kept rubbing it. I bumped those tears back and couldn’t find the exit any more. I coagulated Li Yan deeply and said, “Li Yan, tell me the truth, what’s the situation here?”

“No. There’s no third party, and I’m not in love with anyone. I just can’t ignite the passion of love for you. I don’t want to delay each other any more. ”

Frowning, Li Yan added: “I have never betrayed you. However, without love, our marriage can not continue. ”

“You’ve heard me!”

Some speechless choking, I said after a moment: “I’m asking you, is there something wrong with your body? I remember that you had a very serious nosebleed before, and then I said I would go to see a doctor with you, and you were not willing to let me go with you. Then you told me that you had deficiency of Qi and blood and increased deficiency of fire. You actually lied to me at that time? Do you have a more serious condition? Is it Qi and blood is empty what of, can affect certain function of male Li Yan, I don’t have to do that thing with you. Apart from that thing, there are many other things we can do together. For example, we can climb mountains, walk outdoors, and surf together ．””Where do you want to go! You watch too many TV plays! What paste is in my mind. ”

Li Yan licked his lips subconsciously: “I can’t do it, I can do it very well. There’s nothing wrong with my health. I just don’t love you anymore. If I say that I don’t want to delay you and make you think I’m hypocritical, I’ll take back those words. I’m more afraid to delay myself. I don’t want to pretend to greet you for the rest of my life. ”

Sitting up, Li Yansi slowly tied up the buttons of my clothes one by one. Then he calmly picked up his coat and put it on. He just picked it up casually, and then he restored himself to a jade tree. He stood up and said, “you pay attention to your mobile phone these two days, and my lawyer will contact you at any time.”

With that, he went up the stairs. He opened the top layer of the wardrobe and took out seven or eight retractable luggage bags. He began to collect his things like a robber.

Standing in the distance, I watched him for no less than half an hour. I walked over and said, “since I want a divorce, I want to break up before divorce. Don’t you think you can do it? Can you show me?”

Half a sound just looked up at me, Li Yan’s face gradually impatient swept repeatedly, the corners of his mouth moved a small range: “don’t let me hate you.”

I could have held back the tears, because this simple sentence, all out.

After seven or eight sweeps with the back of my hand, I finally forced these untimely fragility back and sank in my body. Then I stared at Li Yan: “OK, Li Yan, you want to fly freely, right? OK, I’ll give you time to feel your own heart. I’ll give you half a year to make it. No matter it’s day or night in half a year, you’ll make trouble I’m tired of it. You want to go home. No matter it’s windy, rainy, thundering or lightning, I’ll open the door for you as long as you want to come back. If you don’t have an umbrella, I’ll take you home even if I risk my life. Even if I return the desperate help you gave me in Aotai, I’ll give myself this punishment It’s an emotional buffer and explanation. After half a year, if you only spend one second and one minute, you will dream if you want to come back to my mother again! At that time, I will find a better figure than you, better looking than you, stronger than you, fiercer than you, gentler than you, more considerate than you. I won’t be a man like you who often makes me shed tears! I will educate Nian en well and call other men to be fathers. As for you, I will treat you as dead. I will treat you as a dead man that I have fallen in love with all these years. I only give you half a year. If you still want to spoil my friendship with you, I will immediately put you down and seek a new life of my own. ”

Holding back my tears, I went over and stood in front of a cabinet. I reached out and grabbed Li Yan’s neatly stacked clothes. I buried my face and shoved them into the luggage bag. I bit my lips for a long time and then opened my voice. My voice was hoarse: “remember, from this moment on, I only give you half a year.”

Li Yan, he was silent from beginning to end.

It’s like stretching out a heavy fist to hit only on the cotton. That kind of powerlessness makes me tired and fragmented. I feel that I’m like a Chihuahua whining, but I can’t get even a little response. I suddenly feel very boring.

Frustrated, I snuffed down all the sour, I turned to take a suit of sportswear from other wardrobe to the bathroom to change, I changed a pair of sports shoes, stepped into the silent winter night, I ran against the wind, faster and faster, those winds brought up by my running especially wantonly through the hall, my mind began to picture mottled, I think of me It’s really a little sweet, but most of them are grinding their hearts and bones.

So, the inner fatigue and anxiety become the most empty cry, they are trapped in the depths of the body to brainwash me, Chen Shi ah Chen Shi, if not, don’t force, let him go.

As a result, Li Yan has become the Guoba grain in my heart. It is difficult for him to be planed down and digested by me. In a short time, he has grown into my wound and scabbed constantly, deep in the night.

At three o’clock in the morning, when I came back home, wandering in a whole community and dying of ants, Li Yan had already left.

He is really a man with special sense of interest. He cleans up the mess brought by his packing. He cleans up the end of the scene as if it had not been overturned.

But no matter how much he can restore the environment he has disturbed, he can’t restore the life I was taken off track by him.

But what can I hate about him?

Before getting the certificate with me, he gave me all the money in his name, even if he needed to free that sum of money later, he finally managed to return it to me. Apart from giving me a short marriage that could not last more than a year, he gave me the material base to break my leg and arm for the rest of my life, and he even gave me a lot of money Let go of nianen’s custody.

He turned me into a rich woman with children, money and no husband.

This is the peak life that many women pursue.What else can I hate about him.

Looking at the photo wall that was once built by Li Yan, all the photos about him have been removed, and the hollows and hollows are left blank. Compared with the embarrassment of me at all stages, I don’t want to be set off like a fool by the photo wall for a minute. After I lost sleep in the second half of the night, I got up early in the morning to find someone to give me this thing Demolished, restored the room as if there had never been such a sudden thing as the photo wall from the beginning to the end.

However, I can spend some money to clean up all kinds of disadvantageous environment, but I can’t spend some money to clean up the unspeakable and difficult ravines in my heart. I urgently need to do something to clean up my own helpless.

She didn’t answer the video call to Meng Xiaoxiao. After I couldn’t find Nian en, I had to change my mind.

I went to the nearby building materials market and bought pillars, boards, iron sheets and some tools of different sizes. Then I went back to the flower and wood market and bought a pile of seeds.

When I got home, I began to clean up the semi deserted yard. I took out all the flowerpots and flowerbeds that I couldn’t use, and then arranged a new place for them. After I filled in new soil, I sowed the seeds of cabbage.

After a little busy work, I casually made instant noodles to fill my stomach. I began to pile up boards and iron sheets with iron nails again. It took me two days to finally clean up the yard to my satisfaction.

After planting all the vegetables and melons I bought, I took the rest of the boards to build a dog house. I went to the flower market again and bought some flower seeds to surround the dog house.

Looking at the yard that had been abandoned, I created a new situation, and my heart was gradually settled.

I thought, that’s it. Even if Li Yan doesn’t come back within half a year as I wish, I can rely on my hands to create a better new life for Nian en.

That’s enough.

I got a call from lawyer Li Yan the next morning. Then I received a property division agreement with a wide range of interests to my side, which included the dividend income of Baolun now held by Li Yan, and the donkey club made by Li Yan. Li Yan wrote in black and white on it that no matter whether he and I have their own fortune in the future or whether we have a new family, I can enjoy those profits 80% of the dividend.

This man, he is planning to leave me. He is leaving me in a way that makes it difficult for me not to bear resentment, but he is throwing money all the time. It seems that he is going to kill my heart in such a generous way.

In that case, I will play it.

After I signed the document and submitted it back, Li Yan’s new lawyer was polite to me. His name for me has changed from Mrs. Li to Miss Chen. He gave me a time to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau and Li Yan to go through the final divorce procedures and get the divorce certificate according to that time.

I promised them one by one, and they were carried out in place.

This morning, it rained sporadically in the gloomy world. I drove into the busy traffic in Shenzhen. When I was stuck in the middle of the road, I received Meng Xiaoxiao’s wechat. She sent me the flight schedule from Singapore to Shenzhen.

About, this is what Li Yan said. He will bring Nian en back to me.

I put my mobile phone back to its original position. I moved slowly with the slow traffic. When I went to the Civil Affairs Bureau, I was five minutes late from the appointed time.

Li Yan didn’t know whether he was pinching or arriving ahead of time. His face was obviously a little impatient. Although he didn’t say anything, he often looked at his watch and really didn’t want to beat it.

All the way was silent.

When we went to the small room where we went through the divorce procedure, the staff opened the marriage certificate we submitted. Such a kind-hearted elder sister may be in line with the process, or she may think that we are going to leave soon after our marriage. She thought that we are going to leave on impulse, so she said a few words: “I think you two have not been married long, and they both look very happy Right, how did you get to the point of divorce? You have to communicate more about what’s going on. ”

My mouth was like a stone tied to it. I sipped it tightly, trying not to make any sound for myself.

I’m afraid that as soon as I open my mouth, I can’t help peeling off and spreading the fact that I still can’t help hating Li Yan. I don’t want to show even a little vulnerability in front of him.

Finally, Li Yanying said, “let’s do it. Everything has been discussed.”

A few minutes later, Dahong’s marriage book was replaced with a divorce certificate with a steel stamp and returned to me.

Ha ha, my marriage road is only a year away. Before I fully display my talents to invest in this business, I took the lead in getting my diploma. I’m so lucky!

The palm of my hand touched the divorce certificate. After I laughed at myself again, my heart didn’t seem to feel so bad. At last, I could cheer up and break the silence deadlock with a semi relaxed tone: “in the future, I’d better call your child’s father. It’s grounded and not embarrassing. It’s just right for us divorced couples. You can also call my child’s mother In short, when you have time to come back to see the children, you can tell me at any time. “I think I have a special pattern and atmosphere. I’m more open-minded than the sea when I face a man who abandons me. However, Li Yan doesn’t seem to appreciate me so much. He frowns and his words come out of his mouth. I can’t wait for an ear photon to fan him to the wall.