Hellish Deep Love - Chapter 326

The brow wrinkled deeper, and Li Yan’s eyes were thick, which coagulated me: “didn’t you say that the children miss me so much that they asked me to play with them? Now you turn around and ask me? ”

I frowned, too. “Are you sure I said that?”

Taking out his cell phone, Li Yan twists and turns over the call record. He points to the record at the top of the row: “look, it’s my grandfather who called me and said you called me home.”

I took it.

He is Li Yan. When was he so stupid. His own grandfather came to him, that is, his own grandfather came to me. When can I be forced to do something with a hand, and let an old man do it for me?

could not tuck me, I looked at the bathroom for a few seconds. I decided that the year had not come out of the clothes well. My voice was cold in the air. “Grandpa called you. That’s grandpa calling you. You don’t want to put this hat on my head. Don’t make complaints about how much I like to see you.”

Maybe it’s a mistake. Li Yan didn’t take over.

I think he’s dumb for the time being.

I looked up at the wall clock. I saw that it was later, but Li Jianguo had not come back yet. I was worried that he was so old that he couldn’t bear to suffer. So I took my mobile phone and dialed him.

Li Jianguo told me that he had several friends. He was afraid that so many old men and women would come to my house together and I would not feel comfortable. He called people to Royal Bay apartment for tea and chat. He also said that Aunt Xi was there to take care of me and let me not worry. He estimated that he would come back the day after tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.

OK, I’ve got the old man’s routine. Isn’t he just cheating Li Yan to get along with me in the name of his friends coming over?

Is it difficult for Li Jianguo to think that no matter what conflicts exist between Li Yan and me, as long as we spend more time together, we can still turn the fight into friendship? He’s not afraid of us fighting and blowing up the house.

Oh, he’s not afraid.

Because he knew that as long as there was a year of grace, no matter how disagreeable Li Yan and I were with each other, how angry we were with each other, we would swallow our anger for the sake of our children.

Put the mobile phone back in my pocket, my heart seems to be a dead water, no waves, I did not continue to speak, just at this time, Nian en came out.

Although he didn’t mention his father in front of me these days, Nian en was very surprised when he saw Li Yan. As soon as he threw himself on Li Yan, he didn’t want to come down like that.

In the past, I just started to make handmade bags. I was also active as a living horse doctor. I posted in various forums. Besides Tianya Douban, I would also go to some mom forums. When I went up more, I would naturally see other people’s posts. I saw that Duobao’s mother said that she had to compromise for the sake of her children. At that time, it was really difficult for me to understand that state of mind, and I often read other people’s posts I feel that they are just trying to keep a relationship that makes them fall to the ground because they want to use their children as an excuse, and I have the same mood with them at this moment.

Looking at Nian en’s enthusiasm for Li Yan, I can only pretend in front of him.

I took a bottle of milk and poured it to Nian en, and I also poured it to Li Yan. I asked them to play downstairs, so I went up to take a bath.

This time, of course, I was looking for a serious Pajama, even a little too much, to cover myself up.

When I clean myself up, it’s almost eleven o’clock. I watched Nian en roll around with Li Yan on the sofa. I reluctantly held on and didn’t frown. I tried my best to say in a good voice: “Nian en, it’s very late. You should go to bed.”

Especially sticky nest in Li Yan’s arms refused to come out, Nian en holding Li Yan’s arm shaking: “tonight I want to sleep with mom and dad.”

Looking back on the dog blood incident that happened in the same room with Li Yan a few days ago, I suddenly became irritable and said with patience: “isn’t Nian en used to sleeping alone? Nian en is a very independent child

“you can’t treat me as a child just because I’m independent, sensible and considerate.”

Li Yan’s gene is better than blue. Nian en said with great sophistication: “be reasonable, mom. I don’t want to sleep with you every night. I haven’t seen my father for so many days. I miss my father too. I want to sleep with him, too. ”

… …

after choking for a moment, I raised my voice: “Dad and Nian en have a good sleep together. Let’s sleep in Nian en’s room.”

“That won’t do. My father is nianen’s father and my mother’s husband. I can’t let my mother sleep alone in order to occupy my father. How lonely my mother is. ”

This brush is very smooth. Nian en got up and came to me. He arched his head into my arms and said, “I’m going to sleep with my parents.”

Li Yan is already an old playwright. When the plot is so progressive that I can’t stand it, he finally starts to use his skillful and free lines. He has a deep love tone with my husband and wife. He says: “Chen Shi, since it’s rare for children to sleep together, what can you do for him. Now he’s just over four years old, and he’s willing to sleep with us. When he gets older, he may not be willing to be bullied or lured by you. “Lying trough, good people let him do, I this inexplicably become a mother who does not know how to love children?

Looking at Nian en yuan’s rolling eyes, I could not bear to put out the fire again. I reluctantly nodded: “that’s OK.”

When Li Yan went to take a bath, Nian en was still very excited. He was lying on the wide bed rolling around. He also came to kiss my cheek from time to time. He even put his arms around my neck and touched my eyebrows. This kind of intimacy from children gradually calmed my heart, and I slowly relaxed my mind.

He was too sleepy. Nian en couldn’t sleep more and more. He rubbed his eyes for more than 20 times, but he still couldn’t sleep. Finally, Li Yan held him on his shoulder, reached out and stroked his back, and then he gradually went to sleep.

When Li Yan put down the sleeping child, it was 1:30 in the morning.

I was so tired that I couldn’t open my eyes, but I didn’t feel sleepy.

Even if Li Yan is not pleasant to see, I’m really embarrassed to face a man who coaxes his child to sleep with patience and gentleness. I looked at him for more than ten seconds, and I got up: “otherwise, you can sleep in bed with Nian en, and I’ll sleep on the sofa.”

“I don’t care.”

Pulling the corner of his coat, Li Yan said lightly: “we are separated by this little rabbit, and we can’t touch one of them.”

What he meant was to let me sleep together.

But Li Yan is nothing. He doesn’t mind lying in the same bed with me after divorce. I have to be grateful and then do it? Can I offend me.

Face expressionless, I tried to control the tone with a little emotional color, I faint ran: “I sleep on the sofa.”

“Of course you’re going to sleep on the sofa, whatever you want. Don’t think I’d love to sleep with you again. But you’d better not sleep like that, or this little son of a bitch will get up earlier than you. When he sees that you promise to sleep with him, but he can’t, it’s none of my business to find fault with you. ”

Inside and outside is a kind of casual I look for bad luck meaning, but Li Yan wait for me to digest, he is cold: “don’t rush to the sofa, I have something to tell you.”

Looking at his serious appearance, I looked at him: “say.”

“so I promised the kid before what time I could take him to make cake and take him to Wutong Mountain to take him to the playground. I can spare just two days this weekend. I’m going to cash all that I promised him. It needs your cooperation with me. Otherwise, I’m the only one with him. He can’t see it. He won’t have too much fun. ”

It is estimated that these words have been brewing and rehearsed for a long time, and Li Yan is even more calm: “after fulfilling my promise to the little rabbit this time, I will become very busy. I may be three months, half a year, or even one or two years, and I will not be able to spare time to accompany the little rabbit. You have to work harder. If you need any help, you can find Wu Haian, Gao Gao or Cheng Huanhuan, or even Zhou mingxiong or Lin Shenghao. You can find any one of them. As long as they can, they will give you 100% support and help. ”

Hard taut do not give brows together twisted into a wrinkled ball, I pretended to understate: “Oh.”

When his eyes fell on my face for a moment, Li Yan leaped and said, “the wedding photos we took before are coming out. Well, you took a lot of single photos at that time, and you and your brother and sister-in-law, nian’en and Da Jin Xiaoxiao, all took group photos. I’ll sort out all these photos later and give them to you. How do you deal with them depends on you. ”

I sniffed, and I gave a, uh.

Or by my sudden indifference, Li Yan suddenly closed his hands and rubbed them. He was silent for a few seconds, and his voice sank in vain: “I’m sorry.”

Although in Li Yan’s voice, only words are naturally lightened as they go to the back, it is like a restless stick, which turns my originally pretended calm heart upside down. The most unpromising thing for me is that even if I want to fight with this man a second ago, he just needs to lower his posture a little bit, and I will be happy At a loss, the tension of the gas, also disappeared.

“Nothing.”

When I got up, I crumpled the wrong part in the tune and said, “tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, I will try my best to cooperate with you and play a good role in front of Nian en. As for whether you are free to come back to accompany nian’en later, you can communicate with him by yourself. If you communicate with him well, you don’t need to explain it to me. He is my child. I’m willing to work hard for him. You don’t need to think it’s a debt to me. ”

When I got out of bed, I rubbed my eyes, which became extremely sour and bitter. I quickly moved to the cupboard and tried to pick out a quilt. This thing actually dropped the chain for me, and it stuck on the edge of the cupboard. I was so hard that I was swung back by inertia that I staggered a few steps. I was about to go forward and continue to fight. Li Yan came over without saying a word. He relied on his strength and he was very strong After three or two, he picked out the quilt and held it in his arms: “you sleep with the child, I sleep on the sofa. I know better about waking up. I will go back to bed before the child wakes up tomorrow.”

Well, he looks like a man.

I won’t be polite to him any more. I should say, “OK.”I lay back on the bed and covered the quilt. Li Yan also covered the quilt. He took the initiative to come over and turn off the light. Then he fumbled through the dark and went back to the sofa.

After the tiny sound of lifting the quilt, Li Yan didn’t make any more sound.

But I can’t sleep in the quiet all night.

I was afraid that turning and turning the quilt would make nian’en get cold. I stuck to my original position and didn’t move. I kept my eyes open against the night until 4 a.m. when there was a slight noise in the city, I was attacked by a strong sleepiness. My eyes were intertwined in my dream when I dozed off.

In my dream, I went back to the year when I hugged Li Yan and watched the sunrise of meishajian. He stretched out his long arm to encircle my waist. The burning heat on his cheek made me feel that the cold winter would pass, and the pouring sunlight hit my eyes naked. Before I could close it, I was dazzled by the dazzling brilliance, which made me feel happy Before I completely realized what I wanted to be in my dream, I felt that Nian en turned over and his quilt fell from me. I woke up and opened my eyes.

However, before I could dispel the astringency and bitterness of my eyes in my drowsiness, Li Yan’s face suddenly bumped into my eyes. It was just a few seconds of four eyes facing each other. Because I was so close to his face, we were all very cramped.

It was another moment of stalemate. Li Yan took the lead to move his face away. He recovered to a calm appearance. He still came around his waist and overturned on my body. He was only ten centimeters away from me. He shook the quilt to cover Nian en. He said lightly: “Nian en kicked the quilt, I covered him.”

All around, there was still a heavy night.

Loneliness covers me.

With a change of mood, I turned over and faced Nian en. I put my hand on his shoulder.

Li Yan didn’t want to go around to the other side and go up from the edge of the bed. He naturally got into the quilt. He extended his hand more enthusiastically than I did to completely encircle Nian en. He said, “it’s dawn soon. I’ll come to sleep to avoid oversleeping.”

In order not to press Nian en, he adjusted the position of his arm several times. Slowly, his arm and my hand were intertwined.

In the end, of course, there was No.

However, only a little distance of one or two centimeters apart, the heat from Li Yan seems to be able to run into my body. It seems that I can find a stove with a booming fire.

It was so cold this winter that I didn’t move my hand at last.

Then, until dawn, when Nian en woke up, I never fell asleep again.

Li Yan went to buy breakfast. When he went out, Nian en said that he would stick with him. He let Nian en lead the bun and he led Nian en. They walked into the cold and clear winter sun with a dog. Their shadow was dragged for a long time. I stuck it to the door and watched it all the way. I felt a lot of loss in my heart .

Among the breakfast Li Yan bought, there were prawns that I particularly liked to eat, and there were corn horseshoe dumplings that Nian en particularly liked to eat. The hot tofu flowers also gave off a sweet taste in this seemingly warm morning. The smell of fried dough sticks kept fluttering in my nose. Then there was Nian en’s happiness and satisfaction wrapped around my knee. He called Dad quickly No matter who he is calling me or Li Yan, as soon as he opens his mouth, it will only increase my heartache.

How I hope that this kind of life that makes Nian en happy is the normal life he can have.

It’s a pity that I can’t be a harbor for him to live in. I don’t know where Li Yan’s course is going.

after breakfast, Li Yan asked in particular democracy whether he wanted to make a cake first, or climb Wutong Mountain or go to the amusement park. In

, he chose to go to Wutong Mountain.

Without saying a word, Li Yan immediately ran to the room where the outdoor equipment was placed. In a short time, he packed up the things he was going to bring.

One hand was holding me, the other hand was holding Li Yan. Nian en was very happy. He didn’t need us to hold him all the way up the mountain. He climbed down the mountain with his legs.

But he was really tired. After eating at home, he rubbed his eyes and said he would go to bed before nine o’clock.

Of course, the little bunny touched my bedroom. He yawned when he lay on it. He had to hold on to it and remind me that Li Yan and I should sleep with him if we can’t have one.

In line with Li Yan’s intonation, I waited for Nian en to fall asleep. I was about to take my clothes to take a bath. Li Yan said coldly, “I didn’t have a good dinner. I’m a little hungry. I want to go out and buy some barbecue and beer. Do you want to eat it?”

Forget it, I hate him for not giving me the chance to hug him and kiss him. He is the father of the child. I don’t have to go all the way with him.

There’s no need.

After thinking about it, I said, “yes, AA. Wait a minute. I’ll get you 200 yuan When the corner of his mouth was raised, Li Yan didn’t know the meaning of it. His smile was shallow and cold. He said faintly, “no need.”I’m afraid to wake Nian en up. Li Yan is used to being a thief when his child falls asleep. His step downstairs is very light, but it still strikes me like a drum.

I went downstairs to add some drinking water to the bun, and then I watered the dry soil. Under the flickering light, I suddenly found that the seeds I had sown a few days ago began to grow bright green. I looked at these tenacious vitality in the dark, and I easily thought of one day for many years, At that time, Li Yan and I didn’t know each other very well. I asked him to pick some vegetables in his yard to make rice for me. He completely ruined all the cucumbers and tomatoes in my yard.

, when he was make complaints about me that day, his smile was brighter than the stars.

However, the days that have gone far away, even if it is ever new in memory, it can never be reversed.

I shed tears again.

Of course, I don’t know whether my sudden affectation is a sigh for the time gone or a respect for the life beyond recognition.

Whatever. Whatever. I’m confused.

After pouring water out, I just met Li Yan carrying a pile of barbecue boxes and a big bag of beer back, he put on the tea table, he waved to me: “come here to eat.”

I answered and sat down. Li Yan had already unscrewed a can of wine and handed it to me: “this is not too cold. You should drink this.”

Like a pig without any requirements, I silently accepted Li Yan’s feeding. I took a big mouthful of it and said, “thank you.”

Li Yan opened the packing box and spread out everything. Finally, he shook the Cantonese herbal tea in the corner of the box and said, “after eating, drink some more herbal tea.”

I didn’t say a word. I just killed the bottle of beer in a row. I picked up another can and pulled it open to my lips.

At this moment, Li Yan’s words are not consistent with his original intention. His polite meaning is very strong: “next, it’s hard for you to take the children.”

Listen, this kind of topic, more let people feel insipid, more let life without love.

I might as well drink more and drink more to save my life.

Indifference, I grabbed a few strings of beef and stuffed it into my mouth. The spicy meat fell into my mouth and choked into my trachea. I coughed inevitably. The more I coughed, the more severe I coughed. Finally, I needed to draw several paper towels to cover my eyes, so as not to cough up tears.

He brought me a bottle of mineral water. Li Yan opened it and handed it to me. He said, “Chen Shi, I’m sorry.”

His tone is shallow and weak, just like the leaves falling in the cold winter, which can’t be sustained by the wind and rain. Every word rolling in my ear is a king bomb, which makes my heart full of scars.

“It doesn’t matter. You’re sorry. I have too many places to go. Not so simple a few words, can smooth those potholes

My mouth was so fierce that I didn’t want to fall behind, but I still couldn’t bear to see Li Yan’s low brow and low voice. I choked my voice: “I forgive you.”

“I’m really sorry for you. I’m 23 years old. I’m young and ignorant. I’ve noticed you at 18. I’m 28 years old. I’m proud. I’m 23 years old. In the same year, I was blinded by lard and hurt you who were 23 years old. Later, when I met you at the age of 32 and 27, I thought I was still the 23-year-old who could become your haven with enthusiasm. But sorry for Chen Shi, I can’t do it. I overestimate myself. I always thought I was standing high enough to control everything, including the rest of my life. However, people are very small. No matter how successful they are or those who need to struggle and wallow in the mire of life, they will have their own troubles and lose control. So do I. I can’t control my heart. ”

After a sudden analysis of affectation, Li Yan lowered his voice: “if there is an afterlife, when I meet you again, if I still pay attention to you as I did in my whole life, I will restrain myself. I will not make your life a mess any more.”

“Don’t say sorry again. Don’t say sorry to me again. ”

To tell you the truth, I was suddenly put on the art shelf by Li Yan. This kind of roller coaster like ups and downs made me feel even more depressed. I just wanted to quickly end the atmosphere that caused me discomfort. I said, “in the future, you and I, for the sake of our children and respecting the more than ten years we have been entangled with, we will put down all our swords and pull out our crossbows, just like half a sword If you get along well as a friend, don’t contact if you don’t see each other, because when children meet together, there will be peace. Just like half a friend, it’s not salty, not far, not near. ”

His brows coalesced. Li Yan raised his face and looked at me for a while. He spoke slowly: “after tomorrow, we should not meet again.”

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