Hellish Deep Love - Chapter 327

It’s like being stabbed with a knife in my heart and then stabbed back and forth. I need to straighten my back to avoid being brought into a pitiful state by the released air. My eyes blinked several times in a row before I could hold a silent posture: “hmm? What do you mean

“These days, I have a deep reflection on myself. I often wander in your life circle with Nian en, which is not conducive to your new life.”

“So I think it’s best that we don’t meet again in the future. Nian en can contact me. When does he miss me? He wants to see me. I’ll ask Wu Haian or Gao Gao to come and take him out to see me. I won’t come to your house again. Chen Shi, you have to let yourself go and start a new life. The so-called half year period, I don’t take it seriously, you don’t want to be trapped by it, one day you want to really meet a man who is very good to you, he can give you positive guidance, he can take special care of you, can take nian’en as his own, then you

“it’s my business.”

After drinking the last drop of wine in my hand, I put the wine can on the tea table and stood up: “I don’t know what’s going on. The wine is so bitter that I won’t drink it. I’ll take a bath and go to bed.”

No suspense, I ordered himself to lie in bed, I began to endless insomnia.

Maybe I’m going to be an immortal. I didn’t sleep for two hours all night. The next day I could go to the amusement park with me and dance all day. When I came back in the evening, I could make cakes together.

I didn’t notice the sadness between Li Yan and me. Nian en was very happy from the beginning to the end.

That’s enough.

As long as Nian en is happy, my performance is worth the ticket price.

The night is deep.

When nian’en washes out, Li Yan covers him with a blanket. Their father and son are sitting on the sofa. Li Yan shakes nian’en like a tumbler and makes him giggle. He waits for nian’en’s laughter to stop. He is serious and tells nian’en that he may not go home for several months because of work needs. If nian’en wants his father, call him .

It can be seen that Nian en has been hit by the news, but he is really considerate. Instead, he hangs his small arm around Li Yan’s neck, making him pay attention to rest no matter how busy he is.

Anyway, it was almost ten o’clock before Li Yan took the yawning son back to his room.

Maybe he didn’t see his father for a long time. Nian en was also very strong. When he was so sleepy, he said that if he refused to sleep, he would not sleep. He insisted on holding Li Yan to read him a story book.

I sat outside the hall, listening to Li Yan’s voice, reading some particularly lively fairy tales, my heart was boundless.

Half an hour later, Li Yan came out of the room. He turned and went upstairs to the bedroom to pick up his laundry. When he came to the entrance, he seemed to remember my existence. He turned around and said, “good bye, Chen Shi.”

Two hands intertwined, I stood up and went forward, I subconsciously tilted my head: “Li Yan, are you ok? Are you in any trouble? Physically .

“No.”

Crisp cut me off, Li Yan old saying again: “goodbye.”

He quickly opened the door and went out. He jumped into the night. His shadow was rubbed on the ground by the street lamp. In my eyes, it was fragmented. I wanted to catch up with him, but Nian en, who was sleeping in the room, made me hesitate for a few seconds. I reflected that Li Yan had turned into another fork in the road and never saw him again.

The more I held the edge of the door, the more I felt the chilling cold. I stood in the same place and was blown by the cold wind for a long time. I was so dizzy that I went back. I fell down on the sofa and couldn’t get up for a long time.

However, the collapse of adults, especially those with children, even needs to consider the consequences.

So I can no longer focus as before, wail a happy, with tears to wash the way and the past completely farewell.

What I can do is, I take a bottle of red wine from the wine rack at will, I open it, I even have to carefully consider how much I drink, I finally drink two small cups, and then I stagger into the bathroom with a little drunk, I am torn by alcohol, and as soon as I grasp the shower, I let the water splash around and cover my head.

No matter how heroic and tall the hot water system is, the water it comes out of in winter is still icy, so I finally find a reason to cry.

Well, the damned water is too cold, cold through my heart, but I really don’t have the ability to compete with it, I can only be bullied by it silently to cry, I can only keep falling tears, let it into one and rush away.

However, I still can’t grasp this opportunity wholeheartedly to completely vent my emotions. I’m afraid I’ll be locked in. If Nian en or a dream wakes up and he can’t see Li Yan and me, he will panic.

When I got dressed, I went back to Nian en’s room. I sat on the edge of the bed and looked at his quiet sleeping face through the light reflected from the floor. My heart was filled with sadness and joy.Even if I didn’t have a good rest, I still made breakfast for nian’en early in the morning. I was not in a good mood. The millet porridge was a little sticky, and I hated it very much. But nian’en, a little angel sent by heaven to make up for the ups and downs of my life for more than 20 years, was very popular. He ate two bowls in a row, and his expression was full of enjoyment from beginning to end.

When Nien en was sent to kindergarten, I came back home with heavy head and heavy feet. I should have fallen on the sofa and slept in the dark as I planned on the road. However, as soon as my feet touched the corner of my home, I stepped into the place where I was very uncomfortable many years ago. At this moment, I felt sleepless.

So I turned on the computer, ready to improvise, draw what picture into a real object, as is to practice.

Before opening the drawing software, I used to log in to the mailbox first. Suddenly, I saw Tan Xing send me an email with a large attachment yesterday. I opened it and found that there was no suspense. It was the new project cooperation agreement that Li Chun had agreed with me not long ago.

OK, although I got in touch with her, Tan Xing showed me a clear way with fierce operation, which made me grasp the valve that can control Zhao Xianxing. I also believe that she is a very capable brush in Li Chun’s mouth, but this agreement has more than 30 pages of content. Even if Tan Xing has a pair of claws, she can’t be in such a short time That’s it.

There is no doubt that this agreement has been completed in the first place.

In this way, Li Chun’s so-called celebration, inviting me to participate in his new project, is all premeditated.

But it’s up to him.

If you think about it, Li Chun’s direction is not without a head.

For example, in today’s world, how many people are pursuing special pursuit of being different, and those rich women, although they have LV Hermes, even if they buy limited edition, they still have to compete with people in the same circle with her. If they can hold the only one, if they still add the only one they like and feel, maybe they can really open their willful wallets.

It doesn’t matter if the project is not as easy to carry out as I thought. Anyway, I can’t die of hunger now.

When I started to work, Tan Xing wrote to me solemnly in his email that this is the first draft of the agreement. I’ll go over it first. If I have any objection, I can mark it out. We’ll make an appointment to negotiate later.

After a rough look, I found that this agreement is different from the previous harsh restrictions on me. Here, the noodles are more balanced in all aspects.

However, I didn’t dare to give back the past so carelessly. Instead, I replied an email to tan Xing, saying that I would contact her after I read it carefully.

After a busy circle, I saw that it was almost eleven o’clock. I didn’t know what happened to Li Jianguo. He didn’t tell me. I called him.

I also had a good time. As soon as I dialed the phone, I saw Li Jianguo walking towards the door accompanied by the driver. I quickly put down my mobile phone and opened the door to welcome him out.

Still holding a cell phone with a bright screen made by me, Li Jianguo was puzzled and said, “Xiaoshi, what’s the matter with you calling me?”

“It’s OK. I just want to ask my grandfather when you’ll come back. I’ll see how to cook and how much.”

Nodding to the driver, I helped Li Jianguo over and continued: “I didn’t see you coming back just after I called, so I left the phone. It’s windy outside, Grandpa. Come in quickly. ”

Sitting on the sofa, Li Jianguo put his crutch aside. He raised his face slightly. He said coldly: “where’s Xiaoyan? Is he at home these two days? ”

“Yes.”

After that, I realized that my answer was too brief and perfunctory. I was also worried that Li Jianguo would dare to get along with me and Li Yan. I quickly followed the conversation: “he made an appointment with nian’en Du. When he finished his work, he would take nian’en out to play. They both made an appointment. Grandfather, Li Yan has been working a lot recently. You can just let their father and son tell you. Nian en, he’s missing his father. He’s sure to ask Li Yan to come back. No matter how busy he is, he’ll find time to accompany his children. Don’t worry about how he gets along with his father and son. ”

Li Jianguo probably understood what I said. He pressed down his eyebrows. He put out his hand and patted me on the back of my hand: “Xiao Shi, grandfather is not a meddler, but he is worried that you will be wronged. At the beginning, I was not willing to let you enter Lao Li’s house. It was ok, but later, I raised my hands for you. I boasted in front of your brother that you are a member of my own family. I’m afraid I don’t mean what I’m talking about. I can’t do anything to help my family after they suffer a lot of leisure. But if you don’t do it in the future, you’ll be as happy as you can be. ”

“Thank you, Grandpa.”

After taking a look at the time, I still wanted to stop when it was good. I immediately pulled away from the topic. I said, “it’s almost time for dinner. Grandfather, you can take a rest at home. I’ll go out and buy some dishes to cook.””Don’t cook. Your hand is not the one with pots and pans. It’s not that Lao Li’s family can’t afford to eat. How could the angel call you to come to the kitchen with a pen and ink? I have nothing to do these days. I found a private dish maker near the community. I ordered a meal for two months first. Besides breakfast, Chinese food and dinner will be delivered regularly and quantitatively. Don’t worry about cooking for me in the future, just follow your work rhythm. If you have to wait on me like a baby sitter for three meals a day because I live here, I’m sorry to be cheeky again. ”

The body is slightly right, Li Jianguo slowly grow up: “small ten, I actually have a thing, want to sum up with you, but I don’t know how to open this presumptuous mouth.”

As soon as I heard Li Jianguo’s words, it revealed that what he was about to say was very big. My nerve line was tight again. I held my breath a little to keep my voice stable: “grandfather, just say it casually, you don’t need to be restrained.”

“That’s right.”

Li Jianguo said quickly: “I think you already know that Xiaoyan’s father and Tan Xingyu have a son. Let’s put it this way. Although I don’t agree with Xiao Yan’s chaotic style of private life, I won’t interfere in the future whereabouts of Xiao Yan’s father and Tan Xing. But Wenwen, after all, is the blood of my old Li family, which I can’t erase or ignore. I have the idea that if Wen Wen can recognize his ancestors, although he is separated from en en by generations, these two children are of the same age, and they can grow up together. In this way, even if you and Xiaoyan don’t put the second child on the agenda for a while and a half, en en’s childhood won’t be so lonely. If Tan Xing doesn’t want Wen Wen to recognize his ancestors, then I can’t ignore this child. He is the blood of my old Li family after all. I won’t let this child come empty and have nothing to grasp. So no matter whether Tan Xing is willing to let Wen Wen return to the old Li family or not, I will readjust my property distribution. I want to give Wen Wen 10% of the share originally given to en en. In my grandfather’s heart, en’en is my great grandson, and I love him most. But no matter how confused and complicated the relationship between adults is, Wen Wen is just a child. I can’t treat him differently with the rules of right and wrong between adults. I can’t give him nothing. Small ten, I hope you don’t mind my grandfather’s overthrow of the agreed property distribution and readjustment. Xiaoyan, he’s hiding Wenwen so well. It’s only in these days that my grandfather knows something about it. ”

To tell you the truth, although Li Jianguo called at home not long ago to talk about the details of property distribution, I had no idea from the beginning to the end how much he would give to Nian en, and I didn’t want to go into the details. Now I heard that Li Jianguo was so sincere in discussing with me, and I was even at a loss. I said, “grandfather, everything you have in your hand is all your work Yes, how do you want to distribute it? Just follow your idea. I don’t have any opinions

“Grandfather knows that you are a child with special pattern and atmosphere. Because of this, grandfather should respect your wishes. Xiao Yan’s father has divorced Xiao Yan’s mother. As far as I know, he won’t have a second marriage. Xiao Chun’s side is unreliable. He’s old and big. He doesn’t know how to find a reliable one to start a family. You’re the only hostess of Lao Li’s family. I have to tell you about this. ”

Li Jianguo’s face gradually showed light embarrassment, and his words changed: “in fact, little ten, my grandfather wants to ask you. I think you are closer to tan Xing these days. Can you sell my face to my grandfather and help me convey my idea to her? I’ve always been against her. I don’t want to talk to her about it. I’m afraid that if I don’t know how to chat, it will hurt her self-esteem and make the relationship more stiff. ”

OK, this old man, he told me a lot. In fact, he wanted me to be such a lobbyist.

A clear, I shook his shoulder, I said: “grandfather, you’re welcome, that’s up to me to open this mouth.”. Li Chun and I are going to work together again on a new project. Tan Xing is now working as an assistant for Li Chun in Tianjian. I have to meet with her in a few days to discuss the details of the cooperation agreement. I’ll drop in and tell her about it. In this way, we don’t have to make another appointment and we don’t have to put too much psychological pressure on each other. ”

“Ah, if you were my granddaughter, I would be less angry these years. So it’s good to have a girl

It was not long ago that Li Yan and I did not interfere with each other, but now Li Jianguo has put the birth on the agenda: “Xiaoshi, you and Xiaoyan really have to consider giving birth to a younger sister to Nian en. Boys are more intimate than girls.”

Ah, brain ache!

It’s important to protect my life. I had a flash of inspiration. I quickly cut off the topic and said, “Grandpa, are your friends well treated? Can you be free tomorrow or the day after tomorrow? I have to go back to my hometown. ”

“Yes, it must be. You can go whatever you want to do

Li Jianguo echoed: “I will certainly take good care of you.”

It’s a deal.

Since I went back to my hometown to pick up Zhong Quan and leave hospital, I still had to go to see Lu Weijun, who has been running for several places in a row. I haven’t had a good rest and can’t drive so far, so I called Xiao Guo and asked him to send a guy with a driver’s license to pick up the order and help me drive for two days.I don’t know if it’s a coincidence or if it’s extra care for me. Xiao Guo said that he will be free two days after tomorrow, so he can take my order.

That’s better. Xiao Guo and I are quite familiar. It’s good to have a chat all the way.

It is estimated that Xiao Guo is also the kind of character who is embarrassed to be absent-minded. As soon as he drove onto the highway, he said to me, “Miss Chen, last time I talked about DINGHE with you, I was pulled back to DINGHE’s colleagues a while ago. Many of my familiar colleagues still remember you. I said that I am a neighbor with you now. Those colleagues joked and said that we should go back when we have time. There is also the transformation of DINGHE industrial zone. There is a wetland park in the back. You can take your children back to play when you have time. It’s very good. ”

I nodded repeatedly: “it can be. This can be arranged when my family has winter vacation. ”

Especially driving steadily, Xiao Guo said coldly: “and Miss Chen, don’t put the match between Miss Gao and me on the agenda. A while ago, Baolun needed an additional security package, so I went. Miss Gao and I added wechat to each other because of our work. ”

As soon as I smelled the signs of gossip, I immediately got excited: “and then, what happened? Do you have any enthusiasm to chat with Gao Gao in wechat?”

The smile suddenly became bitter, and Xiao Guo’s voice went down: “Miss Gao wants to have a degree and a career. She has seen everything in the world. I’m just a little security chief who doesn’t know many words. Chatting with her may not have a common topic. I’ll forget it. Don’t disturb her

Well ．．。

After weighing all kinds of thoughts, I held the sign of caution. I said, “Xiao Guo, Gao Gao has a good personality, and she is not as cold as you think. You have added her wechat. If you don’t have the courage to take the initiative to contact her, and you don’t even have the courage to be cheeky and shy, then you really don’t have the courage to interact with her It’s necessary to disturb her again. Sometimes we don’t even have a little more strength to say that we can’t do it, but in fact, it’s our own weakness that leads to our failure, or is it really not? Be bold. Don’t be afraid of losing or losing face. That’s all I have to say. I don’t know what you’re doing in private. I’m not good at directing blindly. ”

After a long time, Xiao Guo said, “thank you for your guidance. Let me think about it again. I can’t do whatever I think of in a moment. I’ll think about it first. I’ll see if I’m overstating my ability. Then I’ll see if I want to move on.”

Okok, whatever you young people do.

I’m a divorced woman. I don’t even clean up my own mess. How dare I continue to cook poison Chicken Soup for others?

So I shut up in time.

Xiao Guo must have been very upset by my pressure. He didn’t say a word any more. He drove more steadily.

When we got back to the county, it was almost 12 o’clock. I asked Xiao Guo to get some food first, so I went to the hospital alone to go through the discharge procedures for Zhong Quan.

Although Zhong Quan is still cold, I think his eyes are more strange than before. I’m just surprised that he can make people live when he lives in a hospital. However, when I saw him interact with the slightly dull nurse aunt, I finally found the way.

This is the opposite of his aunt.

No matter how they develop after that, I think at least for the moment, this new sunset love, which starts to support each other, has swept away Zhong Quan’s gloomy mood.

Learning that Zhao Xianxing and Zhao Jia were all buried in the sea of fire, Zhong Quan’s face didn’t show much ups and downs. He just asked me to buy some paper money, incense and candles for him, and he asked me to take him all the way to a cemetery on the west side of the county.

After staying there for half an hour, Zhong Quan came out and swept away all the rage. He raised his face very high.

I have a sum of money with me, but I haven’t had time to weigh me for a long time, trying not to hurt Zhong Quan’s self-esteem. After all, Zhong Quan has refused me.

Just like seeing through everything, Zhong Quan said that although he could not return to the past glory, he would not starve to death. When he asked me for money, he just tried to find out whether I was the reliable person through this test.

Although he refused to take my money, Zhong Quan asked me to invite him to the best restaurant in the county for dinner. He took the nurse with him, and even the two children he was holding alone after her husband’s death. He secretly begged me to help him see the people.

I know what he means.

After a meal, I looked at the nurse. Even if she was at a loss, she took care of Zhong Quan. Although the two teenagers she brought were timid, they were polite and restrained.

Finally, I put my hand under the table and made an OK gesture to Zhong Quan.

It was almost three o’clock after the meal. The nurse helped Zhong Quan to say goodbye to me. Her two children were still shy and polite. When I saw Zhong Quan surrounded by such simple but lively people, I couldn’t help sighing.

I wish he had only happiness for the rest of his life.After making an agreement with Zhong Quan, I kept in touch and would come to me if I needed help. I called a car for them to see them off. I turned back to the town and bought a small bundle of chrysanthemums in a small florist with simple decoration but each bunch of flowers seemed to offer a sky high price. After thinking about it, I bought two braised pig feet in the cooked food shop on the other side of the market.

I just vaguely remember that when I was in high school, Lu Weijun sent me the braised pig hoof in the dining hall. He just put a transparent plastic bag in my drawer and filled it with oil. The oil made my homework a big picture. But when I was young, I thought that as long as I studied hard, I could get rid of all the darkness. I thought that he was doing evil for me Drama, I almost cried because of this pig’s hoof.

At that time, I was young, and I was a wolf in my heart.

For Lu Weijun, just a few months after he blocked Huang Ninan’s knife for me and went to another world, I can’t remember more and more how much memory he had given me. I often think of his interweaving with me, and I can finally get a clear touch of a boy’s complicated life mixed with little impurities in this not too pure involuntarily world In emotion, there is precious sincerity.

Memories and emotions mixed together. I was also worried that Xiao Guo would avoid those places. So I asked Xiao Guo to park in an open space about 200 meters away from Lu Weijun’s cemetery. I walked slowly in the scorching sun, and I finally arrived.

What surprised me most was that there was a bunch of fresh lilies in front of Lu Weijun’s tombstone. The full moisture and the abnormal fragrance on the petals constantly reminded me that someone came to see Lu Weijun earlier than me.

And then there are traces of light wine on the scene, this person should be walking behind, my front foot came.

Who is this man?

I can’t understand it by racking my brain. I’m just happy for Lu Weijun. Besides me, he has people who miss him and cherish his memory.

Move the bunch of lilies a little bit, and I put the small chrysanthemum I prepared on the other side. I spread out the braised pig’s hand carefully, and I wiped the tombstone with my sleeve to wipe the dust.

Then I talked with Lu Weijun across the cold stone slab. I always felt that the sour gas from the affectation could make my teeth sour. Finally, I pulled out the crazy grass on the side of Lu Weijun’s grave and went back to the car in silence.

It was still early. I remembered that there were only two group photos of Chen Yihe and I at Zhu Xuezhen’s home when we were young. So I thought I would go back and pick up this photo.

After all, I really don’t know when I will come back to this place where I have no sense of belonging from beginning to end.

Anyway, there’s Xiao Guo with me, and I’m no longer the weak chicken I used to be. I’m not afraid that Zhu Xuezhen will be a demon.

What surprised me most was that Zhu Xuezhen, who barely managed to make ends meet with her meagre pension every month, was actually building a new house. What made me even more embarrassed was that I met Li Yan here.

It’s really bad.

Because Zhu Xuezhen had flattened the land at the front of her house. After laying the foundation, there was only a path that could only accommodate one person at a time. Li Yan met me face to face.

To avoid it, I blurted out: “Why are you here?”