Her Devilish Alpha - Chapter 173

That was the last thing Emilio would have ever expected Cornelia to tell him.

Did she- did she really still–

His cheeks turned beet red, and he didn’t know how to feel about this. His head was telling him this crazy woman couldn’t possibly be in love with him. How could someone who did what she did love him? She abandoned him, for luna’s sake. And now she was confessing her feelings? Now she was telling him she was still in love with him even after all this time?

Did she think of him as some sort of idiotic, naive fool?

On the other hand, he felt like screaming on a rooftop. She said she had feelings for him. That she still loved him.

His heart yearned to believe her, while his mind screamed at him not to fall for it.

He stood there, looking like a deer caught in headlights, unable to move and speak.

Cornelia chanted to herself to keep calm and not to begin panicking. She wasn’t some young girl confessing her feelings to a man she barely knew. She was confessing to her baby daddy, a man she knew loved her just as much as she did decades ago. But that was decades ago.

She was in the present, and by the look he was giving her, she doubted he returned her affections and felt the same way she did.

Scratching her nape, she said to him, “Sorry, I didn’t mean to make things awkward.”

Boy was that a lie.

Had Cornelia not wanted to make things awkward, she wouldn’t have abandoned him in the past. She could have found a way, or a loophole to still be with him despite all her obligations and duties that came with her position. But she didn’t. Instead, she fled and was left in this situation. It was her who had put herself in this situation.

Emilio had done nothing to cause this. It was all her.

“It’s all my fault,” she admitted.

Obviously, she knew that from the start. But, she had to put it out there. That she knew she was in the wrong.

What she had done wasn’t quite wrong, but keeping everyone in the dark was wrong on her part. Thankfully, she had Rosalynn who stayed by her side no matter what decisions she made and no matter what she decided to keep from her friend.

She knew Rosalynn must have questioned some of her decisions, but still remained completely loyal to her close friend. Cornelia knew Rosalynn was a true friend by what she did, and that was why she made it a point to treat her friend right.

Emilio stuttered, “I-I don’t…”

“I don’t know how to…”

He couldn’t even form a coherent sentence.

‘Decades and I’m still nervous around her when she admits her feelings for me,’ Emilio thought to himself, wondering how he could have landed himself in this situation with her.

She still looked just as she did decades ago, as beautiful and flawless as ever. Nothing changed, except for their relationship and the fact that they now had a daughter together. A daughter who was mates with the man who was responsible for trapping Emilio, although it wasn’t Xavier’s fault as much as it was Emilio’s.

Xavier was also the reason why Emilio was still alive, so that was something to remember.

Without Xavier, Emilio would have been dead ages ago. Yet, he had a change of heart and had mercy on the man. Emilio was indebted to Xavier. Without Eudora’s current alpha, he wouldn’t have been able to establish a proper relationship with his daughter, whom he loved very much.

Even Cornelia could tell how he felt towards his daughter with the looks he gave her during dinner. She had to admit, she was quite jealous of the bond Emilio and Madeline had. Madeline and her never got the chance to form that type of bond, or talk about the guys in Madeline’s life. Cornelia never got to attend Madeline’s graduation in person with a huge bouquet in hand and congratulate her… she never got to give Madeline a hug and be there for her when she really needed it. All she could do was watch. She never knew how much it felt like a curse until she saw Madeline in person. Her daughter, all grown up without her.

It didn’t occur to her how much she’d hurt seeing Madeline. All her life, she had always assumed being the supreme sorceress would be a blessing. She wouldn’t regret everything she did to get to where she was, until… Madeline came. It was like the world’s way of saying that they would never let her be completely happy.

So whilst she was satisfied with her position, she would miss her loved ones.

Why was it beginning to feel like a curse more than a blessing?

Cornelia sighed. Her old self would have blamed Madeline and Emilio for this all. She’d insist it wasn’t her fault. It was difficult, balancing her job and being the lover to a man that had killed thousands like it was nothing.

Not that she minded, of course. She couldn’t have cared any less about those that had died, managing to convince herself that if Emilio killed them, it must have been for a good enough reason, no?

It was a strange relationship.

A woman that would one day assume the highly coveted supreme sorceress position loved Eudora’s murderer of an ex-alpha.

It wasn’t that Eudora’s own alpha hadn’t killed before either. Saying Xavier hadn’t would be a huge lie. He had, of course he did. But he did it for the good of Eudora, slaughtering ferals, and those that dared disobey the pack’s sacred rules. It was only fitting he do so to remind the others not to step a toe out of line.

And yet, they still managed to make it work.

Emilio cleared his throat, telling her as nonchalantly as he could, “I think I still have feelings for you too.”