I Am In Love with Myself - Chapter 142

An Mu unscrewed the car key without saying a word and drove straight to the outskirts.

From the beginning to the end, Jian Yixi didn’t say a word, An Mu didn’t speak, she didn’t say, and didn’t ask, as if she had no regrets no matter where An Mu took her there.

An Mu drove all the way to the edge of the field. The large areas of rapeseed here belonged to her grandma’s house. When she was a child, An Mu liked to go back to her grandma’s house, because her grandma and aunts and uncles loved her very much. Tian crazy play.

This season is a good time for rapeseed flowers to flourish. Looking around, the warm sun is high in the sky, and the golden rapeseed flowers are shining on the sky. The wind shakes the flowers, as if you can still hear the laughter of childhood.

An Mu got out of the car and walked to the field alone to find a fairly clean stone and sat down, letting the wind blow her long hair, gazing at the golden eyes, without taking a deep breath, the faint fragrance will permeate her lungs. .

Jian Yixi followed her with her eyes until she sat down and then got out of the car. She stood beside her. The wind swayed through the red dress, not like a blazing flame, but like a phoenix flower swaying in the wind. It was slim and Zhuo Yan. Not bad.

An Mu finally spoke.

“That’s it, stop messing around.”

Jane Yixi froze, raised her hand to brush away the erratic hair before her face, with a smile at the corners of her lips, but her eyes were deserted.

“and then?”

“I… I really can’t love you, except for this, I can promise you everything else.”

“Anything?”

Jian Yixi laughed suddenly, and the laughter concealed the desolation under her eyes.

“Okay, then you can be my x partner. Don’t talk about love, just talk about x.”

“You know it’s impossible.”

“Didn’t you say it? You can do anything except love me.”

An Mu lowered her eyes, her temples were throbbing painfully, but she didn’t want to rub her, she was already weak enough, and she didn’t want to make herself look weaker.

“Except that I can’t give you love, and I can’t violate the bottom line of moral laws, everything else is fine.”

“So going to bed with me|is it immoral? Or is it against the law?”

“you understand me.”

“I don’t understand. Even if you are oneself, you may not be able to fully understand yourself, so what is it?”

An Mu couldn’t adapt to such an aggressive Jian Yixi. She closed her eyes, her long eyelashes trembling slightly by the wind.

“It’s immoral to sleep with you if I don’t love you.”

“Immoral…hehe…so you brought me here just to tell me that you can’t love me. Even if we go to bed, it’s immoral? Do you think I’m not uncomfortable enough? Come here to make things worse? ?”

“I don’t know! Why should I know what you mean?! Don’t say anything. You are me. You know me best. If you really understand me, you won’t suspect that I’m lying to you! I haven’t fooled you from beginning to end. , I really want to get married! Really! Do you understand?!”

Jian Yixi, who had been warm and warm, suddenly yelled like that, with tears in his angry eyes, red as if burnt, pitiful and terrifying, and full of heart-wrenching sadness.

“Jian Yixi, can you stop forcing me?”

“I force you?”

Jane Yixi held her forehead with one hand, and smiled, resisting her tears.

“Aren’t you the one who robbed me here? How come I forced you? You were the one who broke the contract without authorization, but now you are the one who broke the contract without authorization. You…can’t you stop bullying me like this? Can you tell me something? reason?”

This bleak accusation made An Mu feel very uncomfortable.

Although she didn’t think she was wrong, she softened her voice.

“Okay, I withdrew that sentence. You didn’t force me. I wanted to bring you here. As long as it doesn’t violate morality and the law, I can agree to whatever conditions you make.”

Jane Yixi turned her head and rubbed the corner of her eye, then turned back again, her expression cold.

“Since you want to talk about morality, let’s talk about it. You interrupted me to get the certificate halfway, and now you are ruining my marriage. This is what you call morality? I would rather demolish ten temples instead of ruining a marriage. This is the truth. Don’t you understand?”

“Jane Yixi! You…”

Jian Yixi interrupted with a stubborn neck: “I don’t want to debate anything. I think I have expressed it very clearly. I really want to get married. Isn’t this the happiness you think? It destroys the happiness you think, then You have to repay me with the happiness I think. If you can’t, don’t say it.”

An Mu expected that Jian Yixi would negotiate with her, otherwise why would she toss such a big stall?

An Mu closed his eyes and will lose the game, why bother to struggle? Since she rushed to stop her, didn’t she plan for the worst?

“You sit down.”

“sit down!”

Jian Yixi didn’t ask any more, and was obediently short, picked up a cement brick casually and sat next to An Mu.

An Mu didn’t look at her, nor the beautiful rapeseed field anymore, looking down at the black ground with gravel and mud under her feet.

“You win, I give up, I can promise you anything, but I also have a condition, you must end this matter without hurting your parents.”

Before the words fell, her shoulders sank, Jian Yixi tilted her head on the pillow, raised her hand and grabbed the golden rapeseed in front of her, and said something untimely.

“is it beautiful?”

An Mu’s mind is chaotic. She doesn’t know if she will make a promise without thinking clearly, and will she regret it. All she knows is that she will live a whole life again and will not be able to control her own destiny in the end, which is ridiculously ridiculous.

She was destroyed in the hands of Jane’s family in her previous life. Unexpectedly, it was her other self who hindered her in this life.

Although life is more than love, love is a very important part of life. It is regrettable to not have control.

An Mu didn’t want to return to her, she had already made such a big concession, what else did she want? Do you want her to greet you if you are not happy? Sorry, I can’t do it.

An Mu ignored Jian Yixi, and Jian Yixi did not ask any more. He said to himself: “It’s beautiful, isn’t it? But no matter how beautiful it is, I will always catch it unless I can walk through this ditch. Without this beauty, you can only look at it from a distance.”

“Are you finished? When you finish talking…”

“The month you were born is the most beautiful April day, and it is also the season when this rapeseed flower blooms.

Do you know why I got married in such a hurry? Because yesterday was your birthday.

Do you know why I didn’t celebrate your birthday even though I knew it was your birthday?

Of course not because the newlyweds are busy, but because you are Jian Yixi, not An Mu. That birthday doesn’t make much sense to you. You have forgotten it yourself, right? “

Jane Yixi reminded An Mu that it was indeed her birthday that day. Mom and Dad sent a red packet of blessings early in the morning. She was only concerned about the irritability of Jane Yixi’s mischief, and she forgot after ordering it. .

Jian Yixi was resting on her shoulder, chattering like she was dazzled by joy.

“Although it doesn’t make sense to you, it does make sense to me.

No matter you are An Mu or Jian Yixi, no matter who you are, to me, you are you, the person I love. Although I can’t be together, I at least hope that my wedding is related to you.

So, I rush to get married on your birthday, so that I can think of you openly every year on my wedding anniversary. “

An Mu listened numbly, such an affectionate confession, not only was it not moved in her ears at this moment, but it was extremely ironic.

An Mu said, “I have already promised to be with you, so you don’t want to say anything about it anymore. I don’t want to listen. The top priority now is to clean up the mess.”

An Mu got up and wanted to leave, but Jian Yixi didn’t raise her head, and clasped her arms tightly.

“Don’t move, An Mu please, don’t move, I’ll just say this once, I swear I’ll say this once in my life, can you let me finish it? I promise to solve your worries perfectly, and you just listen to me Finish talking.”

Although she didn’t believe her promise, An Mu stopped getting up.

She was really ridiculous. It was herself who was clearly being persecuted. How could she still feel unbearable when she heard Jian Yixi’s choking voice?

Jian Yixi lowered her head, An Mu’s angle could only see her long eyelashes drooping, her pink lips pressed, and the **** of her lips trembled for a moment before they opened again.

“Do you know why I didn’t take my phone today? Actually, I stuffed my phone in my bag at the wedding yesterday and didn’t move it again.

I am very afraid. I am afraid that you will come to the Civil Affairs Bureau and that you will not come. I am afraid that you will be indifferent when you come. I am also afraid that you will be indifferent to me if you do not come.

If I hold a mobile phone, I can’t help but call you. If I don’t take the mobile phone, at least I can control myself.

I love you An Mu, the one I love the most in this life is you, I will not change even when I think of death. “

It is these ridiculous “lifetime” and “the same death”. What An Mu doesn’t like listening to is these naive promises.

“Did you finish?”

An Mu’s tone was not good, and Jian Yixi was not stupid, so how could she not be able to hear it.

“You don’t want to listen, I won’t say anything, then let’s change it, you come and tell me, I promise to leave immediately after listening.”

An Mu worried about her adoptive parents, and said impatiently, “What?”

“Tell me… last life, what happened in the last life? How did you die? You said you had a car accident, was it a simple accident or something?”

——Don’t ask at first, ask now? Don’t look at what time it is now!

An Mu frowned and said, “It’s not a big deal. I’ll talk to you slowly when I turn around.”

“Just say it now, and leave as soon as you finish!”

Jian Yixi was very persistent, grabbing her arm and not letting go.

An Muqiang resisted the emotions of Shangju, instead of arguing with her, it was better to finish the matter quickly.

She briefly recounted the things in her previous life, from how she was picked up by Jian’s family, how she was bullied by Jian Yihu, how miserable, how did her adoptive parents die, how did Mao Mao die, and how did she end up? A tragic death, all important events were clicked again.

“Probably that’s it. The other details are trivial matters. There is nothing special to say. Okay, I’m done. Let’s go.”

An Mu got up, but was once again held by Jian Yixi.

Jane Yixi raised her face, her dark eyes immersed in tears, reflecting the blue sky and white clouds like the still waters of Tianshan Mountains, so beautiful that she couldn’t turn her eyes away, her slender eyelashes trembled, trembled, trembled with broken awns, and her red eyes looked like Tears will roll in the next second, but they are always in the bottom of my eyes.

Even at this time, An Mu couldn’t bear to see her like this.

——It’s me who is obviously being forced, why is he still soft-hearted?

An Mu spurned this kind of self and turned away his gaze forcibly.

“I’ve said everything that should or shouldn’t be said, what are you waiting for?”

Jian Yixi didn’t reply, she pointed at the corners of her eyebrows, An Mu frowned, and then thought that she would be able to escape for a while. It was meaningless. On the contrary, she seemed hypocritical, so she stopped hiding.

How could Jian Yixi fail to see her resistance? But she didn’t say anything, her slightly curled fingers stretched out, and she traced her outline again, and if anything seemed to slip to the corner of her lips.

An Mu was ready to be touched or even forced to kiss her, but her fingertips trembled for a long time, after all, she didn’t press down, let alone kiss her.

“You took me away from the Civil Affairs Bureau, I’m very happy.”

——You are happy, I am not happy.

“You promised to be with me, I am also very happy.”

——Of course you are happy, you are tossing so big, don’t you just want me to compromise?

——What are you doing?

“Can you promise me the last thing?”

——No, don’t get into it.

“Can you say that you love me, I know it’s fake, I just want to hear it once.”

An Mu glanced at her and stood up decisively.

“I don’t have time to have a relationship with your children, go back quickly! Quickly solve this matter! I definitely can’t make my parents uncomfortable, have you heard?”

“Just say one sentence, three words, just three words! An Mu.”

An Mu ignored her and turned to the car.

Jian Yixi also stood up, still asking: “Can’t you really say it? Can’t it just be a joke?”

Amura opened the door and sat in the driver’s seat without looking back.

The moment the door was closed, Jian Yixi murmured vaguely.

“Is it really bad? Can’t you just do it once? You are really…unfeeling and stingy…”

An Mu narrowed her beautiful eyes slightly and suppressed her anger. If she hadn’t cultivated well, she really couldn’t help but have a seizure.

——Such a mess, she hasn’t asked her to settle the account yet, she is so embarrassed to act like a baby with her?

Although the coquettish voice was pitiful and not like coquetry, An Mu couldn’t listen at all at this moment. She only felt irritable, unspeakable irritability.

drop! drop!

She honked her horn twice, urging her to hurry up.

It took a long time for Jian Yixi to slowly come over, and a light yellow rapeseed flower was handed to An Mu.

From the corner of An Mu’s eyes, she caught her muddy high-heeled shoes. This was obviously not stepped on the roadside. The roadside was not so wet, and An Mu’s shoes were all right. She obviously went around the ditch.

—— Knowing that she is eager to solve the problem, what kind of rapeseed does she have the mind to go around the ditch to pick?

An Mu Lengmei pushed away her hand holding flowers, turned the steering wheel sharply, and went straight to the city.

“Go to the Civil Affairs Bureau first.”

Jane Yixi held the flower and put it in the front of the car for a long time.

An Mu was upset, the more she looked at the flower, the more unpleasant she really wanted to throw it out.

“Why are you going to the Civil Affairs Bureau now? Wang Yanqing is not stupid. He must have left. Even if he hasn’t left, just make a phone call and ask him to leave?”

“He won’t leave, and I can’t remember his cell phone number.”

“Call mom to ask.”

“Why don’t that show up?”

An Mu frowned and said, “How are you going to solve it?”

Jian Yixi did not answer, until she got off the car at the Civil Affairs Bureau, Jian Yixi turned around and smiled at her through the window of the car.

“Thank you for sending me, don’t wait for me, I will get the certificate with Wang Yanqing and go back together.”

Get a certificate?

An Mu didn’t believe that she would really get the certificate.

She would say that, she should be vomiting.

An Mu glanced at the lonely rapeseed in front of the plantain.

Jian Yixi is not the kind of person who will vomit with her for Yizhihua.

What is that for?

For the “I love you” that I didn’t want to say before?

Driving this way, An Mu’s anger has been temporarily suppressed. She is not Jian Yixi, and she will not be confused. Now is not the time to get angry. It is important to solve this mess quickly.

“When you solve the matter perfectly, I will say those three words.”

This line is inexplicably familiar, like a scumbag quotation, but she is the one who was forced.

“I have made concessions like this, so stop being headstrong, go in and call Wang Yanqing, let’s settle the matter together.”

Knowing this would be the result, she should have stopped Jian Yixi from the beginning.

Jian Yixi looked at her intently and shook her head slowly, her soft white face was like a mask with a smile, she looked smiling, but she couldn’t feel any emotion.

“Why don’t you understand An Mu?”

“I don’t love you anymore. I’m just unwilling to hold on for so long.”

“Not reconciled?”

“Yes, I’m not reconciled when you abandoned me so cruelly back then. I’m obviously so good, but now I finally let you bow my head. I’m very satisfied. This is the end of the game.”

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