I Am In Love with Myself - Chapter 167

An Mu asked herself more than once, where would Jian Yixi go? Obviously he is Jian Yixi, why is it wrong to guess once and then to change it again?

She thought that Jian Yixi would go to England or Italy, and that the rapeseed was imported from there, but she dragged the relationship that could be dragged, checked the entry and exit records, and there was no trace of Jian Yixi.

Later she thought she would go to the Sea of ​​Love and Barcelona mentioned in the letter, but there was still no trace of her being there.

After repeated failures, she thought she couldn’t guess where she was going, or that Jian Yixi guessed that she would guess these places, so she deliberately went the other way, so that she could not find it.

She, who knows her best, will instead be restricted in her thinking, and even less likely to find her.

But Chen Han’s reminder made her wake up suddenly, Jian Yixi is her, she is Jian Yixi, no matter how Jian Yixi guards against her, they are always the same person, their thinking is the same, and the method of defense is the same. Yes, as long as you really put yourself in the position of Jian Yixi, you will definitely be able to find her.

An Mu returned to China and asked Wang Yanqing to live in the room where Jian Yixi once lived.

Jian Yixi had spent the last time here, and it was here that she decided to leave her forever.

An Mu wore a work suit left by Jian Yixi. The small suit that was originally docile was slightly larger on her body, but fortunately it was not unsightly.

She wore it to Xiling Biology to go to work, sitting in Jian Yixi’s former office, dealing with unfamiliar but similar jobs. She never signed the management right transfer contract left by Jian Yixi. These days, it is Xiaoqin Yili. For all the jobs underneath, she will be found only when she meets those who need to sign.

Xiaoqin’s salary has also been doubled from the initial double to ten times now. The year-end bonus An Mu has already decided, at least to give her the full price of the Imperial Capital.

Loyal, capable and diligent subordinates are worth more.

She was busy with what Jian Yixi used to be, living at the two o’clock line where Jian Yixi used to be. Time passed day by day, and the summer vacation was about to end. She actually saw Jian Yixi’s face in a trance in the mirror.

She is Jian Yixi, and she loves An Mu deeply.

Repeating the same sentence every day like brainwashing, finally had an effect.

An Mu gradually felt the pain that Jian Yixi couldn’t ask for, just as she couldn’t bring her dead parents back to life no matter how hard she tried in her previous life.

An Mu also gradually understood Jian Yixi’s despair, just as she could not feel the slightest happiness even if she took everything from Jian’s family in her previous life.

No one

Knowing herself better than herself, it’s just that she and her former self are on different roads, and she can’t really substitute herself.

But now, she can.

She can finally think in accordance with Jian Yixi’s thinking.

Jian Yixi loves her, so she doesn’t want to force her, and she doesn’t want to live in a desperate situation where they can’t be loved and separated for the rest of their lives, so she chooses to leave at the most suitable time.

Leaving now, Jian Yixi has enough time to slowly worsen her condition, and can die before the death node of her last life, avoiding the rules to find her again.

Before substituting Jian Yixi, An Mu had never thought about this problem-what if she and Jian Yixi were neither together before the death node and no one died?

Since this world has fixed rules and so rigorous corrections, she will certainly not let her damned traverser continue to exist.

Gu Shuofeng’s rules can’t distinguish between two identical souls, and will only pick the weaker side to obliterate them. Maybe it’s right before the death node, but after the node?

She is a sensitive and thoughtful person, and Jian Yixi is the same, although Jian Yixi never showed it.

Now that she had decided to sacrifice herself, it was impossible for Jian Yixi to let her take even the slightest risk, so she left three years in advance to make sure nothing went wrong.

Jian Yixi always thought that she was not smart enough to be better than blue. In order to escape her eyes, Jian Yixi’s only choice was to numb her nerves.

【I like rapeseed flowers, I hope I can look at them more before I die. 】

Jian Yixi has always instilled this concept with her intentionally or unintentionally, and led her to rapeseed flowers, let her be in Britain, Italy, and later extended to Europe and Central Asia.

Until now, An Mu’s search focus is still on these places.

Jian Yixi deliberately asked her many times what she planned to do in the future, and more than once mentioned that she would travel the world with her. In the letter, including her adoptive parents, she also said that she wanted to look around and didn’t want to leave any regrets. It seemed that I couldn’t accompany her around the world, so I went there by myself.

All this is like the only mp3 downloaded in Jian Yixi’s notebook-Jingru Liang’s breathing pain.

【I looked at the Tokyo Tower for the first time and watched the lights imitating the falling stars. I finally arrived, but it was even sadder. I fulfilled our dream by myself. 】

Such a sad song, such a practical lyrics, but when she hears it, she will only be sad at the phrase “missing is a pain to breathe” in the lyrics, regretting “I didn’t understand before,

There may not be a future tomorrow”, longing for “you will be fine if you come back, it will be fine if you can come back again”, completely drawn by the illusion she created, she never thought that she might not travel the world at all, nor did she go What is the origin of rapeseed.

The more you want to go, the deeper Jian Yixi will hide, and will not mention it in front of her or make her think of it.

Where would Jian Yixi want to go most? I wanted to go to the place I never mentioned before, where is it?

An Muping lay on the single bed where Jian Yixi once lay, with her slightly curly hair spreading beside her pillow, and her empty heart drifted back to the past with Jian Yixi, back to the long palace road.

[It was said that I took me to see Ginkgo in autumn. You owed me another promise, and I have to wait for you to change it. 】

Old days…

Wait for her to change…

An Mu opened his eyes, staring at the ceiling with flushed eye sockets, and curled his fingers slightly.

On the National Day of the Eleventh, tourists are like weaving, regardless of Badaling for the Forbidden City, there are people everywhere, and some can not book tickets how many days in advance.

The crowded Youchang Palace Road is like a folk market set up by Emperor Wuzong of the Ming Dynasty, and people who don’t know whether to look at the scenery or to see people.

In an inconspicuous corner of the palace road, a huge ginkgo tree stretched out its branches and leaves from the palace wall, golden fan leaves crowded the branches, the noon sun was shining, and the fan leaves were plated with golden awns, and the wind shook the trees. The fan leaves swayed and fell, scattered all over the ground with golden armor, desolate and charming.

However, this kind of scenery is really insignificant in this majestic palace, especially it is just a single ginkgo. I really want to appreciate it. Wouldn’t it be beautiful to go directly to the palace wall and admire the golden trees?

No one paid attention to this ginkgo that went out of the wall, no, and I can’t say no. A woman wearing a baseball cap and mouth mask has been standing under a tree for five minutes. She seems to be sick and coughs twice from time to time. It’s thin like a kite, which can be blown away when the wind comes.

When others saw the beautiful scenery, they couldn’t help but pick up the camera phone, but she just looked up, her tightly covered face couldn’t see the expression, she could only see her long eyelashes curled like butterfly wings coated with gleams. , Squinted by the sun, but reluctant to pull down the brim of his hat, as if he was afraid of blocking the beauty.

No one pays attention to her, just like no one pays attention to the ginkgo. No one knew when she came, and no one cared when she admired her. When she pulled down the brim of her hat and turned to leave, she quickly integrated into the flow of people, just like never The same happened.

The woman turned to Yihexuan again, in a

I stood in front of the empty window sill for a while, and soon left the Forbidden City with the flow of passengers.

When the woman went out, she got on the rental. She went all the way to a certain community in the west of the city and entered a certain apartment building. When she entered the elevator, she staggered, clutching her stomach and holding the elevator door for a few breaths before stepping forward.

When the elevator reached the 12th floor, she stopped. She got off the elevator, touched her bag for a while against the corridor wall, staggered to the door and opened the door when she found out the key.

Locked the door with the backhand, dropped the bag, she flipped over the painkiller and swallowed it.

Pressing on her stomach, she walked to the side of the sofa and leaned over, keeping her eyes open, pulling the pillow into her arms, and turning on the TV at random, no matter what was acting inside, as long as there was a sound.

In fact, painkillers have long been useless for her, she knows how to use them, but it is just a psychological comfort.

——The effect of the medicine will work quickly.

With such hope, it feels less difficult to endure.

Ding dong, ding dong.

Someone rang the doorbell.

Except for property and natural gas companies, no one has ever rang her doorbell.

Struggling to get up, she barely pressed her uncomfortable stomach, and went over to open the door.

“If you don’t know who is at the door, you dare to open the door. It seems that you are really shattered and fearless.”

An Mu’s tone was calm and weird, Jian Yixi opened her eyes slightly, her hand holding the door panel trembling, she suddenly reacted, pressing the door panel and wanted to close the door!

How could An Mu give her this opportunity?

She stepped in quickly, and with a thump, the door closed again.

Jian Yixi subconsciously wanted to pull the door and run out, but unfortunately it was too late. An Mu pulled her thin hand to hold both wrists, dragged her to the sofa without pity, and threw it on.

“What are you…well…what?!”

How could Jian Yixi, who is suffering from stomach pain, be An Mu’s opponent? She struggled desperately and still couldn’t stop An Mu.

Unknown soap operas were played on TV, and the male and female protagonists were arguing hoarsely. The creaking of the sofa and the sound of struggling seemed to be dubbing them.

“An Mu…Don’t…hiss…”

An Mu was cruel and cruel, her chest undulating violently, looking at Jian Yixi’s pale face, her long eyelashes trembling and shaking with sweat. In the end, she couldn’t be cruel, but instead she grabbed it. Jane Yixi’s hand.

Jian Yixi said in surprise: “What are you doing?”

An Mu said: “Me.”

Jian Yixi: “What?”

In the afternoon, the sun shone faintly through the windows, the curtains were not drawn, and it was very close to the building, without the use of binoculars, and you could have a panoramic view of everything in the house by just looking around.

Jian Yixi feels that she must

She was crazy. She couldn’t think about what An Mu’s “I” meant. Her nose was filled with a fragrance that was familiar to almost unfamiliar.

An Mu…The person she is touching now is not someone else, but An Mu who she has been thinking about!

This woman whose heart is about to tear her heart is in her arms, how can she control herself? !

The remaining sanity of Jian Yixi was wiped out almost instantly, leaving only the hot breath…

At the beginning of the Hua Deng, Moon climbed the treetops, Jian Yixi quietly got up, covered the thin blanket on An Mu’s body, picked up the cotton t-shirts on the ground and put them on casually, and tiptoed towards the entrance.

An Mu’s faint voice suddenly came from behind.

“You think you take the elevator faster, but I jump off the balcony faster?”

Jian Yixi froze. She deleted all of An Mu’s contact information, just because she was afraid of being threatened by her. What she was really afraid of now.

Jian Yixi pressed her stomach, which was not so painful, and this magical “curative effect” was simply ironic.

Turning around and sitting at the end of the sofa, Jian Yixi tried to reason with An Mu.

“I have made it very clear in the letter, right? I did this for my own sake. You really don’t have to take it on yourself.”

An Mu was lying on the sofa with her lotus arm pressed out of the thin blanket. The air conditioner was turned on a bit high, and a thin layer of sweat was dripping from the tip of her nose. She still did not open her eyes, as if she was asleep, only her red lips moved .

“Obviously there is a better way, why must we die?”

“How can there be a better way?”

“We are together.”

Jian Yixi smiled bitterly: “Stop deceiving yourself, can you? We won’t be happy together, there is no need to torture each other.”

“Being with me is torture?”

“you know what I mean.”

“I do not know.”

Jian Yixi sighed helplessly: “An Mu, as long as there is a little hope, I can’t give up easily, I…”

An Mu interrupted: “Selfish.”

An Mu interrupted again: “hypocritical.”

An Mu opened her eyes, facing the faint moonlight outside the window, and the dimly lit room could only outline her outline.

“You don’t love me at all, you only love yourself.”

Jian Yixi looked at An Mu, she could accept all the previous accusations, but this last sentence instantly blocked her nose, hair, eyes, and eyes.

She wanted to refute a few words for herself, but the words rolled to her lips, but she couldn’t say it anyway.

——What can I say? It’s not a debate conference, what can I get in exchange even if I win

? In exchange for An Mu’s uncomfortable?

She leaned back and leaned back weakly against the back of the sofa. She raised her arms to block her eyes. She didn’t know what expression to face An Mu or how to solve the predicament in front of her.

“What do you want me to do? Pretend not to see your embarrassment and discomfort? Pretend to be thriving and all is well? Pretend that we will love each other forever?

This change is just the beginning, An Mu…

When you graduate, your family will definitely urge you to get married. What will you do then? For me to fall out with my family? Even if you don’t fall out, your family will support you unconditionally, but how realistic is it? Can they feel good? Can you feel better again?

This is not a day or two, nor a year or two. This is a lifetime, a long decades, more than the two lifetimes you have lived together, how do you know that you will not meet that in such a long time The true love that makes your heart beat? What should you do when you are in a dilemma?

I can live happily until now, and I have already made a profit. You don’t need to take your life for a moment of loyalty. It’s really unnecessary, really.

You have been suffering in your last life, and you have tossed for me for so long after rebirth in this life, you should live for yourself again. “

“It seems that I scolded you just now

An Mu stood up, barefoot without wearing any shoes, and without even looking at Jian Yixi, turned and walked towards the balcony.

Jian Yixi moved her arm away when she heard the movement, and when she saw that the situation was not right, she quickly got up and chased after her.

“what are you doing?!”

The author has something to say: the tranquility before the storm

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