I Am Not Fit To Be The Male Leads First Love - Chapter 44

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…Who wants him to die?

Lu Zhen’s eyelashes trembled slightly, and he was shocked for a few seconds after waking up.

Then, an inexplicable bitter suffocation slowly spread in the bottom of my heart.

Familiar voice, familiar way of thinking, familiar sight and level.

This thing is clearly weird, but subconsciously knows… it is himself.

Although all the things (fafa) had changed, Lu Zhen realized that all the words and feelings of the “me” in the dream were in line with his own instinctive reaction.

In other words, at this time, if he faced those scenes in his dreams, he would probably react the same—becoming caring, uncontrollable, and…unconcealable exclusivity.

Just like him in reality.

Humble and eager.

But why—what he actually experienced is different from what he dreamed of?

Lu Zhen slowly sat up from the (bed chuang), lowered his eyes, (强qiang) forced himself to recall it again, clarifying all the details he could remember.

The dream is very long, very real, and it is as real as something that has been born.

In his perspective, from beginning to end, there is only one protagonist.

…Chu Yin.

A completely different Chu Yin.

From the day she turned around, the bright and charming young man (female nu) has a different dazzlingness, but also sensitive and stubborn (强qiang). In the dream, he… also liked Chu Yin, confessed to her, and was rejected.

Although sour, but it is also difficult to conceal the young and throbbing.

…But what happened later? (Fa) What happened?

The heartbeat was replaced by boundless loneliness, crushed to ashes. That kind of dying mood is like a desperate trial made by a dying person looking back on his life.

What is the ending of that story?

The heart began to ache again, and Lu Zhen frowned, pressing down on that spot lightly.

The door was quiet for a while before the voice came in again: “A Zhen, did you drank too much last night? Do you need someone to prepare sober soup?”

Lu Zhen regained his senses, and realized that his voice was very dumb: “…no need.”

He got out of bed, opened the door of the room, and met Lu Linyuan’s concerned face: “Uncle, what’s the matter?”

“The next person said that you didn’t eat dinner last night, and got up late today. I’ll come over and take a look.” Lu Linyuan spread his hands. “It turned out that you couldn’t wake up even though you screamed–what’s wrong?”

Lu Zhen waved his hand, suppressing all the emotions in his heart, his expression returned to plain: Shui Shui) is too dead.”

Putting aside that heavy dream, it was just…rejected by the girl he liked.

Lu Zhen didn’t want to look too unpromising. She wouldn’t like it either.

Lu Linyuan looked at his face, indeed there was no clue in his expression.

“I heard the driver say… You went to Song’s house after leaving the company last night?”

Lu Zhen raised his eyebrows without a trace, and then said quietly, “Well, Song Zhaolin’s birthday.”

Lu Linyuan smiled: “So good with the Song family boy (Guanguan)? See how you were so anxious yesterday.”

Lu Zhen also smiled faintly: “Yes. I’m afraid it’s too late.”

Although finally caught up… finally caught the knife handed by the girl like abusive.

Then he endured the whole night.

So refreshing and painful.

Lu Linyuan said nothing, smiled and urged him to wash and eat, Lu Zhen nodded.

There was no room for Lu Linyuan in the Lu Family Mansion. He came over to see Mr. Lu, and then after caring about Lu Zhen, he left to work on his own affairs. He has now taken over part of the Lu family’s properties and is very busy every day.

Lu Linyuan slowly walked out of the door, and the assistant outside the door was already standing in front of the car, pulling the door and waiting respectfully. Lu Linyuan got into the car and made a call.

The other end was picked up quickly, “What?”

“Ajang went to your place last night?” Lu Linyuan asked with a smile, “Why don’t you give him a good treat? It’s too bad for me.”

Song Yanchuan sneered over there.

Old fox, what do you pretend?

Who doesn’t know who.

Last time outside the examination room, Song Yanchuan had already squandered his pitiful sympathy. Now he has no need to conceal it at all. After all-the partner and the friend of the stupid brother, it is clear which is more important at a glance.

“You won’t give me a chance,” Song Yanchuan said calmly, “I met a little girl and left after a few words. How would I entertain? If I happened to be drinking on the second floor, I don’t know. He was here.”

Lu Linyuan raised his eyebrows, and the corners of his lips smiled deeper: “Oh? What little girl makes Ah Zhen so anxious.”

He pretended to be forced, and Song Yanchuan also practiced Tai Chi: “Where do I know? There are so many little girls in the house, I can still know one by one? Then I won’t be a beast.”

Lu Linyuan smiled: “Come on, got it — I told you last time, are you done?”

Song Yanchuan let out an “um”.

The conversation between the two ended.

Lu Linyuan hung up the phone, and his smiling face was reflected on the dark cell phone screen.

He has always been a well-maintained person, even if he is more than 30 years old, from the outside, it is not too much to say that he is Lu Zhen’s brother. At this moment, there was an indescribable joy on this elegant and handsome face.

The assistant handed over the documents to be signed, and said in passing: “Mr. Lu, you seem to be in a good mood.”

Lu Linyuan snorted and took the file.

Although Song Yanchuan played Tai Chi with him, he didn’t need to think too much, and he was completely certain.

“My dear Yuzi has someone he likes. Of course I am happy to be an uncle.”

Lu Linyuan looked relaxed, and suddenly changed his mind, not wanting to go to the company.

He said to the driver: “Turn around, go see her.”

Lu Linyuan didn’t say the name, but the close friends all knew who this “she” was.

He smiled and leaned back in his chair.

Tell her such great news quickly.

–

Lu Zhen didn’t mention it to anyone, but began to explore the content of that dream.

Repeatedly, trying to dream of the ending of that story.

But since that night, he has not had a complete dream all night. For many nights, there are only fragments of fragmented dreams, unable to piece together a complete story.

The only thing I can be sure of is that every night in my dreams, there is Chu Yin.

He was shocked in the last second, and then suffocated in the next second (strong qiang).

Pain is like a shadow, torturing nerves.

Another morning, Lu Zhen woke up panting.

Last night was chaotic, and his heart was still beating frantically when he woke up. But Lu Zhen’s face (color) was as pale as paper, without a trace of temperature.

In a small fragment of a moment, he saw Chu Yin’s tears.

The black eyes are like pebbles washed with water, with clear hatred written on them.

…Hate is against him. He really seemed to make her unhappy.

Even in his dreams, Lu Zhen felt that he could not breathe.

After waking up in a daze for a long time, he suddenly had a strong desire in his heart, and suddenly wanted to ask another person.

Have you ever looked at me with such eyes.

But when the thought started, the eldest young master who had been so prosperous and generous in his life, unexpectedly gave birth to a trace of panic.

Originally, according to his (sexual xing) style, even if he was rejected, there was no (guanguan) relationship. He likes it, so he can be shameless.

But now, Lu Zhen suddenly didn’t dare to look for her, bother her and bother her.

If it is true, what if these are true (fa fa) births?

…

Chu Yin discovered that Lu Zhen had been silent for a few days after that day.

It was the same in the previous life. After all, he was born arrogantly young master, who would suffer even if he was rejected. But then Lu Zhen still wandered around in her life until she disappeared and then appeared again.

Chu Yin has adjusted his mood.

Although I don’t know what Lu Zhen will do in this life, everything is different from before.

If the dog man Lu Zhen jumps out to make trouble again, then she will cheat him! Anyway, the system said, only she has the right to modify the Book of the World, and Chu Yin is not afraid of him.

In this life, she decides her script by herself. She wants to study hard, get a good university entrance exam, and live a long and happy life.

——Learn to learn! !

Who wouldn’t let her learn? !

Chu Yin got off the car aggressively and walked to the campus.

Unexpectedly, she would really meet someone who delayed her study.

At Song Zhaolin’s party that day, the rich second-generation Chu Yin who was sitting next to her remembered that he introduced himself, as if he was called Pei Ziyin.

However, Chu Yin was always uneasy and didn’t respond to him a few words. Didn’t he expect this buddy to come to her school? ?

The convertible sports car stopped at the school gate in a commotion, and the rich second-generation student wearing sunglasses stopped Chu Yin.

He tilted his head, slowly took off his sunglasses, (exposed) a pair of more sorrowful eyes.

“Hi, beauty,” said Pei Ziyin, “you slid so fast that day, we haven’t talked a few words yet.”

He was shocked by Chu Yin at the party, and after inquiring about Song Zhaolin, he decided to take the initiative.

It was during school hours when the students at the gate of Huiwen came and went, and Chu Yin was also a figure in the school, staring at this side with countless eyes for a while.

“Fuck, then who, why are you talking to my wife?!”

“It’s not a good thing to look at!”

“Ahhhhh, stay away from my sister!!!”

Pei Ziyin obviously also felt the over-warming gaze around him, he thought he was too conspicuous.

But Chu Yin drove him into the cold palace with a single sentence: “You talk a lot, I’m already bored.”

Pei Ziyin: “…” ⺪, so ruthless.

What kind of daughter of steel is this? ! ? !

Pei Ziyin was a little bit irritated at first, but when he looked up at her face, his heartbeat was fast and hopelessly fast.

“…Oh, it seems that I am not interesting enough, do you want to know more about me? I won’t let you down.” Pei Ziyin smiled.

But Chu Yin was even more indifferent: “No, I have no hope for you, and I will not be disappointed.”

Pei Ziyin: “…” ⺪, not moving.

Chu Yin made his attitude clear in a few sentences, then turned and left. It was a bit late today, and it was really annoying to be stopped by strange people.

When she left, Pei Ziyin lost face.

Some classmates around said loudly, “This handsome guy, give up, Chu Yin, you can’t catch it.”

Pei Ziyin was not convinced: “Why can’t we catch up?” He has excellent conditions in all aspects.

“Our school has a big handsome ratio, so it’s a hundred thousand times more handsome than you-Sister Chu didn’t react at all, and didn’t waver at all. Do you think it’s possible for you?”

Pei Ziyin was so excited that the self-esteem of men (sexual xing) became even stronger.

“What kind of handsome? I don’t believe that conditions can be better than me! You can wait.”

After speaking, he slammed the door of the sports car and walked away.

The classmates looked at him, shook their heads and sighed: “I didn’t order the beep count, do you think you have better conditions than Lu Zhen?”

After Chu Yin entered the class, Song Zhaolin immediately grabbed her and began to force her.

The joy of having a party on his birthday has passed, and Song Zhaolin has now begun a new round of melancholy.

Because his brother did not lie to him, the preferential treatment was limited to his birthday, and it was gone after that.

Song Zhaolin said with a mournful face: “My brother said that if I can’t pass the top five in the class this time, he will give me a big gift.”

Chu Yin had already taken out the textbooks he needed for class, and asked casually, “What kind of gift?”

Song Zhaolin: “Left and right (gou) punches, high and low whip legs, and a set of combination sticks.”

Chu Yin: “…”

how exciting!

Song Zhaolin: “Ahhhhh, I’m only 17 years old, I can’t be beaten, it will make me stupid!”

Chu Yin also felt worried: “Indeed, it’s really not appropriate to be stupid.”

Song Zhaolin: “…”

He said that he was inspired by Chu Yin’s sincerity and listened carefully to several classes that day.

The midterm exam is just next week, and the learning tasks of the special tutoring classes are getting heavier. After Chu Yin’s iron and blood management that day, no one in this class dared to fix any moths.

Since it was a city-wide joint exam, in order to detect the enemy’s situation, Han Chuying added some study groups in the same city to analyze the battle situation for her while studying in Chu Yin.

On this day, after finishing her papers as usual, Shui Qun suddenly said “I rely” loudly.

“This one is sick, right? So crazy?”

Chu Yin brushed the question beside her, and asked without looking up, “What?”

“It’s the big guy who won a medal in an international math competition. I didn’t expect him to be so flamboyant.” Han Chuying stared at her mobile phone. “He said that there are not many people who are good at math in the city. This year, the Hope Cup won two medals-guess what he said?!”

Chu Yin: “Say…that’s because he didn’t participate, so we won the prize?”

Han Chuying was stunned, “How do you know!”

Chu Yin smiled: “This kind of people’s thinking is not easy to guess.”

Han Chuying thought about it, but she was still very angry-her Yin Yin goddess giant (qiang)! Giant hanging! How awesome is it! ! !

“He also said that girls are inherently bad at math, and even fewer are good at math in liberal arts. There is no one in the city that can beat them.”

How many dishes are drunk like this? Also (sexual xing) don’t discriminate? Still shooting the whole city? ?

Chu Yin also felt that this person was sick.

This kind of mental retardation, which requires self-satisfaction by pulling on others, is really irritating.

She raised her eyes slightly and squeezed the pen in her hand. Only when she had an opponent could her fighting spirit be more stimulated.

Take the exam right away and compete on the same stage, everyone will see when the time comes:

…

It was full of Dangdang again. When Chu Yin finished the papers, everyone in the classroom was gone.

She stretched silently.

At this moment, a faint noise came from the back door of the classroom. She followed the sound and saw only the corner of her clothes flashing past the glass of the back door.

Chu Yin was startled suddenly.

Although she didn’t see it, she somehow knew who it was.

Lu Zhen?

He watched silently, was found, and left in a panic. This way… it’s not like him anymore.

Chu Yin didn’t know why, so he was in a daze for a while.

She thought that Lu Zhen would still be the same as in her previous life. After adjusting, she would continue to pester him. Then she could use the script to engage him with peace of mind until he gave up.

But Lu Zhen didn’t. He chose a… even a way that made her feel a little humble.

I don’t know what happened, she had a dream that night.

I dreamt about something from my previous life.

The next day, Chu Yin could not hear the alarm. When she woke up, she realized that the time was late, so she hurriedly took a piece of bread and jumped into the car.

Then he leaned back in the chair, closed his eyes, and started to replay the dream of last night in his mind.

…

In the late autumn sports meeting that year, she was designed by people who could not understand her, and she was thrown into the classroom with ice water.

Many years later, many details have been forgotten by her, but now she remembered in her dream that the 17-year-old herself actually cried.

Sitting in the corner with his wet knees, two drops of tears were hidden in the water marks on his face, and she wiped them off.

When the proud but ignorant little girl was taken back from the country to the rich, she was incompatible with everything here. She tried to live without humbleness, and all she could accept was malice and sarcasm. Even though Chu Yin didn’t care on the surface and tried her best to appear unrestrained, but she felt inferior in her heart.

That day, Chu Yin was not kept in the classroom for too long.

The afterglow covered the classroom through the window lattices little by little, and when she was shaking with the cold, the door lock opened with a “　Da”.

Then the old iron gate was kicked open, with obvious anger.

Outside the door, Lu Zhen panted slightly, his face (color) very heavy.

Chu Yin changed his posture as soon as he saw him, from a weak tucked knee to a daring cross-legged sitting posture.

“Yo,” she even laughed, “It’s amazing? Can you find it here-you really deserve it.”

Lu Zhen’s dark pupils were dripping with water, and his eyes fell on her pale face (color) and the corners of her lips.

Then he strode in, taking off his tuo while walking.

The corners of Chu Yin’s lips tightened, and he stepped back: “I don’t want your clothes–”

She is not showing weakness, so she doesn’t need anyone to protect her.

But Lu Zhen had already walked up to her, squatted down directly, and wrapped his coat tightly around her.

Probably the reason why Chu Yin was really too cold at the time. In her dream, she suddenly remembered the temperature on her body at that time.

It’s very hot.

Then Lu Zhen took her arm and resisted the restlessness: “Go.”

Chu Yin and him turned back, pulling his arm back: gan gan) what? I’m not going.”

She had wet hair and was embarrassed all over her body, she didn’t want to be seen at all.

…And I don’t want people to see her wrapped in her clothes. Otherwise, they will be irritated by Yin and Yang.

Lu Zhen lowered his head and took a breath to calm himself down, but after raising his eyes, his tone was still a bit fierce.

——”Who the **** (gan gan), take you to splash it back.”

Chu Yin was stunned.

Lu Zhen wasn’t playing around, she couldn’t afford to sit, so he stretched out his hand to beat her up and hugged her.

Only then did Chu Yin get up from the ground, unexpectedly showing a trace of confusion.

Lu Zhen’s voice lowered a little now. He lifted her wet forehead, wrapped her clothes tightly, and whispered like he was coaxing people: “Follow me?”

Chu Yin still didn’t move.

“Chu Yin,” Lu Zhen lowered his eyes to look at her, “what are you afraid of?”

“Who’s afraid? I’m not afraid.” Chu Yin probably caught a cold from the cold. Although it still doesn’t matter, he brought a little nasal sound. “But you took me to find a place. They were afraid of you.”

The 17-year-old young man (female nu) raised her eyes, even if she was embarrassed, she was as bright as a star.

Lu Zhen looked at her deeply for a long while, bowed his head and cursed an swear word, and then his tone collapsed a little: “Then what the **** do you want me to do?”

“I don’t need anyone’s protection, especially you, Lu Zhen-one day I will become enough myself (strong qiang), believe it or not?”

Someday.

Chu Yin, who was leaning on the back of the car’s back seat, suddenly opened his eyes.

At that time, she had no confidence and praised the phrase “One day” in Haikou, but it took a lifetime to realize.

… At the end of the dream, the reckless young man has become the gloomy superior.

He repeated it over and over again in her ear, like a madman: “Don’t go, don’t leave…”

His voice was hoarse, and he couldn’t tell the difference between the speaker and the listener, which one was more desperate.

——Chu Yin manually cut off the memory.

Further down, all can’t bear to look back.

Who could have imagined that the enthusiastic teenager would eventually become a murderer who ruined her freedom.

Chu Yin lowered his long eyelashes.

Everything is different in this life, and Lu Zhen is also different from his last life.

But she knows. It’s not Lu Zhen that has changed, it’s her.

And she still wants to change herself.

Even if Lu Zhen changed his way, he couldn’t shake her.

…

If the dog man didn’t come to disturb her, Chu Yin learned very well, and didn’t think about other things for a few days.

If life goes on like this, it seems pretty good.

It’s a pity that after school this day, Pei Ziyin appeared at the school gate again. Chu Yin knew that this world is still that world, and there are always strange people appearing.

Pei Ziyin also changed a lot of sports cars in a sorrowful attempt to show Chu Yin his conditions in all aspects.

Chu Yin carried his schoolbag and sighed. I really want to hit someone.

Lu Zhen followed her, and when he slowly walked out of the teaching building, he saw this scene.

Chu Yin’s white face was tight, standing in the gentle afterglow of the setting sun, shook his head at the boy in front of him.

Lu Zhen could tell at a glance that the person standing in front of her was the person in the photo that day.

At that time, he was sitting next to Chu Yin… very close very close.

Lu Zhen’s pupil (color) slowly darkened.

A kind of stand-off irritability suddenly rises, bringing out the three-point hostility of pitch-black eyes.

The pain that can’t be expected at night is also unique.

No one knew, it was the secret connection between him and her. Even the pain is his alone.

Therefore, treat him as despicable.

Even if she doesn’t like it.

Chu Yin’s dislike for him should also be unique, and should not be coveted by anyone else.

…

Chu Yin was very helpless to Pei Ziyin. He didn’t know what (stabbing ci) he was stimulated. He was more persistent than last time.

“I didn’t say you are embarrassed, but I just want to learn.”

Pei Ziyin: “Which one of my conditions are you dissatisfied with? Your classmate said that there are conditions in the school that are better than me, where are you?

He didn’t finish this sentence, and he was suddenly grabbed by the collar and pulled back.

Pei Ziyin let out a “I’m grass”, and slammed away, before turning around to curse: “You fucking–”

Lu Zhen stared at him coldly.

Pei Ziyin’s voice suddenly became dumb in his throat-Lu Zhen? !

He can yell at anyone, but Lu Zhen can’t. Their Pei family still depends on the Lu family to eat in this city.

Pei Ziyin’s voice turned awkwardly, (gangan) laughed: “This, Brother Zhen? You have something to do with me, I—”

Lu Zhen’s voice was like ice scum: “Something’s going on. Get out.”

Pei Ziyin was stupid, his back was hairy for an instant, and he didn’t know where he was offending him.

But under Lu Zhen’s gaze, he dared not say a word, jumped into the sports car and drove away.

“…” Chu Yin also wanted to leave.

After the confession refused, this was the first time that two people faced each other.

The young man looked a little dazed, as if he was not well rested, and his eye sockets deepened. Because of the towering brow bones, a shadow was cast from above.

After being stared at by Chu Yin for a second, Lu Zhen’s heart became uncontrollable again.

Broken dreams and reality are mixed together, and the nerves seem to be frustrated with a knife. Lu Zhen’s brain is hurting, but he (qiang) forced himself to laugh: “Sorry.”

Envy is ugly, but he couldn’t hold it back.

Chu Yin frowned and looked at him.

…I don’t know why, she vaguely felt that something was born on Lu Zhen’s body.

In her gaze, Lu Zhen’s heart began to curl up, and his fingertips trembled slightly.

He suddenly wanted to confirm.

“Chu Yin.” Lu Zhen whispered her name, then raised his arm and spread his palm.

Under the setting sun, the boy had two candies in his hand.

One strawberry flavor, one coconut flavor.

In reality, he has not had time to understand Chu Yin’s preferences.

But in the fragments in the dream, “he” knew that Chu Yin liked things with coconut flavor.

Lu Zhen also wanted to know madly.

…If those memories are true.

If his pain and regret are real.

Chu Yin (touching Mo) couldn’t figure out his intentions, and frowned his delicate eyebrows: “I don’t want it.”

Lu Zhen hid the crazily suppressed emotions tightly, even curled the corners of his lips: “No.”

There is no need to pretend now, the most secret thoughts have been confessed, and we all met frankly.

Chu Yin was a little angry: “Lu Zhen, are you shameless?!”

“No more,” Lu Zhen smiled badly, his voice trembling uncontrollably, “Strawberry or coconut? Pick one and go.”

Give it a **** one.

Chu Yin glared at him, then “pop” took one from his hand.

“Okay?”

Lu Zhen lowered his eyes and looked at the strawberry candy left in his palm.

A trace of red was burning under his eyes, and the sugar was slowly tightened.

“…Sure.”

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