I Just Can’t Say Goodbye - Chapter 39：Power of the Mind

He accomodated her while she was torn in depression from running away from Anthon. He fulfilled one of her wildest dream to finish a college education. He provided her with so much love and an abundant life. He gave her child his name and loved him as his own. He provided them means of abundant living through business engagement under her name. He did not deprived her son’s right to know his own father. He did not give her rules or any restrictions. He could freely communicate to Anthon if she wanted.

Above all, he highly respected her. In those six years they had been alone with each other, he did not go beyond the rules of sexual intimacies. He did not share a bed with her except for that one night they both got exhausted. He hugged and kissed her multiple times but never did go beyond the belt.

What more could she ask for? Why was she stupid and fool enough to dwell on her affection with Anthon when he existed only in her fantasies? Just how strong is the power of the mind to enslave her?

They only shared special friendship during high school but in the end, he hurt her by pretending he had someone else.

Her affection for Anthon only grew through her wild fantasies. She had created a perfect love story in her mind and dwelt with it for years. She created a perfect delusional inspiration of him through her craftmanship and wild imaginations.

She actually waved those stories out of her spying moments with him where she secretly followed him on his way back and forth to college. She secretly watched him from a distance in many of his basketball leagues. She watched him from afar when he climbed into the stage during his college graduation. She was so proud of him then!

Later on, when Anthon found a job, she watched him secretly on few of his industrial sites. She hired taxis and waited inside until Anthon arrive in his car. Her heart would jump then in seeing him dressed so well. Who would have thought that her special friend in high school was now in the pedestal of success!

Most of all, she was daily fed with many wonderful things about him through Jay. Whether those were true or not, exaggerations or not, all she knew was the fact that those things succesfully enhanced her growing affection for him. He was so real in her mind and so tangible in her heart.

She saw herself in Anthon’s arm in candle – lit dinners. She felt his hands entwined with hers as they walked in the sand. She heard their laughters. She felt his love… Everything seemed just so real…

Never did she thought that Anthon was also fed with good things about her. Most of all, the truth about her follies and her being head -over – heels in love with him!

Jay, perhaps, was gifted with mind – setting abilities. With the effect she had in both of them, she could be a most – sought motivational speaker worldwide. Or, a perfect matchmaker! Who would ever thought that both of them would get fixated in their love ideals which could only be found in each other ? That was exactly why Anthon had never came up with any serious relationship though he had dated with many women. For him, no woman was better enough than Jia. Only that, Jia’s intimidating wisdom and intelligence , as how he always remembered it, was unreachable. He swore that he must be someone presentable and he must be someone she could be proud of!

Jay had made a perfect plan. They would finally met in Blue Whale Mountain Resort! However, the plan turned out to be a disaster..

And Jia, on the other hand, had never set out her eyes on any man.

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Jia suddenly remembered that she had to hurriedly prepare Jim’s dinner. She was lost in her thoughts for so long and realized she was running out of time. She went to the kitchen and look for something she could cook faster. Then, after thinking about it for few seconds, she decided to prepare chicken in pandan leaves, chop suey for his vegetable needs and steamed – fish.

She then pulled out from the freezer her well – combined, marinated chicken which she created in a wonderful blend of garlic, peppercorns, spices, seasonings, sugar, oyster sauce and sesame oil.

She then made pockets of cut pandan leaves and pinned it with the quarter cuts of chicken breasts inside.

While frying it, she also tossed into another pan the mixture of cauliflower and broccoli florets, Baguio beans, sayote, carrots and red pepper bells after sauteeing the onions and garlic cloves in olive oil.

On a steamer nearby, she, stimultaneously placed the fish fillet cuts for her steamed fish in garlic sauce, sesame oil and bell peppers.

For the whole six years of preparing food for Jim, she had mastered the arts of cooking. And Jim would always look forward to her next menu for him.

After placing the food safely in meal boxes and preparing his cutleries, she hurried to make an iced tea for him with real leaves. Then she took a quick shower, applied a light make up and changed into a tight – fitting light – brown pants and a cream, sleeveless top.

She changed Jian into jogging pants, sweatshirt and rubber shoes. She also prepared him extra clothes and towels for changing.

After few minutes, she dropped Jian on a playroom and then headed to Catherine Fields Medical Center where Jim worked.