I Love You the Most in the World [Entertainment Circle] - Chapter 144

Lin Anlan and Cheng Yu came to see him the next day.

Seeing Cheng Yu, Jiang Xu turned his head away and said indifferently, “Go out.”

Cheng Yu didn’t want to see him either, so he said to Lin Anlan in a warm voice, “I’ll wait for you outside.”

“Um.”

Cheng Yu left, leaving only Jiang Xu and Lin Anlan in the ward.

Jiang Xu sat on the bed and looked at him for a while before saying, “I thought, I’ll never see you again.”

Lin Anlan chuckled, “I think too much, when did you miss me when you wanted to see me? Most of the time, as long as you want to see me, you will see it, right?”

“If that’s the case, have we only met three or five times in the past six months?”

“Otherwise, how many times do you want to see each other? Thirty or fifty times? It’s not necessary.”

He looked at Jiang Xu with a calm expression, “Did you do it on purpose? Do you want to die on purpose?”

“Can’t you?” Jiang Xu turned his head to look out the window, “I’m like this now, what’s the point of living.”

“How are you now?” Lin Anlan asked him, “There are agents, assistants, and fans. If you get hurt, others around you won’t be worried. Your agent doesn’t dare to let your fans know, for fear that they won’t be able to bear it. , don’t you care about that?”

“What about you? Are you worried?” Jiang Xu turned his head back.

“If I’m not worried, why am I standing here today? Am I running out of time to go?” Lin Anlan said frankly.

Jiang Xu was stunned for a moment, unbelievable, “Are you worried about me?”

“I’m not worried about you, I’m worried about your life. If it’s not you who are lying here today, but my fans, as long as I come, he will be fine, I’m willing to go, because I fear life, and I also cherish life .”

“But you don’t cherish it. You obviously have great capital, but you still want to die. Do you think you are living too happily?”

“Am I happy?” Jiang Xu seemed to have heard a joke, “I have nothing to be happy about, my parents don’t want me, my friends abandoned me, where is my happiness? If I am really happy, I will still feel that I am not happy. Is it necessary to live?!”

“I’ve never been happy, so I’m tired of this world.”

“Then go to death.” Lin Anlan said calmly, “If you really think that you are so unhappy that life has no meaning, then go to die.”

Jiang Xu couldn’t believe it, he tried hard to see the expression on Lin Anlan’s face, but only saw the calmness on his face.

“After you die, I will help you preside over the funeral. You choose your cemetery in advance, and I will help you put the ashes in. You’d better write a will for your property, otherwise according to the law, it is estimated that it will be left to your father and Your mother, Cheng Feng probably won’t want your inheritance, but your mother should be very willing, if you don’t want to give it to her, write a will in advance.”

Jiang Xu: “…”

Lin Anlan thought for a while, and then said, “Don’t worry, I will visit your tomb every Qingming Festival. Do you have anything else to explain? I will try my best. After all, death is the greatest.”

Jiang Xu: “…”

Jiang Xu stared at him blankly. After a long time, he smiled bitterly, “Xiao Lan, you are more heartless than I thought.”

“Don’t you want to die? I’ll follow your wishes, I’ll help you take care of the funeral, I’ll help you settle the inheritance, and I’ll sweep the grave for you, am I also heartless? Besides me, is there anyone else who will help you do this? ? Oh, your assistant and agent may be, but you don’t care, you don’t have them in your eyes, only yourself, and only the suffering you have suffered.”

“You are trapped in your own self-pity, you can’t come out, and you don’t want to come out. I tried hard to pull you out, but after so many years, I tried my best, I tried my best, but I couldn’t pull it out. So I gave up , I don’t want to work harder to pull you. If you want to be stuck there for the rest of your life, what’s the use of outsiders working hard? It’s better to save some effort.”

“You clearly know that as long as you are willing, as long as you are willing now, I can come out.” Jiang Xu said.

“But I don’t want to.” Lin Anlan said calmly, “I’m not a saint, I have emotions and desires, I don’t want to sacrifice myself to save others, I just want to live my own life well.”

“Even if I die, it doesn’t matter, does it?”

“No.” Lin Anlan looked at his fragile expression, her tone was always calm, “These are two different things and should not be discussed together. I don’t want you to die, and you don’t need to die. Your death and My love is independent of each other. It’s just that you want to tie them together and kidnap my feelings. From this point of view, I am the victim, so why don’t you ask yourself, even if you make me a victim, Are you okay with it?”

“You always said before that you knew it was wrong, you will never again, that you liked me and that I was your good friend, but now you put me on the grill again. I said , you don’t care about me, you don’t believe it, you say you care, but what happens? Once I don’t like you, you’re not happy, you have to try to make me also unhappy, ask me to compromise, ask me to follow you Do it with your own thoughts, that’s all, you still say you know it’s wrong, you care about me, do you think it’s credible? I don’t believe it.”

“I care about you, if I don’t care about you, how could I do this?” Jiang Xu shouted anxiously.

“You’re not.” Lin Anlan shook her head, “You only care about yourself, so when you need me, I should be by your side, it’s not about me, because you haven’t considered my mood from beginning to end. “

Lin Anlan sighed and approached him, “How long have we been apart? It’s not that I haven’t seen you at all. You have to do this to kidnap my feelings. If you follow your logic, Cheng Yu has probably committed suicide 16 times. Now, I have to bear about 16 times the guilt that I did not kill Boren but died because of me, and then I will regret it all my life in nostalgia for him.”

“You always love to compare with Cheng Yu. I never put you with him before, because I don’t want you to compare with him. I don’t think it’s good for you. I’m afraid you care too much about him and are envious. But I If you don’t put you together, but you secretly compare yourself to him, do you see the difference between you and him?”

“Cheng Yu liked me for so long, I avoided seeing him, he was frustrated and painful, but he never thought of suicide to make me feel guilty, why? Because life is very important, because he can see other people who care about him other than me, and because He doesn’t want me to feel uncomfortable because of him. He’s not much happier than you, but he lives soberly, and he treats himself and his life well.”

“You ask me why I can forgive him but not you, because he cares about me. He said that he likes me, but he really likes me. For me, he can endure even you, and he can be afraid of himself, but he still makes him lose his memory. If it were you, would you? Of course you wouldn’t, you don’t want me to communicate with him when I don’t have amnesia, let alone amnesia?”

“Like now, he obviously doesn’t want to see you, but he still comes to see you. Because he cares about me, he respects my decision and my emotions. However, you don’t care, so you can choose to commit suicide as a matter of course, or even I hope I feel guilty after you die.”

“However, why should I feel guilty? As a friend, I didn’t feel guilty about you during my lifetime. After you die, I will help you take care of the funeral. What can I feel guilty about, just because I didn’t give up my love for you? But love itself It’s just a matter of two people, what qualifications do you have as the third person to ask me to give up?”

“So even if you die, I won’t feel guilty. Maybe someone will kidnap me morally, but you don’t care about the moral kidnapping of me by others, so I don’t need to feel guilty for your leaving.”

Jiang Xu looked at him with a fragile expression and was speechless.

He has always known that Lin Anlan is rational, but he did not expect that he would be so rational.

What can he say? Even if he died, Lin Anlan wouldn’t care about him anymore.

“The Cheng family won’t allow you to be with Cheng Yu,” he said.

“That’s not your concern.”

“Of course I care, because Cheng Yu’s grandfather called me and said that he wanted me to recognize my ancestors and return to the clan, Xiaolan, do you want me to promise him?” Jiang Xu said deliberately.

“This is your business, not mine.”

“How can it be irrelevant? At this time, he asked me to go back to recognize my ancestors and return to the ancestors. What is the reason for you, don’t you know?”

“So what?” Lin Anlan asked him.

“I don’t have to go back, you break up, I don’t ask us to go back to the past, but I can’t watch you really stay with Cheng Yu!”

Lin Anlan laughed and said, “Then go back.”

“Aren’t you worried that my going back will affect his family’s happiness?”

“I’m not worried, I’m sure he can sort it out.”

“How does he solve it?” Jiang Xu stared at him, “As long as you two are together, you will have no children, but I will have children. When the time comes, who do you think the Cheng family will choose?”

Lin Anlan looked at him, and for a moment seemed to see his mother.

He felt the reincarnation of fate in a moment, felt sad and ridiculous.

“Your mother, that’s what you thought at the time.” He said, “She thinks she has a child, and Cheng Feng gives her a title and will let her enter the Cheng family. At worst, she will also give her money, and now , you also thought of the child, the two of you are indeed mother and child.”

Jiang Xu was stunned for a moment, and retorted excitedly, “No, we are different. I recognize my ancestors and return to my ancestors before I have children. I am different from her!”

“It’s the same.” Lin Anlan said softly, “It’s all the same.”

“Cheng Yu’s grandfather is willing to let you go back because Cheng Yu won’t have any biological children, but you can have them. It’s all the same with children. In the future, your children will be born, even if Cheng Yu will not have biological children, There will be adopted children, you will compare your children with his children, and you will hope that your children are better than his children. If he is not as smart and sensible as Cheng Yu’s children, you will be disappointed, unwilling, and complain about him. “

“Then he will grow up like you and become the other you are now.”

“No!” Jiang Xu shouted, “I won’t let him do this, I won’t.”

“You will, you can’t control it. Once you go to Chengjia, your heart will only be stronger. What you don’t get, you want your children to get.”

Lin Anlan looked at the person in front of her sadly, “You hate your mother, but you and her are actually very similar. When she was young, she dreamed of marrying the Cheng family and becoming the wife of the Cheng family, so she I secretly conceived you, and longed to rely on you to enter the Cheng family. And now, you also want to enter the Cheng family and become the young master of the Cheng family, so you want to recognize your ancestors and return to the clan, relying on your willingness to give to the Cheng family and Cheng Feng Leave the bloodline and become his son. The two of you are just going to the same destination by different paths.”

Jiang Xu was stunned and did not speak any further.

He can’t seem to believe that he has really become the mother he once hated.

“But you are luckier than her. The Cheng family may not allow you to fall in love freely and let you like the person you really like, but they will always arrange a good marriage for you. At that time, I hope you can love each other more. Some, love your children more, don’t let your children really grow up like you, jealous and unwilling to grow up, trapped in the resentment of others that they can’t get.”

Jiang Xu looked at him and murmured in a low voice, “No.”

Lin Anlan didn’t speak, he only felt full of powerlessness towards fate, Jiang Xu went around in circles, but became another Jiang Liying, the mother he once loved and hated the most.

This dramatic overlap of fate left him with only sorrow and pity for the people in front of him.

“I wish you happiness,” he said, “and happiness to your children.”

Jiang Xu’s eyes were confused and painful, overwhelmed, and unwilling to believe.

Lin Anlan turned around and walked out. When he opened the door, he heard Jiang Xu calling him behind him, “Xiaolan.”

He turned his head and looked at his best friend from childhood who was sitting pale on the hospital bed.

He seemed to see them playing together, studying together, standing on the highest peak of the mountain together, walking through the darkness together under the moonlight.

During the two most painful stages of his life, when his adoptive mother and father left one after another, only Jiang Xu was by his side, and only he was a good friend from childhood to adulthood.

It would be great if life could go forward without stopping, and at every stop, people who matter to you would not get off the bus and accompany you to the end of your life.

But life is destined to be a stop-and-go train. When the train stops and arrives at the station, some people get off and some people get on.

He smiled at Jiang Xu, the smile was gentle and tolerant, and he said, “Thank you for being with me since I was a child, you are very good, and I am very happy when I grew up with you, so live well, You can still have a lot of happiness, don’t put your eyes on me, I have met a new person who will walk with me, and you will also meet someone who is more suitable for you to walk with you.”

“That’s what a friend is. He will accompany you through most of the long life, but he will also meet his lover, form a new family with him, and have his own new happiness.”

“This is not a relationship that cannot coexist. If I meet you in the future, I will still say hello to you, and I will still talk to you well. I don’t blame you Jiang Xu, really, I forgive you, I don’t blame you. already.”

Jiang Xu’s tears blurred his eyes. He looked at people not far from him, who smiled warmly and brightly. They have known each other since childhood. .

They have seen each other at their most immature and saddest. They held hands and then waved goodbye to each other when they walked to the youth’s stop sign.

But he didn’t want to wave, he wanted to stay by his side, he wanted to stay by his side forever, but he didn’t need it anymore.

His tears kept streaming down, he lowered his head and hugged his knees.

Lin Anlan turned around, unable to bear to see him like this.

He heard Jiang Xu’s voice coming from behind him, muffled, depressed, with a less obvious cry, and said hoarsely, “I won’t go back, I promised you, I won’t go again. I won’t go back to see him.”

“I lied to you, I just lied to you on purpose.”

Lin Anlan looked back at him, only to see the top of his dark hair and his slightly trembling shoulders.

The sun in the late spring fell on him, enveloping his whole being in the light. After all, he was lucky and did not repeat the mistakes of his mother.

Lin Anlan replied with a smile, “That’s good.”

He turned around and walked out the door, taking one last look at his former best friend before closing the door.

Those lights slowly extended behind him, as if he had finally grown his own wings.

Lin Anlan said softly, “Goodbye.”

He closed the door and walked towards his lover.