I Reincarnated as a Villain of an RPG, But I Want to Survive - CH 79

The man who lost “love”

I returned to the imperial capital

After bringing along Zelimgaia and Kuwasally then throwing them somewhere, I move toward the highest priority target immediately

「Where is Wartaiga-san?」

「It seems like he has just returned?」

I know that

I look for Wartaiga while asking the officers and servants in the imperial castle

「Do you know where Wartaiga-san is?」

「I have not seen him today」

「Tsk, it’s no use」

I tried asking the emperor but he didn’t know either

Since it can’t be helped, I searched every place one by one, and finally found him

「So you are in this place……!?」

Wartaiga was on the roof of the imperial castle

From the top of the gigantic imperial castle, the townscape of the capital can be seen in full

Moreover, even the towering mountains far away

「Beyond this direction……」

Wartaiga begins to talk

Just when I’m wondering how to break the ice

「……was the village where I used to live. Together with my wife and son. We were living a poor yet fulfilling daily life」

「As expected, you……!?」

Your memory has come back!?

I was thinking you looked strange during the battle……!?

「When did you remember?」

「Just a while ago. Strangely, through the battle with Sero, I was able to regain various memories sealed by beast aura. Now, I clearly remember what kind of person I am. I am Raiga……」

Right

「Raiga, father of Sero and husband of Kuzuha……. Wartaiga is no more than just an alias」

「That’s correct」

I had a hunch that’s the case

Wartaiga being able to use holy beast mode is the biggest proof that he has regained his memory

To manifest Holy beast mode, both beast aura and holy wisdom aura are essential

By regaining his memory, he remembers his past self as a holy wisdom art user, the condition of owning both wisdom and beast aura has been met

Even in 『Beast Fantasy 4』, the reason his memory returned was because of the direct showdown with his son Sero

With the impetus of reuniting with Sero who he spent happy times in the past together with, he escaped the mind domination effect of beast aura

Even in this world, I had a hunch that the same thing would happen if Wartaiga and Sero had a direct showdown

Therefore I didn’t want them to meet unprepared

If Wartaiga’s memory returns by the same way as in the game, it is very likely that the subsequent event will be the same

The event where Sero killed his father, whose memory has returned, by his own hand

「Jirat, you are really a mysterious man. You were able to protect my son while I was becoming a demon……」

「To be fair, I didn’t. That child was taken care of by Tanu-sage. I just happened to become his disciple」

「Sage-dono, huh……. Certainly, speaking of anyone who can teach holy wisdom to human, there is no other one except him」

Therefore, the formal guardian of Sero after he escaped safely is the Tanu-sage……。

「……That guy, Sero was under the impression that you were dead. That’s why it’s even more shocking to him today」

「It can’t be helped. When the village our family lived in was attacked by the empire, I stayed behind until the end to hold them back alone. I disappeared afterward so it’s not strange they thought I was dead」

「But you didn’t」

「Right, I continued fighting the imperial soldiers for a whole day and thought all of the villagers had escaped safely. But after all, some people failed to escape and were caught. I was forced to surrender because of the hostages and had no choice but to obey them」

Then he was dragged to the imperial capital as a prisoner

To put his tremendous power to use for the empire, the 『Tiger』 beast piece was used to seal his heart and memory

Wartaiga, the demon with only strength remained, was born

「The power of beast piece was terrible. I, who mastered holy wisdom art, tried to resist that power but failed. As the result, I forgot my important son’s face and was about to put my hand on him……I am disqualified as a father」

「But you regained your true self. Moreover, during the fight, even though I forced myself in to forcibly stop the fight, you actually can stop you hand before that, right?」

「I can’t. Exposing something unsightly like that……」

「…………」

It really is the same

The tragic event involving the father and child is advancing steadily in this world as well

「You don’t have the face to meet your son?」

「That is a direct way of talking……but yes, that’s right. I have neglected that child for five years. And speaking of what I did during then, I was the subordinate of an invading empire. It was so unsightly that I can’t even face him……and most importantly……」

Wartaiga, no, Raiga was at lost for words for a moment

「Due to my worthlessness, that child’s mother has died. That alone was inexcusable. I failed to protect my important one. My life has lost its meaning」

「Sero’s mother lost her life to protect Sero, right? That person also used everything to protect her important one」

「Even so, I was unable to thoroughly protect my wife and son……I said it before, I failed to resist the mind domination of beast piece. Perhaps that’s not the case. Perhaps if I used all of my holy wisdom power, I could push it away」

But he didn’t do it

I, who know the past and future of this world with game knowledge, understand it somehow

He was unable to endure it

The loss of his beloved woman

For him, his wife is everything in this world

Losing her equals to losing the world itself

And yet, when the disaster struck, he failed to protect his beloved one. And just when he was about to be crushed by that feeling of loss……

Surrendering himself to the mind domination of the beast piece was a salvation

If he loses his memory through the domination power of beast aura, he can forget the sadness of losing his beloved one

That’s why a strong person like him accepted the domination of beast aura

「In the end, I am a pathetic father. If he know what’s in the bottom of my heart, Sero will lose his respect to me」

「That is……」

「Although I have regained my memory, the desire for vengeance to the empire didn’t swell up, unlike that child. How strange! The pain of losing her should be intense, but not a single feeling of revenge toward the country which snatched her has occurred」

That is……。

Because you are a splendid man

Because you are the person with the most complete personality in this world, you was unable to feel the meaning of revenge

Because your personality is too complete, it is extremely painful for you because there is no way to digest the writhing sadness

「I know……Even after returning to my former self, I certainly still have the memory of the five years as Wartaiga. I understand through those memories. The empire is not pure evil. There were atrocities, but also kindness. People were endowed with many things they should have as if it’s natural. It is just a nation like any other nations」

There is no such thing as pure evil or absolute justice without any cloudiness

The empire is truly an invading nation, but there is no doubt that there is a motive of wanting to protect the people in the country within that ambition

Not just human, all living beings hinder the right to live of other beings in order to complete their duty to survive

「Of course, there are numerous people living in this country, crying or laughing and surviving. I can’t disturb their livelihood. Even if it’s for vengeance」

「Raiga-san……」

「The empire has already united the continent and is ready for a new era. The world is stable. And I am the one who supported establishing that stability as the Twelve Apostles Wartaiga. Those who disturb the peace won’t be forgiven. Even if that’s my blood-related son……」

The terrifying resolution of the tiger rises

Even if his memory has returned and he returned to be a father, a husband……

In his body, the 『Tiger』 beast piece still remains

That merciless animal nature

「Jirat……my son hasn’t given up the revenge toward the empire?」

「Yes, what supported him until this day was the desire to destroy the empire」

「Then I have to stop my son……as someone who wished for the peace of this world. Regardless of the details, I cannot neglect those who would shake the peace the empire has established」

「You intend to fight, against your son……?」

Although his memory has returned

When I pointed that out, he let out a lonely smile

「I am still one of the Twelve Apostles belongs to the empire. If Sero, who hates the empire, killed me, he would be satisfied and gave up his revenge……something like that won’t happen, right?」

「Sero already realized your identity. For him, no matter how different you are, you would still be his father. If you die, his hatred towards the empire will increase even more」

「I see, nothing is convenient, huh?」

Then what will you do?

「Then I can only execute my duty as a Twelve Apostles. I will destroy any threat towards the empire with my own hands. Then, I will make up for the sin of killing my son with my own life……I will apologize my wife Kuzuha in the other world」

What a tragic resolution!

Even in 『Beast Fantasy 4』, that resolution has created the tragedy of him dying by the hand of his own son

That is not just because of the fierceness of 『Tiger』 inside him

There is another irresistible karma engraved and remained with him

There is another secret Wartaiga = Raiga has, besides being the father of protagonist Sero of 『Beast Fantasy 4』

From the previous work before this world

Protagonist Raiga of 『Beast Fantasy 3』

The past, which is the cornerstone of his tragic resolution