I Shall Be Happy (Attack On Titan Fan-fic) - Chapter 21

(MC’s POV)

[Time stop]

This the least I can do for you Eren…

After walking slowly toward Eren, I put my hand on his forehead.

I tried my best to replicate the message that Carla wanted to say to Eren.

But this wasn’t a good enough reason for me to help Eren. I also wanted to see how well this experiment would go. And so, Eren. You will be my first test subject of memory implantation…

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Was what I intended but it was much harder than I thought.

Reading memories, erasing memories, brainwashing, hypnotizing, any of those, are very easy for me. But… to create a short, but impactful memory is quite hard, to be honest. I need to make Eren completely believes that everything that was replicated was real.

I’m not too familiar with Carla, but now I know how she thinks of her child. After peering into Eren’s mind again, I deleted all the irrelevant memories, and only chose to retain what I deemed to be necessary.

Great. Now I have a basis for the foundation.

Utilizing the advantage of the time stopped, I spent hours, maybe a day… I don’t know.

Since this is the first time I’m doing this, I wanted to make sure everything goes well.

But I can’t create a good storyline. I mean, why should I know how to? Besides Eren, Armin, and Mikasa. I don’t even have any friends my age, nor do I ever interacted with a different ȧduŀt than their parents. I think it’s time for me to go and experience the real world. I never had the chance after all, and I’m mentally 14 years old.

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I think 3 days had passed after I have experimented with this. I can say that I have improved a lot but it still took me forever to make things look real. What a pain. Next time if I do this again, I will just wipe out their entire memory and have them do what I tell them to. But… that’s the same thing as hypnotizing, although their memories are not erased. I should experiment more, for sure.

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Why am I even trying so hard? I felt so stupid for doing so much just for Eren. I mean, I don’t even get much out of this.

So why am I trying so hard? This is not me at all. I never thought that I was a good person. I mean… I’m impatient. I’m selfish. I’m misanthropic. I’m mentally broken. I don’t care about anyone except for my own family. So why? y tho [・ヘ・?]

Then a droplet of tear fell down from one of my eyes. Ah…

I think I know why now.

It seemed like I have a soft spot for situations like these. After all, my mom was the same, she was also against me becoming stronger. Like Eren’s mom, she didn’t want her child fighting and risking their lives. In a way, they were being selfish for denying their children’s dreams, but it was just to protect them.

Strengthening my determination, I then continue to keep on working on perfecting this memory. Don’t worry Eren, I will make sure her message is clear to you. So that you will fight, not to kill… but to protect those who are dear to you.

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I gave out the longest sigh I ever made in my entire life.

I’m done. It took 10 days for me to make a really good memory for Eren. I can gladly say that this is my masterpiece.

I made 2 days worth of memory, dividing into 6 different times. The first being when he first walks. I made the scene here a bit blurry to make it realistic so that he won’t suspect a thing. The second to the fifth being special events, such as his birthday or teaching him how to read. And lastly, I changed her cause of death from being crushed by a boulder to her being dead together with Dr. Yeager.

In this memory, I made the two parents died from protecting Eren from a group of evil ghosts. Then their last word was to tell Eren to be stronger and one day, if he gets married, he will protect them.

I’m a f**king genius. Out of all these 6 memories, I would say that the last one was so good that I almost burst into tears. The scene was so sentimental. I was speechless when I watched the finished product. Boy, am I brilliant. Not gonna brag, but I think this was realistic and touching that anyone would think that I was the most goddamn smartest kid in the world. I mean, aren’t I one? HAHAHAHHA

This is like 2 birds with one stone.

Instead of wanting to revenge his parents, he would want to live a good life.

Instead of hating titans, he will now hate ghosts.

Instead of just a plain death, I managed to get Carla’s message through.

Oh, that’s 3 birds with one stone. I’m a genius. HAHAHAHAHAHA.